[Admin note: TRIGGER WARNING! If you are going through a tough time at the moment, and feel your nervous system is particularly sensitive please consider watching this video another time. Chippy]

Honestly, this upset me a lot today. I've seen someone sharing about it on Instagram. I feel terrible for him and his family. I hope he heals. But it also made me think I'm gonna end up like him. How cruel is all this... 😔

10 minutes ago, Marina said:

Honestly, this upset me a lot today. I've seen someone sharing about it on Instagram. I feel terrible for him and his family. I hope he heals. But it also made me think I'm gonna end up like him. How cruel is all this... 😔

I’m sorry Marina. It’s not the case. Plenty of people go on to heal and live great lifes.😀

@Chippy But he thought he healed too! 6 years went by and - wham! - plunged back in by a trigger. 😞

Just now, Marina said:

@Chippy But he thought he healed too! 6 years went by and - wham! - plunged back in by a trigger. 😞

Yes it’s very sad. But that doesn’t happen to everyone!

@Chippy My mind replies: "But it might happen to me! Why not me?!" 😣

1 minute ago, Marina said:

@Chippy My mind replies: "But it might happen to me! Why not me?!" 😣

This is where we must learn our skill sets of acceptance, today is the only day that matters & my new favourite, ‘Monk Mode’.

We could be run over by a bus tomorrow! But we learn to live anyway and go out to the shops! Gotta keep our monkey brains in check 👊

14 minutes ago, Marina said:

Honestly, this upset me a lot today. I've seen someone sharing about it on Instagram. I feel terrible for him and his family. I hope he heals. But it also made me think I'm gonna end up like him. How cruel is all this... 😔

20 minutes ago, Marina said:

Honestly, this upset me a lot today. I've seen someone sharing about it on Instagram. I feel terrible for him and his family. I hope he heals. But it also made me think I'm gonna end up like him. How cruel is all this... 😔

I get you @Marina it can definitely be a trigger in our sensitive phase but there's a happy ending here, he has fully recovered and since then raises widespread awareness that reaches many important places against benzodiazepines.

Our situation is reversible and we will recover 🙏

Edited April 19Apr 19 by Fullhealing

@Chippy You are right. But so hard to put that to practice right now. 😓

@Fullhealing He has recovered, previously. But since the end of last summer he is back in it again. Not sure if you heard the news...? He has been triggered by stress and mold exposure and he hasn't been doing well at all. He is experiencing akathisia. 😔

2 minutes ago, Marina said:

You are right. But so hard to put that to practice right now. 😓

I know. We keep up our daily practice though. 😀

15 minutes ago, Marina said:

@Chippy You are right. But so hard to put that to practice right now. 😓

@Fullhealing He has recovered, previously. But since the end of last summer he is back in it again. Not sure if you heard the news...? He has been triggered by stress and mold exposure and he hasn't been doing well at all. He is experiencing akathisia. 😔

Yes, I saw now, awful and I really hope he gets well but it's not in the context of the benzodiazepines.

I know it's extremely hard for you atm, it may be better to stay away from triggering videos like that for a while @Marina please hold on hope, our system has amazing healing capabilities, we'll get there eventually. 🩷

Edited April 19Apr 19 by Fullhealing

Thank you @Fullhealing ❤️ but my hope is very weak lately...

44 minutes ago, Marina said:

Thank you @Fullhealing ❤️ but my hope is very weak lately...

Don't have weak hope! Remember, this too shall pass! Nothing stays the same. Our bodies are amazing. We will succeed!

1 hour ago, Marina said:

Thank you @Fullhealing ❤️ but my hope is very weak lately.

That's the nature of these nasty waves, they give a deceptive sense of hopelessness but it's always there @Marina

It will clear up, it always does, just hang in there.

Sending a big, comforting hug.

Thank you @Chippy and @Fullhealing ❤️

20 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Yes, I saw now, awful and I really hope he gets well but it's not in the context of the benzodiazepines.

I know it's extremely hard for you atm, it may be better to stay away from triggering videos like that for a while @Marina please hold on hope, our system has amazing healing capabilities, we'll get there eventually. 🩷

Yea. In withdrawal, there is so much I just cannot view. It is truly incredible the amount of harm these neuro-toxins cause either while stuck in a chemical dependence to them, developing a tolerance to them, and withdrawal (neurological dysregulation) from them. Angie Peacock talks about this in a lot of her YT videos: hypersensitivity to topics you normally are just fine with.

Coincidentally, I watched the Jordan Peterson and his daughter interview video on Dr Josef’s YT channel while I was extremely sick in w/d from 100mg→50mg Desvenlafaxine this past in January (25mg isn’t avalaible in Canada to do 75mg + too risky to get 25mg filled in the USA, and most importantly: I was too tired (side effect of the Desvenlafaxine for many many many yrs & all of the other neurotransmitter dysregulators) to get it compounded up here for a hyperbolic taper + needed to reduce it down to 50mg immediately.

I agree with you that our bodies (all systems in our body) are literally designed to heal (ie: return to homeostasis); especially from these neuro-toxins. I apologize to my body regularly every day on behalf of the former Private Practice Psychiatry, Health Authority Psychiatrists, and the original GP who I still see at the Medical Clinic.

Thank you @Cloudy4ever for posting this. Yes, it is scary. But it is remarkable, how well she raises awareness for the dangers of SSRIs and benzos. She also adds valuable background information in the notes to the video and has even set up her own website dedicated to this topic.

I watched this a week ago. She explains it really well and has some good links for research on the dangers of these drugs.

While I've not always agreed on his views, I feel for her and the family.  Like people were throwing rocks at an already injured family. 

IMO I think his immune system, nervous system, and neurological functions were compromised from the big event life stressors, the passing of the family members, (and did she say, his wife passing from cancer?). And the mould exposure just sent things over the edge.

I got a bit anxious too, watching this.  That even after healing, what if....? ya know? I had to take a break for a bit and ask for a great big bear hug from my brother.

But then Chippy made that monkey-brain comment. And it made me think, we literally would not be here if human beings did not know how to adapt, survive and heal. One of our greatest strengths. A superpower that I don't think we'll ever understand is mysteries. But healing does not required we understand it, it just happens whether we believe it will or not.

And he's right, mental health survivor or not, there are no guarantees in life. We can't cocoon ourselves for the rest of our lives. Whatever comes after, once you get through it, you can again. No matter how many panic attacks I've had, despite knowing how to deal with them, they always feel brand new, in those first few seconds. Eventually, muscle memory kicks in and reminds me, we've been here before, here are the files to deal with it, here is reframing, here are the falsehoods, here is the truth. I latch on and get through it.

Pain and fear are inescapable parts of life. But suffering is a choice that can be changed with support and practice. The blows dealt from life can be made gentler or tolerable, but never avoided.

The good news is the awareness that is happening right now, so that quicker recognition and better advocacy can happen before "fixes" are made that make things worse.  And we need to continue that advocacy, for ourselves and others.

We might be more sensitive to big stressors, but they are sometimes unavoidable. We have this North American view that we have to tough things out. I'll catch up on the weekend. etc. This would be a lot for anyone to deal with, neurological injury or not. We have to start practicing compassion and healthy self-care for each other. Let people nap, slow down, take time out, and ground themselves. Cry, scream, grieve in safe spaces. Give people a safe haven and a soft landing to deal with stressors like this or any stress for that matter. And let them take as much time as it takes to process it. I don't think this should be only for those who have sensitive nervous systems, but for everyone. Because depression, anxiety, mental breakdown, etc., can hit anyone, there is no discrimination.

We have to become a balancing rock bridge, all taking on equal weight, as we hold the arch upright. And if one has to step away and can't hold their weight, we shift and redistribute the weight, and wait patiently with unconditional love and understanding until they are ready to rejoin. I believe the saying, "it takes a village to raise a child", extends to adults and all people as well.  I think it's how we get through anything.

@Kymeira Lovley post, well put, thank you. xxx

3 hours ago, Kymeira said:

We might be more sensitive to big stressors, but they are sometimes unavoidable.

If it helps, I'm in touch with someone who "recovered" but recently had a difficult time for a few weeks about 2 years later.

They got through it, and if anything it has helped with their confidence that even if things do get difficult, they're not permanent and they are resilient against them and can push through and do the things that they need to do to take care of themselves.