Maladaptive daydreaming

Hi everyone, I really want to make a thread about this symptom since I do not see this discussed anywhere else and I'm really desperate to know if anyone is struggling with this.

Definition:

Maladaptive Daydreaming is a pattern of extremely immersive, compulsive fantasy activity that interferes with daily life. Unlike ordinary daydreaming, it tends to be hard to control and can take up hours at a time, sometimes replacing real-world activities, relationships, sleep, work, or school.

Regular daydreaming is common, brief, and usually easy to stop when you need to focus. Maladaptive daydreaming is more intense and absorbing — people may pace, make facial expressions, listen to music to trigger fantasies, or feel emotionally attached to ongoing imagined stories and characters. Many describe it as feeling more like an urge or escape than casual imagination.

It is not currently an official diagnosis in major psychiatric manuals, but researchers study it as a distinct phenomenon that can overlap with conditions like anxiety, trauma, ADHD, depression, or OCD.

If you read the part in bold, you can see how it differs from normal daydreaming. I do think what I am experience is from chemical trauma because this does not feel like something a normal human should experience. I quite literally cannot stop daydreaming. For the past 5 months 24/7 I am stuck in imagining this scenario. I have had daydreaming problems before med but it was never ever this severe. Maybe I spent 15 minutes extra in the shower because I wanted to daydream more even if I'm getting late for school, but eventually I'd be able to stop.

However this time during withdrawal I literally cannot stop. I keep on thinking of this scenario and when I try to stop thinking about it I get a very mild version of inner akathisia where I get extremely restless. I mean compared to the hellish symptoms I had in early withdrawal (I am at 15 months now), this symptom seems mild, but you understand that after 5 months of 24/7 dreaming it is getting extremely difficult. While this condition occurs normally in humans, I feel like what I am feeling is severely aggravated by withdrawal.

I feel scared though because I searched up this symptom on survivingantidepressants.org and I couldn't find anything. Is it really just me suffering like this? I can't focus on work, I can't relax or enjoy properly, I can't play with children because my brain just want to daydream. My brain pulls me out of social situations or enjoyable activities and makes me lock myself in a room and just daydream. The daydream I have isn't bad, it's just getting so terrifying how I literally cannot stop. I feel like this is connected to the anhedonia I've been experiencing, because in fleeting moments where my maladaptive daydreaming lifts I feel less anhedonic.

Is there anyone else who is experiencing this?