I hope it's a bit cooler today in and out @Beehive sending some love xxx

@Chippy @Tracey @Fullhealing Thank you all for the kind words ....because of the lack of sleep the night before I actually slept 10 hours with a fan on ...the heat didn't drop much at night 12.30 here already 26 °c and getting up to 29 ° c ....feel better as I've slept ...hope you are all coping as well as can be ❤️🙏

4 minutes ago, Beehive said:

@Chippy @Tracey @Fullhealing Thank you all for the kind words ....because of the lack of sleep the night before I actually slept 10 hours with a fan on ...the heat didn't drop much at night 12.30 here already 26 °c and getting up to 29 ° c ....feel better as I've slept ...hope you are all coping as well as can be ❤️🙏

Good to hear Beehive. I hope the heat doesn’t cause you too much stress today.

@Chippy Up to 32°c now but coping OK 😊

16 minutes ago, Beehive said:

@Chippy Up to 32°c now but coping OK 😊

Wow! Good to hear you are doing alright though!

@Chippy Yes I believe getting the good sleep makes all the difference...I hope you are sleeping OK ❤️

1 minute ago, Beehive said:

@Chippy Yes I believe getting the good sleep makes all the difference...I hope you are sleeping OK ❤️

Yes definitely! I’ve not slept properly since stopping Mirtazapine. It gotten better but still very off. I’m hoping one day it will go back to normal! I used to be a very good sleeper.

@Chippy Really sorry to hear that but also feel I should have known ....I know a few people who have been put on Mirtazapine for sleep issues ,obviously you never had those but maybe coming off it has affected that again obviously....I'm sure once your system stabilises a bit more your sleep cycle will go back to normal well that's what i truly hope for you 🤞❤️

7 minutes ago, Beehive said:

@Chippy Really sorry to hear that but also feel I should have known ....I know a few people who have been put on Mirtazapine for sleep issues ,obviously you never had those but maybe coming off it has affected that again obviously....I'm sure once your system stabilises a bit more your sleep cycle will go back to normal well that's what i truly hope for you 🤞❤️

Unfortunately Mirtazapine messes with sleep architecture, all ADs can do this but Mirt is the worse imo. The sleep issues you get put on it for are nothing like the sleep issues Mirt causes, its an awful drug. I sleep lots of hours, but it is often broken, most days I feel ok and rested enough but some days the sleep is hollow, like I was just unconcious for the night, so I wake and feel like I have not slept, that is common too. I hope it comes back fully one day I have my fingers crossed.

@Chippy I'm absolutely sure it will ❤️

5 minutes ago, Beehive said:

@Chippy I'm absolutely sure it will ❤️

Thanks Beehive. Me too! Our bodies are amazing and know how to sort this all out, just not quickly apparently 😂

1 minute ago, Chippy said:

Thanks Beehive. Me too! Our bodies are amazing and know how to sort this all out, just not quickly apparently 😂

If it was that easy we wouldn't come out the other side more stronger and resilient for it ❤️

14 minutes ago, Beehive said:

If it was that easy we wouldn't come out the other side more stronger and resilient for it ❤️

It’s true! We will all have super powers the other side of this! I’m convinced!

8 hours ago, Beehive said:

@Chippy Up to 32°c now but coping OK 😊

@Beehive it’s been raining here for over 4 weeks, almost non stop. Very tropical. The temperature has cooled considerably but there’s still a lot of humidity.

@Catbird That's a lot of rain ...how are you doing?

1 hour ago, Beehive said:

@Catbird That's a lot of rain ...how are you doing?

Yes @Beehive I live in a flood prone area, but not where we reside. I've just had 3-4 weeks of crippling abdominal myofascial pain which then spread to my whole torso. I've been totally incapacitated by it. One day I woke up and it was just gone, although it revisited a little bit yesterday morning - not as strong and not as long. Reminded me of a hold I did last year where all the cumulative WD symptoms hit me all at once. It was like trying to weather an awful storm. It went on for months culminating in a day or 2 of projectile vomiting with SVT. Then a day or two later it was all over.

Hope you're doing okay 🤗🤗💕

@Catbird so sorry you've had to suffer like that ,you are a very strong person ,so glad that has stopped for you 🙏...hope your journey forward is a lot smoother from now on ...I've woken with some panic ,I don't deal with this very well all my Insecurities and vulnerability starts to come out and it feels like it will never go ...but we know it does...I do cry in despair when I'm like this ❤️

3 hours ago, Beehive said:

@Catbird so sorry you've had to suffer like that ,you are a very strong person ,so glad that has stopped for you 🙏...hope your journey forward is a lot smoother from now on ...I've woken with some panic ,I don't deal with this very well all my Insecurities and vulnerability starts to come out and it feels like it will never go ...but we know it does...I do cry in despair when I'm like this ❤️

So sorry for waking up like that @Beehive hate those mornings! hopefully it'll ease for you very quickly, hugs 🩷

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4 hours ago, Beehive said:

@Catbird so sorry you've had to suffer like that ,you are a very strong person ,so glad that has stopped for you 🙏...hope your journey forward is a lot smoother from now on ...I've woken with some panic ,I don't deal with this very well all my Insecurities and vulnerability starts to come out and it feels like it will never go ...but we know it does...I do cry in despair when I'm like this ❤️

Looks like you’ve made good progress @Beehive . Have you structured any long holds? I’ve found holds seem to let things settle to let me live for a while and not spend all my time tapering. I know I’ll be tapering for many years and I don’t want to regret not doing things whilst I can.

@Catbird still holding at my last dose

Good idea 🤗

Has anyone felt really panicky like they are going crazy and can't sit still but their body isn't panicky ?...and feel like they can't catch a breath..I've been working with this most of the day and its exhausting

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35 minutes ago, Beehive said:

Has anyone felt really panicky like they are going crazy and can't sit still but their body isn't panicky ?...and feel like they can't catch a breath..I've been working with this most of the day and its exhausting

Oh @Beehive what a tough day you're having, I'm so sorry!

This awful inner restlessness sounds like akathisia, sometimes breathing exercises as well as physical helps me, sometimes it's like cupping for the dead and no choice but to wait for it to pass by itself.

Hang in there, you are strong to handle it, as you have before

Hopes it ends very soon 🙏❤️

49 minutes ago, Beehive said:

Est-ce que quelqu'un a déjà ressenti une panique intense, comme s'il allait devenir fou et qu'il était incapable de rester en place, alors que son corps ne réagissait pas de la même manière ?… et a l'impression de manquer d'air… J'ai passé la majeure partie de la journée à gérer ça et c'est épuisant.

Yes. It looks like akathisia. It’s terrifying. The best thing to do is to try to change your location and divert your thoughts. It can helps. But with the heatwave, it’s not easy to go for a quick walk...

1 minute ago, poulette38 said:

Yes. It looks like akathisia. It’s terrifying. The best thing to do is to try to change your location and divert your thoughts. It can helps. But with the heatwave, it’s not easy to go for a quick walk...

The heat definitely hasn't helped 😫 Thank you ❤️