June 29Jun 29 @Dnepr1234 You hanging in there? For US members: Please report med to FDA Med Watch2017 (May) - Ativan .5 mg (3 x Daily) 2018 (Feb) - Mirtazapine 7.5 mg 2018 (May) - Ativan to Valium - Switch - Can’t Remember how long it took -tapered to 3 mg of Valium2024 (May) - Valium Tolerance2024 (2 Nov) - Completed taper off Valium 2024 (2 Nov) - Mirtazapine increased to 15 mg2025 (Feb) - Ativan 0.25 mg (3 x Daily) - Became Paradoxical - Started weaning got to 0.11mg2025 (Mar) - Ativan 0mg - CT In detox2025 (April) Started Depakote 1500mg - In detox2025 (April) - Depakote 500mg (2 x Daily) once home2025 (Aug) - Completed taper off Depakote2025 (Aug) - Akathisia surges throughout the day with calming in between2025 (Sept) - Gabapentin (Micro Dose) - Was calming at first and then became paradoxical so stop2025 (Oct) - Depakote - RI – (Two days of small dose) Became scared and stopped with WD & aka2025 (Oct) - Seroquel 50 mg XR – 1 Week - more and more activating and increased aka2025 (Oct) - Psychiatrist told me to stop it. But I took a few days of a smaller dose of IR then stopped - Not activating2025 (Nov) - Hydroxyzine 2.5mg - it was paradoxical so stopped2025 (1 Dec) - Mirtazapine 22.5mg - (2 Days) Was incredibly overstimulating started reducing to previous2025 (3 Dec) - Mirtazapine 18.75mg2025 (10 Dec) - Mirtazapine 16.87mg2025 (22 Dec) - Mirtazapine 15mg2026 (23Jan) - Mirtazapine 14.7mg2026 (23 Jan) - Mirtazapine 1mg Panic dose2026 (24 Jan) - Mirtazapine 15mg2026 (25 Feb) – Mirtazapine 14.7mg (-2%)2026 (18 Mar) - propranolol 2.5 mg one time2026 (21 Mar)- Mirtazapine- 15 mg accidentally in sleepy state2026 (22 Mar) - Mirtazapine 14.79 mg (more accurate scales) 2026 (29 April) Mirtazapine 14.7 mg (on suggestion of Horowitz) immediate intense symptoms2026 (30 April) Mirtazapine 14.79 mg2026 (23 May) propranolol 2.5 mg one time2026 (01 June) Mirtazapine 14.79 mg dose was 5 hours late
June 29Jun 29 Author Yes, thank you for asking @Finni . Last two days were very rough. These waves do not seem to ease up yet. My Friday window was beautiful but short lived. Yesterday and today brutal. Inner Akathisia, terror, crying and the rest. How are you? How is your day? Hope it gets easier for all of us.Praying 🙏 1998 -1999 Paxil CT after 5 months.1999 - 2024 every 2 to 4 years went from one SSRI to the next. That includes Luvox, Zoloft, Cymbalta, Celexa, Prozac, Lexapro.2000-2024 lorazepam 2mg.April 2024 one dose of Effexor, July 2024 one dose of Paxil, July 2024 two weeks of Mirtazapine. September 2024 Lexapro 10mg, Depakote 250mg, Vistaril 25 mg ,Proppranolol 10mg, Requip 2mg Trazadone. March 2025 off Depakote,Propranolol,vistaril,Trazadon.March 2025 Zyprexa added at 2.5 mg.”for sleep and anxiety”. Went up to 7.5mg in June.September 2025 started tapering Zyprexa and Requip.February 2026 off of Zyprexa and Requip. Reduced Lexapro to 5mg7/11/2026-4.5mg
June 29Jun 29 5 hours ago, Dnepr1234 said:My Friday window was beautiful but short lived.@Dnepr1234 I am so pleased to read of this window for you. Fantastic news, there will be more. Healing is happening. :) I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
June 29Jun 29 9 hours ago, Dnepr1234 said:Yes, thank you for asking @Finni . Last two days were very rough. These waves do not seem to ease up yet. My Friday window was beautiful but short lived. Yesterday and today brutal. Inner Akathisia, terror, crying and the rest.How are you? How is your day? Hope it gets easier for all of us.Praying 🙏I know you are beyond ready for those windows to lengthen. I’m glad you had a beautiful day Friday. 🌿🤗I’m on a strange cycle that has been there for a long time, but just not this intense. Inner aka is part of it, ter*or, big vestibular sxs, then it moves to muscle tightness, diaphragm involvement, hard to breathe, head pressure. Then after my body goes through that 2 day cycle I sometimes have a dirty window for several hours in the evening where I feel like myself even with some electricity and vestibular stuff. Edited June 29Jun 29 by Finni For US members: Please report med to FDA Med Watch2017 (May) - Ativan .5 mg (3 x Daily) 2018 (Feb) - Mirtazapine 7.5 mg 2018 (May) - Ativan to Valium - Switch - Can’t Remember how long it took -tapered to 3 mg of Valium2024 (May) - Valium Tolerance2024 (2 Nov) - Completed taper off Valium 2024 (2 Nov) - Mirtazapine increased to 15 mg2025 (Feb) - Ativan 0.25 mg (3 x Daily) - Became Paradoxical - Started weaning got to 0.11mg2025 (Mar) - Ativan 0mg - CT In detox2025 (April) Started Depakote 1500mg - In detox2025 (April) - Depakote 500mg (2 x Daily) once home2025 (Aug) - Completed taper off Depakote2025 (Aug) - Akathisia surges throughout the day with calming in between2025 (Sept) - Gabapentin (Micro Dose) - Was calming at first and then became paradoxical so stop2025 (Oct) - Depakote - RI – (Two days of small dose) Became scared and stopped with WD & aka2025 (Oct) - Seroquel 50 mg XR – 1 Week - more and more activating and increased aka2025 (Oct) - Psychiatrist told me to stop it. But I took a few days of a smaller dose of IR then stopped - Not activating2025 (Nov) - Hydroxyzine 2.5mg - it was paradoxical so stopped2025 (1 Dec) - Mirtazapine 22.5mg - (2 Days) Was incredibly overstimulating started reducing to previous2025 (3 Dec) - Mirtazapine 18.75mg2025 (10 Dec) - Mirtazapine 16.87mg2025 (22 Dec) - Mirtazapine 15mg2026 (23Jan) - Mirtazapine 14.7mg2026 (23 Jan) - Mirtazapine 1mg Panic dose2026 (24 Jan) - Mirtazapine 15mg2026 (25 Feb) – Mirtazapine 14.7mg (-2%)2026 (18 Mar) - propranolol 2.5 mg one time2026 (21 Mar)- Mirtazapine- 15 mg accidentally in sleepy state2026 (22 Mar) - Mirtazapine 14.79 mg (more accurate scales) 2026 (29 April) Mirtazapine 14.7 mg (on suggestion of Horowitz) immediate intense symptoms2026 (30 April) Mirtazapine 14.79 mg2026 (23 May) propranolol 2.5 mg one time2026 (01 June) Mirtazapine 14.79 mg dose was 5 hours late
July 10Jul 10 Hi, @Dnepr1234 How’s it going? For US members: Please report med to FDA Med Watch2017 (May) - Ativan .5 mg (3 x Daily) 2018 (Feb) - Mirtazapine 7.5 mg 2018 (May) - Ativan to Valium - Switch - Can’t Remember how long it took -tapered to 3 mg of Valium2024 (May) - Valium Tolerance2024 (2 Nov) - Completed taper off Valium 2024 (2 Nov) - Mirtazapine increased to 15 mg2025 (Feb) - Ativan 0.25 mg (3 x Daily) - Became Paradoxical - Started weaning got to 0.11mg2025 (Mar) - Ativan 0mg - CT In detox2025 (April) Started Depakote 1500mg - In detox2025 (April) - Depakote 500mg (2 x Daily) once home2025 (Aug) - Completed taper off Depakote2025 (Aug) - Akathisia surges throughout the day with calming in between2025 (Sept) - Gabapentin (Micro Dose) - Was calming at first and then became paradoxical so stop2025 (Oct) - Depakote - RI – (Two days of small dose) Became scared and stopped with WD & aka2025 (Oct) - Seroquel 50 mg XR – 1 Week - more and more activating and increased aka2025 (Oct) - Psychiatrist told me to stop it. But I took a few days of a smaller dose of IR then stopped - Not activating2025 (Nov) - Hydroxyzine 2.5mg - it was paradoxical so stopped2025 (1 Dec) - Mirtazapine 22.5mg - (2 Days) Was incredibly overstimulating started reducing to previous2025 (3 Dec) - Mirtazapine 18.75mg2025 (10 Dec) - Mirtazapine 16.87mg2025 (22 Dec) - Mirtazapine 15mg2026 (23Jan) - Mirtazapine 14.7mg2026 (23 Jan) - Mirtazapine 1mg Panic dose2026 (24 Jan) - Mirtazapine 15mg2026 (25 Feb) – Mirtazapine 14.7mg (-2%)2026 (18 Mar) - propranolol 2.5 mg one time2026 (21 Mar)- Mirtazapine- 15 mg accidentally in sleepy state2026 (22 Mar) - Mirtazapine 14.79 mg (more accurate scales) 2026 (29 April) Mirtazapine 14.7 mg (on suggestion of Horowitz) immediate intense symptoms2026 (30 April) Mirtazapine 14.79 mg2026 (23 May) propranolol 2.5 mg one time2026 (01 June) Mirtazapine 14.79 mg dose was 5 hours late
July 10Jul 10 Author Hi dear @Finni, thank you for asking. My pattern remains the same. 1-2 day window followed by 3-4 day wave. In the window most of my symptoms go away except brain fog. I feel 80% myself, feel comfortable in my own skin. Able to watch a movie, play video games, drive to the store.In a wave I feel paralyzed by dread, gloom, misery. Internal Akathisia, electric sensation in my body is relentless. I cry a lot. Sorry for bad news. 1998 -1999 Paxil CT after 5 months.1999 - 2024 every 2 to 4 years went from one SSRI to the next. That includes Luvox, Zoloft, Cymbalta, Celexa, Prozac, Lexapro.2000-2024 lorazepam 2mg.April 2024 one dose of Effexor, July 2024 one dose of Paxil, July 2024 two weeks of Mirtazapine. September 2024 Lexapro 10mg, Depakote 250mg, Vistaril 25 mg ,Proppranolol 10mg, Requip 2mg Trazadone. March 2025 off Depakote,Propranolol,vistaril,Trazadon.March 2025 Zyprexa added at 2.5 mg.”for sleep and anxiety”. Went up to 7.5mg in June.September 2025 started tapering Zyprexa and Requip.February 2026 off of Zyprexa and Requip. Reduced Lexapro to 5mg7/11/2026-4.5mg
July 10Jul 10 11 minutes ago, Dnepr1234 said:Hi dear @Finni, thank you for asking. My pattern remains the same. 1-2 day window followed by 3-4 day wave. In the window most of my symptoms go away except brain fog. I feel 80% myself, feel comfortable in my own skin. Able to watch a movie, play video games, drive to the store.In a wave I feel paralyzed by dread, gloom, misery. Internal Akathisia, electric sensation in my body is relentless. I cry a lot. Sorry for bad news.It’s okay! I’m just so happy you’re having good windows. Sounds like your cns is on the Heaven/Hell plan. For US members: Please report med to FDA Med Watch2017 (May) - Ativan .5 mg (3 x Daily) 2018 (Feb) - Mirtazapine 7.5 mg 2018 (May) - Ativan to Valium - Switch - Can’t Remember how long it took -tapered to 3 mg of Valium2024 (May) - Valium Tolerance2024 (2 Nov) - Completed taper off Valium 2024 (2 Nov) - Mirtazapine increased to 15 mg2025 (Feb) - Ativan 0.25 mg (3 x Daily) - Became Paradoxical - Started weaning got to 0.11mg2025 (Mar) - Ativan 0mg - CT In detox2025 (April) Started Depakote 1500mg - In detox2025 (April) - Depakote 500mg (2 x Daily) once home2025 (Aug) - Completed taper off Depakote2025 (Aug) - Akathisia surges throughout the day with calming in between2025 (Sept) - Gabapentin (Micro Dose) - Was calming at first and then became paradoxical so stop2025 (Oct) - Depakote - RI – (Two days of small dose) Became scared and stopped with WD & aka2025 (Oct) - Seroquel 50 mg XR – 1 Week - more and more activating and increased aka2025 (Oct) - Psychiatrist told me to stop it. But I took a few days of a smaller dose of IR then stopped - Not activating2025 (Nov) - Hydroxyzine 2.5mg - it was paradoxical so stopped2025 (1 Dec) - Mirtazapine 22.5mg - (2 Days) Was incredibly overstimulating started reducing to previous2025 (3 Dec) - Mirtazapine 18.75mg2025 (10 Dec) - Mirtazapine 16.87mg2025 (22 Dec) - Mirtazapine 15mg2026 (23Jan) - Mirtazapine 14.7mg2026 (23 Jan) - Mirtazapine 1mg Panic dose2026 (24 Jan) - Mirtazapine 15mg2026 (25 Feb) – Mirtazapine 14.7mg (-2%)2026 (18 Mar) - propranolol 2.5 mg one time2026 (21 Mar)- Mirtazapine- 15 mg accidentally in sleepy state2026 (22 Mar) - Mirtazapine 14.79 mg (more accurate scales) 2026 (29 April) Mirtazapine 14.7 mg (on suggestion of Horowitz) immediate intense symptoms2026 (30 April) Mirtazapine 14.79 mg2026 (23 May) propranolol 2.5 mg one time2026 (01 June) Mirtazapine 14.79 mg dose was 5 hours late
Sunday at 06:21 PM5 days Author Have a question. How do I update my signature? When I go to my profile I don’t see that option.Thanks 1998 -1999 Paxil CT after 5 months.1999 - 2024 every 2 to 4 years went from one SSRI to the next. That includes Luvox, Zoloft, Cymbalta, Celexa, Prozac, Lexapro.2000-2024 lorazepam 2mg.April 2024 one dose of Effexor, July 2024 one dose of Paxil, July 2024 two weeks of Mirtazapine. September 2024 Lexapro 10mg, Depakote 250mg, Vistaril 25 mg ,Proppranolol 10mg, Requip 2mg Trazadone. March 2025 off Depakote,Propranolol,vistaril,Trazadon.March 2025 Zyprexa added at 2.5 mg.”for sleep and anxiety”. Went up to 7.5mg in June.September 2025 started tapering Zyprexa and Requip.February 2026 off of Zyprexa and Requip. Reduced Lexapro to 5mg7/11/2026-4.5mg
Sunday at 06:54 PM5 days Hi @Dnepr1234,Go to your account in the upper right corner > Go to "account settings" > "settings area" > then at the bottom of the menu that rolls open, you'll find "signature". Took trazodone from June 2023 to November 2023. Didn't notice any withdrawal symptoms when I came off. 2023-07-04: started taking paroxetine, 20 mg.2023-07-30: increased dose to 30 mg.2023-08-26: lowered dose to 20 mg.2024-03-21: lowered dose to 10 mg.2024-07-10: lowered dose to 5 mg.2024-07-26: 0 mg 2024-08-14: reinstated on another AD, this time 10 mg of escitalopram.2024-11-24: lowered dose to 7.5 mg.2025-01-15: lowered dose to 5 mg.2025-03-01: lowered dose to 3.75 mg. (with pill cutter)2025-03-26: lowered dose to 2.5 mg. (with pill cutter)2025-04-23: lowered dose to 1.25 mg. (with pill cutter)2025-05-24: 0 mg Started Rosuvastatin in October 2024 due to high cholesterol. On a break from this med from April 2026 until July 2026. Current supplements: None at the moment
Sunday at 07:11 PM5 days Author Thank you very much @Niels91 🙏 1998 -1999 Paxil CT after 5 months.1999 - 2024 every 2 to 4 years went from one SSRI to the next. That includes Luvox, Zoloft, Cymbalta, Celexa, Prozac, Lexapro.2000-2024 lorazepam 2mg.April 2024 one dose of Effexor, July 2024 one dose of Paxil, July 2024 two weeks of Mirtazapine. September 2024 Lexapro 10mg, Depakote 250mg, Vistaril 25 mg ,Proppranolol 10mg, Requip 2mg Trazadone. March 2025 off Depakote,Propranolol,vistaril,Trazadon.March 2025 Zyprexa added at 2.5 mg.”for sleep and anxiety”. Went up to 7.5mg in June.September 2025 started tapering Zyprexa and Requip.February 2026 off of Zyprexa and Requip. Reduced Lexapro to 5mg7/11/2026-4.5mg
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