19 minutes ago, LostinCanada said:

Some react negatively to estrogen and/or progesterone. Everything has risk.

Some put clear tape over the markings or use clear nail polish so they last much longer.

I think measuring your liquid (water) using the syringe instead of the beaker would be the most accurate.

I do feel like I have a sensitivity to progesterone because during luteal is when I am at my worst. I’m still probably going to see an ob-gyn about my irregular periods regardless of if I take birth control or not. I’d be curious to have a hormone work up to see what’s going on but they’ll probably just say it’s stress. I do need to get a letter from one and my psychiatrist stating that I have PMDD so I can get ADA accommodations if I decide to proceed with work.

5 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

It sounds like you are definitely trying everything to support yourself @Cowgirlblues unfortunately when it comes to hormones and wd, it is often far beyond our control.

I am sure you will be able to get off of it, only slowly, which also suits your external circumstances. If you are in a stressful period, it is worth putting the process on hold until things calm down.

Regarding hormonal therapy, it is a risk like anything new that enters the system let alone in your current situation. I personally have never tried both because of the wd now and for being a heavy smoker for years.

As for the liquid, from what I know, home made is even better because you know very well what the compound is, unlike external places that prepare it, but beyond that I really don't know much..

I hope that what you decide will suit you, in the end, you can only try and see.

On the supplements end and lifestyle changes, I feel like I’m almost trying everything but there are some people in my life that stress me out and make withdrawals worse but I can’t really avoid them like my dad or a friend of mine who I occasionally have conflict with. I also more than likely have ptsd from losing my mom to suicide and I can’t always avoid triggers related to that. I’ve been practicing more DBT skills lately like HALT to manage mood swings and STOP when someone or something triggers me. I also do the facial ice plunges when triggered sometimes or sour candy or intense exercise but then they say intense exercise makes periods later so I feel like I can’t win on that aspect lol. I do feel like certain people like my dad I have to isolate from when my PMDD is at is worst because he can take my irritability from a 10 to a 100 pretty quickly. I’m trying my best and I guess that’s all that matters.

20 minutes ago, Cowgirlblues said:

On the supplements end and lifestyle changes, I feel like I’m almost trying everything but there are some people in my life that stress me out and make withdrawals worse but I can’t really avoid them like my dad or a friend of mine who I occasionally have conflict with. I also more than likely have ptsd from losing my mom to suicide and I can’t always avoid triggers related to that. I’ve been practicing more DBT skills lately like HALT to manage mood swings and STOP when someone or something triggers me. I also do the facial ice plunges when triggered sometimes or sour candy or intense exercise but then they say intense exercise makes periods later so I feel like I can’t win on that aspect lol. I do feel like certain people like my dad I have to isolate from when my PMDD is at is worst because he can take my irritability from a 10 to a 100 pretty quickly. I’m trying my best and I guess that’s all that matters.

Gosh, I'm so sorry to hear about your mom, such a hard thing do deal with 💔 and you absolutely right, we can only do our best trying! @Cowgirlblues

wishing you much peace and relief xxx

Edited May 20May 20 by Fullhealing

14 hours ago, Cowgirlblues said:

I don’t feel mentally well enough to start the job and feel like I’m currently in a PMDD induced crisis.

14 hours ago, Cowgirlblues said:

I need guidance from this website in whether I should try this job out or I shouldn’t go forward with it.

Hey @Cowgirlblues we can't really say what you should do with work, only you know your circumstances, but In would say that stress is best to be kept to the bare minimum when in this.

14 hours ago, Cowgirlblues said:

I wish Outro Health was available in my state so I didn’t have to do this alone because it feels so daunting.

You are not alone, we are here with you.

14 hours ago, Cowgirlblues said:

I’m just hoping it doesn’t create dosing errors to switch to a new syringe this far along. If anything, maybe it will make it more accurate so that I can taper better since Cardinal Health is a reputable medical manufacturer compared to my Amazon syringes lol. It’s gonna be $112 total per year if I reuse the syringe every 3 days. I may even use them longer than that if they maintain quality. I may switch to BH Supplies 20ml syringe if I decide the cost of the syringes is just too much but I figured I can try these out and see if they are worth the extra cost (if they last longer and don’t draw up bubbles like my current one).

I agree with @LostinCanada if you use the same syringe or at least brand to draw the liquid as your dose, you will get the same dose each time even if you change brands. Measuring the water with a beaker means that when you change syringe types the dose may alter a little. So it would be best to start to measure the water with the syringes. You can test the difference between measuring techniques by measuring your water with a syringe into the beaker and seeing if the amount is about the same as what you would measure with the beaker in the first place.

9 hours ago, Chippy said:

Hey @Cowgirlblues we can't really say what you should do with work, only you know your circumstances, but In would say that stress is best to be kept to the bare minimum when in this.

You are not alone, we are here with you.

I agree with @LostinCanada if you use the same syringe or at least brand to draw the liquid as your dose, you will get the same dose each time even if you change brands. Measuring the water with a beaker means that when you change syringe types the dose may alter a little. So it would be best to start to measure the water with the syringes. You can test the difference between measuring techniques by measuring your water with a syringe into the beaker and seeing if the amount is about the same as what you would measure with the beaker in the first place.

I’m going to try the job and see how it goes. If it’s beyond my capacity, I’m going to consider work from home. I am at the age though where I need to have some kind of job in case something happens to my dad. I’m currently on his health insurance but when I turn 26, to be eligible for Medicaid, I will have to at least work a part time job. New requirements here in the US for Medicaid. I would have to work or volunteer 80 hours a month. I’m 23, almost 24 so I still have about two years left of health insurance through my dad. It’s a three day a week thing with some weekends occasionally. The best I can do is try. I think for now too, I may pause tapering or go way more gradual with the Seroquel at 2% cuts every month if I decide to continue tapering. Most of the time, it should be a low stress, quiet job at the library unless it’s a day where I’m assigned a special task. I do miss having a job sometimes.

1 minute ago, Cowgirlblues said:

I’m going to try the job and see how it goes. If it’s beyond my capacity, I’m going to consider work from home. I am at the age though where I need to have some kind of job in case something happens to my dad. I’m currently on his health insurance but when I turn 26, to be eligible for Medicaid, I will have to at least work a part time job. New requirements here in the US for Medicaid. I would have to work or volunteer 80 hours a month. I’m 23, almost 24 so I still have about two years left of health insurance through my dad. It’s a three day a week thing with some weekends occasionally. The best I can do is try. I think for now too, I may pause tapering or go way more gradual with the Seroquel at 2% cuts every month if I decide to continue tapering. Most of the time, it should be a low stress, quiet job at the library unless it’s a day where I’m assigned a special task. I do miss having a job sometimes.

Sounds like a good approach. Distraction and routine can be helpful. Never a bad idea to pause or slow the taper. Listen to your body and go at the pace it tells you.

36 minutes ago, Cowgirlblues said:

I’m going to try the job and see how it goes. If it’s beyond my capacity, I’m going to consider work from home. I am at the age though where I need to have some kind of job in case something happens to my dad. I’m currently on his health insurance but when I turn 26, to be eligible for Medicaid, I will have to at least work a part time job. New requirements here in the US for Medicaid. I would have to work or volunteer 80 hours a month. I’m 23, almost 24 so I still have about two years left of health insurance through my dad. It’s a three day a week thing with some weekends occasionally. The best I can do is try. I think for now too, I may pause tapering or go way more gradual with the Seroquel at 2% cuts every month if I decide to continue tapering. Most of the time, it should be a low stress, quiet job at the library unless it’s a day where I’m assigned a special task. I do miss having a job sometimes.

Good for you for trying, it's all you can do, hopefully it goes well, much luck!!

Edited May 21May 21 by Fullhealing

@Cowgirlblues I hope the job goes well.

Just now, Chippy said:

Good luck with it!

If you find it too much don’t worry about what others think. You have to do what’s best for you. If it’s too much than that’s ok. Your nervous system deserves some peace to heal, if the jobs too much having tried it, please don’t feel guilt over that. Be proud you gave it go!

We’re with you all the way.

Thank you! I appreciate you guys here. My hormones are all out of whack from stress and lack of sleep lately and I’m still awaiting my period 12 days late which is complicating all my feelings. I just feel like I’m in a super dark place. My only light today is that I got new syringes so maybe that will help me dose my seroquel more accurately to where I won’t have sleep interruptions. Last night was hard. I got taser like body shocks and had to updose to sleep. I think it’s more an issue with the syringes I had before because they would leave the huge water bubbles at the top like I was missing a lot of my dose. I guess all I can do is try and even my friend that helped get me the job by giving me a reference said it’s ok if you end up rage quitting and can’t do it. I woke up crying and have cried more as the day goes on. Just been crying a lot this week. I had a really good day I think Tuesday where I went swimming with a friend and socialized but then started going downhill again. I have really bad anxiety and the not knowing what the job will be like leaves me in fear. My period is so late that I feel like I’ll never get it but when I do I’ll get relief from this wave but that’s starting to feel like a far off thing. The more I stress, the more I delay it. Lack of sleep is for sure clouding my thinking today. I wanted this job when I was in a good window and good hormonal phase and that’s my true feelings.

8 minutes ago, Cowgirlblues said:

Thank you! I appreciate you guys here

Pleasure. I put this comment back here so the work thread stays on topic.

10 minutes ago, Cowgirlblues said:

My hormones are all out of whack from stress and lack of sleep lately and I’m still awaiting my period 12 days late which is complicating all my feelings. I just feel like I’m in a super dark place.

That’s a lot to deal with and anyone would feel out of sorts in your position.

11 minutes ago, Cowgirlblues said:

My only light today is that I got new syringes so maybe that will help me dose my seroquel more accurately to where I won’t have sleep interruptions.

I hope it helps.

12 minutes ago, Cowgirlblues said:

Last night was hard. I got taser like body shocks and had to updose to sleep. I think it’s more an issue with the syringes I had before because they would leave the huge water bubbles at the top like I was missing a lot of my dose.

Yeah, careful here. Accurate dosing is important. I hope the new syringes mean you are more confident of your dose.

13 minutes ago, Cowgirlblues said:

I guess all I can do is try and even my friend that helped get me the job by giving me a reference said it’s ok if you end up rage quitting and can’t do it.

Exactly! People who care for you understand.

15 minutes ago, Cowgirlblues said:

Just been crying a lot this week. I had a really good day I think Tuesday where I went swimming with a friend and socialized but then started going downhill again. I have really bad anxiety and the not knowing what the job will be like leaves me in fear. My period is so late that I feel like I’ll never get it but when I do I’ll get relief from this wave but that’s starting to feel like a far off thing. The more I stress, the more I delay it. Lack of sleep is for sure clouding my thinking today. I wanted this job when I was in a good window and good hormonal phase and that’s my true feelings.

I can see it’s all a bit of a rollacoaster for you atm. One day at a time.

It will all come together with some time. Time will tell if the jobs a good fit, time will bring on your period for you, time will settle your dosing issues, time will help settle your system in general.

6 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Pleasure. I put this comment back here so the work thread stays on topic.

That’s a lot to deal with and anyone would feel out of sorts in your position.

I hope it helps.

Yeah, careful here. Accurate dosing is important. I hope the new syringes mean you are more confident of your dose.

Exactly! People who care for you understand.

I can see it’s all a bit of a rollacoaster for you atm. One day at a time.

It will all come together with some time. Time will tell if the jobs a good fit, time will bring on your period for you, time will settle your dosing issues, time will help settle your system in general.

I tried out my new syringes with just water to see how they work and the plunger is so much better. Only leaves small small bubbles which is normal. I’m excited to try it tonight. I hope it doesn’t go wrong. I could use a little hope. Yeah, I’ve had a lot on my plate. I just feel frazzled and worn to the bone. I could use a nice deep sleep tonight and a period today or tomorrow or heck even Sunday or Monday just not the day I start my job pleaseeee universe lol.

2 minutes ago, Cowgirlblues said:

I tried out my new syringes with just water to see how they work and the plunger is so much better.

Good to hear!

3 minutes ago, Cowgirlblues said:

I’m excited to try it tonight. I hope it doesn’t go wrong. I could use a little hope.

I’m sure it will be fine.

3 minutes ago, Cowgirlblues said:

Yeah, I’ve had a lot on my plate. I just feel frazzled and worn to the bone

I can feel it in your posts. I hope things ease off soon. I think they will.

4 minutes ago, Cowgirlblues said:

I could use a nice deep sleep tonight

I hope you get it. I’m sure you will now you have your new fancy syringes.

4 minutes ago, Cowgirlblues said:

period today or tomorrow or heck even Sunday or Monday just not the day I start my job pleaseeee universe lol.

I’ve got it crossed before you start your job!