Are you guys confident that what I’m dealing with is withdrawal??

8 minutes ago, Need to End said:

Are you guys confident that what I’m dealing with is withdrawal??

Certainly! The stressors you have are making it worse unfortunately. If you were not in wd you’d not be reacting in this way. It would be hard still but not like this. That’s why it’s important to try and distract and accept and remove yourself as much as you can from those stressors. Things have a way of sorting themselves out. Just do what you can and trust that it’s enough. Then accept the rest.

I keep getting scared it’s just me .

My grandma just passed away it’s like one thing after the next. I’ve not had near this much stress at once my whole life

I’m also at 1.93 mg now

3 hours ago, Need to End said:

I keep getting scared it’s just me .

Its not, trust me!

3 hours ago, Need to End said:

My grandma just passed away it’s like one thing after the next. I’ve not had near this much stress at once my whole life

Im very sorry to hear, you are having a rough time atm, things won't always be this way.

3 hours ago, Need to End said:

I’m also at 1.93 mg now

Ok, good to know, if you could try to keep your signature up to date that would be great.

4 hours ago, Need to End said:

Are you guys confident that what I’m dealing with is withdrawal??

The combination of withdrawal and the drugs you're currently taking, yes. Which is which? Hard to say.

The point is, it's not "you".

For some reason it just continues to feel so hopeless and I’m trying to stay afloat guys.

Even when I walk in my daughter’s room the smell of her sheets and perfume make me depressed and sad. It reminds me of how much she’s growing and I’m losing. It hits me on an extreme level every time I go in there to turn the lights off after she leaves . WTH

And right now I’m sitting g here full of angst and fear and zero peace or hope.

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Withdrawal related anxiety is incredibly selfish. It wants 100% of your attention all of the time. It needs to keep you in a dark place so it can control you. So it turns happy memories or positive possibilities into regret and guilt. Try to remind yourself these thoughts are not reality. Your thoughts and feelings only have power when you react to them. You can let them come but then let them float out of your mind without giving them a home. Acceptance is difficult at first but it works if you stick with it.

I hate it / the adrenaline or whatever it is just doesn’t stop.

9 hours ago, Need to End said:

Even when I walk in my daughter’s room the smell of her sheets and perfume make me depressed and sad. It reminds me of how much she’s growing and I’m losing. It hits me on an extreme level every time I go in there to turn the lights off after she leaves . WTH

I understand this, the last two years I feel I have been robbed of my little boy getting from 10-12, he has grown so much, and before this we were realy living, camping together in the hills, up for sunrise at the beach to take some photos, amazing stuff, this last two years have been tough. I deal with it by not allowing my mind to stay on that thought, I remind myself I didn't cause any of this, and I am doing my best in difficult circumstances. I also am convinced that once I am over all this, I will be making up for lost time with him! Asides from that I do my best right now, to be the best dad I can without making WD harder for me. I think this is all we can do.

3 hours ago, Need to End said:

I hate it / the adrenaline or whatever it is just doesn’t stop.

I know, these drugs are hell, I wish this would pass quicker for you, but you have got this, you are doing it for your daughter! Hang in there n2e

I’m so sorry to hear that. It’s so hard. I have a son and a daughter so it’s tough. Are you a single dad?

Hi @Need to End so sorry for your troubles. Prozacs metabolite (norfluoxetine) has extremely long half life. Upwards of 15 days. That’s why when I CT my Prozac I felt no symptoms for 3 months. That is something to keep in mind. I am in agony every single day. And every single day I wonder if I should just stop taking that poison and whatever happens happens.

The temptation is very strong. Unfortunately I don’t have an answer for either one of us.

I’m just replying to let you know you’re not alone. I feel your pain. I wish you feel better soon.

@Need to End im so sorry that youre having such a tough time. youre going through alot right now and its not fair but youre strong and you can get through this. i fully believe that your suffering will go away one day and that you can get your life back, just keep hanging in there. sending you lots of support and well wishes.

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Ty so much for the messages guys it means the world to me.

Is it normal for people in this situation to suspect they have heart issues due to dizziness and fatigue and shortness of breath?

1 minute ago, Need to End said:

Is it normal for people in this situation to suspect they have heart issues due to dizziness and fatigue and shortness of breath?

Yes. Anxiety makes your heart race which causes dizziness. If you had heart problems you'd be having other symptoms. Again, anxiety just wants to find something--anything--to keep you in its grip. If you resolve the heart issue it'll find something else. Find ways to reduce the anxiety and the symptoms will decrease.

Man these symptoms are annoying esp the constant fatigue. I did go get my heart checked out a year ago and it seemed like ev came back good. My heart rate took a little longer to come down after the treadmill stress test however I am 230 lbs and have added a lot of muscle to my frame over the years and do not do cardio so maybe that was just the extra mass I carry?? I feel like is should do more testing or something?? Its so easy to lay down and getting up to do something seems like a massive energy undertaking.

1 hour ago, Need to End said:

I feel like is should do more testing or something??

I'm not a doctor so I won't give you medical advice, but if you were checked a year ago, I'd think you don't have much to worry about. Anxiety increases your heart rate, so you may have started with an elevated rate to begin with. But as always, its your call to have it checked. Just know that if comes back fine, your anxiety will make you find something else to worry about unless you get to the root problem.

Yes definitely @Need to End, I get this excruciating chest tightness that comes and goes, accompanied by shortness of breath. It’s really really uncomfortable to say the least.

But I went to the ER a couple of months ago and they ran some tests and didn’t find anything wrong with the heart. So I stopped worrying about that. Still suffering immensely though. Hope you feel better

Thx guys idk what to do.

Ok another question - I’m down to 1.98 mg. I still don’t feel any worse than I did 3 months ago at 3.6 I just feel the same level of terrible I have the whole damn time.

Is it okay to keep going at this pace since nothing overtly has gotten worse?

25 minutes ago, Need to End said:

Thx guys idk what to do.

Ok another question - I’m down to 1.98 mg. I still don’t feel any worse than I did 3 months ago at 3.6 I just feel the same level of terrible I have the whole damn time.

Is it okay to keep going at this pace since nothing overtly has gotten worse?

I think only you can really judge this. You’ve been working on the basis Prozac is reacting adversely for you and tapering off is your best option, if you think this is still the case and you’ve not worsened then perhaps creeping off as you are is best.

12 hours ago, Need to End said:

I’m so sorry to hear that. It’s so hard. I have a son and a daughter so it’s tough. Are you a single dad?

Thanks. It is hard. I just have to keep reminding my self to be stoic and accept I didn’t do this. In life we have to make the best of the hand we dealt I think. Still tough sometimes.

I’m not a single dad which is a blessing.

Can anyone who’s gotten to the other side talk about joy and passion returning?

I’m so scared I won’t ever feel passionate about anything - kids/ work etc…. Again

24 minutes ago, Need to End said:

Can anyone who’s gotten to the other side talk about joy and passion returning?

I’m so scared I won’t ever feel passionate about anything - kids/ work etc…. Again

Yes, your joys and passions will return. Part of what you’re experiencing is your brain trying to sort your feelings and emotions out. It’s having trouble moderating your feelings so everything feels worse than it should. But with time your nervous system will rebalance. It took me a long time too but all the emotions came back.

Ty! Am I already healing and down that path being. At 1.89 mg or does it not even start until I’m at zero?

I feel like I’m years away still and I can’t imagine living like this for years more