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Skamen: Anhedonia caused by 14 years of Paxil, now in hell after CT

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Sweet @Nemina, I won't travel, I cannot endure the long trip from Montreal to Sofia via Francfort. My brain is broken, I have been in acute stage for 6 months now.

I read that you have a difficult time, dear Nemina. This journey is horrendous for everyone of us.

Svetla

2011-2023 Paxil

2023-2024 Effexor

Since February 2024 in anhedonia caused by the long use of AD

February 2024-March 2025 drug after drug after drug... 70 rTMS sessions, 8 ketamin infusions-nothing worked

March 2025 CT upon doctor "advice" from Desipramine, Viibryd, Lithium at high doses all together in 6 days

Since then awful withdrawal: unbearable anxiety, panic attacks, adrenaline rushes, hot flashes, muscle pain over all the body, insomnia, depression, intrusive thoughts, brain fog

Current tapering Mirtazapine : December 29,2025-3 mg, February,15, 2025-2,7 mg, February,28-2,5 mg, March,8-2 mg, March,14-1,5 mg, March,20-0 mg

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    Much love brave brave Svetla, you are a warrior in every sense of the word. xxxx

    I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. 

     

    If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

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    On 9/2/2026 at 3:22 PM, skamen said:

    Sweet @Nemina, I won't travel, I cannot endure the long trip from Montreal to Sofia via Francfort. My brain is broken, I have been in acute stage for 6 months now.

    I read that you have a difficult time, dear Nemina. This journey is horrendous for everyone of us.

    Svetla

    I am so sorry for you, but I can understand very well. This is a really extremely long trip and it means also crossing a lot of time zones. I haven’t heard of one single window from you. they will come, we are praying for this. But so far all you can do is wait and ride it out. So hard. The time will come when you will be able to travel…. take care, my dear.

    SA Thread: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/33406-nemina-tapering-escitalopram/


    AR Thread: https://antidepressantrecovery.org/topic/14-nemina-tapering-escilatopram-and-zolpidem/

     

    Drug History

    2013 - 2025:  Zolpidem 5 mg

    2015 - Oct 2024: Venlafaxine, Sertralin (Zoloft), Paroxetin (Paxil),duloxtin (cymbalta), Citalopram (Celexa), Escitalopram (Lexapro) and more 

     

    Current Drugs

    L-Thyroxin 75, Estrogen, Progesteron 200

     

    Tapering Escitalopram

    Until Sept 2024: Setralin/zoloft 75 mg

    Oct 2024: Switch to Escitalopram / Lexapro 2mg

    Then I tapered over a year from 2mg to 0,32 mg (October 2025).  108 days hold without stabilizing. Resumed taper February 2026:

    11 Feb 2026 0.314mg 

    18 Feb 2026 0.307mg 

    21 Feb 2026 0.302mg

    09 Mar 2026 0.297mg

    18 April 2026 0,293 mg

    18 May 2026 0,285 mg

    18 June 2026 0,265 mg

    18 July 2026 0,250 mg

    18 Aug 2026 0,232 mg

     

    Tapering Zolpidem: From 5 mg to 0,7 mg in 12 months,  then just crumbs for several weeks, now 0! (Jan 2025)

     

    Other Supplements 

    Omega 3, Magnesium Glycinate, Vit D, Calcium, L-theanin.

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