Just a update to my thread I continue on this crazy rollercoaster ride of windows and waves. I track it on my calendar and it is just chaos ive just come out of a 10 day wave of feeling hopeless to now being in a window for the last 3 days. Most of my symptoms do resolve in my windows. Depression goes, tinnitus goes, digestion is better, sex drive is better, anhedonia is still there to a degree but it’s different it’s like I have motivation and interest but not strong like before my love and happiness is still muted although better then before. I notice stress can literally send me into a wave before the 10 day wave I had an argument with my Mrs and everything went bad by the next day. Pins and needles in hands and feet, worse sleep, raging tinnitus, hopelessness, anhedonia worse, dead sex drive so Im basically just trying to avoid any stress at all to hopefully help this process along. Im 13 months into this and am actually happy with my progress I really thought I was doomed considering the overdose i took and the hardcore drug I stopped. In my windows it’s beautiful I wake up feeling so nice not that darkness which you wake up in while in a wave. My interests on Xbox come back and I start to crave to have a football gamble (common Millwall) I realise ive still got a long way to go but if this process continues the way it is Im not scared of it anymore. Im still holding steady on my dose and won’t drop until I am fully healed and maybe more. I am still routinely working on my microbiome as this all started a day after my fmt procedure. Keep strong all and **** big pharma ❤️👊👍
