@SparklingG i'm hoping for you will never more experience automutilation now! It was just because of the medication. I had a "flash" of automutilation after a change in dosage. It was enough... Never had these ideas before all these dangerous medication !! 😡

3 hours ago, poulette38 said:

Thank you @SparklingG and @Mars for your anxers, it's very kind. During the WD, did you feel always tailled ? Is it better now for this symptom?

Hi again..I'm still in WD...and I'm curious what you mean by feeling "tailled". I know english may not be your first language, so it could be a total mistranslation. LOL. But I want to understand.

 

Merci!!!

Tired * 

On 2/11/2026 at 2:23 PM, poulette38 said:

One year of a whole life, for only "feeling better" (not 100% restablissed), it's very hard... if these medication are so powerfull, why doctors don't tell this ? It's just criminality, nothing more.

Hi @poulette38, nice to meet you 🙂

 

I feel your doubt and frustration, I completely understand, but I recommend not spending too much time being angry at the doctors and psychiatrists. That won't help you feel better, unfortunately.

 

The best thing we can do is to try and live our lives and accept what we feel in the moment. Yes, this is very hard but it is possible.

 

I feel uncertain as well, especially now as I'm back in a wave, but when I see how many people have come out of this and shared their success story, then surely we must be able to come out of this too.

 

One step at a time.

 

Niels

Hello @Niels91.

 

nice to meet you too. 🙂

 

How do you feel now ? You stopped medication 2 years ago... ?

Hello @poulette38, I stopped my medication 8 months ago after a taper period of 6 months.

 

I still experience the windows and waves pattern. Waves are still rough with anhedonia, aversion, avolition, fatigue, etc. Windows have improved over time but I still experience symptoms, just less than when I'm in a wave. Generally speaking, my windows also last longer than my waves.

 

Are you feeling a little better?

 

Niels

We have to ignore the symptoms, lol. I sleep a lot (most of the time without dreams, nightmares, or waking up, or if I wake up, I fall back asleep), yet I'm exhausted... it's very frustrating because I'd like to do a thousand things during the day, and I often don't end up doing much... my soul is definitely separate from my brain and body! Sometimes I get headaches during the day Bruises/painful spots to the touch (neuralgia) in certain areas of my head... 24h/24 electric tingling in my head and in certain parts of my body. But! I enjoy listening to music and doing certain things during the day.How are you those days? Are you able to work ? 

 

 

I am able to work for now. Unfortunately, I got dismissed from my current job at the end of 2025 and I have to find a new job now but it's very difficult since I am dealing with anhedonia... I really hope things get better soon.

Why not a partial time, if it's possible in your work?

You worked at the beginning of your sevrage ? 
 

We have to ignore the symptoms, lol. I sleep a lot (most of the time without dreams, nightmares, or waking up, or if I wake up, I fall back asleep), yet I'm exhausted... it's very frustrating because I'd like to do a thousand things during the day, and I often don't end up doing much... my soul is definitely separate from my brain and body! Sometimes I get headaches during the day Bruises/painful spots to the touch (neuralgia) in certain areas of my head... 24h/24 electric tingling in my head and in certain parts of my body. But! I enjoy listening to music and doing certain things during the day.How are you those days? Are you able to work ?

 

@Niels91, I am also in hellish anhedonia caused by Paxil. I am tapering now .3 mg Mirtazipine. Have you experienced a decrease of the anhedonia after reaching 0?

 

@skamen Yes, the anhedonia is decreasing but it is very slow. Sometimes I find myself overthinking and wondering what the hell is going on? Am I missing something? What can I do to get better? It's frustrating and tiring since we all just want answers.

1 hour ago, Niels91 said:

@skamen Yes, the anhedonia is decreasing but it is very slow. Sometimes I find myself overthinking and wondering what the hell is going on? Am I missing something? What can I do to get better? It's frustrating and tiring since we all just want answers.

 

At less than a year taking 0 psychiatric drugs, there is a lot of precedent for further healing from anhedonia.

Hi @poulette38 how are you doing?

Salut@Sophia

Aujourd'hui, j'ai passé une belle journée, j'ai beaucoup marché dans la nature et il faisait beau.☀️

 

Je n'ai pas pleuré pour la première fois depuis des mois.🤦‍♀️

Mon sommeil est également assez bon (mais je dors beaucoup parfois, ce qui n'est pas une mauvaise chose, je pense), mon appétit est encore faible. 

Des symptômes physiques persistent (comme une sensation de tête « bloquée » avec une sensation étrange à l'avant de la tête, des démangeaisons, un mauvais équilibre et une maladresse, des picotements dans le corps et le visage...)

 

Vous vous sentez mieux ? Quels sont vos symptômes ces jours-ci ?☺️

 

PS: I don't know if you are Christian or not but I'm and I pray the Lord every day. 🙏 today almost all the day everywhere I was, but other days, at least in the evening. 

Edited February 21Feb 21 by poulette38

The link (for the pain) :

 

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/10914-what-is-happening-in-your-brain/#comment-199680

Edited February 22Feb 22 by poulette38

Hi everyone.

I have an appointment with a psychiatrist soon, for the first time. I'm scared.

Do I have an appointment with the devil again?
Can someone share their experience, please? How goes the first consultation? 

Just now, poulette38 said:

Hi everyone.

I have an appointment with a psychiatrist soon, for the first time. I'm scared.

Do I have an appointment with the devil again?
Can someone share their experience, please? How goes the first consultation? 

I’d be careful. They don’t often understand drug harms and only see relapse. If you need to see one for a prescription that makes sense but I don’t think they have much to offer you besides this. 

Do you have an appointment to discuss the withdrawal? Or do you want to discuss mental health issues ? 

36 minutes ago, poulette38 said:

Do I have an appointment with the devil again?

Probably yes. My colleagues are ignorant and even at the best of times only think in black and white terms and what the textbook tells them. Think very carefully about what your expectations are. If you expect help, support, understanding and a potential solution, you may need to radically adjust your expectations. The first question I would ask, before you let them interview you, is "How much knowledge do you have of antidepressant withdrawal syndromes?" 

9 minutes ago, Sminismoni said:

How much knowledge do you have of antidepressant withdrawal syndromes?" 

100%. 

I go there mainly to get help with withdrawal, so your question is perfect, thank you. 
I will not be led down paths that are not mine. It led me to this.
I am afraid of encountering yet another manipulator who will be brutal in his remarks or attitude ; given what they dare to prescribe to people, it wouldn’t surprise me that they are as violent as their pills.
I’m hesitating a lot. Afterwards, I had some response, but you all know as well as I do that we are still very fragile in withdrawal. 

Anyway, if it scares me more than anything else, I won’t go back.
I have already learned a lot thanks to the old forum and this one. I go there to find scientific answers and knowledge, not to see myself labeled with a disorder that I don’t have.

When I think I heard one day ''psychiatrists are the most human doctors''... Oh yes, human with a whip? Human with an axe on people’s heads? 
I still think that good psychiatrists must exist. But I also think there must be very few. So... is it Russian roulette starting again?

Another psychiatrist told me " fluoxetine withdrawal is 'mild'". We really don’t have the same definition of 'mild', as***e!
My life was sweet before your damn treatment, that’s for sure! 😡

Hey, guys, let me tell you something else... first online consultation, I log in and hear a sepulchral voice telling me "are you being followed by a psychiatrist?!!" Just this question, not hello. And then, guys, I see Jafar !!! 🤣🤣🤣 (true story) I jumped 😑
Have you noticed that they are all physically frightening? 

Edited March 2Mar 2 by poulette38

10 minutes ago, poulette38 said:

I still think that good psychiatrists must exist

I try my best to be one. There are a few.

8 hours ago, poulette38 said:

have already learned a lot thanks to the old forum and this one. I go there to find scientific answers and knowledge, not to see myself labeled with a disorder that I don’t have.

Glad sa and here have been useful. I suspect you’ll not get any answers from a psychologist all the science is on SA, at least what little there is. Most is lived experience. There hasn’t been any scientific research done in this field still really. 
 

Glad you’re aware and will be vigilant when visiting them. Let us know what is said. 
 

Chippy