5 hours ago, Need to End said:

One thing I noticed wa I took half the klonopin dose this am by karaoke and actually felt a bit better during g the day. I’m assuming I should resume the normal dose still??

Im not sure what you are saying here, sorry. :)

Sorry I was saying I accidentally took just half my morning klonopin dose yest am and felt better during the day. Should I continue with just half the am dose or stay at full dose?

5 hours ago, Need to End said:

Sorry I was saying I accidentally took just half my morning klonopin dose yest am and felt better during the day. Should I continue with just half the am dose or stay at full dose?

@Need to End

If I were you, I'd go back to the full dose as taking a half in the a.m. and a full dose in the p.m. would be a big 25% reduction, whereas a 1/2 dose in the a.m. and a 1/2 dose in the p.m. would be a huge 50% reduction. Continuing at either of those reduction percentages could cause a lot of trouble for you. I'd go back to your .5 mg a.m./.5 mg p.m schedule, but I'd make a mental note that you felt better after that accidental 1/2 dose. It's hard to say, but that could potentially be meaningful as far as how you're reacting to the Klonopin.

Ok ty. It was nice to have a little relief today to be honest. It wasn’t amazing but noticeable - I actually did this yest by accident and then today on purpose - so 2 days.

10 hours ago, Need to End said:

Sorry I was saying I accidentally took just half my morning klonopin dose yest am and felt better during the day. Should I continue with just half the am dose or stay at full dose?

Just stick to the full dose. If you want to taper off the benzo because you found some relief doing this, we can talk about it and come up with a plan but that’s too big a cut in one go.

Ok ty. I get it. Is it possible to taper z 2 drugs at once?

Also my naturopath is suggesting micros don’t mushrooms?

1 hour ago, Need to End said:

Ok ty. I get it. Is it possible to taper z 2 drugs at once?

You can. But as you are not feeling well at the moment I wouldn’t. I’d either finish this taper and then think about it. Or pause this taper and make a reduction on the benzo if you think you might benefit from that.

1 hour ago, Need to End said:

Also my naturopath is suggesting micros don’t mushrooms?

I think you are asking if you should try micro dosing Mushrooms?

This is a terrible idea. They have become the new fad to offer. Your nervous system doesn’t want more psycho active substances it needs off these substances. Fuel on the fire imo.

Ok. Thank you. I drove my daughter to Walgreens and then the coffee shop today. I felt better then but later in the day all the things returned and been in bed rest of day.

2 minutes ago, Need to End said:

Ok. Thank you. I drove my daughter to Walgreens and then the coffee shop today. I felt better then but later in the day all the things returned and been in bed rest of day.

It’s really good you felt better at some point in the day. Good to see some windows in a day great sign imo.

Thank you. I feel like it was because I didn’t do the full dose of klonopin this am.

I was sobbing later in the day just a wreck

2 minutes ago, Need to End said:

Thank you. I feel like it was because I didn’t do the full dose of klonopin this am.

Its interesting. It may be a coincidence. You’ll have to have a think and see if you want to try reducing.

3 minutes ago, Need to End said:

I was sobbing later in the day just a wreck

I’m very sorry to hear that. Your nervous system is just a bit wobbly, it’s not you, these drugs do this to us

Taking the full dose again and today’s been more difficult. I don’t feel like I can handle all this pressure $, work, depression/anxiety and the whole bit. It’s freaking crushing. And everyone just says it will work out but I don’t feel that way.

17 hours ago, Need to End said:

I drove my daughter to Walgreens and then the coffee shop today. I felt better then but later in the day all the things returned and been in bed rest of day.

3 minutes ago, Need to End said:

I don’t feel like I can handle all this pressure $, work, depression/anxiety and the whole bit. It’s freaking crushing. And everyone just says it will work out but I don’t feel that way.

Read these two posts and see how they relate. You took your daughter somewhere and felt better. As soon you got home you went to bed and now you feel worse. Isolating yourself just leaves you alone with your ruminations. That should tell you how weak all these feelings are and how much they need to control your actions so they can control your thoughts. Work on distraction and positive thought practices and you'll get more moments of relief.

I hear you but they were. 1 day apart. Yesterday I felt much better which allowed me to go out for a few mins. I don’t get it I never felt this scared.

The timing is irrelevant. The point is you feel better when you find something other than your ruminations to focus on. As soon as you close yourself off, you start down the path of dark thoughts again.

I don’t know how to direct from some real financial obligations coming my way in the next 7 months tho.

2 hours ago, Need to End said:

Taking the full dose again and today’s been more difficult. I don’t feel like I can handle all this pressure $, work, depression/anxiety and the whole bit. It’s freaking crushing. And everyone just says it will work out but I don’t feel that way.

So sorry, such a brutal roller coaster but remember that it's temporary, you've had better moments, it may not be ideal as we want much more than this but it will grow over time, keep surviving, do what you can and it will come.

44 minutes ago, Need to End said:

I don’t know how to direct from some real financial obligations coming my way in the next 7 months tho.

Anticipatory anxiety is always worse than reality. When real problems appear, most people are a lot stronger than they think. And remember 99% of what you worry about never happens.

Also, look back on your posts. The common denominator is a constant background of fear and anxiety. Earlier, you were afraid you’re stuck and won’t get better. Now it’s future financial problems. If you work on dissipating the fear and anxiety, you’ll find all the other problems don’t seem as daunting.

Ty - I know I owe it per my divorce still def come true that’s the hard part.

Unfortunately life happens while we’re in withdrawal. I have a friend who had a job in the high six figures and was paying half in alimony. He found another job that paid much less and was able to work something out with his ex.

Just try to deal with things as they occur instead of letting them overwhelm you with what ifs.

I’m trying. All this is eating me alive constantly. I’m sorry for being a pain.

Nothing to be sorry for. We’re here to

support you all the way. Just go easy on yourself.

8 minutes ago, Need to End said:

I’m trying. All this is eating me alive constantly. I’m sorry for being a pain.

Don't apologize, it's a painful process, it's hard to know how to navigate, everything gets mixed up, there's a lot of doubts, questions, regrets, what not... It's understandable, we're all there with you.