20 hours ago, cheeky said:

@zach1201 sorry it's do difficult having a bad day . I have mo motivation aswell and the process can be so draining .. 

it's unfair but we have to keep going . Hopefully you'll get a nice long window . 

@cheeky

Yes, this process can be so draining. 
 

How are you doing?

1 minute ago, zach1201 said:

@cheeky

Yes, this process can be so draining. 
 

How are you doing?

I never know how i'm going to be. Every day is different. Some days are better than other and there isn't any pattern that's why it's so confusing. 

Today is a little better today. Less mental sluggishness. Anxiety was less too until after I woke up from a nap. Now I’m a bit wired. Still hard to gather any motivation. 

Just now, cheeky said:

I never know how i'm going to be. Every day is different. Some days are better than other and there isn't any pattern that's why it's so confusing. 

@cheeky

 

That’s rough when there isn’t any predictability. Hopefully things will smooth out over the upcoming time period. 

Just now, zach1201 said:

Today is a little better today. Less mental sluggishness. Anxiety was less too until after I woke up from a nap. Now I’m a bit wired. Still hard to gather any motivation. 

I get that it's like a lingering anxiety that makes you constantly feel on edge 

Just now, zach1201 said:

@cheeky

 

That’s rough when there isn’t any predictability. Hopefully things will smooth out over the upcoming time period. 

Eventually, I think I will. I just gotta get over this hurdle from having my medication screw up four months ago.

17 minutes ago, cheeky said:

I get that it's like a lingering anxiety that makes you constantly feel on edge 

@cheeky

That is exactly it. Come out of the blue for no reason. When I am able to do something engaging it tends to go away. 

17 minutes ago, cheeky said:

Eventually, I think I will. I just gotta get over this hurdle from having my medication screw up four months ago.

@cheeky

Ugh. I’m sorry that happened and you’re still dealing with the fallout. 

Edited February 22Feb 22 by zach1201

A little better yesterday and today. Still heavy brain fog. Having fatigue as well. These are kind of baseline for me at this point. 
 

Have an appointment with Outro today. It’s my first appointment to discuss medication management. 

1 minute ago, zach1201 said:

 

Have an appointment with Outro today. It’s my first appointment to discuss medication management. 

Tell us how it goes. ❤️🙏

3 hours ago, zach1201 said:

A little better yesterday and today. Still heavy brain fog. Having fatigue as well. These are kind of baseline for me at this point. 
 

Have an appointment with Outro today. It’s my first appointment to discuss medication management. 

Sounds great @zach1201 let us know how it does. 🤗

Hello @zach1201, just wanted to drop by and say hi 🙂

I have also been switching from Sertralin to escilatopram and I’m now taping the latter. I have read in your thread and I am very sorry for what you had to go through. Crazy, how could they throw so many meds at you?   I hope that you will find decent help with outro. Here in the forum you will find a lot of lovely peer-support, both will add well to your healing, I’m sure.

 

I see that you have two little boys. Wow, this is an extra challenge while tapering. I remember the time when my boys were little, I was always exhausted. But also, looking back, it was such a special time because one is so close with the children, there’s so much love and care in the house.
I wish you very much that you will find strength to cope with this super important task of being a father during this difficult health challenge.

take good care!

Nemina 

The appointment went okay. The doctor thought a small increase to 1.2mg might help a bit with the withdrawal symptoms and re-assess in a month. However, time is really what is going to help healing. She thought somewhere in the time frame of at least 6 months of no major changes in terms of weaning. 

18 minutes ago, zach1201 said:

time frame of at least 6 months of no major changes in terms of weaning. 

Did you think the appointment helped you feel more confident moving forward? 

9 minutes ago, LostinCanada said:

Did you think the appointment helped you feel more confident moving forward? 

What a good question. 
 

I don’t think I’m more confident, at this moment. 
 

I’m scared to do a small increase but also hopeful it might help alleviate some of the withdrawal symptoms.
 

It’s helpful to know that an appropriate timeline for further healing is months at least. And that I shouldn’t think about weaning until more stable. 
 

It’s essentially the same things you guys are saying. 😂 

42 minutes ago, Nemina said:

Hello @zach1201, just wanted to drop by and say hi 🙂

I have also been switching from Sertralin to escilatopram and I’m now taping the latter. I have read in your thread and I am very sorry for what you had to go through. Crazy, how could they throw so many meds at you?   I hope that you will find decent help with outro. Here in the forum you will find a lot of lovely peer-support, both will add well to your healing, I’m sure.

 

I see that you have two little boys. Wow, this is an extra challenge while tapering. I remember the time when my boys were little, I was always exhausted. But also, looking back, it was such a special time because one is so close with the children, there’s so much love and care in the house.
I wish you very much that you will find strength to cope with this super important task of being a father during this difficult health challenge.

take good care!

Nemina 

@Nemina

 

Thanks for taking the time to read my thread. Yes, it is quite sad that I am on so many medications. Hindsight is 20/20. I will eventually get off of them. I just need to get more stable before attempting. 
 

I suppose having the kids helps in that I can’t wallow around. It surely is exhausting though. 

@zach1201  I have two boys aswell . Sometimes it's a good distraction and they sure keep you busy.. 

Today was a little better. I increased to 1.2mg of escitalopram as recommended by the Outro doctor. Didn’t experience side effects per day. The mental fog was a little better as was the fatigue during the morning and I went to baseline crummy by evening. It’s about what I expected. We will see how the next month goes at this dose. 

I hope it goes well for you . Better days ahead 🙏

Past 2 days haven’t been the most pleasant. Still a lot of the same with mental cloudiness and fatigue and other random symptoms. Also having a little bit of activation. I’m supposing it to be from the increased dose of escitalopram to 1.2mg. I know it’s too early to say whether it’s helped or not. But at this point I don’t think it’s done all that much except for the first day that it helped a little bit with the fatigue and mental clouding. 
 

Anyways, it will take time to heal with holding. 

6 minutes ago, zach1201 said:

Past 2 days haven’t been the most pleasant. Still a lot of the same with mental cloudiness and fatigue and other random symptoms. Also having a little bit of activation. I’m supposing it to be from the increased dose of escitalopram to 1.2mg. I know it’s too early to say whether it’s helped or not. But at this point I don’t think it’s done all that much except for the first day that it helped a little bit with the fatigue and mental clouding. 
 

Anyways, it will take time to heal with holding. 

@zach1201 I felt really activated when I updosed by 0.006mg at the beginning of April last year. It took me close to 3 months to achieve “stability“ and it was weeks after that when I resumed tapering. That time was full of terrible WD symptoms with a lot of intensity.

I really hope it helps you @zach1201

Been a rough go of it as of late. Really foggy in my brain and fatigued a lot. Taking naps when I can get them. A bit more anxiety. Symptoms worse in the morning and a little better as day goes on. This sucks. I just want to feel better. 

4 hours ago, zach1201 said:

Been a rough go of it as of late. Really foggy in my brain and fatigued a lot. Taking naps when I can get them. A bit more anxiety. Symptoms worse in the morning and a little better as day goes on. This sucks. I just want to feel better. 

Sorry to hear @zach1201. Just noticed you’ve been slowly reinstating. Are things improving a little? You’ll reach stability at some stage. I’m at 1.014mg Escitalopram and I’ve noticed how much more difficult it is at these very low doses. My body and brain are throwing up the weirdest, scariest symptoms with each tiny decrease. If it’s any consolation I’m struggling too especially with fatigue, sleeping, and brain fog with intermittent adrenaline surges. I just tell myself it’s my brain’s way of telling me it’s re-adapting. You’re right - it does suck 🤗

@Catbird

 

Today makes a week of an increase of .1mg of escitalopram. I haven’t noticed any significant difference. A bit more activated is about it. The activation is getting a little better (meaning less of it) as the week has gone on.