Thanks Luke and thanks everyone else! you are always in my thoughts Luke!

Does anyone else puke up pure stomach acid when they wake up?

On 5/6/2026 at 9:15 PM, poulette38 said:

😏 I prefer that. I'll forgive you this time. 😌

These drugs are like demonic oppression....

On 5/7/2026 at 6:35 AM, Chippy said:

@poulette38 you are freeking hilarious sometimes! Love your spirit. 🤣

Yes @Chippy , only "sometimes" now because of this wall called wd (I was in the middle of a race, no kidding ; in my best run! Someone sabotaged the engine by adding ADs to the gas while refueling for me! It all goes wrong now! -strange noise?-) 🤡

Normally, it’s ALL THE TIME!

So what, we chose to stay alive guys, so we might as well laugh a bit then, right?

4 hours ago, MischaDE said:

These drugs are like demonic oppression....

Yeah sure @MischaDE

But why are you tagging me about that? You make me laugh so much! 🥲

Well, I saw a report on Saint George this morning and you must be (we all must be) like Saint George against the dragon!

(Except that our head, our health, and even our pee-pee were stolen from us.)

Sorry but It’s not SO EASY to kill a DRAGON with these conditions!

23 minutes ago, poulette38 said:

Yeah sure @MischaDE

But why are you tagging me about that? You make me laugh so much! 🥲

Well, I saw a report on Saint George this morning and you must be (we all must be) like Saint George against the dragon!

(Except that our head, our health, and even our pee-pee were stolen from us.)

Sorry but It’s not SO EASY to kill a DRAGON with these conditions!

Because I saw you posting something about your faith so this thought came to my mind and I wanted to share it with you, lol

15 hours ago, MischaDE said:

Because I saw you posting something about your faith so this thought came to my mind and I wanted to share it with you, lol

Actually I’m saying that because just reading the word "devil" makes me jump lol. Like we know we are fighting it every day but it’s hard to admit it, you know what I mean.

Besides I had the good idea to watch a police series last night so I see stiffs everywhere now.

Also I saw a report about Saint Michael (your name) few days ago and the meaning of the name is "who is like God?"

In which cases can we invoke Saint Michael: "When one’s life becomes harsh, because of personal, family, or spiritual worries, to invoke Saint Michael can bring divine protection. The archangel helps to strengthen one’s faith in the constant presence of God in one’s own existence, as well as in the power of guardian angels."

See you soon 🙂

2 hours ago, poulette38 said:

Actually I’m saying that because just reading the word "devil" makes me jump lol. Like we know we are fighting it every day but it’s hard to admit it, you know what I mean.

Besides I had the good idea to watch a police series last night so I see stiffs everywhere now.

Also I saw a report about Saint Michael (your name) few days ago and the meaning of the name is "who is like God?"

In which cases can we invoke Saint Michael: "When one’s life becomes harsh, because of personal, family, or spiritual worries, to invoke Saint Michael can bring divine protection. The archangel helps to strengthen one’s faith in the constant presence of God in one’s own existence, as well as in the power of guardian angels."

See you soon 🙂

Thank you! <3

Hey @MischaDE! Just wanted to move this discussion off the other thread. Obviously I'm not a doctor, but I am currently taking an antipsychotic and have read about tardive dyskinesia on my more anxious days. It's a very specific neurological condition, and from what you've said I don't think you need to be worried about it. You absolutely can (and will) recover from other effects of taking antipsychotics, as you can see from other folks on this forum who took high doses for quite a while and recovered, or are well on their way to recovery.

Hope that helps a little 💜

3 minutes ago, SarahMc said:

Hey @MischaDE! Just wanted to move this discussion off the other thread. Obviously I'm not a doctor, but I am currently taking an antipsychotic and have read about tardive dyskinesia on my more anxious days. It's a very specific neurological condition, and from what you've said I don't think you need to be worried about it. You absolutely can (and will) recover from other effects of taking antipsychotics, as you can see from other folks on this forum who took high doses for quite a while and recovered, or are well on their way to recovery.

Hope that helps a little 💜

Thank you for the reassurance!

How are you, @MischaDE ?

You hanging in there? 🤛

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48 minutes ago, poulette38 said:

How are you, @MischaDE ?

You hanging in there? 🤛

Thx for always checking in on me!

Yes, I am! Still struggling of course but I have had a little bit of relief in the past 2 days from all the pain and akathisia-like feeling. Still have to be careful to not over-exert myself, my body sometimes punishes me with some brutal stinging pain.

How are you?

@MischaDE great to see you’ve had some improvement the past couple days! Keep it up, healing is happening.

5 minutes ago, SarahMc said:

@MischaDE great to see you’ve had some improvement the past couple days! Keep it up, healing is happening.

Thx Sarah! I surely hope so because being under constant tension and pain is not something I think a human is supposed to endure for a long time.

You’re welcome, it’s normal.

I’m glad that you’ve noticed improvements, even minor ones. I understand what you’re saying when you say not to be able to force things. What a pity to live in an old person’s body, while being so young.

I haven’t seen much improvement lately as far as I’m concerned. There are even things that degrade strongly, such as sleep and appetite.

See you soon.

5 hours ago, MischaDE said:

Thx Sarah! I surely hope so because being under constant tension and pain is not something I think a human is supposed to endure for a long time.

None of our conditions are natural, they were all imposed on us by the drugs. But we’ve seen that many of those ahead of us have made it to the other side, and we will too!

Guys, thx for the positivity. It does help, as I just spiral very often.

At least today is another day where I don't wriggle around in immense pain, still don't feel good at all of course but it is something.

The exercise intolerance is messing with me because some more intense exercise would certainly keep me more sane now.

Edited July 12Jul 12 by MischaDE

Sending some love to my Germin buddy, it's coming home! lol xxxxx

26 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Sending some love to my Germin buddy, it's coming home! lol xxxxx

FOOTBALL'S COMING HOME!!!

1 hour ago, MischaDE said:

The exercise intolerance is messing with me because some more intense exercise would certainly keep me more sane now.

Can you do small, light things like stretching and walking?

7 minutes ago, Luke said:

Can you do small, light things like stretching and walking?

Yes, I can even push myself to do some bodyweight exercises or run a little bit, not too intense. It just feels very bad after.

8 minutes ago, MischaDE said:

Yes, I can even push myself to do some bodyweight exercises or run a little bit, not too intense. It just feels very bad after.

My suggestion would be not to do an amount that makes you feel very bad afterwards.

Partly for your health, and partly to stay sane as you say, maybe you could exercise on a regular schedule, but ONLY do things that don't push yourself too far. Maybe yoga, maybe a walk, maybe stretching etc.

That way, you won't be over stressing your body, you'll be staying some level of active, and also psychologically, you'll be doing something and sticking to an exercise process even if it's not strenuous- it's still beneficial.

Just a thought.

Yes, good advice. Thx Luke!

Миша, thinking of you. I can see there are some improvement for you, it is important to notice it. The permanent tension in the body is awful, this sensation kills me. At least you experience some relief from this Inhumane state. I hope further more positive feedbacks from you.

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1 hour ago, skamen said:

Миша, thinking of you. I can see there are some improvement for you, it is important to notice it. The permanent tension in the body is awful, this sensation kills me. At least you experience some relief from this Inhumane state. I hope further more positive feedbacks from you.

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If only I could help you, Svetla! Thank you for your comment!