Hi Beehive, Good to see you are feeling better again. Long may it last.

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Happy to hear @Beehive hope today continues this way for you. 😀

@Chippy Thank you slept really well and woke with no issues . I hope your journey is a lot smoother 🙏

11 minutes ago, Beehive said:

@Chippy Thank you slept really well and woke with no issues . I hope your journey is a lot smoother 🙏

Thats i great to hear! You are on your way! 😀

@Beehive Hi Beehive, just stopped by to see how you’re doing and I read about your waking up at 3:33 a.m. I remember getting that during my Sertraline withdrawal/taper too. Sometimes I’d fall back to sleep only to go through it all again 10 minutes later, and other times that energy was so strong that there was no chance of settling back to sleep after it started.

Were you able to get back to sleep eventually or were you up for the rest of the night… or morning really.

@RachelSusan Thanks for popping by ,generally once I was awake that was it no going back to sleep .unfortunately for myself I bought into it and definitely added the second fear plus I was tired . Hope your doing OK?

@Beehive So far I am good. I just started my Gabapentin taper. My Sertraline crash and subsequent taper is thankfully in my rear view mirror, but I haven't forgotten how awful it is. My insomnia was bad so I have a lot of empathy for your situation. I hope it resolves real soon for you.

I've had some really good moments whole days and afternoons lately and felt back to myself ,but when these waves hit like now I can go to pieces the actual wave is no different to the others ...total despair ,fear catastrophising panic crying like its the end of the world kind of thing . I'm wondering how much I contribute to the symptoms as I feel like I can't cope with the smallest thing and yet yesterday I had a whole day of feeling good . I'm not very good accepting these waves wish I could be less scared !!

3 minutes ago, Beehive said:

I've had some really good moments whole days and afternoons lately and felt back to myself ,but when these waves hit like now I can go to pieces the actual wave is no different to the others ...total despair ,fear catastrophising panic crying like its the end of the world kind of thing . I'm wondering how much I contribute to the symptoms as I feel like I can't cope with the smallest thing and yet yesterday I had a whole day of feeling good . I'm not very good accepting these waves wish I could be less scared !!

@Beehive This happens to me too. I can feel perfectly normal one day and the next exactly as you describe it. It’s incredibly difficult to explain how someone can shift from one state to another and your explanation validates everything I experience. You’re definitely not alone and you’re not going crazy.

@cheeky Thank you so much for that ❤️ it's so crazy and so hard how people accept this I will never know . I was fully functional yesterday planning things and just generally feeling good .Talk about complete opposite !! Sorry to hear you experience this as well but also comforting for myself to know I'm not alone in this ,that's if my head will allow me to feel comforted !!!!

Do anyone feel there is a time limit to these waves regardless of what we do ..I'm just sat on my bed have no desire to do anything is that wrong to sit it out or will it not make a difference!!

28 minutes ago, Beehive said:

Do anyone feel there is a time limit to these waves regardless of what we do ..I'm just sat on my bed have no desire to do anything is that wrong to sit it out or will it not make a difference!!

I think the body is doing all this inspite of us tbh. Stress and so on, makes things worse for sure, taking it easy is no bad thing IMO!

22 minutes ago, Beehive said:

@cheeky Thank you so much for that ❤️ it's so crazy and so hard how people accept this I will never know . I was fully functional yesterday planning things and just generally feeling good .Talk about complete opposite !! Sorry to hear you experience this as well but also comforting for myself to know I'm not alone in this ,that's if my head will allow me to feel comforted !!!!

I feel like it dosnt matter how many times we go through this , when one of those days hit , we go back into survival mode .

Just remember when your feeling bad that It's a sign that everything is recalibrating

@cheeky Absolutely agree no matter how many times I've done this and I know there is an end to it ,it doesn't matter all that goes out the window and you feel like youbare hanging on for dear life !!

41 minutes ago, Beehive said:

@cheeky Absolutely agree no matter how many times I've done this and I know there is an end to it ,it doesn't matter all that goes out the window and you feel like youbare hanging on for dear life !!

That's why support is so important . I really dont know what I would do without it

This one is punishing yes I'm not helping sitting on my bed dwelling on it but I can't push through it either ,I admire those that can @cheeky are you flattened by your bad waves !

9 minutes ago, Beehive said:

This one is punishing yes I'm not helping sitting on my bed dwelling on it but I can't push through it either ,I admire those that can @cheeky are you flattened by your bad waves !

You don't have to push through it , you just have to get to the next day the best you can . If you want to sit on your bed and have a cry DO IT there's nothing wrong with letting out emotion . This isn't our fault .

Later today I'm sure you'll be getting along doing things . It's a rollacoaster where on and we have to ride the ups and downs

@cheeky @Beehive I think Cheeky just gave great advice.

1 minute ago, cheeky said:

you just have to get to the next day the best you can

That is it in a nutshell. I called them my "sick days."

@cheeky @RachelSusan Thank you both ❤️❤️

The intensity is starting to ease this has happened before when I have woken early and not gone back to sleep the wave intensity seems to last 12 hours anyone else notice a time limit on their waves just out of curiosity 🤔

@Beehive Beehive, that is a difficult question to answer because I experienced both waves with time limits and additional symptoms without them. I had waves that lasted weeks or months where I could never predict an ending. I also dealt with smaller situations within those waves that lasted for shorter periods, and I could usually anticipate when those would conclude. I had what I called my "3 o’clockers." They brought acute, intense symptoms that were far worse than the general feeling of being unwell. While they did not happen every day, they were frequent and always arrived around 3 p.m., give or take 10 minutes. They were remarkably punctual. I knew they would last about an hour, and they never disappointed, as they went away right on schedule. I reached the point where I would schedule my day around the possibility of one occurring, ensuring I was at home rather than in public so I could deal with it in private.

Hope today is good for you @Beehive xxx

Bless you @Chippy well I had 8 hours sleep so that's a good start..not woken up too badly ,fingers crossed for a good day....and for yourself as well 🙏❤️

Edited May 11May 11 by Beehive

10 minutes ago, Beehive said:

Bless you @Chippy well I had 8 hours sleep so that's a good start..not woken up too badly ,fingers crossed for a good day....and for yourself as well 🙏❤️

That is great to hear! What a wonderful start to the day 😃

Always think of you @Chippy in bad times ...saying more healing is being done 😁