April 21Apr 21 Author @Fullhealing @Chippy sorry for the absence but we have family visiting. .So a bit preoccupied. 2016 - 2019 Sertraline 25mg highest dose 100mg 2019 C Ted 25mg Bad withdrawals 01/2020 reinstated 25mg 06/2020 - 12/2021 tapered from 100mg to 6mg jumped off .bad withdrawals like before . 06/2022 reinstated 25mg 10/2023 started taper of 25mg not sure of starting drops 04/2025 5mg 06/2025 4.1mg 08/2025 3.5mg 10/2025 3.1 mg 12/2025 2.5mg 01/2026 to present 2.27mg
April 21Apr 21 4 hours ago, Beehive said:@Fullhealing @Chippy sorry for the absence but we have family visiting. .So a bit preoccupied.Enjoy! I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
April 21Apr 21 Author Am still feeling good ,long may it last ...sending healing wishes to all the warriors out there ❤️ 2016 - 2019 Sertraline 25mg highest dose 100mg 2019 C Ted 25mg Bad withdrawals 01/2020 reinstated 25mg 06/2020 - 12/2021 tapered from 100mg to 6mg jumped off .bad withdrawals like before . 06/2022 reinstated 25mg 10/2023 started taper of 25mg not sure of starting drops 04/2025 5mg 06/2025 4.1mg 08/2025 3.5mg 10/2025 3.1 mg 12/2025 2.5mg 01/2026 to present 2.27mg
April 22Apr 22 😀 I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
April 22Apr 22 Jumping in to check how things going? @Beehive Still feel good hopefully 🙏💞 1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawalMany attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)Supplements:Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.
April 22Apr 22 Author @Fullhealing Yes I am doing well ,thank you ,keep going 🙏 2016 - 2019 Sertraline 25mg highest dose 100mg 2019 C Ted 25mg Bad withdrawals 01/2020 reinstated 25mg 06/2020 - 12/2021 tapered from 100mg to 6mg jumped off .bad withdrawals like before . 06/2022 reinstated 25mg 10/2023 started taper of 25mg not sure of starting drops 04/2025 5mg 06/2025 4.1mg 08/2025 3.5mg 10/2025 3.1 mg 12/2025 2.5mg 01/2026 to present 2.27mg
April 23Apr 23 Author The good days are over woke at four in a state have not been able to calm myself down 2016 - 2019 Sertraline 25mg highest dose 100mg 2019 C Ted 25mg Bad withdrawals 01/2020 reinstated 25mg 06/2020 - 12/2021 tapered from 100mg to 6mg jumped off .bad withdrawals like before . 06/2022 reinstated 25mg 10/2023 started taper of 25mg not sure of starting drops 04/2025 5mg 06/2025 4.1mg 08/2025 3.5mg 10/2025 3.1 mg 12/2025 2.5mg 01/2026 to present 2.27mg
April 23Apr 23 Just now, Beehive said:The good days are over woke at four in a state have not been able to calm myself downSo sorry Beehive. Not over, just a little bump in the road! You are working your way to nice and stable. Hang in there! I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
April 23Apr 23 Author Any encouragement would be nice feels so much worse after doing well 2016 - 2019 Sertraline 25mg highest dose 100mg 2019 C Ted 25mg Bad withdrawals 01/2020 reinstated 25mg 06/2020 - 12/2021 tapered from 100mg to 6mg jumped off .bad withdrawals like before . 06/2022 reinstated 25mg 10/2023 started taper of 25mg not sure of starting drops 04/2025 5mg 06/2025 4.1mg 08/2025 3.5mg 10/2025 3.1 mg 12/2025 2.5mg 01/2026 to present 2.27mg
April 23Apr 23 Author @chippy thanks can't control this one can hardly type 2016 - 2019 Sertraline 25mg highest dose 100mg 2019 C Ted 25mg Bad withdrawals 01/2020 reinstated 25mg 06/2020 - 12/2021 tapered from 100mg to 6mg jumped off .bad withdrawals like before . 06/2022 reinstated 25mg 10/2023 started taper of 25mg not sure of starting drops 04/2025 5mg 06/2025 4.1mg 08/2025 3.5mg 10/2025 3.1 mg 12/2025 2.5mg 01/2026 to present 2.27mg
April 23Apr 23 1 minute ago, Beehive said:@chippy thanks can't control this one can hardly typeBless you! It can feel so much worse after a nice window too! Remember this is the process! You’re not going backwards. Just the frustrating non-linear path this kind of healing takes. Xxx I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
April 23Apr 23 Author It's awful feeling quite desperate now really not dealing with this well its overtaking me Edited April 23Apr 23 by Beehive 2016 - 2019 Sertraline 25mg highest dose 100mg 2019 C Ted 25mg Bad withdrawals 01/2020 reinstated 25mg 06/2020 - 12/2021 tapered from 100mg to 6mg jumped off .bad withdrawals like before . 06/2022 reinstated 25mg 10/2023 started taper of 25mg not sure of starting drops 04/2025 5mg 06/2025 4.1mg 08/2025 3.5mg 10/2025 3.1 mg 12/2025 2.5mg 01/2026 to present 2.27mg
April 23Apr 23 Hey @Beehive , I really feel this. I’m in a similar place and had a couple of good days followed by bad days again.It can feel so discouraging, but this is just the way waves move. You’re not going backwards, even if it feels that way. SHang in there, you’re not alone in this.We got this!! In 2016 Paroxetine 20mg for 4 months then stopped more or less cold Started 10mg Escitalopram 4 Mar 2022 From 10 to 20mg on 19 Apr 2022 From 20 to 15mg on 23 Jun 2022 From 15mg to 7,5mg on 5 Sept 2022 (I was supposed to drop from 15mg to 12,5mg but I accidentally used 5mg and half of 5mg pills instead of 10mg and half of 5mg pills, when I found out 2 weeks later I decided to keep to 7,5mg since most of the WD symptoms subsided by then, I now regret this. From 7,5mg to 5mg on 23 Sept 2022 Started Cross tapering Escitalopram 5mg to tapering strip brand from 26th of feb 2024 over one week and stabilised on 5mg untill 31 March 2024. 31 March 2024 started taper using tapering strips. Escitalopram 04/20/24 - 4,5mg (hold because of WD symptoms raming up), 07/03/25 - 4,3mg, 07/28/25 - 4,2mg, 09/15/25 - 4,0mg, 10/13/25 - 3,8mg, 11/23/25 - 3,6mg (after illness big wave, so hold)
April 23Apr 23 Dear Beehive, sending you some support. I know how afraid you are right now. Actually, everyone on this website knows how afraid you are right now. It is a wave, remember the window you just had so you know there will be an end. Try and stay calm. Have a cup of something warm. A hot water bottle if that brings you comfort. Try and distract. Although I know that is so hard when you are in the worst of it. Just take it minute by minute, the day will come to an end and you will be one more day closer to healing. Wombat 1998 Paroxetine 20mg, getting to 60mg and staying there for many years.Started reducing by 10mg at a time, December 2018 to June 2019. At 30mg held for 2 and a half years.Beginning 2023, start micro tapering from 30mgEnd 2023 - 18.76. End 2024 - 13.37. End 2025 - 8.58 2026 - 31 Jan - 8.38, 15 Feb - 8.19, 07 March - 8.06, 14 March - 8.00, 08 April - holding and start liquid transition, 22 May completed liquid transition 8mg (16ml) held for 1 month27 June - 7.9, 12 July - 7.75, 18 July - 7.6, 25 July - 7.45, 22 August - 7.30, Deuteronomy 31.8 "The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."
April 23Apr 23 Author To all those that have commented..Thank you so much for your kind words they mean so much when you are in the thick of it ..I really do appreciate them ❤️ 2016 - 2019 Sertraline 25mg highest dose 100mg 2019 C Ted 25mg Bad withdrawals 01/2020 reinstated 25mg 06/2020 - 12/2021 tapered from 100mg to 6mg jumped off .bad withdrawals like before . 06/2022 reinstated 25mg 10/2023 started taper of 25mg not sure of starting drops 04/2025 5mg 06/2025 4.1mg 08/2025 3.5mg 10/2025 3.1 mg 12/2025 2.5mg 01/2026 to present 2.27mg
April 23Apr 23 It's 9am in England at the moment. Is the sun shining? If you can't get outside, try and sit by a window, maybe feel the sunshine on your skin. Wombat 1998 Paroxetine 20mg, getting to 60mg and staying there for many years.Started reducing by 10mg at a time, December 2018 to June 2019. At 30mg held for 2 and a half years.Beginning 2023, start micro tapering from 30mgEnd 2023 - 18.76. End 2024 - 13.37. End 2025 - 8.58 2026 - 31 Jan - 8.38, 15 Feb - 8.19, 07 March - 8.06, 14 March - 8.00, 08 April - holding and start liquid transition, 22 May completed liquid transition 8mg (16ml) held for 1 month27 June - 7.9, 12 July - 7.75, 18 July - 7.6, 25 July - 7.45, 22 August - 7.30, Deuteronomy 31.8 "The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."
April 23Apr 23 3 hours ago, Beehive said:The good days are over woke at four in a state have not been able to calm myself downI'm Sorry I know too well that awful aniexty and panic that you can't escape from . I know it will pass like the other ones have xx On Paxil since 1995. Seroquel added 2014 after withdrawal crash. History of too-fast tapers/reinstatements. 21 April 2025 taper two drugs at once Paxil 4% Seroquel 3.5% per monththat ended up being too much and changed to one drug at a time 13 Jul 2025: 4% Paxil cut29 Jul 2025: 5% Paxil cut 6 Aug 2025: began holdOct 2025: changed from liquid to powder and accidentally took 10x Seroquel dose for 2 weeks by mistake23 Oct 2025: returned to liquid with accidental 4.7% Seroquel cut Holding both drugs to stablizeHolding at Paxil 8.25 mg / Seroquel 6.5Paxil taper22/4 8.23 29/4 8.20 5/5 8.15 13/5 8.05 3/6 8 11/6 7.95
April 23Apr 23 It is the absolutely most awful feeling. You just want to get away from yourself. I have been feeling it a lot lately myself. Be brave Beehive. We are all here supporting and encouraging you. You will get through this to another window.Wombat 1998 Paroxetine 20mg, getting to 60mg and staying there for many years.Started reducing by 10mg at a time, December 2018 to June 2019. At 30mg held for 2 and a half years.Beginning 2023, start micro tapering from 30mgEnd 2023 - 18.76. End 2024 - 13.37. End 2025 - 8.58 2026 - 31 Jan - 8.38, 15 Feb - 8.19, 07 March - 8.06, 14 March - 8.00, 08 April - holding and start liquid transition, 22 May completed liquid transition 8mg (16ml) held for 1 month27 June - 7.9, 12 July - 7.75, 18 July - 7.6, 25 July - 7.45, 22 August - 7.30, Deuteronomy 31.8 "The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."
April 23Apr 23 1 hour ago, Wombat said:It is the absolutely most awful feeling. You just want to get away from yourself. I have been feeling it a lot lately myself. Be brave Beehive. We are all here supporting and encouraging you. You will get through this to another window.Wombat@Wombat you described it so well . On Paxil since 1995. Seroquel added 2014 after withdrawal crash. History of too-fast tapers/reinstatements. 21 April 2025 taper two drugs at once Paxil 4% Seroquel 3.5% per monththat ended up being too much and changed to one drug at a time 13 Jul 2025: 4% Paxil cut29 Jul 2025: 5% Paxil cut 6 Aug 2025: began holdOct 2025: changed from liquid to powder and accidentally took 10x Seroquel dose for 2 weeks by mistake23 Oct 2025: returned to liquid with accidental 4.7% Seroquel cut Holding both drugs to stablizeHolding at Paxil 8.25 mg / Seroquel 6.5Paxil taper22/4 8.23 29/4 8.20 5/5 8.15 13/5 8.05 3/6 8 11/6 7.95
April 23Apr 23 Author All of you ...thank you so much yes that feeling where you just want to get out of your skin ...awful still going ...can't say how much your words mean to me ❤️❤️ 2016 - 2019 Sertraline 25mg highest dose 100mg 2019 C Ted 25mg Bad withdrawals 01/2020 reinstated 25mg 06/2020 - 12/2021 tapered from 100mg to 6mg jumped off .bad withdrawals like before . 06/2022 reinstated 25mg 10/2023 started taper of 25mg not sure of starting drops 04/2025 5mg 06/2025 4.1mg 08/2025 3.5mg 10/2025 3.1 mg 12/2025 2.5mg 01/2026 to present 2.27mg
April 23Apr 23 Are you able to do anything to distract? I know sometimes I can't and I just lie in bed, praying for a little bit of relief. Sometimes I am able to doze off or have a bit of sleep. Have you got support with you right now? Hopefully this will start to subside soon.Thinking of you Wombat 1998 Paroxetine 20mg, getting to 60mg and staying there for many years.Started reducing by 10mg at a time, December 2018 to June 2019. At 30mg held for 2 and a half years.Beginning 2023, start micro tapering from 30mgEnd 2023 - 18.76. End 2024 - 13.37. End 2025 - 8.58 2026 - 31 Jan - 8.38, 15 Feb - 8.19, 07 March - 8.06, 14 March - 8.00, 08 April - holding and start liquid transition, 22 May completed liquid transition 8mg (16ml) held for 1 month27 June - 7.9, 12 July - 7.75, 18 July - 7.6, 25 July - 7.45, 22 August - 7.30, Deuteronomy 31.8 "The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."
April 23Apr 23 5 hours ago, Beehive said:Any encouragement would be nice feels so much worse after doing wellIt’s especially brutal after doing better, I’m sure! The contrast is shocking. It’s such a good sign that you are so functional overall. 💗🤗 For US members: Please report med to FDA Med Watch2017 (May) - Ativan .5 mg (3 x Daily) 2018 (Feb) - Mirtazapine 7.5 mg 2018 (May) - Ativan to Valium - Switch - Can’t Remember how long it took -tapered to 3 mg of Valium2024 (May) - Valium Tolerance2024 (2 Nov) - Completed taper off Valium 2024 (2 Nov) - Mirtazapine increased to 15 mg2025 (Feb) - Ativan 0.25 mg (3 x Daily) - Became Paradoxical - Started weaning got to 0.11mg2025 (Mar) - Ativan 0mg - CT In detox2025 (April) Started Depakote 1500mg - In detox2025 (April) - Depakote 500mg (2 x Daily) once home2025 (Aug) - Completed taper off Depakote2025 (Aug) - Akathisia surges throughout the day with calming in between2025 (Sept) - Gabapentin (Micro Dose) - Was calming at first and then became paradoxical so stop2025 (Oct) - Depakote - RI – (Two days of small dose) Became scared and stopped with WD & aka2025 (Oct) - Seroquel 50 mg XR – 1 Week - more and more activating and increased aka2025 (Oct) - Psychiatrist told me to stop it. But I took a few days of a smaller dose of IR then stopped - Not activating2025 (Nov) - Hydroxyzine 2.5mg - it was paradoxical so stopped2025 (1 Dec) - Mirtazapine 22.5mg - (2 Days) Was incredibly overstimulating started reducing to previous2025 (3 Dec) - Mirtazapine 18.75mg2025 (10 Dec) - Mirtazapine 16.87mg2025 (22 Dec) - Mirtazapine 15mg2026 (23Jan) - Mirtazapine 14.7mg2026 (23 Jan) - Mirtazapine 1mg Panic dose2026 (24 Jan) - Mirtazapine 15mg2026 (25 Feb) – Mirtazapine 14.7mg (-2%)2026 (18 Mar) - propranolol 2.5 mg one time2026 (21 Mar)- Mirtazapine- 15 mg accidentally in sleepy state2026 (22 Mar) - Mirtazapine 14.79 mg (more accurate scales) 2026 (29 April) Mirtazapine 14.7 mg/.1020 g (on suggestion of Horowitz) immediate intense symptoms2026 (30 April) Mirtazapine 14.79 mg (.1026 g)2026 (23 May) propranolol 2.5 mg one time2026 (01 June) Mirtazapine 14.79 mgdose was 5 hours late2026 (22 July) Mirtazapine 14.76 mgIntense electric activation, muscle tightness, autonomic surges, terror followed 2026 (23 July) Mirtazapine 14.79 mg return
April 23Apr 23 Author @Finni Yes it is ..apologies I'm being a bit selfish at the moment everyone. Not sure about anyone else but we all go through this and yes its horrendous but I always feel a bit pathetic like everyone else seems to cope with this but I can't....!!!! Reassurance seeking 🙄 head being crushed can't think straight roaring in my ears ..elephant sat on my chest ,mouth dry lips dry eyes feel sore and blurry ...is that about right or have I left something out lol ❤️ Edited April 23Apr 23 by Beehive 2016 - 2019 Sertraline 25mg highest dose 100mg 2019 C Ted 25mg Bad withdrawals 01/2020 reinstated 25mg 06/2020 - 12/2021 tapered from 100mg to 6mg jumped off .bad withdrawals like before . 06/2022 reinstated 25mg 10/2023 started taper of 25mg not sure of starting drops 04/2025 5mg 06/2025 4.1mg 08/2025 3.5mg 10/2025 3.1 mg 12/2025 2.5mg 01/2026 to present 2.27mg
April 23Apr 23 15 minutes ago, Beehive said:@Finni Yes it is ..apologies I'm being a bit selfish at the moment everyone. Not sure about anyone else but we all go through this and yes its horrendous but I always feel a bit pathetic like everyone else seems to cope with this but I can't....!!!! Reassurance seeking 🙄 head being crushed can't think straight roaring in my ears ..elephant sat on my chest ,mouth dry lips dry eyes feel sore and blurry ...is that about right or have I left something out lol ❤️No apologies! You have to do what you need to cope! You cope well, it’s so hard when the symptoms are intense. Rest easy knowing you’re doing your best, in very hard circumstances. I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
April 23Apr 23 23 minutes ago, Beehive said:@Finni Yes it is ..apologies I'm being a bit selfish at the moment everyone. Not sure about anyone else but we all go through this and yes its horrendous but I always feel a bit pathetic like everyone else seems to cope with this but I can't....!!!! Reassurance seeking 🙄 head being crushed can't think straight roaring in my ears ..elephant sat on my chest ,mouth dry lips dry eyes feel sore and blurry ...is that about right or have I left something out lol ❤️No apology needed. At all. 💗It’s all consuming sometimes. Yuck yuck yuck For US members: Please report med to FDA Med Watch2017 (May) - Ativan .5 mg (3 x Daily) 2018 (Feb) - Mirtazapine 7.5 mg 2018 (May) - Ativan to Valium - Switch - Can’t Remember how long it took -tapered to 3 mg of Valium2024 (May) - Valium Tolerance2024 (2 Nov) - Completed taper off Valium 2024 (2 Nov) - Mirtazapine increased to 15 mg2025 (Feb) - Ativan 0.25 mg (3 x Daily) - Became Paradoxical - Started weaning got to 0.11mg2025 (Mar) - Ativan 0mg - CT In detox2025 (April) Started Depakote 1500mg - In detox2025 (April) - Depakote 500mg (2 x Daily) once home2025 (Aug) - Completed taper off Depakote2025 (Aug) - Akathisia surges throughout the day with calming in between2025 (Sept) - Gabapentin (Micro Dose) - Was calming at first and then became paradoxical so stop2025 (Oct) - Depakote - RI – (Two days of small dose) Became scared and stopped with WD & aka2025 (Oct) - Seroquel 50 mg XR – 1 Week - more and more activating and increased aka2025 (Oct) - Psychiatrist told me to stop it. But I took a few days of a smaller dose of IR then stopped - Not activating2025 (Nov) - Hydroxyzine 2.5mg - it was paradoxical so stopped2025 (1 Dec) - Mirtazapine 22.5mg - (2 Days) Was incredibly overstimulating started reducing to previous2025 (3 Dec) - Mirtazapine 18.75mg2025 (10 Dec) - Mirtazapine 16.87mg2025 (22 Dec) - Mirtazapine 15mg2026 (23Jan) - Mirtazapine 14.7mg2026 (23 Jan) - Mirtazapine 1mg Panic dose2026 (24 Jan) - Mirtazapine 15mg2026 (25 Feb) – Mirtazapine 14.7mg (-2%)2026 (18 Mar) - propranolol 2.5 mg one time2026 (21 Mar)- Mirtazapine- 15 mg accidentally in sleepy state2026 (22 Mar) - Mirtazapine 14.79 mg (more accurate scales) 2026 (29 April) Mirtazapine 14.7 mg/.1020 g (on suggestion of Horowitz) immediate intense symptoms2026 (30 April) Mirtazapine 14.79 mg (.1026 g)2026 (23 May) propranolol 2.5 mg one time2026 (01 June) Mirtazapine 14.79 mgdose was 5 hours late2026 (22 July) Mirtazapine 14.76 mgIntense electric activation, muscle tightness, autonomic surges, terror followed 2026 (23 July) Mirtazapine 14.79 mg return
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