@Fullhealing Thank you...I know for some reason withdrawal hasn't affected my sleep alot I don't know why I was very grateful for it after reading quite a few stories .. take care look after yourself 🙏

23 minutes ago, Beehive said:

Ok... for me I was a good sleeper 10.00 to 06.00 so this sort of thing  throws me out

I’m often in bed 8ish. Best that cortisol that wakes me so freeking early each day!

 

You’re doing great beehive. I’m sorry for what you’ve been dealing with the last few days. Not nice. But this will pass. 

Hi Beehive,

 

That fear that comes in the morning is so, so awful. I am so sorry you are going through this right now. Try and distract with something. I know it is so hard. Sometimes, I just jump on here and read through someone's thread. Especially the success stories. Knowing it is not a real fear can be helpful. Keep telling yourself you are safe.

 

Cheeky had lots of good advice. You have many people supporting you right now. Even though we can't be with you physically, we are here.

 

🌸Wombat

@Wombat thank you as you say its awful so all consuming but it's not the first time ..strange how we never learn from the last time ..still get so caught up in it . !! I hope your morning wasnt too bad and that you have a good day...thank you all for your kind words

It doesn't seem to matter how often it occurs, it takes us down when it comes again. Even if we are prepared for it (like doing a drop in dose) it takes it completely out of you. And feels like it will never get better.

 

I am in a holding phase at the moment, so am doing OK.

 

Hopefully, you will pick up some as the day goes on. Stay strong. You're doing great.

 

Wombat

@Wombat yes no matter how familiar we are with it or prepared it still pulls the rug from under our feet and yes thoughts it will never end . Glad you are ok at the moment 🙏

Hey @Beehive, are you feeling  any better 💕

@cheekyThanks for asking unfortunately not been an horrendous day so far..anxiety tight chest shaking hot chest burning cheeks crying hopelessness despair just chuck it all in ...can't get a grip on it and it doesn't seem to want to let go ..tough one today!! Hope you faired better 🙏

1 hour ago, Beehive said:

@cheekyThanks for asking unfortunately not been an horrendous day so far..anxiety tight chest shaking hot chest burning cheeks crying hopelessness despair just chuck it all in ...can't get a grip on it and it doesn't seem to want to let go ..tough one today!! Hope you faired better 🙏

Wishing you a better day tomorrow Beehive, lots of symptoms=lots of healing xxx

@Chippy Thank you for that,it's nice to look on it like that ..lots of symptons = lots of healing x....hope your day has been kinder 🙏

25 minutes ago, Beehive said:

@Chippy Thank you for that,it's nice to look on it like that ..lots of symptons = lots of healing x....hope your day has been kinder 🙏

I believe it beehive!

@Chippy That quote helped me more than you will know , eternally grateful ❤️

2 minutes ago, Beehive said:

@Chippy That quote helped me more than you will know , eternally grateful ❤️

Good 

9 hours ago, Beehive said:

@cheekyThanks for asking unfortunately not been an horrendous day so far..anxiety tight chest shaking hot chest burning cheeks crying hopelessness despair just chuck it all in ...can't get a grip on it and it doesn't seem to want to let go ..tough one today!! Hope you faired better 🙏

Oh I'm so sorry to hear that. I know how awful it is and I've had many of  those days which doesn't seem  let up. You have to keep telling yourself that these symptoms are your body trying to heal. They're not there to hurt you. They're doing what they have to do to repair us.
in times like that be kind to yourself and just allow it don't try to fight it if you need to cry have a good cry . 
reach out anytime  💕

Hi Beehive, It is midnight where you are at the moment. I hope you are sleeping peacefully.

 

Remember, however you wake up this morning, you have got this. Stay strong. We are all with you. Encouraging you, and praying for healing for you. Just remember you are healing through the waves. 

 

Your brain is recalibrating. Sometimes I have a mental picture of little tiny 2D characters wandering around my brain pulling things down, rebuilding, painting etc. (Maybe a bit weird). 

 

If you need to cry. Just cry. Sometimes that can make you feel better. If you are feeling scared, keep telling yourself that you are safe.

 

Reach out anytime. 

 

Wombat 🌸

@cheeky @Wombat Thank you both for your kind words and support it means a lot ..it was a very emotional day yesterday physically and mentally. At about 17.00 it started to subside and I knew it was lessening as I felt tired had been awake since 02 30 ..so I knew it was letting go . Felt so positive in the evening as if none of that actually happened 🤷🏻‍♀️...didn't do anything as my body needed rest. Watched some tele and fell asleep about 21.30 woke at 04.30 slightly anxious but it disappeared quickly . Feel ok, a little bit of me is waiting for it all to kick off ...@wombat your analogy isn't silly you should read some of mine 😄..hoping you are both in a good place and wishing you both good healing and peace 🙏

2 minutes ago, Beehive said:

as if none of that actually happened

Oh yes, have I said that a time or two. Isn't it so weird!!

Enjoy your window!! More healing has been done. Now rest and enjoy.

Wombat

@Wombat Thank you ..hope your day has been kind to you . Being older I'm still slightly in awe as to how we can converse with people all around the world...amazing !

Have to say I do like the new format of the site..

58 minutes ago, Beehive said:

Feel ok, a little bit of me is waiting for it all to kick off

Beehive, this is very good news..... Things are a bit easier today, :)

1 hour ago, Beehive said:

@cheeky @Wombat Thank you both for your kind words and support it means a lot ..it was a very emotional day yesterday physically and mentally. At about 17.00 it started to subside and I knew it was lessening as I felt tired had been awake since 02 30 ..so I knew it was letting go . Felt so positive in the evening as if none of that actually happened 🤷🏻‍♀️...didn't do anything as my body needed rest. Watched some tele and fell asleep about 21.30 woke at 04.30 slightly anxious but it disappeared quickly . Feel ok, a little bit of me is waiting for it all to kick off ...@wombat your analogy isn't silly you should read some of mine 😄..hoping you are both in a good place and wishing you both good healing and peace 🙏

I’m so glad it eased for you.

Feeling like your normal self again is incredibly reassuring—it makes the withdrawal feel like a distant memory and reminds you that you can cope when it comes back. But when a wave hits, all those coping skills seem to disappear and fear takes over… and the cycle starts again. 🌸

1 hour ago, Beehive said:

@cheeky @Wombat Thank you both for your kind words and support it means a lot ..it was a very emotional day yesterday physically and mentally. At about 17.00 it started to subside and I knew it was lessening as I felt tired had been awake since 02 30 ..so I knew it was letting go . Felt so positive in the evening as if none of that actually happened 🤷🏻‍♀️...didn't do anything as my body needed rest. Watched some tele and fell asleep about 21.30 woke at 04.30 slightly anxious but it disappeared quickly . Feel ok, a little bit of me is waiting for it all to kick off ...@wombat your analogy isn't silly you should read some of mine 😄..hoping you are both in a good place and wishing you both good healing and peace 🙏

What a relief @Beehive these moments are precious! very pleased for you! 💕

May it stretch as much as possible!

Thank you may your day ease for you ,you deserve some peace 🙏

Hi Beehive,

How did your day finish up yesterday?

Hope you wake up in a window today.

Wombat

@Wombat I had a good day yesterday strangely started to feel a bit more anxious in the evening. 6.00 here woke with slight fear and the horrible thoughts of I'm never going to get better this is it ...so hard to deal with this at times