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Chuey: Paxil (PaxHell) for 23 years

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Hang on, Chuey. It's so good to see you've had a window. Your body IS healing. You're doing everything right.

xoxo Jamie

Sept 1993 Began paroxetine 20 mg for anxiety and depression- worked like a charm. 

1st taper - Aug 1995 tapered over 3 weeks before getting pregnant- great at first, crashed at one month. White knuckled it through 2 miscarriages. Spring 1996 (?) Reinstated paroxetine 20 mg. 

2nd taper- Spring 2008 tapered off paroxetine over 4 months. Summer 2008 crashed horribly, nearly incapacitated by WD; Summer 2008-Summer 2009 tried 4 different ADs, none as effective as paroxetine.  Summer 2009 Reinstated 20 mg paroxetine, not as effective as previously.

3rd taper- Jun 19, 2019 began 10 mg paroxetine, 10 mg fluoxetine for one week. Jun 26 20 mg fluoxetine, 5 mg paroxetine for one week. Jul 3- 20 mg fluoxetine + lorazepam (0.5 mg) as needed up to 2x/day. Aug 12- 30 mg fluox; Sept 3- .5 mg clonazepam daily; end lorazepam; Sept 5- 40 mg fluox; 

End of 2019- returned to paroxetine 20 mg/day most of the year, 30mg/day in the winter.

BEGIN 4th TAPER ATTEMPT: Jul 13 2025- 30 -> 25 mg; 10 Sept -> 22.5mg;  3 Oct -> 20 mg; 10 Oct -> hold 2 weeks; 2 Nov -> 19.5 mg; 9 Nov -> 19 mg; 16 Nov -> hold 1 week; 22 Nov -> 18.6 mg; 30 Nov -> 18.2 mg; 7 Dec -> hold 1 week; 14 Dec -> 17.8 mg; 21 Dec -> 17.5 mg; 28 Dec -> 17.1 mg; 4 Jan 2026 -> 16.7 mg -> hold 2 weeks ; 28 Jan -> 16.4 mg; 1 Feb -> 16.0 mg; 8 Feb -> 15.7 mg; 15 Feb -> hold 2 weeks; 1 Mar -> 15.5 mg; 8 Mar -> 15.2 mg; 15 Mar -> hold; 5 Apr -> 14.9.  

 

Supplements: Vit D, Magesium L-threonate, Vit C, Zinc, Melatonin, Multivitamin

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  • Feeling somewhat Window-ish today 🙏. Actually woke up without a sense of fear and dread. First time in a while. I hope it gets even better and lasts 🙏

  • Fullhealing
    Fullhealing

    Don't believe what your mind is rambling now @Chuey nasty chemical wave, stay strong against it, easier said than done I know but it will pass and beautiful window will soon arrive again. I'm sor

  • Chuey
    Chuey

    Enjoying two days of a nice Window. 🙏  Happy Resurrection Day! ✝️

2 hours ago, Chuey said:

I've been feeling pretty "Windowish" the last week or so. Even to the point of ALMOST thinking "Wow, maybe I'm almost out of this mess." I'm not quite there yet, but definitely more hopeful of getting there. 🙏

Today though, has been more challenging with dread, sadness and fear and some DR/DP. What a crazy rollercoaster ride!

This is good news @Chuey I have days like this, knowing it’s probably not the case. But the fact you can recognise it’s possible is so positive. 😀

You are right. One crazy journey we are all on!

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. 

 

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

On 4/16/2026 at 2:43 AM, Chuey said:

I've been feeling pretty "Windowish" the last week or so. Even to the point of ALMOST thinking "Wow, maybe I'm almost out of this mess." I'm not quite there yet, but definitely more hopeful of getting there. 🙏

Today though, has been more challenging with dread, sadness and fear and some DR/DP. What a crazy rollercoaster ride!

That's good to hear. I hope you continue to improve and this feeling becomes more and more common.

Nothing I say is medical advice, it is simply my opinion. I am an anonymous person on an internet forum with no relevant qualifications other than being badly harmed by a drug. For all you know, I could be an idiot. You are making your own decisions and part of that is deciding how much to listen to my opinion, if at all.

 

Perhaps you should consider this post an artistic work of fiction written for entertainment purposes.


Story from SA: LukeUK: Remeron/Mirtazapine Severe Withdrawal - Introductions and updates - Surviving Antidepressants

 

15mg Remeron/Mirtazapine November starting 2022 (severe physical side effects)

Attempted to taper off January 2023, ended up having a major breakdown and going up to 30mg, took weeks to stabilise

1 month taper  to 0mg

Last dose April 2023

Severe withdrawal syndrome with many physical symptoms

Summary: 5 months using Mirtazapine, including 1 month taper ending late April 2023.

  • Author

Been feeling more like my "real self" lately. Not having to fight to control my mind as much, and when I do, it hasn't been as hard overall. Sometimes my mind is actually "holding" on its own which is really nice. Still some "rumblings" but nothing real bad lately. I've had periods like this before so I'm still just taking it one day at a time. But surely someday it will last. 🙏

1995: Started Paxil for depression, which resolved. Paxil was subsequently discontinued in 1996.

2001: Reinstated 10mg for AM Anxiety. Gradually built up to 50mg.

2008-2017: Buspar

2012-2017: Ativan

2016-2020: Several failed attempts to get off paxil through guesstimated tapering.

2020/2021: Began "slower" tapering/holding of paxil but the reductions in dosage were still too much at 6.25mg per reduction. 

June 2024: Last paxil dose of 6.25mg. Within 3 weeks, began experiencing a multitude of severe physical, mental and emotional symptoms. 

Supplements: 

Magnesium Glycinate 420mg 4x/day

Fish oil 

Cannabis

1 hour ago, Chuey said:

Been feeling more like my "real self" lately. Not having to fight to control my mind as much, and when I do, it hasn't been as hard overall. Sometimes my mind is actually "holding" on its own which is really nice. Still some "rumblings" but nothing real bad lately. I've had periods like this before so I'm still just taking it one day at a time. But surely someday it will last. 🙏

Great to hear! The path is often not straight, but such good signs. Even if the waves hit, you will be back in a window again before you know it. And eventually all you will have is nice clean clear Window :)

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. 

 

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

2 hours ago, Chuey said:

Been feeling more like my "real self" lately. Not having to fight to control my mind as much, and when I do, it hasn't been as hard overall. Sometimes my mind is actually "holding" on its own which is really nice. Still some "rumblings" but nothing real bad lately. I've had periods like this before so I'm still just taking it one day at a time. But surely someday it will last. 🙏

How encouraging to hear @Chuey happy for you!

Enjoy the good times and whatever comes I'm sure you'll face with bravery and strength 🙏

Edited by Fullhealing

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 20% 0.0358g (2mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of anxiety and sleep that seems to continue to improve.

2 hours ago, Chuey said:

Been feeling more like my "real self" lately. Not having to fight to control my mind as much, and when I do, it hasn't been as hard overall. Sometimes my mind is actually "holding" on its own which is really nice. Still some "rumblings" but nothing real bad lately. I've had periods like this before so I'm still just taking it one day at a time. But surely someday it will last. 🙏

That's really good news. I hope that it lasts soon too.

Nothing I say is medical advice, it is simply my opinion. I am an anonymous person on an internet forum with no relevant qualifications other than being badly harmed by a drug. For all you know, I could be an idiot. You are making your own decisions and part of that is deciding how much to listen to my opinion, if at all.

 

Perhaps you should consider this post an artistic work of fiction written for entertainment purposes.


Story from SA: LukeUK: Remeron/Mirtazapine Severe Withdrawal - Introductions and updates - Surviving Antidepressants

 

15mg Remeron/Mirtazapine November starting 2022 (severe physical side effects)

Attempted to taper off January 2023, ended up having a major breakdown and going up to 30mg, took weeks to stabilise

1 month taper  to 0mg

Last dose April 2023

Severe withdrawal syndrome with many physical symptoms

Summary: 5 months using Mirtazapine, including 1 month taper ending late April 2023.

  • 3 weeks later...
  • Author

This recovery process is literally about as fast as a handicapped snail!! 🩼🐌 😆😫

1995: Started Paxil for depression, which resolved. Paxil was subsequently discontinued in 1996.

2001: Reinstated 10mg for AM Anxiety. Gradually built up to 50mg.

2008-2017: Buspar

2012-2017: Ativan

2016-2020: Several failed attempts to get off paxil through guesstimated tapering.

2020/2021: Began "slower" tapering/holding of paxil but the reductions in dosage were still too much at 6.25mg per reduction. 

June 2024: Last paxil dose of 6.25mg. Within 3 weeks, began experiencing a multitude of severe physical, mental and emotional symptoms. 

Supplements: 

Magnesium Glycinate 420mg 4x/day

Fish oil 

Cannabis

4 minutes ago, Chuey said:

This recovery process is literally about as fast as a handicapped snail!! 🩼🐌 😆😫

Yes, it can seem like that. And its almost never consistent--it has a lot of ups and downs. But it does happen, albeit at its own pace. But we get there!

Started Paxil for GAD in 1999

Unsuccessful taper attempt in 2006

Paxilprogress helped with a successful taper completed in 2009

Using therapy and CBT to manage my anxiety
 

I offer advice based on my experience.  Nothing I share is intended to be medical or therapy advice. 

  • Author

Yes it does. Many things are way better, some things are somewhat better and some things are barely better. But the main thing is that its better and moving in the right direction! 🙏

1995: Started Paxil for depression, which resolved. Paxil was subsequently discontinued in 1996.

2001: Reinstated 10mg for AM Anxiety. Gradually built up to 50mg.

2008-2017: Buspar

2012-2017: Ativan

2016-2020: Several failed attempts to get off paxil through guesstimated tapering.

2020/2021: Began "slower" tapering/holding of paxil but the reductions in dosage were still too much at 6.25mg per reduction. 

June 2024: Last paxil dose of 6.25mg. Within 3 weeks, began experiencing a multitude of severe physical, mental and emotional symptoms. 

Supplements: 

Magnesium Glycinate 420mg 4x/day

Fish oil 

Cannabis

You’re making great progress! And we’re always here to support you.

Started Paxil for GAD in 1999

Unsuccessful taper attempt in 2006

Paxilprogress helped with a successful taper completed in 2009

Using therapy and CBT to manage my anxiety
 

I offer advice based on my experience.  Nothing I share is intended to be medical or therapy advice. 

  • 3 weeks later...
  • Author

This was my journal entry last Saturday night: "Can't say that the War is over, but the battles overall are Waaay less intense and frequent. 🙏"
The next day started the beginning of a wave that has lasted a week so far 😆
At least I can laugh about it! So, definitely improving but still really sucks!!

1995: Started Paxil for depression, which resolved. Paxil was subsequently discontinued in 1996.

2001: Reinstated 10mg for AM Anxiety. Gradually built up to 50mg.

2008-2017: Buspar

2012-2017: Ativan

2016-2020: Several failed attempts to get off paxil through guesstimated tapering.

2020/2021: Began "slower" tapering/holding of paxil but the reductions in dosage were still too much at 6.25mg per reduction. 

June 2024: Last paxil dose of 6.25mg. Within 3 weeks, began experiencing a multitude of severe physical, mental and emotional symptoms. 

Supplements: 

Magnesium Glycinate 420mg 4x/day

Fish oil 

Cannabis

18 minutes ago, Chuey said:

So, definitely improving but still really sucks

Sounds familiar Chuey! Good to keep a sense of humour!

Hope the wave passes swiftly!

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. 

 

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

4 hours ago, Chuey said:

This was my journal entry last Saturday night: "Can't say that the War is over, but the battles overall are Waaay less intense and frequent. 🙏"
The next day started the beginning of a wave that has lasted a week so far 😆
At least I can laugh about it! So, definitely improving but still really sucks!!

totally sucks indeed but amazing that you manage to keep your humor in those tough waves, shows that something is still working really well there!

time, we know, will do the rest.

Keep up the good work.

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 20% 0.0358g (2mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of anxiety and sleep that seems to continue to improve.

8 hours ago, Chuey said:

The next day started the beginning of a wave that has lasted a week so far 😆
At least I can laugh about it! So, definitely improving but still really sucks!!

As we make progress, the waves can hit a little harder because we think we're past them, or at least they shouldn't be as bad. But you know they won't last. You're doing great!

Started Paxil for GAD in 1999

Unsuccessful taper attempt in 2006

Paxilprogress helped with a successful taper completed in 2009

Using therapy and CBT to manage my anxiety
 

I offer advice based on my experience.  Nothing I share is intended to be medical or therapy advice. 

  • Author

It really is a blessing just to know that I'm not the only one dealing with this nightmare. I hate to say it, but just knowing that others have gone or are going through the same thing has been a source of encouragement.

1995: Started Paxil for depression, which resolved. Paxil was subsequently discontinued in 1996.

2001: Reinstated 10mg for AM Anxiety. Gradually built up to 50mg.

2008-2017: Buspar

2012-2017: Ativan

2016-2020: Several failed attempts to get off paxil through guesstimated tapering.

2020/2021: Began "slower" tapering/holding of paxil but the reductions in dosage were still too much at 6.25mg per reduction. 

June 2024: Last paxil dose of 6.25mg. Within 3 weeks, began experiencing a multitude of severe physical, mental and emotional symptoms. 

Supplements: 

Magnesium Glycinate 420mg 4x/day

Fish oil 

Cannabis

Hi @Chuey you are definitely not alone. I admire your heroism for jumping from such high dose. I envy people who are already off these poisons. Speedy recovery to you

1998 -1999 Paxil CT after 5 months.

1999 - 2024 every 2 to 4 years went from one SSRI to the next. That includes Luvox, Zoloft, Cymbalta, Celexa, Prozac, Lexapro.

2000-2024 lorazepam 2mg.

April 2024 one dose of Effexor, July 2024 one dose of Paxil, July 2024 two weeks of Mirtazapine. September 2024 Lexapro 10mg, Depakote 250mg, Vistaril 25 mg ,Proppranolol 10mg, Requip 2mg Trazadone. March 2025 off Depakote,Propranolol,vistaril,Trazadon.

March 2025 Zyprexa added at 2.5 mg.”for sleep and anxiety”. Went up to 7.5mg in June.

September 2025 started tapering Zyprexa and Requip.

February 2026 off of Zyprexa and Requip. Reduced Lexapro to 5mg

7/11/2026-4.5mg

41 minutes ago, Chuey said:

It really is a blessing just to know that I'm not the only one dealing with this nightmare. I hate to say it, but just knowing that others have gone or are going through the same thing has been a source of encouragement.

So true @Chuey in hellish moments this is the only place I feel understood although so sad that through the suffering of others..

I take comfort in knowing that there is an end to this and eventually we'll all get there, for you it's even closer xxx

Edited by Fullhealing

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 20% 0.0358g (2mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of anxiety and sleep that seems to continue to improve.

Feeling more like your "real self", and the war not being over but the battles getting easier, is all positive movement towards getting better at coming up towards 2 years off.

Hopefully you continue to improve in the near future.

Nothing I say is medical advice, it is simply my opinion. I am an anonymous person on an internet forum with no relevant qualifications other than being badly harmed by a drug. For all you know, I could be an idiot. You are making your own decisions and part of that is deciding how much to listen to my opinion, if at all.

 

Perhaps you should consider this post an artistic work of fiction written for entertainment purposes.


Story from SA: LukeUK: Remeron/Mirtazapine Severe Withdrawal - Introductions and updates - Surviving Antidepressants

 

15mg Remeron/Mirtazapine November starting 2022 (severe physical side effects)

Attempted to taper off January 2023, ended up having a major breakdown and going up to 30mg, took weeks to stabilise

1 month taper  to 0mg

Last dose April 2023

Severe withdrawal syndrome with many physical symptoms

Summary: 5 months using Mirtazapine, including 1 month taper ending late April 2023.

  • 3 weeks later...
  • Author

I had almost 2 weeks of a good Window. It was the longest good stretch I've had yet...almost seemed as if I was finally coming out ouf this hell.

But then last Thursday I painted my Father-in-Law's deck which turned into an all day project in the heat. I woke up Friday in a bad wave...still dealing with it.

Tomorrow will be 2 years since my last dose of PaxHell. I "know" I'm getting closer...but really wonder if the Waves will ever actually stop. 🫤

1995: Started Paxil for depression, which resolved. Paxil was subsequently discontinued in 1996.

2001: Reinstated 10mg for AM Anxiety. Gradually built up to 50mg.

2008-2017: Buspar

2012-2017: Ativan

2016-2020: Several failed attempts to get off paxil through guesstimated tapering.

2020/2021: Began "slower" tapering/holding of paxil but the reductions in dosage were still too much at 6.25mg per reduction. 

June 2024: Last paxil dose of 6.25mg. Within 3 weeks, began experiencing a multitude of severe physical, mental and emotional symptoms. 

Supplements: 

Magnesium Glycinate 420mg 4x/day

Fish oil 

Cannabis

5 minutes ago, Chuey said:

I "know" I'm getting closer...but really wonder if the Waves will ever actually stop. 🫤

They will, but it won't be anything dramatic, like a day when you can say "I've recovered"! Its a slow, gradual, almost imperceptible process till one day you realize you're no longer experiencing waves in triggering situations.

Started Paxil for GAD in 1999

Unsuccessful taper attempt in 2006

Paxilprogress helped with a successful taper completed in 2009

Using therapy and CBT to manage my anxiety
 

I offer advice based on my experience.  Nothing I share is intended to be medical or therapy advice. 

  • Author
11 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

They will, but it won't be anything dramatic, like a day when you can say "I've recovered"! Its a slow, gradual, almost imperceptible process till one day you realize you're no longer experiencing waves in triggering situations.

I hope my marriage can endure till that point. Its a good marriage, we've been through a lot together...but this has been hell like nothing I could have ever imagined.

1995: Started Paxil for depression, which resolved. Paxil was subsequently discontinued in 1996.

2001: Reinstated 10mg for AM Anxiety. Gradually built up to 50mg.

2008-2017: Buspar

2012-2017: Ativan

2016-2020: Several failed attempts to get off paxil through guesstimated tapering.

2020/2021: Began "slower" tapering/holding of paxil but the reductions in dosage were still too much at 6.25mg per reduction. 

June 2024: Last paxil dose of 6.25mg. Within 3 weeks, began experiencing a multitude of severe physical, mental and emotional symptoms. 

Supplements: 

Magnesium Glycinate 420mg 4x/day

Fish oil 

Cannabis

Just now, Chuey said:

I hope my marriage can endure till that point. Its a good marriage, we've been through a lot together...but this has been hell like nothing I could have ever imagined.

It will. I've been married 39 years and my wife was there for WD, recovery, and the times before Paxil when I was dealing with anxiety.

Started Paxil for GAD in 1999

Unsuccessful taper attempt in 2006

Paxilprogress helped with a successful taper completed in 2009

Using therapy and CBT to manage my anxiety
 

I offer advice based on my experience.  Nothing I share is intended to be medical or therapy advice. 

9 hours ago, Chuey said:

I had almost 2 weeks of a good Window. It was the longest good stretch I've had yet...almost seemed as if I was finally coming out ouf this hell.

This is amazing to hear! :)

9 hours ago, Chuey said:

But then last Thursday I painted my Father-in-Law's deck which turned into an all day project in the heat. I woke up Friday in a bad wave...still dealing with it.

Sorry you are back in a wave atm, stress can trigger this. Perhaps go a bit easier on yourself going forwards, I know it's frustrating but you come first!

9 hours ago, Chuey said:

Tomorrow will be 2 years since my last dose of PaxHell. I "know" I'm getting closer...but really wonder if the Waves will ever actually stop. 🫤

EVERYONE thinks this! But of course you will have more windows, and maybe more waves, but over time the windows will be longer and waves shorter. :)

9 hours ago, Chuey said:

I hope my marriage can endure till that point. Its a good marriage, we've been through a lot together...but this has been hell like nothing I could have ever imagined.

100% can and will!

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. 

 

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

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