1 hour ago, Saar8srl said:

I’m sorry. What are your symptoms?

My symptoms are:

1. Depersonalization

2. Derealization

3. Agoraphobia

4. Severe anxiety

5. Visual disturbances

6. Hypnic jerks

7. Insomnia or hypersomnia

8. Gastrointestinal issues

9. Vascular issues

10. Dizziness

11. Severe lethargy

12. Urinary tract issues

13. Brain zaps

14. Emotional numbness

15. Intrusive thoughts

16. Racing thoughts

17. Anger and irritability

18. Loss of appetite or binge eating

19. Lymphatic system irritation

20. Balance issues

21. Panic attacks

22. Flu-like symptoms

23. Forgetfulness

24. Concentration difficulties

25. Brain fog

26. Ear ringing

23 minutes ago, lost4ever said:

attacks

So you also have depression and anhedonia .. it’s very bad . But thank God you can do things .. I am mostly in my bed

7 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

So you also have depression and anhedonia .. it’s very bad . But thank God you can do things .. I am mostly in my bed

I can say that I have learned to do things without any desire; in fact, I don't even know why I do them. What torments me is the fear without any reason

5 hours ago, lost4ever said:

I can say that I have learned to do things without any desire; in fact, I don't even know why I do them. What torments me is the fear without any reason

Are you doing your things with some kind of urge to do it. Like some "force" inside you makes you this drive?

Are your fears without reasons worse after eating? 1, 2 hours later or immediately?

Edited Friday at 04:15 PM1 day by The Dust

Something g is wrong. I’m not able to feel abythibg and I’m bedridden. I feel weird and out of space. I have si very high . Can’t distract I’m very bad. Feel that I’m getting very worse . Don’t know how long I can Handel this inhumane way of living

@Saar8srl My friend, I’m so sorry you’re struggling so much. I read through this thread and I agree with many others, I think it might be time for a long hold. Your nervous system has been through hell and desperately needs some stability. If up-dosing helped a little, stay there and hold until you feel more even. It also might not be a bad idea to reach out to someone who knows about hyperbolic micro-tapering. It hurts my heart that you’re in this terrible state. I’ve been there, and I’m telling you 6 months was absolutely a nightmare. There ARE better days ahead. I’ll continue to pray for you! ❤️

56 minutes ago, The Dust said:

Are you doing your things with some kind of urge to do it. Like some "force" inside you makes you this drive?

Are your fears without reasons worse after eating? 1, 2 hours later or immediately?

Hello, my friend. There is nothing inside me that motivates me, but 9 months ago, a window came to me that lasted for a few hours. I recorded what I had to do in order to live, and I continued doing them like a robot. Sometimes I do not do anything if the symptoms are severe. Previously, it was linked to a stimulus like eating (when I had hope of recovery, I supported my digestive system with probiotics, Vitamin C, and Zinc, and I went on a diet free of flour and pastries, and kept myself away from junk food). After that, food stopped being a stimulus, but now everything is random, I cannot judge.

30 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

Something g is wrong. I’m not able to feel abythibg and I’m bedridden. I feel weird and out of space. I have si very high . Can’t distract I’m very bad. Feel that I’m getting very worse . Don’t know how long I can Handel this inhumane way of living

Everyone feels that something is wrong; it seems that our nervous system is struggling to stabilize. The feeling of strangeness is very disgusting, but it is not an illness—rather, our brain locks down to protect us from what is happening. I know it is very difficult, but we can endure, this period will pass, and we will live our lives. Do not pressure yourself with thoughts; this only makes things worse.

Thank you guys. This feels so unreal. Don’t know what is happening And it feels like damage. Chemical depression and blunted with a zombie feeling that I can not even describe. Can’t find the love for my daughter. Without that what is worth living

Dear @Saar8srl, you are not alone. I have been in this Hell for 7 months now, I start tomorrow my month 8 of terror and agony. I feel you very well, it is not a life. In addition to what you describe, I cannot sleep because of the cortisol nightmare. We will survive, you for your daughter, me for mine.

What a difficult thing this is. Do not think too much about this matter; let your mind rest from thoughts for a while. This feeling will pass, and a beautiful window will come.

Sending lots of love @Saar8srl hang in there and stay strong for your daughter. This is only temporary and one day you will look back on this and be proud of how brave and strong you are. Chippy