So as I sit here trying to be strong, when all I really feel is a little beat up at the moment. The tears just keep flowing. Last evening I was experiencing this dull/sharp pain in my left chest just above the breast bone, it would come and go until it was constant and then remained myself, "just breathe through it " then a few heart palpitations, then the back tensed up a bit nauseous then that would subside, but stil left with the dull/sharp in left chest, I sat there and questioned "do I go in and get checked out or struggle through " trying not to let my mind ruminate but also trying to not dismiss it if it could be heart related " yes there are moments when I feel beaten and remind myself keep going the pain won't last forever. Even at 2 years out there will be times like today where I sit and cry 😢😢 Asking "God can you hear me! Crying through this pain " So the tears keep flowing like I don't know where the shut off valve is, And whisper " some day Bernie, some day, " I've said that montra in my head a thousand times,. So if any moderators or other mentors are available I would greatly appreciate a little encouragement thrown my way. @Chippy @Luke @mstimc60 @SarahMc @Lighty @RachelSusan @Raymond @Jack @Fullhealing @namastejen1 @Sminismoni @j1290 @cherrysquid Just need some strength cause I'm also nervous/scared for my 84 year old Mother who has had to have a stint put in her leg to help with blood flow and breathing isn't good, and blood pressure dropping every time they try to take her of oxygen, there is a leak there trying to stop and now they say a aneurism forming,, I sit here screaming in my head, please God help my Mother, cause I can't lose another parent, I feel like I'm drowning in fear and need some much needed strength 😭😭😭God can you hear me? Show me the way!!🙏
