March 22Mar 22 11 hours ago, Redding said: Hi everyone I can use some advice. I find myself obsessing over reinstating at a micro dose. I know someone that had a bad reinstatement reaction at a high dose but the micro is helping. I remember when I reinstated certain things lit up. However I also had akathesia, burning, and visuals. It was a nightmare. But a very high dose lm thinking a tiny one could help as I’m a complete anhedonic shell of myself but also scared of making it worse and restarting the clock all over at a year mark. I tried to speak to people at Dr Josef’s clinic but they won’t even speak to you if your this far out. Not even to explain Hey RI this far out is risky. It’s hard to say that would help any imo. It’s always best to RI a small amount first. How much varies based on how far out you are. If what you are experiencing is true wd a little RI can help however it’s likely most of this is more of an injury which time will heal. If I were you I wouldn’t RI. I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
April 27Apr 27 Hey @Redding ,How are you doing? It’s Citeforsoreyes from SA. How are you feeling these days? All the best, G x 2011 - Metoclopramide for pregnancy sickness2016 - 2017 - Citalopram - doctors “taper” I.e. CT - no effects 2016 - 2025 -various meds, antihistamines 2016-19, PPI 2021-2022, Xonvea for pregnancy sickness 2023-2024, 2016-2023 daily Imodium. 2025 -March 2025 - adverse reaction to iron infusion.April 2025 - daily fexofenadine (Allegra). July 2025 - Citalopram- 10mg 3 tablets taken at night, on the 3rd morning I took Quercetin 500mg supplement and had a terrible reaction possibly “moderate” Serotonin Syndrome. CT from Citalopram. 2025 - July - October acute “withdrawal” or CNS damage from citalopram mirroring CT withdrawal November - December - improving lots, Windows and waves ☀️ Needing advice on future pregnancies/medication/food sensitivity in my thread!
June 25Jun 25 Author Could use some encouragement. I truly believe everyone in this group will heal. I see success story posts and I read so many about people that Taper slowly and heal. I had tapered slowly and I do believe I was on my way to healing, although it was rough… Maybe I hadn’t tapered slow enough, but then I tried to reinstate over a year out. I didn’t know about withdrawal or anything so the dose was too high I thought I could just go back on. I had an extreme reinstatement injury… My brain was burning. I was seeing weird visuals, and I had derealization. Insane akathesia I had no idea what was happening so then I switched and tried to do another drug all in all I tortured my brain for 11 days. I then felt it most acutely the First 3 months before moving into this state and no shifts since. I have seen “reinstatement injury healing posts “ but those are usually minor flared up reactions etc. I have not been able to find one similar story of this sort of injury that has gotten better. I’m about 15 months out and my symptoms are so hellish I cannot even begin to explain. I don’t have internal thoughts and the ones that I do are swimming in a sea of intense fog. I don’t have motivation. I’m not embodied. I have no motivation, hope, or joy I don’t feel cozy or connected. I also have visual snow syndrome, which is completely debilitating and makes my work feel impossible. I feel like I’ve literally been burnt like a burnt battery. I search high and low for one success story of someone that felt similar or had similar symptoms. I also lost all of my sexuality. My brain feels like it was fried like a pancake. I wake up in a fuzzy sweaty terror panic. I have extreme body pain. My hips and hands feel like they are made of burnt chopsticks but mostly I have no ability to enjoy life or anything Edited June 25Jun 25 by Redding 2003-2023 on SSRIs (different ones over the years) did a slow taper Aug 2023-completely off. No real symptoms, besides increased anxiety and some emotional volatility, but also was in an abusive relationship June 2024-did psilocybin therapy to help me leave relationship. Afterwards could not eat and was in panic every day. April 2025-try to reinstate SSRI (6days Prozac 10mg then 5 days Zoloft at varying mg)=11 days severe adverse reaction total akathesia, DP/DR, brain burning April 8, 2025 last 2.5 mg Zoloft nothing since Current/Symptoms post adverse reaction: severe anhedonia, burning in hips and hand, VSS, floaters, feel empty, don’t feel embodied, flat fuzzy. B4 this even during bad times I felt energetic and joyful for the most part. Felt a lot and now I feel nothing.
June 26Jun 26 Hi @Redding, I've merged the new intro thread you made with your existing one.I'm in touch with someone (off the forum), who had visual snow for quite some time (a year or two) and then recovered from it.Pretty much all of the other symptoms sound very similar to the experiences of many others going through withdrawal. It's absolutely brutal, and unfortunately it does often take more than 15 months to begin to see meaningful recovery, however the positive side of this is that none of this is "abnormal" for withdrawal. There is no reason why you also will not likely go on to improve and then recover.You felt as though you were slowly improving and recovering in the past, your body has demonstrated clear precedent for being able to do this. Hopefully soon it will slowly begin to do it again. Nothing I say is medical advice, it is simply my opinion. I am an anonymous person on an internet forum with no relevant qualifications other than being badly harmed by a drug. For all you know, I could be an idiot. You are making your own decisions and part of that is deciding how much to listen to my opinion, if at all. Perhaps you should consider this post an artistic work of fiction written for entertainment purposes. Story from SA: LukeUK: Remeron/Mirtazapine Severe Withdrawal - Introductions and updates - Surviving Antidepressants 15mg Remeron/Mirtazapine November starting 2022 (severe physical side effects) Attempted to taper off January 2023, ended up having a major breakdown and going up to 30mg, took weeks to stabilise 1 month taper to 0mg Last dose April 2023 Severe withdrawal syndrome with many physical symptoms Summary: 5 months using Mirtazapine, including 1 month taper ending late April 2023.
June 26Jun 26 15 hours ago, Redding said:Could use some encouragement. I truly believe everyone in this group will heal. I see success story posts and I read so many about people that Taper slowly and heal. I had tapered slowly and I do believe I was on my way to healing, although it was rough… Maybe I hadn’t tapered slow enough, but then I tried to reinstate over a year out. I didn’t know about withdrawal or anything so the dose was too high I thought I could just go back on. I had an extreme reinstatement injury… My brain was burning. I was seeing weird visuals, and I had derealization. Insane akathesia I had no idea what was happening so then I switched and tried to do another drug all in all I tortured my brain for 11 days. I then felt it most acutely the First 3 months before moving into this state and no shifts since. I have seen “reinstatement injury healing posts “ but those are usually minor flared up reactions etc.I have not been able to find one similar story of this sort of injury that has gotten better. I’m about 15 months out and my symptoms are so hellish I cannot even begin to explain. I don’t have internal thoughts and the ones that I do are swimming in a sea of intense fog. I don’t have motivation. I’m not embodied. I have no motivation, hope, or joy I don’t feel cozy or connected. I also have visual snow syndrome, which is completely debilitating and makes my work feel impossible. I feel like I’ve literally been burnt like a burnt battery. I search high and low for one success story of someone that felt similar or had similar symptoms. I also lost all of my sexuality. My brain feels like it was fried like a pancake. I wake up in a fuzzy sweaty terror panic. I have extreme body pain. My hips and hands feel like they are made of burnt chopsticks but mostly I have no ability to enjoy life or anythingReading I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. It is great you have improved from the acute phase. Unfortunately it is really common to feel like you are going nowhere fast with your healing. When this happens we can feel stuck. What is also common is for people to say, I can't find anyone like me etc.... So common I just said it on another thread about myself lol. So we have that in common most of us! I think it is best to not go searching for someone just like you, we are all so different, and I think it is just mirage that keeps getting further away the more we look.Ultimately we know everyone improves over time, if we keep the platform for healing in place. No drugs, clean living, low stress. I truly believe we must believe in our own healing, if only to help the suffering, but it may help the brain recover, probably not but who knows! I'll repost this here too as you might find it useful to read.“There is a lot of different language in our community about being broken, being injured, being permanently damaged but there are multiple ways to look at this. I knew my withdrawal from psychotropic drugs as the most intense and severe disruption my nervous system has ever experienced.So I suffered. And I suffered hard. And there were many days I had zero hope. I was miserable and just sort of put an invisible football helmet on my head, put my head down, and grinded out the time. I was in an invisible prison and didn’t know when the judge would let me out.There is a magic place where surrender, radical acceptance, patience, distraction, and delusion meet. I was delusionally optimistic as if I had a psychic laser that would take me to healing. I did not want to entertain any other outcome. And would you look at that. All my “delusion” paid off and here I am on the other side, throwing a rope to you to show you how to do this.And you won’t be perfect. All of this is messy. You will trip and fall and scrape your knees and beg God himself to rescue you from this hell and he won’t, and then you’ll curse his name. You will have hope one day and then not again for a month. And all of this is okay. Because you will heal despite kicking and screaming for it to be different.So please - FOCUS ON HEALING - start doing healing practices, even if you feel they are not working - they are helping you pass the time and that means it is working - and it’s helping to rewire you so that when you’re done you will be wired and ready to rebuild your life.So instead of viewing your nervous system as injured or damaged or permanently altered, focus on its healing capacity, that your DNA is wired for surviving and thriving, that you are in a healing crisis, that it is working REALLY HARD for you right now to repair itself. Shift your focus away from the scary stuff and towards healing and where you are headed. Healing is the outcome. Do not entertain anything else.” I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
June 26Jun 26 Author Recently made a post about this in my Facebook group and I wanted to paste here to get feedback and comment and see if anyone relates or maybe anyone that has these symptoms but are only in withdrawal. I realize today it has been three years since I first went off my Ssri. I was in withdrawal without knowing it so I tried to reinstate at two high of a dose too far out. Since then, I have been counting that as my time. (coming up on 15 months.) really wild to think that it has been three years since I first went off my ssris. (I was happier than I’ve ever been in my life and had just finished grad school. I just no longer wanted to be on a medication and just thought I could always just try and see and go back on if I needed to.) Comparing my withdrawal symptoms I had the first year to my current symptoms after an insanely terrible reinstament attempt (too high and too far out). Withdrawal symptoms:Obcessive thoughts, food, sensitivity, sound sensitivity, light sensitivity, volatile emotions, panic over small things, skin sensitivity, smell sensitivity, absurd reactions and moments of extreme despair. I still had the ability to feel cozy and enjoy things, immensely windows and waves. I could enjoy food and sex immensely. My skin was still pretty amazing and hair moist. Symptoms post reinstatement injury:Brain burning, visual snow syndrome (insanely debilitating and makes it very difficult to do my work), anhedonia (no longer feel human or have any thoughts or emotions or inner dialogue or creativity). Derealization (everything flat and two dimensional) I don’t think I could’ve ever imagined the following symptoms until I experienced them because I studied them in grad school and I thought I knew what they were but I did not until I experienced them. You can truly not know about the above symptoms until you have experienced. Also, I no longer have the ability to feel cozy.Extreme physical pain, burning, and creaking, clicking in my joints to the point that I can no longer type, I have to talk to text and walking is becoming more and more painful my hips used to feel strong and they are now made of paper. Extreme dry eyes: I cannot sleep more than a few hours without waking up with them burned and glued shut. Another sometime, (you cannot truly know how horrific it can be until you experience it because you relate to the closest thing you can imagine which is having your eyes dry/itchy.)Absolutely no sexuality whatsoever or ability to feel orgasm in my head. I can still appreciate food but I do not crave it and I do not get thirsty. Hair dry brittle, skin dry crepey aged. 2003-2023 on SSRIs (different ones over the years) did a slow taper Aug 2023-completely off. No real symptoms, besides increased anxiety and some emotional volatility, but also was in an abusive relationship June 2024-did psilocybin therapy to help me leave relationship. Afterwards could not eat and was in panic every day. April 2025-try to reinstate SSRI (6days Prozac 10mg then 5 days Zoloft at varying mg)=11 days severe adverse reaction total akathesia, DP/DR, brain burning April 8, 2025 last 2.5 mg Zoloft nothing since Current/Symptoms post adverse reaction: severe anhedonia, burning in hips and hand, VSS, floaters, feel empty, don’t feel embodied, flat fuzzy. B4 this even during bad times I felt energetic and joyful for the most part. Felt a lot and now I feel nothing.
June 26Jun 26 Author 5 hours ago, Chippy said:Reading I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. It is great you have improved from the acute phase. Unfortunately it is really common to feel like you are going nowhere fast with your healing. When this happens we can feel stuck. What is also common is for people to say, I can't find anyone like me etc.... So common I just said it on another thread about myself lol. So we have that in common most of us! I think it is best to not go searching for someone just like you, we are all so different, and I think it is just mirage that keeps getting further away the more we look.Ultimately we know everyone improves over time, if we keep the platform for healing in place. No drugs, clean living, low stress. I truly believe we must believe in our own healing, if only to help the suffering, but it may help the brain recover, probably not but who knows! I'll repost this here too as you might find it useful to read.“There is a lot of different language in our community about being broken, being injured, being permanently damaged but there are multiple ways to look at this. I knew my withdrawal from psychotropic drugs as the most intense and severe disruption my nervous system has ever experienced.So I suffered. And I suffered hard. And there were many days I had zero hope. I was miserable and just sort of put an invisible football helmet on my head, put my head down, and grinded out the time. I was in an invisible prison and didn’t know when the judge would let me out.There is a magic place where surrender, radical acceptance, patience, distraction, and delusion meet. I was delusionally optimistic as if I had a psychic laser that would take me to healing. I did not want to entertain any other outcome. And would you look at that. All my “delusion” paid off and here I am on the other side, throwing a rope to you to show you how to do this.And you won’t be perfect. All of this is messy. You will trip and fall and scrape your knees and beg God himself to rescue you from this hell and he won’t, and then you’ll curse his name. You will have hope one day and then not again for a month. And all of this is okay. Because you will heal despite kicking and screaming for it to be different.So please - FOCUS ON HEALING - start doing healing practices, even if you feel they are not working - they are helping you pass the time and that means it is working - and it’s helping to rewire you so that when you’re done you will be wired and ready to rebuild your life.So instead of viewing your nervous system as injured or damaged or permanently altered, focus on its healing capacity, that your DNA is wired for surviving and thriving, that you are in a healing crisis, that it is working REALLY HARD for you right now to repair itself. Shift your focus away from the scary stuff and towards healing and where you are headed. Healing is the outcome. Do not entertain anything else.”Thank you chippy. I absolutely focus on healing and I do similar visualization techniques as often as I canI am a trauma and somatic therapist. This is the work I do. I am constantly studying and I use sandbags with my clients as well as pressure points and visualization, etc..It’s difficult because my brain feels so empty and I am often unmotivated and doing my work is so completely and utterly exhausting so a lot of times I just need to rest. It is very difficult to do anything positive or motivated with such complete absence of dopamine or serotonin. Still, I am trying and some weeks are lighter than others. I try to get out in nature almost every day, and I was trying to do yoga, although my physical pain seems to get worse and worse, which is so bizarre because I was so absolutely strong before all of this. The visual symptoms are beyond disturbingBut mostly, I just miss the ability to feel cozy and think creatively. However, I did have a Friend over last night. I hadn’t seen her in a long time and we cuddled and watched some Downton Abbey. I think if I had someone to cuddle with, I would heal faster. I felt so calming and regulated with her nervous system. It is hard to be alone through all of this. I do have a lot of really amazing friends, but in LA everyone lives far away even if they aren’t. Also, they often have families and driving right now is very difficult for me anyway thank you so much for your kind words. 2003-2023 on SSRIs (different ones over the years) did a slow taper Aug 2023-completely off. No real symptoms, besides increased anxiety and some emotional volatility, but also was in an abusive relationship June 2024-did psilocybin therapy to help me leave relationship. Afterwards could not eat and was in panic every day. April 2025-try to reinstate SSRI (6days Prozac 10mg then 5 days Zoloft at varying mg)=11 days severe adverse reaction total akathesia, DP/DR, brain burning April 8, 2025 last 2.5 mg Zoloft nothing since Current/Symptoms post adverse reaction: severe anhedonia, burning in hips and hand, VSS, floaters, feel empty, don’t feel embodied, flat fuzzy. B4 this even during bad times I felt energetic and joyful for the most part. Felt a lot and now I feel nothing.
June 26Jun 26 Author 7 hours ago, Luke said:Hi @Redding, I've merged the new intro thread you made with your existing one.I'm in touch with someone (off the forum), who had visual snow for quite some time (a year or two) and then recovered from it.Pretty much all of the other symptoms sound very similar to the experiences of many others going through withdrawal. It's absolutely brutal, and unfortunately it does often take more than 15 months to begin to see meaningful recovery, however the positive side of this is that none of this is "abnormal" for withdrawal. There is no reason why you also will not likely go on to improve and then recover.You felt as though you were slowly improving and recovering in the past, your body has demonstrated clear precedent for being able to do this. Hopefully soon it will slowly begin to do it again.Thank you, Luke. I really needed to hear this sometimes I get so desperate and I think that’s when I make the most posts. I just need Reminders because no one around me understands what’s going on 2003-2023 on SSRIs (different ones over the years) did a slow taper Aug 2023-completely off. No real symptoms, besides increased anxiety and some emotional volatility, but also was in an abusive relationship June 2024-did psilocybin therapy to help me leave relationship. Afterwards could not eat and was in panic every day. April 2025-try to reinstate SSRI (6days Prozac 10mg then 5 days Zoloft at varying mg)=11 days severe adverse reaction total akathesia, DP/DR, brain burning April 8, 2025 last 2.5 mg Zoloft nothing since Current/Symptoms post adverse reaction: severe anhedonia, burning in hips and hand, VSS, floaters, feel empty, don’t feel embodied, flat fuzzy. B4 this even during bad times I felt energetic and joyful for the most part. Felt a lot and now I feel nothing.
June 26Jun 26 54 minutes ago, Redding said:I am a trauma and somatic therapistHave you found it more difficult to have interest in your clients? To care and connect with them? I struggled at work with generating empathy or having the enthusiasm to teach coping skills. To be fair though, much of it is a function of working in a lower socioeconomic public MH clinic where most patients care more about "fixing" their situational depression with a tablet and gettingthe benefits they feel entitled to, than doing any behavioural or psychological work. It does wear me down anyway. November 2024 Elvanse for ADHD. Anxiety and jaw clenching, stopped after 4 weeks. Felt fine. January 2025 Medikinet XL Made me depressed and suicidal so stopped after 3 weeks. Felt fine March 2025 Concerta XL Made me depressed and suicidal so stopped after 2 weeks. Felt fine April-May 2025 Amfexa and Methylphenidate instant release, both only worked for an hour so stopped. Felt fine. June 2025 Atomoxetine started slow taper. Immediate hot flushing and feeling sluggish. July-September 2025 Tapered up to 70mg Atomoxetine. Constipation, insomnia, muscle spasms, weird thoughts, mood swings, night sweats, hot flushes, brain fog, dizziness etc October 2025 rapid taper off Atomoxetine. I also had a GA for shoulder surgery the same week I finished meds. Ongoing symptoms ever since, but now also trouble swallowing, difficulty passing urine, muscle twitches, depersonalisation, heavy limbs, emotional blunting, apathy, feeling "wired" and robotic, PGAD. New symptoms February 2026: Nausea and burning head Supplements: B12, folate and Vit D as all were bordering on deficient. Bad reactions to CBD oil, Mag glycinate, Mag L.Threonate and Fish Oil
June 26Jun 26 Author 2 hours ago, Sminismoni said:Have you found it more difficult to have interest in your clients? To care and connect with them? I struggled at work with generating empathy or having the enthusiasm to teach coping skills. To be fair though, much of it is a function of working in a lower socioeconomic public MH clinic where most patients care more about "fixing" their situational depression with a tablet and gettingthe benefits they feel entitled to, than doing any behavioural or psychological work. It does wear me down anyway.Yes I used to feel So much love connection and healing happening. It’s very flat and logical now. Beyond psychology…(I use a handful of modalities) there felt a spiritual/existential component although I didn’t really label it and it’s not spiritual work. That is completely gone now. Sometimes it is there in practice, but not felt. The worst part is the visuals they make my work incredibly hard, almost impossible. I can barely see my clients faces with the visual snow and my eyes are dry and in pain and my head is fuzzy. It’s all very, very strange, surrealAnd torturous. I would feel sad if I felt anything. I can’t believe how joyful my work was prior. 2003-2023 on SSRIs (different ones over the years) did a slow taper Aug 2023-completely off. No real symptoms, besides increased anxiety and some emotional volatility, but also was in an abusive relationship June 2024-did psilocybin therapy to help me leave relationship. Afterwards could not eat and was in panic every day. April 2025-try to reinstate SSRI (6days Prozac 10mg then 5 days Zoloft at varying mg)=11 days severe adverse reaction total akathesia, DP/DR, brain burning April 8, 2025 last 2.5 mg Zoloft nothing since Current/Symptoms post adverse reaction: severe anhedonia, burning in hips and hand, VSS, floaters, feel empty, don’t feel embodied, flat fuzzy. B4 this even during bad times I felt energetic and joyful for the most part. Felt a lot and now I feel nothing.
June 28Jun 28 @Redding I merged a new thread you made in this topic to keep everything about your story and symptoms together. Nothing I say is medical advice, it is simply my opinion. I am an anonymous person on an internet forum with no relevant qualifications other than being badly harmed by a drug. For all you know, I could be an idiot. You are making your own decisions and part of that is deciding how much to listen to my opinion, if at all. Perhaps you should consider this post an artistic work of fiction written for entertainment purposes. Story from SA: LukeUK: Remeron/Mirtazapine Severe Withdrawal - Introductions and updates - Surviving Antidepressants 15mg Remeron/Mirtazapine November starting 2022 (severe physical side effects) Attempted to taper off January 2023, ended up having a major breakdown and going up to 30mg, took weeks to stabilise 1 month taper to 0mg Last dose April 2023 Severe withdrawal syndrome with many physical symptoms Summary: 5 months using Mirtazapine, including 1 month taper ending late April 2023.
June 30Jun 30 Author On 6/28/2026 at 12:43 PM, Luke said:@Redding I merged a new thread you made in this topic to keep everything about your story and symptoms together.OK, but for some reason when you do that, it seems that no one saw my most recent post about symptoms comparing them. I don’t know why, but I guess because why would they open an old thread? I thought if it was posted as a new topic, people would see it… Is there a reason it can’t be posted that way? I can always delete it after people comment if not, no worries. it is frustrating to only be able to return to the same conversation and interact with the three people that replied I’m hoping to reach broader people that might understand my symptoms post reinstatement… But I am also confused how this site works in general. I hope I don’t sound unappreciative because I am very appreciative that it exist. Edited June 30Jun 30 by Redding 2003-2023 on SSRIs (different ones over the years) did a slow taper Aug 2023-completely off. No real symptoms, besides increased anxiety and some emotional volatility, but also was in an abusive relationship June 2024-did psilocybin therapy to help me leave relationship. Afterwards could not eat and was in panic every day. April 2025-try to reinstate SSRI (6days Prozac 10mg then 5 days Zoloft at varying mg)=11 days severe adverse reaction total akathesia, DP/DR, brain burning April 8, 2025 last 2.5 mg Zoloft nothing since Current/Symptoms post adverse reaction: severe anhedonia, burning in hips and hand, VSS, floaters, feel empty, don’t feel embodied, flat fuzzy. B4 this even during bad times I felt energetic and joyful for the most part. Felt a lot and now I feel nothing.
June 30Jun 30 2 hours ago, Redding said:OK, but for some reason when you do that, it seems that no one saw my most recent post about symptoms comparing them. I don’t know why, but I guess because why would they open an old thread? I thought if it was posted as a new topic, people would see it… Is there a reason it can’t be posted that way? I can always delete it after people comment if not, no worries. it is frustrating to only be able to return to the same conversation and interact with the three people that replied I’m hoping to reach broader people that might understand my symptoms post reinstatement… But I am also confused how this site works in general. I hope I don’t sound unappreciative because I am very appreciative that it exist.Hey @Redding Like SA we want to keep the site organised and have one main thread each. The only time we like to have additional threads is if there is a benefit to collating discussion about a single symptom in one place from multiple members. For example 'headaches' and everyone chimes in about headaches. That would be great for people in years to come who have that symptom to read all about it. If we let everyone have a thread where ever they like the site becomes a mess and the data isn't very useful for guests and future members to read from. Hope you understand. xxx I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
July 1Jul 1 On 6/30/2026 at 5:31 AM, Redding said:OK, but for some reason when you do that, it seems that no one saw my most recent post about symptoms comparing them.It contained no questions or things to prompt anyone to respond.On this thread, within an hour of making that post, you had a qualified psychiatrist who understands these harms respond to you. We're just a community forum and are badly harmed ourselves, I'm not sure what your expectations are beyond other harmed volunteers responding to you within the hour, for free.On 6/30/2026 at 5:31 AM, Redding said:I thought if it was posted as a new topic, people would see it… Is there a reason it can’t be posted that way?As @Chippy said, if you make an entire new thread for every comment the site will quickly become very cluttered and nobody will be able to find the information that they need. Nothing I say is medical advice, it is simply my opinion. I am an anonymous person on an internet forum with no relevant qualifications other than being badly harmed by a drug. For all you know, I could be an idiot. You are making your own decisions and part of that is deciding how much to listen to my opinion, if at all. Perhaps you should consider this post an artistic work of fiction written for entertainment purposes. Story from SA: LukeUK: Remeron/Mirtazapine Severe Withdrawal - Introductions and updates - Surviving Antidepressants 15mg Remeron/Mirtazapine November starting 2022 (severe physical side effects) Attempted to taper off January 2023, ended up having a major breakdown and going up to 30mg, took weeks to stabilise 1 month taper to 0mg Last dose April 2023 Severe withdrawal syndrome with many physical symptoms Summary: 5 months using Mirtazapine, including 1 month taper ending late April 2023.
July 5Jul 5 Author Thank you @Chippy and @Luke for explaining. It seems my question may have insulted you both and that was the last thing I wanted. I am so grateful for the site. I hope it’s all right that I disagree with you. I understand that this site cannot be cluttered but for me if someone was making a post about all of their symptoms from before and comparing them to now after reinstating or anything new about symptoms specifically. I would want to see it and id be looking under symptoms…..I’m not sure I would ever see it if it was buried somewhere in their story, etc.No need to point out that I got a reply/replies. I want you to know that I’m grateful for all of the correspondence and replies I get and I’m sorry if my question made it seem otherwise. :((I will indeed adjust my expectations.It must be such an arduous thing to even run a site like this. So I respect any organizational decisions you make whether they make sense to me or not.I will try to follow any members whose content I want to see since I probably won’t be checking their original threads.I wish more people had seen my post about reinstatement injury symptoms because I put a lot of thought into it and I’m still trying to find someone that can relate to this but again, I completely understand.I do have a question if anyone gets time to answer it. There is a member from the old site that I was going to ask if anyone was in contact with them or knows where they are and I’m not sure where I could post that question or if there is a place appropriate and then I could delete it for organizational purposes.No rush to respond thank you all for your time. Edited July 5Jul 5 by Redding 2003-2023 on SSRIs (different ones over the years) did a slow taper Aug 2023-completely off. No real symptoms, besides increased anxiety and some emotional volatility, but also was in an abusive relationship June 2024-did psilocybin therapy to help me leave relationship. Afterwards could not eat and was in panic every day. April 2025-try to reinstate SSRI (6days Prozac 10mg then 5 days Zoloft at varying mg)=11 days severe adverse reaction total akathesia, DP/DR, brain burning April 8, 2025 last 2.5 mg Zoloft nothing since Current/Symptoms post adverse reaction: severe anhedonia, burning in hips and hand, VSS, floaters, feel empty, don’t feel embodied, flat fuzzy. B4 this even during bad times I felt energetic and joyful for the most part. Felt a lot and now I feel nothing.
July 5Jul 5 Hey redding.We never really talked, just tuning in and sending some love.Hopefully you are managing to cope with your symptoms, If you need some help or hope im here.You will survive through this and heal out over time. ❤️ Edited July 5Jul 5 by Lighty I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. Feel free to mention me whenever help is needed. Current Supplements: Morning: Aloe Vera Gels. Night: 6mg melatonin and 133mg magnesium glycinate. Taking Omega 3 as needed to calm dyskinesia or over stimulation..Current Medications: Mirtazapine, Lasea (lavender oil) before bed.------------------------------------------Tapering: Mirtazapine 15mg, (went compounded) 13.5mg 08/May/2025, 12.1mg 10/July/2025, 15/July/2025 15mg (half tablet), 26/July/2025 14.35mg (moved to dry cutting method) ), 03/Aug/2025 14.6mg, 24/Nov/2025 14.47mg, 29/Jan/2026 14.35mgNote: Had a lot of issue with degradation with different cutting times and compounded pharmacy which caused withdrawals and a more sensitive nervous system.
July 6Jul 6 14 hours ago, Redding said:Thank you @Chippy and @Luke for explaining.Pleasure Redding!14 hours ago, Redding said:It seems my question may have insulted you both and that was the last thing I wanted.ABSOLUTLEY NOT! xxxxx14 hours ago, Redding said:I am so grateful for the site. I hope it’s all right that I disagree with you.Of course it is!14 hours ago, Redding said:I understand that this site cannot be cluttered but for me if someone was making a post about all of their symptoms from before and comparing them to now after reinstating or anything new about symptoms specifically. I would want to see it and id be looking under symptoms…..I’m not sure I would ever see it if it was buried somewhere in their story, etc.We have symptom specfic posts as I explained, so one about headaches and others too. The list is growing. I am ok with that. What we don't want is every time someone has a symptoms they start a new thread about it. So if you have a head related issue you can post on there rather than your own topic for example but there is only one head symptom post that someone started a few weeks ago.14 hours ago, Redding said:I want you to know that I’m grateful for all of the correspondence and replies I get and I’m sorry if my question made it seem otherwise. :((Not at all. No offence taken from me or Luke I assure you. We want you to feel heard and safe here, but obviously we need to manage the site as we see best in the interests of everyone using now and in the future. :)14 hours ago, Redding said:I will indeed adjust my expectations.It must be such an arduous thing to even run a site like this. So I respect any organizational decisions you make whether they make sense to me or not.Apprieciate it. x14 hours ago, Redding said:There is a member from the old site that I was going to ask if anyone was in contact with them or knows where they are and I’m not sure where I could post that question or if there is a place appropriate and then I could delete it for organizational purposes.Just make a new topic for it and I will see where I think it can go, perhaps we need a lost and found thread for this purposes. Could be handy. I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
July 7Jul 7 Author 23 hours ago, Chippy said:Pleasure Redding!ABSOLUTLEY NOT! xxxxxOf course it is!We have symptom specfic posts as I explained, so one about headaches and others too. The list is growing. I am ok with that. What we don't want is every time someone has a symptoms they start a new thread about it. So if you have a head related issue you can post on there rather than your own topic for example but there is only one head symptom post that someone started a few weeks ago.Not at all. No offence taken from me or Luke I assure you. We want you to feel heard and safe here, but obviously we need to manage the site as we see best in the interests of everyone using now and in the future. :)Apprieciate it. xJust make a new topic for it and I will see where I think it can go, perhaps we need a lost and found thread for this purposes. Could be handy.Thank you for explaining chippyJust to be clear, my post wasn’t a “ hey guys I’m having a new symptom so I’m making a new post about it”… I am aware some of my posts have been updatesThe specific one I’m referring to is a specific post comparing my withdrawal symptoms to my post reinstatement fail reaction symptoms. It has a specific purpose, and I think it would be interest to people that are looking into symptoms and reading about them.I believe it is above, but maybe I am mistaken. The other post I understood why they were all filed here… This one I did not. :(I specifically thought it would be helpful and of interest people and I don’t think that they will see it hereI also thought I might eventually meet some people with similar circumstances.If you scroll up above, you will see it. It’s shown as a random reply. It wasn’t but it has the date June 26. I will paste it here but yes, I can also repost it so it could be refiled. Let me know.Here is the post I’m referring to. Thank you again for your help. I can also make it shorter and condense it if that would be helpful.Recently made a post about this in my Facebook group and I wanted to paste here to get feedback and comment and see if anyone relates or maybe anyone that has these symptoms but are only in withdrawal. I realize today it has been three years since I first went off my Ssri. I was in withdrawal without knowing it so I tried to reinstate at two high of a dose too far out. Since then, I have been counting that as my time. (coming up on 15 months.) really wild to think that it has been three years since I first went off my ssris. (I was happier than I’ve ever been in my life and had just finished grad school. I just no longer wanted to be on a medication and just thought I could always just try and see and go back on if I needed to.)Comparing my withdrawal symptoms I had the first year to my current symptoms after an insanely terrible reinstament attempt (too high and too far out).Withdrawal symptoms:Obcessive thoughts, food, sensitivity, sound sensitivity, light sensitivity, volatile emotions, panic over small things, skin sensitivity, smell sensitivity, absurd reactions and moments of extreme despair. I still had the ability to feel cozy and enjoy things, immensely windows and waves. I could enjoy food and sex immensely. My skin was still pretty amazing and hair moist.Symptoms post reinstatement injury:Brain burning, visual snow syndrome (insanely debilitating and makes it very difficult to do my work), anhedonia (no longer feel human or have any thoughts or emotions or inner dialogue or creativity). Derealization (everything flat and two dimensional) I don’t think I could’ve ever imagined the following symptoms until I experienced them because I studied them in grad school and I thought I knew what they were but I did not until I experienced them. You can truly not know about the above symptoms until you have experienced.Also, I no longer have the ability to feel cozy.Extreme physical pain, burning, and creaking, clicking in my joints to the point that I can no longer type, I have to talk to text and walking is becoming more and more painful my hips used to feel strong and they are now made of paper. Extreme dry eyes: I cannot sleep more than a few hours without waking up with them burned and glued shut. Another sometime, (you cannot truly know how horrific it can be until you experience it because you relate to the closest thing you can imagine which is having your eyes dry/itchy.)Absolutely no sexuality whatsoever or ability to feel orgasm in my head. I can still appreciate food but I do not crave it and I do not get thirsty. Hair dry brittle, skin dry crepey aged.OK, that was it. Sorry so long to paste it all here and it’s also I guess just a frustrating thought to think that I can never start a new topic and get new engagement without being directed to my one same single post. I’ve only posted every few months. Also, I understand that it would be over inundated if people were posting so much but I like to think that even if there were 5000 posts under symptoms as long as they were about symptoms, then that would be OK. I’m sure the numbers will grow to that extent at some point.I hope this is all making sense. Thank you for reading this far if you have made it through my novel. Again, I understand if general updates are re-filed, but this specific post was about symptoms and not just new symptoms, but I was discussing my symptom trajectory over my entire timeline. Again, I really hope this makes sense!Thank you!! :)) Edited July 7Jul 7 by Redding 2003-2023 on SSRIs (different ones over the years) did a slow taper Aug 2023-completely off. No real symptoms, besides increased anxiety and some emotional volatility, but also was in an abusive relationship June 2024-did psilocybin therapy to help me leave relationship. Afterwards could not eat and was in panic every day. April 2025-try to reinstate SSRI (6days Prozac 10mg then 5 days Zoloft at varying mg)=11 days severe adverse reaction total akathesia, DP/DR, brain burning April 8, 2025 last 2.5 mg Zoloft nothing since Current/Symptoms post adverse reaction: severe anhedonia, burning in hips and hand, VSS, floaters, feel empty, don’t feel embodied, flat fuzzy. B4 this even during bad times I felt energetic and joyful for the most part. Felt a lot and now I feel nothing.
July 7Jul 7 Hey @Redding , if you think a thread like that will be interesting to people go ahead and make it and I'll approve it xxxx I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
July 7Jul 7 Author 9 hours ago, Chippy said:Hey @Redding , if you think a thread like that will be interesting to people go ahead and make it and I'll approve it xxxxOk thank you I’ll repost it in symptoms even for the future I think it will be better filed away there! 🙏🏼🙏🏼 2003-2023 on SSRIs (different ones over the years) did a slow taper Aug 2023-completely off. No real symptoms, besides increased anxiety and some emotional volatility, but also was in an abusive relationship June 2024-did psilocybin therapy to help me leave relationship. Afterwards could not eat and was in panic every day. April 2025-try to reinstate SSRI (6days Prozac 10mg then 5 days Zoloft at varying mg)=11 days severe adverse reaction total akathesia, DP/DR, brain burning April 8, 2025 last 2.5 mg Zoloft nothing since Current/Symptoms post adverse reaction: severe anhedonia, burning in hips and hand, VSS, floaters, feel empty, don’t feel embodied, flat fuzzy. B4 this even during bad times I felt energetic and joyful for the most part. Felt a lot and now I feel nothing.
July 7Jul 7 Author 10 hours ago, Chippy said:Hey @Redding , if you think a thread like that will be interesting to people go ahead and make it and I'll approve it xxxxOK, I posted it and made some edits and wanted to end on a more positive note for everyone I went to post in the symptoms section, so hopefully it will be in there. Thank you so much!! 2003-2023 on SSRIs (different ones over the years) did a slow taper Aug 2023-completely off. No real symptoms, besides increased anxiety and some emotional volatility, but also was in an abusive relationship June 2024-did psilocybin therapy to help me leave relationship. Afterwards could not eat and was in panic every day. April 2025-try to reinstate SSRI (6days Prozac 10mg then 5 days Zoloft at varying mg)=11 days severe adverse reaction total akathesia, DP/DR, brain burning April 8, 2025 last 2.5 mg Zoloft nothing since Current/Symptoms post adverse reaction: severe anhedonia, burning in hips and hand, VSS, floaters, feel empty, don’t feel embodied, flat fuzzy. B4 this even during bad times I felt energetic and joyful for the most part. Felt a lot and now I feel nothing.
July 7Jul 7 Author On 7/5/2026 at 10:47 AM, Lighty said:Hey redding.We never really talked, just tuning in and sending some love.Hopefully you are managing to cope with your symptoms, If you need some help or hope im here.You will survive through this and heal out over time. ❤️Thank you for this. I truly hope so. It’s so hard to believe it but I try to tell myself I’m healing as often as I can 2003-2023 on SSRIs (different ones over the years) did a slow taper Aug 2023-completely off. No real symptoms, besides increased anxiety and some emotional volatility, but also was in an abusive relationship June 2024-did psilocybin therapy to help me leave relationship. Afterwards could not eat and was in panic every day. April 2025-try to reinstate SSRI (6days Prozac 10mg then 5 days Zoloft at varying mg)=11 days severe adverse reaction total akathesia, DP/DR, brain burning April 8, 2025 last 2.5 mg Zoloft nothing since Current/Symptoms post adverse reaction: severe anhedonia, burning in hips and hand, VSS, floaters, feel empty, don’t feel embodied, flat fuzzy. B4 this even during bad times I felt energetic and joyful for the most part. Felt a lot and now I feel nothing.
July 8Jul 8 13 hours ago, Redding said:Thank you so much!!Pleasure x I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
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