cherrysquid: Hello, just really need support from those who understand

September 18Sep 18

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1 hour ago, Saar8srl said:
@cherrysquid does this mean you are stable enough to start to taper? 🤩

No far from it lol

2016 - Sertraline 50mg

2016 - Sertraline 100mg.

I didnt know better and rarely took it consistently.

June 2024 - went down to 75mg

2025 - Down to 50mg

2026 - down to 25mg

April 2026 - hit by withdrawal and kindling

Reinstated April 2026 - 25mg

May 27th 2026 - Upped to 50mg

September 21Sep 21

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Even if i go into a bad wave tomorrow ive had 3 or 4 weeks now of being relatively okay. And the last two days ive felt almost back to normal.

However ive just been informed my aunty is very unwell and probably won't make it to the end of the week. Im going to see her tomorrow although shes unconscious, to say my goodbyes. The fact this news hasn't given me the buzzing or the nerve pluck thing is a great sign in terms of my recovery, I guess.

I know everyone thinks the world of their loved ones but my aunt genuinely is an angel. She has a heart of gold and would do anything for anyone. So thoughtful, always picking up gifts for people. And so so unintentionally funny. She's going to be a huge miss. My heart is broken.

2016 - Sertraline 50mg

2016 - Sertraline 100mg.

I didnt know better and rarely took it consistently.

June 2024 - went down to 75mg

2025 - Down to 50mg

2026 - down to 25mg

April 2026 - hit by withdrawal and kindling

Reinstated April 2026 - 25mg

May 27th 2026 - Upped to 50mg

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September 22Sep 22

@cherrysquid I’m so sorry to hear about your aunt. Big hugs your way.

January 2020 - Zoloft for 1 week and unable to tolerate

May 2020 - April 2021 Mirtazapine 15mg at bedtime

April 2021 - June 2021 Mirtazapine 7.5mg at bedtime, Escitalopram 5mg

June 2021 - Jan 2024 Escitalopram 10mg

Jan 2024 - Oct 2024 Escitalopram 5mg

Oct 2024 - Nov 2024 Escitalopram 3.75mg, Nov 2024 - 2.5mg, Dec 2024 - 2.2mg, Jan 2025 - 2mg, Feb 2025 - 1.7mg, March 2025 - 1.4mg, April 2025 - 1.2mg

May 2025 - 1mg, 5/15-5/29 - .5mg, June 2025 - 1mg, Sept 2025 - .9mg

Oct 2025 - .8mg, 10/19-10/22 updosed to .9, 10/23 - .8

Nov 2025 - July 2026 - 1mg, Aug 2026 - .95mg

Sept 2026 - .9mg

Oct 16 - .87mg

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September 22Sep 22

@cherrysquid I'm so very sorry to hear about your Aunt, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family 🙏❤️

Dec 23 Citalopram 15mg

13 March 24 13.5mg

27 March 24 10mg

12 March 24 7.5mg

20 March 24 6mg

10 Aug 24 5mg

24 Aug 24 4mg

2 Sept 24 3.5mg

11 Sept 24 3mg

19 Sept 24 2.5mg

26 Sept 24 2mg

5 Oct 24 1.5mg

12 Oct 24 1mg

17 Oct 24 Jumped off.

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September 22Sep 22

Sending lots of love @cherrysquid so sad to hear x

I am pleased you are handling it well, such a great sign, plus your window is amazing news xxxx

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

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September 22Sep 22

Author

Thank you everyone.

She passed away this morning. Im thankful I could be there as she transitioned to the next world.

2016 - Sertraline 50mg

2016 - Sertraline 100mg.

I didnt know better and rarely took it consistently.

June 2024 - went down to 75mg

2025 - Down to 50mg

2026 - down to 25mg

April 2026 - hit by withdrawal and kindling

Reinstated April 2026 - 25mg

May 27th 2026 - Upped to 50mg

2

September 22Sep 22

20 hours ago, cherrysquid said:
I know everyone thinks the world of their loved ones but my aunt genuinely is an angel. She has a heart of gold and would do anything for anyone. So thoughtful, always picking up gifts for people. And so so unintentionally funny. She's going to be a huge miss. My heart is broken.

Sorry my dear. My heart is with you❤️

01-2018 fluoxetine 10 mg two weeks

02-2019 started Sertraline 150 mg with 10 sometimes 5 mg oxazepam for sleep- my sleep was not ok after 150 mg but I felt good

01-August 2025 in one moth quit Sertraline because of the symptoms (gaining wait, vertigo, low mood)

12-2025 quit oxazepam

04-2026 because of major brain zap RI 25mg one week, up to 50mg next week and get depressed and quit. This was a high dose.

I also started oxazepam again

17-Mei 2026 RI 10 mg 3 days and 5mg 2 days in the hospital.

21-5 CT Sertraline

I felt better after 5 days and then crashed

27-6 quit oxazepam

Symptoms:

Depression, anhedonia, DPDR

Reinstatement Zoloft 2026

9-8 RI Zoloft 1mg

31-8 RI Zoloft 2mg

3-9 RI Zoloft 3mg

I always take magnesium and fish oil

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September 22Sep 22

6 minutes ago, cherrysquid said:
Thank you everyone.
She passed away this morning. Im thankful I could be there as she transitioned to the next world

Sorry for your loss ❤️

01-2018 fluoxetine 10 mg two weeks

02-2019 started Sertraline 150 mg with 10 sometimes 5 mg oxazepam for sleep- my sleep was not ok after 150 mg but I felt good

01-August 2025 in one moth quit Sertraline because of the symptoms (gaining wait, vertigo, low mood)

12-2025 quit oxazepam

04-2026 because of major brain zap RI 25mg one week, up to 50mg next week and get depressed and quit. This was a high dose.

I also started oxazepam again

17-Mei 2026 RI 10 mg 3 days and 5mg 2 days in the hospital.

21-5 CT Sertraline

I felt better after 5 days and then crashed

27-6 quit oxazepam

Symptoms:

Depression, anhedonia, DPDR

Reinstatement Zoloft 2026

9-8 RI Zoloft 1mg

31-8 RI Zoloft 2mg

3-9 RI Zoloft 3mg

I always take magnesium and fish oil

1

September 22Sep 22

@cherrysquid I'm just in tears for you right now 😥 hugs to you my dear friend.xxxxxx

Dec 23 Citalopram 15mg

13 March 24 13.5mg

27 March 24 10mg

12 March 24 7.5mg

20 March 24 6mg

10 Aug 24 5mg

24 Aug 24 4mg

2 Sept 24 3.5mg

11 Sept 24 3mg

19 Sept 24 2.5mg

26 Sept 24 2mg

5 Oct 24 1.5mg

12 Oct 24 1mg

17 Oct 24 Jumped off.

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September 22Sep 22

Wishing you strength and comfort @cherrysquid ❤️

2023-06: started trazodone, 50 mg

2023-10: lowered dose to 25 mg

2023-11: 0 mg

2023-07-04: started paroxetine, 20 mg

2023-07-30: increased dose to 30 mg

2023-08-26: lowered dose to 20 mg

2024-03-21: lowered dose to 10 mg

2024-07-10: lowered dose to 5 mg

2024-07-26: 0 mg

2024-08-14: reinstated on another AD, this time 10 mg of escitalopram

2024-11-24: lowered dose to 7.5 mg

2025-01-15: lowered dose to 5 mg

2025-03-01: lowered dose to 3.75 mg (with pill cutter)

2025-03-26: lowered dose to 2.5 mg (with pill cutter)

2025-04-23: lowered dose to 1.25 mg (with pill cutter)

2025-05-24: 0 mg

Started Rosuvastatin in October 2024 due to high cholesterol.

On a break from this med from April 2026 until July 2026.

Started taking Rosuvastatin again at the end of July 2026.

Current supplements: None at the moment

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September 22Sep 22

All my love to you and your family @cherrysquid ❤️

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I am new to this journey and my thoughts are based only on my personal experience with psychiatric drugs. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

Current regimen:

Cymbalta - 90 mg/day

Seroquel - 12.5 mg/day

*holding to stabilize as of Apr 2026

History:

Seroquel - up to 50 mg as needed for sleep (generally 6.25-12.5 mg a few times a week, though sometimes more) - 2009 (ish) to present

Cymbalta - 60 mg/day, periodically down to 30 mg/day - May 2014 to May 2025

Clonazepam - up to 1 mg/day as needed - March to May 2025, quick taper off

Zoloft - 150 mg/day - May 2025 to Aug 2025 (quick cross-taper from Cymbalta)

Pristiq - 50 mg/day from Aug 2025 to mid-Oct 2025 (quick cross-taper from Zoloft); 100 mg/day from Oct 2025 to Dec 2025; back down to 50 mg/day from Dec 2025 to Jan 2026

Lyrica - 200 mg/day - Nov 2025 to Jan 2026 (quick taper off from mid-Jan to early Feb 2026 due to severe depressive symptoms)

Cymbalta - 60 mg/day - Jan - March 2026; up to 90 mg/day from March to present

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September 23Sep 23

15 hours ago, cherrysquid said:
Thank you everyone.
She passed away this morning. Im thankful I could be there as she transitioned to the next world.

Sorry to hear @cherrysquid sending lots and lots of love xxxxxxx

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

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September 27Sep 27

Author

Sorry for absence ive just been keeping to myself this week as I grieve and help sort out funeral arrangements, storage units etc.

Im very happy to announce although I had an illness (a cold lol) and then witnessed a loved one pass away i have not really had a bad wave which i think is amazing considering.

A bit dizzy at times but I had that before WD so who knows which it is. And very tired a lot.

Other than that ive even started marking days in my journal as 0-0.5/10 on good days. Im not quite ready to taper yet but thinking about it for when I do and im a little worried since I took such a severe reaction to that WD. Hopefully a nice slow microtaper won't result in being bedbound again and thrown back into hell lol.

Hope youre all well been thinking of you guys

2016 - Sertraline 50mg

2016 - Sertraline 100mg.

I didnt know better and rarely took it consistently.

June 2024 - went down to 75mg

2025 - Down to 50mg

2026 - down to 25mg

April 2026 - hit by withdrawal and kindling

Reinstated April 2026 - 25mg

May 27th 2026 - Upped to 50mg

2

September 28Sep 28

11 hours ago, cherrysquid said:
Sorry for absence ive just been keeping to myself this week as I grieve and help sort out funeral arrangements, storage units etc.

No appolgies needed @cherrysquid you must look after you and your family first.

11 hours ago, cherrysquid said:
Im very happy to announce although I had an illness (a cold lol) and then witnessed a loved one pass away i have not really had a bad wave which i think is amazing considering.
A bit dizzy at times but I had that before WD so who knows which it is. And very tired a lot.

This is amazing to hear, shows how well you are actually doing.

11 hours ago, cherrysquid said:
Other than that ive even started marking days in my journal as 0-0.5/10 on good days. Im not quite ready to taper yet but thinking about it for when I do and im a little worried since I took such a severe reaction to that WD. Hopefully a nice slow microtaper won't result in being bedbound again and thrown back into hell lol.

This is great news. I would wait till you have given yourself some time to grieve and put some more 0/10s in that diary. Lets have you nice and stable first :), then we can help you, have a think about your next step with your taper. I can understand the fear, many will relate. Remember you will be in a much stronger position when you start your taper, armed with all the knowledge and support you will need.

11 hours ago, cherrysquid said:
Hope youre all well been thinking of you guys

Thinking of you at this difficult time xxxxx

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

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September 28Sep 28

Author

50 minutes ago, Chippy said:
No appolgies needed @cherrysquid you must look after you and your family first.
This is amazing to hear, shows how well you are actually doing.
This is great news. I would wait till you have given yourself some time to grieve and put some more 0/10s in that diary. Lets have you nice and stable first :), then we can help you, have a think about your next step with your taper. I can understand the fear, many will relate. Remember you will be in a much stronger position when you start your taper, armed with all the knowledge and support you will need.
Thinking of you at this difficult time xxxxx

Thanks Chippy you legendary angel lol

2016 - Sertraline 50mg

2016 - Sertraline 100mg.

I didnt know better and rarely took it consistently.

June 2024 - went down to 75mg

2025 - Down to 50mg

2026 - down to 25mg

April 2026 - hit by withdrawal and kindling

Reinstated April 2026 - 25mg

May 27th 2026 - Upped to 50mg

1

September 29Sep 29

Sorry I only just saw your post. Hope you feel better soon. You’re such a kind person; happiness deserves to be with you!

2020–Early 2025: Sertraline titrated 50mg→200mg daily. One-month trial of Escitalopram. Rotated bedtime sedatives (Alprazolam, Estazolam, Lorazepam), finally Olanzapine, tapered off after ~1–2 years.

Jan 2025 – July 31 2025: Slow sertraline taper, minus 50mg every 1–2 months; temporary 25mg dose boost for symptom stabilization. Fully withdrawn 31 July 2025.

Mar 2026 – Jun 2026: TCM herbal therapy, later discontinued.

Jun 2026 – Present: Inositol 4g, NAC 1500mg, Magnesium Glycinate 250mg, Magnesium L-Threonate 36mg, Fish Oil 1000mg, PS 150mg, L-Theanine 600mg, Zinc Gluconate 10mg

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September 29Sep 29

On 9/27/2026 at 10:18 PM, cherrysquid said:
Other than that ive even started marking days in my journal as 0-0.5/10 on good days. Im not quite ready to taper yet but thinking about it for when I do and im a little worried since I took such a severe reaction to that WD. Hopefully a nice slow microtaper won't result in being bedbound again and thrown back into hell lol.
Hope youre all well been thinking of you guys

I hope you had a peace and lovely goodbye from your aunt . It must be nice to have a family member who has been so nice and warm to uiu. Keep the memory alive . I am so happy to hear you are in a better place . As a Zoloft worrier on hope I will see you on the other side ever … ❤️❤️❤️

01-2018 fluoxetine 10 mg two weeks

02-2019 started Sertraline 150 mg with 10 sometimes 5 mg oxazepam for sleep- my sleep was not ok after 150 mg but I felt good

01-August 2025 in one moth quit Sertraline because of the symptoms (gaining wait, vertigo, low mood)

12-2025 quit oxazepam

04-2026 because of major brain zap RI 25mg one week, up to 50mg next week and get depressed and quit. This was a high dose.

I also started oxazepam again

17-Mei 2026 RI 10 mg 3 days and 5mg 2 days in the hospital.

21-5 CT Sertraline

I felt better after 5 days and then crashed

27-6 quit oxazepam

Symptoms:

Depression, anhedonia, DPDR

Reinstatement Zoloft 2026

9-8 RI Zoloft 1mg

31-8 RI Zoloft 2mg

3-9 RI Zoloft 3mg

I always take magnesium and fish oil

1

September 30Sep 30

Author

Thank you for all your replies. Im now in a wave, first one in a while. Don't think ive had one in a month or so. This bad anyway. There's like feeling wavey and a full on wave. This is a full on wave 😂

I hope it passes soon. This is so unfair on all of us.

Accept and float ❤️

2016 - Sertraline 50mg

2016 - Sertraline 100mg.

I didnt know better and rarely took it consistently.

June 2024 - went down to 75mg

2025 - Down to 50mg

2026 - down to 25mg

April 2026 - hit by withdrawal and kindling

Reinstated April 2026 - 25mg

May 27th 2026 - Upped to 50mg

2

September 30Sep 30

4 minutes ago, cherrysquid said:
Thank you for all your replies. Im now in a wave, first one in a while. Don't think ive had one in a month or so. This bad anyway. There's like feeling wavey and a full on wave. This is a full on wave

If there is anyone who can float in a wave it’s you. Power women ❤️

01-2018 fluoxetine 10 mg two weeks

02-2019 started Sertraline 150 mg with 10 sometimes 5 mg oxazepam for sleep- my sleep was not ok after 150 mg but I felt good

01-August 2025 in one moth quit Sertraline because of the symptoms (gaining wait, vertigo, low mood)

12-2025 quit oxazepam

04-2026 because of major brain zap RI 25mg one week, up to 50mg next week and get depressed and quit. This was a high dose.

I also started oxazepam again

17-Mei 2026 RI 10 mg 3 days and 5mg 2 days in the hospital.

21-5 CT Sertraline

I felt better after 5 days and then crashed

27-6 quit oxazepam

Symptoms:

Depression, anhedonia, DPDR

Reinstatement Zoloft 2026

9-8 RI Zoloft 1mg

31-8 RI Zoloft 2mg

3-9 RI Zoloft 3mg

I always take magnesium and fish oil

1

October 1Oct 1

Sorry to hear @cherrysquid they are so unfair but it will pass just like before. Give yourself lots of compassion and patience. Hopefully a short one! xxxx

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

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October 1Oct 1

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1 hour ago, Chippy said:
Sorry to hear @cherrysquid they are so unfair but it will pass just like before. Give yourself lots of compassion and patience. Hopefully a short one! xxxx

Thanks. Im going to stop saying im doing well or whatever because I always seem to jynx myself 😂😂 xx

2016 - Sertraline 50mg

2016 - Sertraline 100mg.

I didnt know better and rarely took it consistently.

June 2024 - went down to 75mg

2025 - Down to 50mg

2026 - down to 25mg

April 2026 - hit by withdrawal and kindling

Reinstated April 2026 - 25mg

May 27th 2026 - Upped to 50mg

1

October 1Oct 1

Author

On 9/29/2026 at 1:49 PM, TonyLee said:
Sorry I only just saw your post. Hope you feel better soon. You’re such a kind person; happiness deserves to be with you!

Hope youre also doing well @TonyLee I think about you often! Always hoping youre doing better 🙏

2016 - Sertraline 50mg

2016 - Sertraline 100mg.

I didnt know better and rarely took it consistently.

June 2024 - went down to 75mg

2025 - Down to 50mg

2026 - down to 25mg

April 2026 - hit by withdrawal and kindling

Reinstated April 2026 - 25mg

May 27th 2026 - Upped to 50mg

October 1Oct 1

17 hours ago, cherrysquid said:
I hope it passes soon. This is so unfair on all of us.
Accept and float ❤️

We're floating together today @cherrysquid 💜💜

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I am new to this journey and my thoughts are based only on my personal experience with psychiatric drugs. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

Current regimen:

Cymbalta - 90 mg/day

Seroquel - 12.5 mg/day

*holding to stabilize as of Apr 2026

History:

Seroquel - up to 50 mg as needed for sleep (generally 6.25-12.5 mg a few times a week, though sometimes more) - 2009 (ish) to present

Cymbalta - 60 mg/day, periodically down to 30 mg/day - May 2014 to May 2025

Clonazepam - up to 1 mg/day as needed - March to May 2025, quick taper off

Zoloft - 150 mg/day - May 2025 to Aug 2025 (quick cross-taper from Cymbalta)

Pristiq - 50 mg/day from Aug 2025 to mid-Oct 2025 (quick cross-taper from Zoloft); 100 mg/day from Oct 2025 to Dec 2025; back down to 50 mg/day from Dec 2025 to Jan 2026

Lyrica - 200 mg/day - Nov 2025 to Jan 2026 (quick taper off from mid-Jan to early Feb 2026 due to severe depressive symptoms)

Cymbalta - 60 mg/day - Jan - March 2026; up to 90 mg/day from March to present

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October 1Oct 1

2 hours ago, cherrysquid said:
Thanks. Im going to stop saying im doing well or whatever because I always seem to jynx myself 😂😂 xx

No just a coincidence! The postive news is amazing and great record of your better days xxxx

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

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