Hi I wanted to join this site so I can eventually one day post my recovery story.

 

it feels unfair that SA is closing and I won’t get to do this, I really want to have my moment one day!!! 
 

Im Now at 11.5 months off my Prozac and my journey is documented on SA under the same username just without the dash’s between the words.  

 

Here is a link to Rosies Page :)
 

windows and waves are ongoing, I think 🤔 my waves have been less intense since mid November but I need to give it more time to be sure, but certainly December and so far January have been much better months for me. 
 

I say this today whilst in a wave that started yesterday, which is of course upsetting. 
 

since my last SA update I’ve started working 1.5 hours a day at a school helping at lunchtime,  it feels OK and positive for my brain to be in a routine.  Some days it’s felt a little busy and yesterday whilst in my wave it did feel hard, but I think it’s going to be good for me and I plan to continue.

 

my main Symtoms are currently 

- anxiety that can at times feel like I’m about to go totally crazy and burst out of my skin. I get this feeling less, but it’s still there in a wave and nothing seems to influence it 

- racing and intrusive thoughts that are dark and morbid in nature

- occasionally weeping spells.

- occasionally panic at night and associated poor sleep 

 

symptoms that have gone

- intense sadness with relentless crying 

- intense brain fog

- dizziness

- visual snow 

- total insomnia or very little sleep, unusually get at least 4 hours an night and it’s mostly 6/7.

- nausea 

- inability to be excited or plan or even think about anything other than just getting through the day

- inability to cook or think about food due to the nausea

-  intense intrusive thoughts all day long with passive SI 

- weird energy surges through my body and just feeling weird like I had something round my next or something round my waist I really can’t describe it!

- obsessive googling and finding cures etc and obsessive talking about my Symtoms and WD

- feeling woozy and weird with some mild DPDR

- heart palpitations but I never had severe pots or anything I’ve always been able to walk around etc 

 

i think that’s about it. 

Bleugh

just writing those out has given me anxiety!

 

so I’ll say goodbye for now but plan to come back for monthly updates.

 

God bless

Rosie

 

Hey Rosie

 

Welcome to forum! Made me smile seeing your thread come through! 🙂 

 

Thanks for posting your intro. Ive linked your SA blog above for you.

 

It's great you've been improving so positive to recognise this isn't it! Of course it's always frustrating when the waves come and we get knocked back a bit. B always refers to the wave mind. But it will pass in time. Just gotta keep riding the highs and lows.

 

Incredible list of symptoms that have gone and a pure sign of healing right there.

 

Thanks for joining. Seeing your progress will give everyone behind you comfort knowing you are improving. 

 

Speak soon

 

Chippy

2 hours ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

my waves have been less intense since mid November but I need to give it more time to be sure, but certainly December and so far January have been much better months for me. 

 

This is progress, even if it doesn't always feel like it when you're having a hard time.

 

This is a clear improvement on average.

 

Thank you for joining, I hope that this place provides you with good support and that eventually you are able to write a success story here.

23 hours ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

Hi I wanted to join this site so I can eventually one day post my recovery story

Yay! Welcome @Its-me-Rosie, and your recovery story will be posted sooner than you think! I cannot wait to read it! 💖😊🕊

Hey we spoke to each other before too! I'm at 11 months too and in a wave 😞  I've read so many stories,  I feel like in both our cases 18-24 months is probably our timeline to fully heal. I'm very optimistic. I hope you heal even sooner though. Just hold on a little longer.

Thankyou all.

@iwillsurvive I tried to message you but can’t work out how!

it’s good to talk to others around the same timeframe especially if they are in a similar boat.

 

January is very dark and miserable in the UK so I don’t think that helps us here much. There’s a collective flatness in the whole country which I’m sure adds to things!!

 

hoping to do a positive 12 month update but we’ll see what the next 1.5 weeks bring! X 

9 minutes ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

I tried to message you but can’t work out how!

Hey Rosie. If you struggle with using the Private message system let me know?

On 1/23/2026 at 9:06 AM, Its-me-Rosie said:

Hi I wanted to join this site so I can eventually one day post my recovery story.

 

it feels unfair that SA is closing and I won’t get to do this, I really want to have my moment one day!!! 
 

Im Now at 11.5 months off my Prozac and my journey is documented on SA under the same username just without the dash’s between the words.  

 

Here is a link to Rosies Page :)
 

windows and waves are ongoing, I think 🤔 my waves have been less intense since mid November but I need to give it more time to be sure, but certainly December and so far January have been much better months for me. 
 

I say this today whilst in a wave that started yesterday, which is of course upsetting. 
 

since my last SA update I’ve started working 1.5 hours a day at a school helping at lunchtime,  it feels OK and positive for my brain to be in a routine.  Some days it’s felt a little busy and yesterday whilst in my wave it did feel hard, but I think it’s going to be good for me and I plan to continue.

 

my main Symtoms are currently 

- anxiety that can at times feel like I’m about to go totally crazy and burst out of my skin. I get this feeling less, but it’s still there in a wave and nothing seems to influence it 

- racing and intrusive thoughts that are dark and morbid in nature

- occasionally weeping spells.

- occasionally panic at night and associated poor sleep 

 

symptoms that have gone

- intense sadness with relentless crying 

- intense brain fog

- dizziness

- visual snow 

- total insomnia or very little sleep, unusually get at least 4 hours an night and it’s mostly 6/7.

- nausea 

- inability to be excited or plan or even think about anything other than just getting through the day

- inability to cook or think about food due to the nausea

-  intense intrusive thoughts all day long with passive SI 

- weird energy surges through my body and just feeling weird like I had something round my next or something round my waist I really can’t describe it!

- obsessive googling and finding cures etc and obsessive talking about my Symtoms and WD

- feeling woozy and weird with some mild DPDR

- heart palpitations but I never had severe pots or anything I’ve always been able to walk around etc 

 

i think that’s about it. 

Bleugh

just writing those out has given me anxiety!

 

so I’ll say goodbye for now but plan to come back for monthly updates.

 

God bless

Rosie

 

Hi @Its-me-Rosie

Lovely to hear that you are getting better, even if not 100% it seems that quite a few of your symptoms are fading and that is very encouraging however so sorry that waving now, hopefully it won't stay for long.

I'm not sure if you meant anxiety in writing your symptoms or anxiety writing in general but I do get the anxiety writing in general, it's been very intense for me lately which makes it difficult to be more active and supportive here but I'm trying to break the intensity by writing now.

Also congrats for going back to work, it's a huge step even if for a small amount of time, be very proud of that.

Wishing you brighter days very soon.

Edited January 24Jan 24 by Fullhealing

Hi @Its-me-Rosie Good to see you on here, sorry you are still suffering waves. I look forward to eventually

reading your full recovery post.

Take care,        B.🤞 

@Fullhealing I meant anxiety just going over everything I’ve been through.

i feel quite traumatised at this stage, im hoping this eases as I heal!

but anxiety is my main symptom so to be honest in a wave literally anything can make my anxious…I’m a window there’s far more resilience.

 

@NT1100B I hope your wave ends soon. We will be writing out full recovery posts one day!! I know it will come….its just a case of when xxx 

 

 

I also missed off a symptom that’s now gone…

 

My hair falling out….

August - early December I had significant hair loss. I’ve lost over 50% of my hair volume and I’m pleased to report it started to slow down on December and has now stopped coming out.

 

it just needs to grow back now! 

I'm glad to hear that. That's a good sign, along with the lengthy windows you've had.

 

At coming up to a year off, there is huge scope for healing.

3 hours ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

I hope your wave ends soon. We will be writing out full recovery posts one day!! I know it will come….its just a case of when xxx 

Thanks @Its-me-Rosie yes I hope so as well, must be nearly 70 days now, with only very brief respite on rare occasions.

But we just have to take what it throws at us, hard as that has been lately in a living hell. The worst wave throughout

without doubt. So yes I hope you get more windows very soon Rosie leading to your FULL recovery. This spring and 

summer will be your time.🤞

Take care,       B.🌷

Dropping by to "see" you here. I remember you from SA but think we may have posted a little bit back and forth. Things are fuzzy for those facts now. Welcome nonetheless to AR! I hope that you continue to have these better months. We are here to support you and support one another on this newer forum. We all need each other and as you and @NT1100B say, we will write and share our full success stories one day. A big rainbow in the sky type of day for each of us.

Be well my friend.

Hi all,

I haven’t been on here much I admit since you started the page and there’s some old info on SA for Keto diets.

 

but I’d love to start a more relevant up to date topic about diets.

 

I’ve tried keto before but it was last summer and I just felt too unwell to do it really and keep it up.  I’m now at a point where I’d like to try low carb at the very least and would love to know anyone’s thoughts on this.

 

or to see if anyone has any experience…

Meal suggestions welcome!!

 

feeling a bit stuck at the moment. Know I’ve made good progress and know the antidote is time, but I’d like to clean my diet up a bit to see if this helps.  I’m mostly healthy but I do eat quite a lot of carbs in the form of potatoes and brown bread.

 

any comments gratefully received.

 

Rosie 

9 minutes ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

Hi all,

I haven’t been on here much I admit since you started the page and there’s some old info on SA for Keto diets.

 

but I’d love to start a more relevant up to date topic about diets.

 

I’ve tried keto before but it was last summer and I just felt too unwell to do it really and keep it up.  I’m now at a point where I’d like to try low carb at the very least and would love to know anyone’s thoughts on this.

 

or to see if anyone has any experience…

Meal suggestions welcome!!

 

feeling a bit stuck at the moment. Know I’ve made good progress and know the antidote is time, but I’d like to clean my diet up a bit to see if this helps.  I’m mostly healthy but I do eat quite a lot of carbs in the form of potatoes and brown bread.

 

any comments gratefully received.

 

Rosie 

Hey Rosie

 

Thanks for posting this.

 

I think it's better to keep this in your intro topic.

 

We plan to use the support topics for information for people.

 

At some point we may have a Keto piece of content and that would go in there and could be commented on. Hope that makes sense?

 

Chippy xx

Thanks @Chippy yes that makes sense.

Angie has oddly just released a video about Keto this weekend so I plan to watch it today!

 

i need some help and reassurance today.

im almost 2 weeks in to wave that has just slowly gotten worse and worse.

it started out with mild anxiety and some old Symtoms coming back like a bad tummy.  It’s progressed and im now so agitated with lots of loping intrusive thoughts.  I haven’t had this since late October/early November and im feeling scared and very upset.

 

I really thought these intense Symtoms had passed and I was in a pattern of more mild waves that were bearable, hard, but bearable.

 

i feel like I want to crawl out of my skin again today, I haven’t missed this feeling 😢 

 

im approaching 12 months off. Since month 10 I’ve been on a mission to stop doom scrolling, to talk less about my Symptoms, to stop focusing on my Symptoms so much and to just try and live my life and take the symptoms along with me.  It seemed to help and things really improved for me in November when I felt like I turned a corner.  I am hoping this is just a particularly nasty wave that will lead to more healing, as my last horrific wave in November did seem to lead to more healing…..

 

I guess I’m just posting to feel less alone as today is feeling very hard.

I started my new job early January working 1.5 hours a day at a school, I’m determined to keep going in as I think routine is good for me.

Not much else to report. I did eat curry this weekend and was doing a bit better Saturday and ate it Saturday night and I’m wondering if even that could be a trigger!! Bleughhh

hate this stupid WD.

 

any words of hope grateful received  today! 
Rosie xx 

16 minutes ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

Angie has oddly just released a video about Keto this weekend so I plan to watch it today!

Oddly I just have and posted it on here!

 

16 minutes ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

need some help and reassurance today.

im almost 2 weeks in to wave that has just slowly gotten worse and worse.

it started out with mild anxiety and some old Symtoms coming back like a bad tummy.  It’s progressed and im now so agitated with lots of loping intrusive thoughts.  I haven’t had this since late October/early November and im feeling scared and very upset.

Oh Rosie Im sorry. I meant to message you yesterday but I forgot it's been busy with SA closing and everything. Are you ok? Sound like maybe not so much. Wave brain is always a problem isnt it.  Lots of healing happening. Thats the reason for the wave not that you arent healing. It's the opposite. 🙂 

 

18 minutes ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

hate this stupid WD.

You and me both mate! It will end eventually. I miss my old life alot. Glad you are able to try at least to function as normal. Hard though. In a wave maybe try a little less hard. B always say the brain needs lots of energy to heal. Just pamper yourself as much as you can and be kind to yourself and not give yourself a hard time. You are doing great! xxxx

1 hour ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

Angie has oddly just released a video about Keto this weekend so I plan to watch it today!

 

Hi @Its-me-Rosie I've been keto for 2 months now.  I can suggest a book Change your diet, change you mind  by Georgia Ede. There's also a good YouTube channel - The Metabolic Mind. I've noticed better cognition, my gut is working really well, my skin is better, mild arthritis pain is absent. On the other hand, I have deep painful emotions surfacing, I only sleep about 5 hours a night and my cholesterol has skyrocketed. I can't definitively say these things are due to keto, they could just as easily be from withdrawal (apart from the LDL-C).

I hope you're doing okay with your taper. I'm struggling a little at present. Georgia Ede also has some good videos on YouTub, and Chris Palmer.

 

take care 🤗

19 minutes ago, Catbird said:

Hi @Its-me-Rosie I've been keto for 2 months now.  I can suggest a book Change your diet, change you mind  by Georgia Ede. There's also a good YouTube channel - The Metabolic Mind. I've noticed better cognition, my gut is working really well, my skin is better, mild arthritis pain is absent. On the other hand, I have deep painful emotions surfacing, I only sleep about 5 hours a night and my cholesterol has skyrocketed. I can't definitively say these things are due to keto, they could just as easily be from withdrawal (apart from the LDL-C).

I hope you're doing okay with your taper. I'm struggling a little at present. Georgia Ede also has some good videos on YouTub, and Chris Palmer.

 

take care 🤗

Sending you some hugs too @Catbird hope things let up bit soon.

Hey @Its-me-Rosie

 

I just thought I’d stop by and offer you some encouragement! I’m so sorry you’re struggling so much at the moment but things will get better. 
 

I’m 16 months in, I’ve just come out of a wave feeling better than at any time since this started so anything is possible. 
 

You’re the best part of a year into this and drug free, you’re doing great. Just keep going, one day at a time and you’ll come out of this wave, it will happen! Just remind yourself when you’re feeling low that it’s all temporary, better days are ahead! 
 

Take care, 

 

Nick 

4 hours ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

hate this stupid WD.

 

any words of hope grateful received  today! 
Rosie xx 

Hi @Its-me-Rosie I am very sorry to hear you are in such a bad wave. (Hate this) comes out of my mouth regular,

that and (it's a killer) The waves just seem never ending, BUT they do eventually pass. I have been in a horrific state

this morning, only just 🤞lifting a bit now but it's been one of the worst this morning.

 

Yesterday I lifted to a 5, then back to a living hell with a sleep reset. So you are doing everything right Rosie, so I am

praying that it will very soon pass  for you, back into a big long window. please stay strong and safe.

Take great care,         B.🙏🙏🤞🌷

@Its-me-Rosie, hang on. I start today my month 12 of the CT... Everything is awful but we must going on and not allow to the psychiatry to kill us.

Svetla

Thanks you so much everyone 

im a bit teary reading these replies and so grateful for the hope and kind hearts.

 

@Catbird I hope you are ok. I appreciate that so much and @NBJ71i really appreciate you being a bit ahead of me and giving me some encouragement.

do you feel your wave just led to more healing? Sounds like it maybe did!! I’m so pleased you shared that, I’ve read it before and felt it myself but when you are in a wave you need someone rational to remind you. Appreciate it. Are you getting more windows at 16 months off??
 

 

i am thinking after watching Angie’s video today of going low carb but not KETO. I don’t think I can cope with the KETO flu and I also know I’ve had good windows not being KETO, so I’m hoping with some diet modification I can help my body along a bit 🙏 

 

This wave is brutal!!! Does it just seem so much worse @Chippy @NT1100B because we’ve had better days or better moments. I really thought this was lifting on Saturday as I had a good free hours afternoon in to evening then 💥 

 

It’s just the agitation/chemical anxiety that makes you want to jump out of your skin. It’s SOOOO uncomfortable and nothing relieves it 

 

I really pray this means more healing is happening ♥️ I will hold on to that hope. 
 

@NT1100Band @skamenI hope our waves pass soon.

@NT1100B your attitude is an inspiration to me, thank you for that. You know it does mean a lot on a day like today:

 

this wave could lift at any moment as this has happened to be before. I fall in to the trap of thinking every wave will last forever but they always lift….even if it feels like they won’t.

i need to not let me brain trick me otherwise.

 

healing is happening ♥️ 

x

1 hour ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

im a bit teary reading these replies and so grateful for the hope and kind hearts.

 

Sending you a big hug Rosie. Text me if you need xxx