February 15Feb 15 Hey Luke, I’m catching up on posts. Chronic issues can weigh a person down but you persevere! I know you will get to wherever you would like as a healed place. But the timeline is unknown and tricky. I believe you related you had no other chronic health conditions before. So it concerns me about other so called “medical interventions”. I can PM you. I will say a prayer/positive thoughts for you and the rest of the people on here tonight. I hope you sleep well and wake up feeling well tomorrow. Thank you for starting this community with Chippy’s help. You will be and probably are being greatly rewarded for this. Big sunny windows for you! 2 Tim 1:7 For God did not give us a spirit of cowardice (fear); but rather of power and love and self-control (a sound mind).The Whole Story About Me--Current Rx: since 2000-2025 Levothyroxine discontinued late Sept 2025 under DO supervision--no menstrual cycle for 2 months, Hypothalamus PMG brought it back and has been regular ever since under functional chiropractor =o) thank God for holistic medicine2017-current Remeron/Mirt. recent taper schedule here: crushed pills 0.45mg May 30, 2025; 0.4mg Sept 14, 2025; found out 0.4mg weighed is actually a dose of 0.44mg Dec 19, 2025 and now using compounded Rx; 0.41mg Feb 27, 2026; 0.39mg April 3, 2026, 0.38mg May 8, 2026, 0.37mg June 28, 2026.--Supplements: Standard Process-Whole Food Folate, Prolamine Iodine Plus, B Vitality w/ CoQ10, Zypan, RNA, Cataplex E, Symplex F, and Immuplex (sort of like a multi but for Oct-Apr) when needed; Biotics Research- Mg-Zyme 100mg; Omega-3 Oil, Black Currant Seed Oil, Vitamin D3/K2 drops; sometimes Seeking Health methyl free multi vitamin and elderberry zinc gummies**Love my work, fitness, polyvagal exercises (includes yoga-style poses for nervous system regulation), prayer/Inner Healing Prayer, holistic health, somatic therapies, lovingkindness, forest therapy, singing, helping others, spending time in nature and with family and friends.Anti-histamine Withdrawal Video-Explains a lot (This is not me.)
February 16Feb 16 Author @namastejen1 Thank you for the kind words. I can assure you than no medical interventions are currently planned, other than seeing a specialist about one of my symptoms in August. My doctors wasted from early 2023 to early 2025 refusing to refer me to any specialists, and then when they finally did after I started putting things In writing, there was another 18ish month wait to see them. They still maintain I received excellent medical care that they specifically stated that they were "proud of" in writing though. Nothing I say is medical advice, it is simply my opinion. I am an anonymous person on an internet forum with no relevant qualifications other than being badly harmed by a drug. For all you know, I could be an idiot. You are making your own decisions and part of that is deciding how much to listen to my opinion, if at all. Perhaps you should consider this post an artistic work of fiction written for entertainment purposes. Story from SA: LukeUK: Remeron/Mirtazapine Severe Withdrawal - Introductions and updates - Surviving Antidepressants 15mg Remeron/Mirtazapine November starting 2022 (severe physical side effects) Attempted to taper off January 2023, ended up having a major breakdown and going up to 30mg, took weeks to stabilise 1 month taper to 0mg Last dose April 2023 Severe withdrawal syndrome with many physical symptoms Summary: 5 months using Mirtazapine, including 1 month taper ending late April 2023.
February 17Feb 17 9 hours ago, Luke said: @namastejen1 Thank you for the kind words. I can assure you than no medical interventions are currently planned, other than seeing a specialist about one of my symptoms in August. My doctors wasted from early 2023 to early 2025 refusing to refer me to any specialists, and then when they finally did after I started putting things In writing, there was another 18ish month wait to see them. They still maintain I received excellent medical care that they specifically stated that they were "proud of" in writing though. Oh boy, sounds like a bunch of hogwash from them. I still have to PM you about my thoughts--not saying you should plan anything either. Will PM now and head off of here for the night. Be well, my friend 🙏🏼 2 Tim 1:7 For God did not give us a spirit of cowardice (fear); but rather of power and love and self-control (a sound mind).The Whole Story About Me--Current Rx: since 2000-2025 Levothyroxine discontinued late Sept 2025 under DO supervision--no menstrual cycle for 2 months, Hypothalamus PMG brought it back and has been regular ever since under functional chiropractor =o) thank God for holistic medicine2017-current Remeron/Mirt. recent taper schedule here: crushed pills 0.45mg May 30, 2025; 0.4mg Sept 14, 2025; found out 0.4mg weighed is actually a dose of 0.44mg Dec 19, 2025 and now using compounded Rx; 0.41mg Feb 27, 2026; 0.39mg April 3, 2026, 0.38mg May 8, 2026, 0.37mg June 28, 2026.--Supplements: Standard Process-Whole Food Folate, Prolamine Iodine Plus, B Vitality w/ CoQ10, Zypan, RNA, Cataplex E, Symplex F, and Immuplex (sort of like a multi but for Oct-Apr) when needed; Biotics Research- Mg-Zyme 100mg; Omega-3 Oil, Black Currant Seed Oil, Vitamin D3/K2 drops; sometimes Seeking Health methyl free multi vitamin and elderberry zinc gummies**Love my work, fitness, polyvagal exercises (includes yoga-style poses for nervous system regulation), prayer/Inner Healing Prayer, holistic health, somatic therapies, lovingkindness, forest therapy, singing, helping others, spending time in nature and with family and friends.Anti-histamine Withdrawal Video-Explains a lot (This is not me.)
February 20Feb 20 Author I have been doing a fair bit better since my last update, by far the best I've been since all of this. Not symptom-free, but everything dialled down a lot. In particular, my sleep is still poor relative to a healthy person, but I have been sleeping more and crucially, it finally feels like I achieved at least some rest when I wake up. I'm still having difficulties with tiredness, and various symptoms flaring up at random, but overall it has been manageable for the last week or so. I had a pre-planned break from the forum after today for a week, that was going to happen whether or not I felt ok, but I wanted to post this update before I took this break. Nothing I say is medical advice, it is simply my opinion. I am an anonymous person on an internet forum with no relevant qualifications other than being badly harmed by a drug. For all you know, I could be an idiot. You are making your own decisions and part of that is deciding how much to listen to my opinion, if at all. Perhaps you should consider this post an artistic work of fiction written for entertainment purposes. Story from SA: LukeUK: Remeron/Mirtazapine Severe Withdrawal - Introductions and updates - Surviving Antidepressants 15mg Remeron/Mirtazapine November starting 2022 (severe physical side effects) Attempted to taper off January 2023, ended up having a major breakdown and going up to 30mg, took weeks to stabilise 1 month taper to 0mg Last dose April 2023 Severe withdrawal syndrome with many physical symptoms Summary: 5 months using Mirtazapine, including 1 month taper ending late April 2023.
February 20Feb 20 6 hours ago, Luke said: have been doing a fair bit better since my last update, by far the best I've been since all of this. Not symptom-free, but everything dialled down a lot. In particular, my sleep is still poor relative to a healthy person, but I have been sleeping more and crucially, it finally feels like I achieved at least some rest when I wake up. I am so happy for you! SA Thread: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/33406-nemina-tapering-escitalopram/AR Thread: https://antidepressantrecovery.org/topic/14-nemina-tapering-escilatopram-and-zolpidem/ Drug History2013 - 2025: Zolpidem 5 mg2015 - Oct 2024: Venlafaxine, Sertralin (Zoloft), Paroxetin (Paxil),duloxtin (cymbalta), Citalopram (Celexa), Escitalopram (Lexapro) and more Current DrugsL-Thyroxin 75, Estrogen, Progesteron 200 Tapering EscitalopramUntil Sept 2024: Setralin/zoloft 75 mgOct 2024: Switch to Escitalopram / Lexapro 2mgThen I tapered over a year from 2mg to 0,32 mg (October 2025). 108 days hold without stabilizing. Resumed taper February 2026:11 Feb 2026 0.314mg 18 Feb 2026 0.307mg 21 Feb 2026 0.302mg09 Mar 2026 0.297mg18 April 2026 0,293 mg18 May 2026 0,285 mg18 June 2026 0,265 mg18 July 2026 0,250 mg18 Aug 2026 0,232 mg Tapering Zolpidem: From 5 mg to 0,7 mg in 12 months, then just crumbs for several weeks, now 0! (Jan 2025) Other Supplements Omega 3, Magnesium Glycinate, Vit D, Calcium, L-theanin.
February 24Feb 24 On 2/20/2026 at 5:16 AM, Luke said: I have been doing a fair bit better since my last update, by far the best I've been since all of this. Not symptom-free, but everything dialled down a lot. In particular, my sleep is still poor relative to a healthy person, but I have been sleeping more and crucially, it finally feels like I achieved at least some rest when I wake up. I'm still having difficulties with tiredness, and various symptoms flaring up at random, but overall it has been manageable for the last week or so. I had a pre-planned break from the forum after today for a week, that was going to happen whether or not I felt ok, but I wanted to post this update before I took this break. hope you continue to see a lot more recovery! more and more and more Prozac 60mg 2018 - 2024 then cold turkey'dWithdrawal/adverse reaction to reinstatement (10mg for 8 days) began Feb 2025Month 0 - 3 = windows and waves every weekMonth 4 - 6 = constant waveMonth 7- 11 = massive window, felt 80% healedMonth 12 - 18 = constant wave but better than < Month 6
February 25Feb 25 Really reassuring to hear Luke 🙏. Enjoy the break. Aug 2006 - Sertraline 25/50/75/100mg TO June 2019 - Reduced from 100mg to 50mg over a few monthsSept 2019 - Reduced from 50mg to 25mg lasted a week, then went back up to 50mg, after a few weeks back up to 100mg.Oct 2021 - Reduced to 75mg, Dec 2021 (mid) reduced to 50mg , March 2022 - Reduced to 25mgOct 2022 - Reduce to 0mg (Immediate withdrawal crying, mood unstable, impending doom, digestive probs, tingling,numbness,burning, brain zaps, insomnia)Feb 2023 - "Panic attack" lasting 14 hours, 2 weeks later start back on 25mg sertraline, 12 hours later severe 'panic attack' with chest pain, tachycardia, restlessness, hyponatraemia, impending doom, racing thoughts, akathisia mild. Taken to emergency. March 2023 back up to 50mg (on medical advice), April 75mg, May 100mg. Back to 75mg within a few weeks due to feeling too stimulated and anxious. Nov 2023 resume taper. 70, 65, 60, 55, 50 (March 2024)April 45mg, May 41mg, June 37mg, July 34mg Aug 31mg, Sept 28mg, Oct 26mg, Nov 25mg, HOLD Jan 1st 2025 24mg, Jan 12th 23.5mg, Jan 20th 23mg, Feb 20th 22mg, March 20th 21mg, April 14th 18.9mg, May 5th 17mg, May 28th 15.3mg, July 16th 13.7mg, Aug 26th 12.3mg, Sept 16th 10.5 mg, Sept 22, 10mg, Oct 7th 8.3mg, Nov 4th 8mg, Dec 1st 7.7mg, Dec 26th 7mg 2026 Updose to 7.2mg Mar 20th, Back to 7mg Mar 21. Currently holding Other supplements: Fish oil, Mg citrate/glycinate 150-300mg per day, Ginkgo biloba daily, womens multi vit/min 3 times week, Vitamin C 1000mg night, valerian/passiflora as needed. B12 as needed. Bone support for osteopaenia (Ca/Mg, K, D)
March 1Mar 1 Author In the last week off the forum, I've been mostly a bit ill, with a couple of days that were like going 3/4 of the way back to acute- bedridden and very ill, along with the usual psychological torture. I'm okayish again in the last day or two. The psychological symptoms are difficult but the physical aspect of this is bad. Nearly a week ago, I was 2 years and 10 months off of Mirtazapine. Nothing I say is medical advice, it is simply my opinion. I am an anonymous person on an internet forum with no relevant qualifications other than being badly harmed by a drug. For all you know, I could be an idiot. You are making your own decisions and part of that is deciding how much to listen to my opinion, if at all. Perhaps you should consider this post an artistic work of fiction written for entertainment purposes. Story from SA: LukeUK: Remeron/Mirtazapine Severe Withdrawal - Introductions and updates - Surviving Antidepressants 15mg Remeron/Mirtazapine November starting 2022 (severe physical side effects) Attempted to taper off January 2023, ended up having a major breakdown and going up to 30mg, took weeks to stabilise 1 month taper to 0mg Last dose April 2023 Severe withdrawal syndrome with many physical symptoms Summary: 5 months using Mirtazapine, including 1 month taper ending late April 2023.
March 1Mar 1 2 hours ago, Luke said: In the last week off the forum, I've been mostly a bit ill, with a couple of days that were like going 3/4 of the way back to acute- bedridden and very ill, along with the usual psychological torture. I'm okayish again in the last day or two. The psychological symptoms are difficult but the physical aspect of this is bad. Nearly a week ago, I was 2 years and 10 months off of Mirtazapine. I feel for you @Luke having been through a Mirt taper. I ended up in a heap. Had to try something to get me out of the hole I was in. Enter Amitriptyline and reinstatement of Escitalopram. I hope this is the beginning of a long period of stability. Take care 🤗 Link to SA Profile: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/32414-catbird-introduction-a-long-and-winding-road/1996 Commenced on Sertraline 50 - 100mg. Many ADs trialled -Fluoxetine 20 mg, Paroxetine 20mg, Venlafaxine 75mg, Escitalopram 10 - 20mg, Vortioxetine 20mg, Bupropion 150mg. 2019 Recommenced Escitalopram 2022 Mirtazapine 30mg - Rapid taper. Amitriptyline 20mgCURRENT MEDICATIONS: Escitalopram taper from ~ 10mg commenced 2024, Amitriptyline 20mg at night, Diazepam 7.5mg total per day, Baclofen 10mg morning, 10mg lunch and 20mg night, Polaramine 2mg at night, Ketamine troche 25mg per day (Ceased early September 2025), Valsartan 160mg evening, HRT (Oestrogen 25mcg/day) ESCITALOPRAM TAPER: 5 April 2025 - started holding at 1.516mg. Escitalopram taper resumed July 2025; End Aug 1.364; End Sept 1.228; End Oct 1.145; End Nov 1.1 Early Dec 1.11; End Dec 1.082; 2026 End Jan 1.047; Feb 6 1.030; Feb 20 1.014; April 10 1.012; May 3 1.014; May 11 1.010 & still holding Supplements: Mg++ glycinate, Omega 3s, Curcumin. Vit D3/K2 spray, Vitamin B12 spray, chelated zinc.
March 2Mar 2 Oh, Luke. I have been off of the site too with my mom and then reestablishing back home/work/kiddo and kiddo brings home a virus. So sorry to hear that things have gotten worse but it does seem you are little better now. This is unreal but you have done such a wonderful thing here. You channeled your issues into creating this space with Chippy. It will all stack up in your favor. You will see. Blessings and hugs to you. 2 Tim 1:7 For God did not give us a spirit of cowardice (fear); but rather of power and love and self-control (a sound mind).The Whole Story About Me--Current Rx: since 2000-2025 Levothyroxine discontinued late Sept 2025 under DO supervision--no menstrual cycle for 2 months, Hypothalamus PMG brought it back and has been regular ever since under functional chiropractor =o) thank God for holistic medicine2017-current Remeron/Mirt. recent taper schedule here: crushed pills 0.45mg May 30, 2025; 0.4mg Sept 14, 2025; found out 0.4mg weighed is actually a dose of 0.44mg Dec 19, 2025 and now using compounded Rx; 0.41mg Feb 27, 2026; 0.39mg April 3, 2026, 0.38mg May 8, 2026, 0.37mg June 28, 2026.--Supplements: Standard Process-Whole Food Folate, Prolamine Iodine Plus, B Vitality w/ CoQ10, Zypan, RNA, Cataplex E, Symplex F, and Immuplex (sort of like a multi but for Oct-Apr) when needed; Biotics Research- Mg-Zyme 100mg; Omega-3 Oil, Black Currant Seed Oil, Vitamin D3/K2 drops; sometimes Seeking Health methyl free multi vitamin and elderberry zinc gummies**Love my work, fitness, polyvagal exercises (includes yoga-style poses for nervous system regulation), prayer/Inner Healing Prayer, holistic health, somatic therapies, lovingkindness, forest therapy, singing, helping others, spending time in nature and with family and friends.Anti-histamine Withdrawal Video-Explains a lot (This is not me.)
March 4Mar 4 On 3/1/2026 at 6:48 PM, Luke said: In the last week off the forum, I've been mostly a bit ill, with a couple of days that were like going 3/4 of the way back to acute- bedridden and very ill, along with the usual psychological torture. I'm okayish again in the last day or two. The psychological symptoms are difficult but the physical aspect of this is bad. Nearly a week ago, I was 2 years and 10 months off of Mirtazapine. So sorry Luke that you are still suffering and it has been so protracted. The psychological torture is just hell. It has to turn for you sometime given how far you have come. Pleased you had at least some tolerable days. Maybe the return of the light in your hemisphere will bring some shifts. Take care of yourself Luke. Aug 2006 - Sertraline 25/50/75/100mg TO June 2019 - Reduced from 100mg to 50mg over a few monthsSept 2019 - Reduced from 50mg to 25mg lasted a week, then went back up to 50mg, after a few weeks back up to 100mg.Oct 2021 - Reduced to 75mg, Dec 2021 (mid) reduced to 50mg , March 2022 - Reduced to 25mgOct 2022 - Reduce to 0mg (Immediate withdrawal crying, mood unstable, impending doom, digestive probs, tingling,numbness,burning, brain zaps, insomnia)Feb 2023 - "Panic attack" lasting 14 hours, 2 weeks later start back on 25mg sertraline, 12 hours later severe 'panic attack' with chest pain, tachycardia, restlessness, hyponatraemia, impending doom, racing thoughts, akathisia mild. Taken to emergency. March 2023 back up to 50mg (on medical advice), April 75mg, May 100mg. Back to 75mg within a few weeks due to feeling too stimulated and anxious. Nov 2023 resume taper. 70, 65, 60, 55, 50 (March 2024)April 45mg, May 41mg, June 37mg, July 34mg Aug 31mg, Sept 28mg, Oct 26mg, Nov 25mg, HOLD Jan 1st 2025 24mg, Jan 12th 23.5mg, Jan 20th 23mg, Feb 20th 22mg, March 20th 21mg, April 14th 18.9mg, May 5th 17mg, May 28th 15.3mg, July 16th 13.7mg, Aug 26th 12.3mg, Sept 16th 10.5 mg, Sept 22, 10mg, Oct 7th 8.3mg, Nov 4th 8mg, Dec 1st 7.7mg, Dec 26th 7mg 2026 Updose to 7.2mg Mar 20th, Back to 7mg Mar 21. Currently holding Other supplements: Fish oil, Mg citrate/glycinate 150-300mg per day, Ginkgo biloba daily, womens multi vit/min 3 times week, Vitamin C 1000mg night, valerian/passiflora as needed. B12 as needed. Bone support for osteopaenia (Ca/Mg, K, D)
March 13Mar 13 I have been down and out with that darn virus. How have you been Luke? I will send you well wishes/prayers that you are doing well right now! Be well, my friend. 2 Tim 1:7 For God did not give us a spirit of cowardice (fear); but rather of power and love and self-control (a sound mind).The Whole Story About Me--Current Rx: since 2000-2025 Levothyroxine discontinued late Sept 2025 under DO supervision--no menstrual cycle for 2 months, Hypothalamus PMG brought it back and has been regular ever since under functional chiropractor =o) thank God for holistic medicine2017-current Remeron/Mirt. recent taper schedule here: crushed pills 0.45mg May 30, 2025; 0.4mg Sept 14, 2025; found out 0.4mg weighed is actually a dose of 0.44mg Dec 19, 2025 and now using compounded Rx; 0.41mg Feb 27, 2026; 0.39mg April 3, 2026, 0.38mg May 8, 2026, 0.37mg June 28, 2026.--Supplements: Standard Process-Whole Food Folate, Prolamine Iodine Plus, B Vitality w/ CoQ10, Zypan, RNA, Cataplex E, Symplex F, and Immuplex (sort of like a multi but for Oct-Apr) when needed; Biotics Research- Mg-Zyme 100mg; Omega-3 Oil, Black Currant Seed Oil, Vitamin D3/K2 drops; sometimes Seeking Health methyl free multi vitamin and elderberry zinc gummies**Love my work, fitness, polyvagal exercises (includes yoga-style poses for nervous system regulation), prayer/Inner Healing Prayer, holistic health, somatic therapies, lovingkindness, forest therapy, singing, helping others, spending time in nature and with family and friends.Anti-histamine Withdrawal Video-Explains a lot (This is not me.)
March 14Mar 14 Author I'm sorry to hear that you've been unwell. Some days are bad, some are ok. Not good or great, but ok. The bad days can still be pretty bad. Mostly, I am struggling physically. I am improving in time. I just need plenty more of it, and the extent to which it'll happen seems unclear. However, if I keep improving in time, surely there will come a time when I am doing well. Nothing I say is medical advice, it is simply my opinion. I am an anonymous person on an internet forum with no relevant qualifications other than being badly harmed by a drug. For all you know, I could be an idiot. You are making your own decisions and part of that is deciding how much to listen to my opinion, if at all. Perhaps you should consider this post an artistic work of fiction written for entertainment purposes. Story from SA: LukeUK: Remeron/Mirtazapine Severe Withdrawal - Introductions and updates - Surviving Antidepressants 15mg Remeron/Mirtazapine November starting 2022 (severe physical side effects) Attempted to taper off January 2023, ended up having a major breakdown and going up to 30mg, took weeks to stabilise 1 month taper to 0mg Last dose April 2023 Severe withdrawal syndrome with many physical symptoms Summary: 5 months using Mirtazapine, including 1 month taper ending late April 2023.
March 23Mar 23 Author 2 years and 11 months off of using Mirtazapine for a few months. I don't live a life worth the suffering I have experienced. Maybe one day I will, maybe I won't. It would have been far better if I had not had help to stay alive after my initial withdrawal. When I look at other stories of people still in PAWS this far out, they're normally having minor residual symptoms but living a normal life, being active and so on and they're absolutely devastated to have occasional waves around that inbetween living a good, normal life. Can't do most of the things I enjoy, struggle to socialise around the physical issues, cannot exercise and can only watch my body deteriorate further whilst I desperately do the small amount I can, can't live any kind of life other than with my parents in my mid 30s, no idea if it's safe to ever have a family, can't seek a partner, can't plan anything. All I can do is get through each day as best I can, whilst being exhausted and suffering various physical symptoms, while wasting years of my life and losing everything. Nothing I say is medical advice, it is simply my opinion. I am an anonymous person on an internet forum with no relevant qualifications other than being badly harmed by a drug. For all you know, I could be an idiot. You are making your own decisions and part of that is deciding how much to listen to my opinion, if at all. Perhaps you should consider this post an artistic work of fiction written for entertainment purposes. Story from SA: LukeUK: Remeron/Mirtazapine Severe Withdrawal - Introductions and updates - Surviving Antidepressants 15mg Remeron/Mirtazapine November starting 2022 (severe physical side effects) Attempted to taper off January 2023, ended up having a major breakdown and going up to 30mg, took weeks to stabilise 1 month taper to 0mg Last dose April 2023 Severe withdrawal syndrome with many physical symptoms Summary: 5 months using Mirtazapine, including 1 month taper ending late April 2023.
March 23Mar 23 14 minutes ago, Luke said: Can't do most of the things I enjoy, struggle to socialise around the physical issues, cannot exercise and can only watch my body deteriorate further whilst I desperately do the small amount I can, can't live any kind of life other than with my parents in my mid 30s, no idea if it's safe to ever have a family, can't seek a partner, can't plan anything. All I can do is get through each day as best I can, whilst being exhausted and suffering various physical symptoms, while wasting years of my life and losing everything. Dear @Luke I cannot imagine what you've been through and the suffering you've had to and still endure. You give so much to others through the creation of this forum. I and I'm sure many others are so grateful for this. You are giving back to the community of people like us and I trust you realise how appreciative we all are. I wish I had words to offer solace. All I can say is people who focus on only today or even only on this moment seem to somehow come out the other side. I feel for you and your despair feels palpable. Hang in there 🤗 Link to SA Profile: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/32414-catbird-introduction-a-long-and-winding-road/1996 Commenced on Sertraline 50 - 100mg. Many ADs trialled -Fluoxetine 20 mg, Paroxetine 20mg, Venlafaxine 75mg, Escitalopram 10 - 20mg, Vortioxetine 20mg, Bupropion 150mg. 2019 Recommenced Escitalopram 2022 Mirtazapine 30mg - Rapid taper. Amitriptyline 20mgCURRENT MEDICATIONS: Escitalopram taper from ~ 10mg commenced 2024, Amitriptyline 20mg at night, Diazepam 7.5mg total per day, Baclofen 10mg morning, 10mg lunch and 20mg night, Polaramine 2mg at night, Ketamine troche 25mg per day (Ceased early September 2025), Valsartan 160mg evening, HRT (Oestrogen 25mcg/day) ESCITALOPRAM TAPER: 5 April 2025 - started holding at 1.516mg. Escitalopram taper resumed July 2025; End Aug 1.364; End Sept 1.228; End Oct 1.145; End Nov 1.1 Early Dec 1.11; End Dec 1.082; 2026 End Jan 1.047; Feb 6 1.030; Feb 20 1.014; April 10 1.012; May 3 1.014; May 11 1.010 & still holding Supplements: Mg++ glycinate, Omega 3s, Curcumin. Vit D3/K2 spray, Vitamin B12 spray, chelated zinc.
March 23Mar 23 It doesnt change anything, I know…but we all love you Luke! Hopefully one day you will be 100% fine! From 27. February 2025 - 15. April 2025 Mirtazapine 15 mg (tried quitting CT 3 times before reinstating after one day, successful CT on attempt 4) (2 weeks in that timeframe my dose was upped to Mirtazapine 30 mg, I don't remember the exact date when the dose was upped and in which timeframe I took it.) 15. April 2025 - 29. April 2025 Lorazepam 0,5 mg 15. April 2025 - 20. August 2025 on Olanzapine 5 mg 20th of August 2025 - 04. September 2025 tapered off Olanzapine (5 mg to 2,5 mg to 0 mg) Off all meds since 05. September 2025.
March 23Mar 23 you have to make your own life worth living as much as possible, the past doesn't exist anymore and has already passed. you have to accept and ask what you can do rather than what you can't, focus on what you can do. I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. Feel free to mention me whenever help is needed. Current Supplements: Morning: Aloe Vera Gels. Night: 6mg melatonin and 133mg magnesium glycinate. Taking Omega 3 as needed to calm dyskinesia or over stimulation..Current Medications: Mirtazapine, Lasea (lavender oil) before bed.------------------------------------------Tapering: Mirtazapine 15mg, (went compounded) 13.5mg 08/May/2025, 12.1mg 10/July/2025, 15/July/2025 15mg (half tablet), 26/July/2025 14.35mg (moved to dry cutting method) ), 03/Aug/2025 14.6mg, 24/Nov/2025 14.47mg, 29/Jan/2026 14.35mgNote: Had a lot of issue with degradation with different cutting times and compounded pharmacy which caused withdrawals and a more sensitive nervous system.
March 23Mar 23 2 minutes ago, Lighty said: you have to make your own life worth living as much as possible, the past doesn't exist anymore and has already passed. you have to accept and ask what you can do rather than what you can't, focus on what you can do. Not everyone is capable of accepting being spontenously disabled like that. Especially if you were a weightlifter and lost all of your progress because of these evil drugs. I can understand Luke 100%, since I cannot accept this either. It is simply very cruel and I dont think we need to teach him how to handle it. From 27. February 2025 - 15. April 2025 Mirtazapine 15 mg (tried quitting CT 3 times before reinstating after one day, successful CT on attempt 4) (2 weeks in that timeframe my dose was upped to Mirtazapine 30 mg, I don't remember the exact date when the dose was upped and in which timeframe I took it.) 15. April 2025 - 29. April 2025 Lorazepam 0,5 mg 15. April 2025 - 20. August 2025 on Olanzapine 5 mg 20th of August 2025 - 04. September 2025 tapered off Olanzapine (5 mg to 2,5 mg to 0 mg) Off all meds since 05. September 2025.
March 23Mar 23 2 minutes ago, MischaDE said: Not everyone is capable of accepting being spontenously disabled like that. Especially if you were a weightlifter and lost all of your progress because of these evil drugs. I can understand Luke 100%, since I cannot accept this either. It is simply very cruel and I dont think we need to teach him how to handle it. I can accept it cause with all I went through, I can live being confined to my house which i am 99% of the time except when I have to go out. Im still dealing with my original condition. being bed bound and be able to do nothing at all, now I can do stuff in my house that don't require exertion, it's not as bad. Edited March 23Mar 23 by Lighty I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. Feel free to mention me whenever help is needed. Current Supplements: Morning: Aloe Vera Gels. Night: 6mg melatonin and 133mg magnesium glycinate. Taking Omega 3 as needed to calm dyskinesia or over stimulation..Current Medications: Mirtazapine, Lasea (lavender oil) before bed.------------------------------------------Tapering: Mirtazapine 15mg, (went compounded) 13.5mg 08/May/2025, 12.1mg 10/July/2025, 15/July/2025 15mg (half tablet), 26/July/2025 14.35mg (moved to dry cutting method) ), 03/Aug/2025 14.6mg, 24/Nov/2025 14.47mg, 29/Jan/2026 14.35mgNote: Had a lot of issue with degradation with different cutting times and compounded pharmacy which caused withdrawals and a more sensitive nervous system.
March 23Mar 23 2 minutes ago, MischaDE said: Not everyone is capable of accepting being spontenously disabled like that. Especially if you were a weightlifter and lost all of your progress because of these evil drugs. I can understand Luke 100%, since I cannot accept this either. It is simply very cruel and I dont think we need to teach him how to handle it. Acceptance is very important. We are not all ready for it that’s all. Lighty is just trying to offer some support I think rather than tell Luke what he must do. You’re the best Mischa we love you too. I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
March 23Mar 23 54 minutes ago, Luke said: 2 years and 11 months off of using Mirtazapine for a few months. I don't live a life worth the suffering I have experienced. Maybe one day I will, maybe I won't. It would have been far better if I had not had help to stay alive after my initial withdrawal. When I look at other stories of people still in PAWS this far out, they're normally having minor residual symptoms but living a normal life, being active and so on and they're absolutely devastated to have occasional waves around that inbetween living a good, normal life. Can't do most of the things I enjoy, struggle to socialise around the physical issues, cannot exercise and can only watch my body deteriorate further whilst I desperately do the small amount I can, can't live any kind of life other than with my parents in my mid 30s, no idea if it's safe to ever have a family, can't seek a partner, can't plan anything. All I can do is get through each day as best I can, whilst being exhausted and suffering various physical symptoms, while wasting years of my life and losing everything. Breaks my heart to read this, so sorry you're suffering so much @Luke I know it feels like eternity but it's not, really not, you are most likely in the hardest and challenging time of your life and you're surviving, that's a lot in itself, I know you want more than that and it will come, I know that, just keep pushing forward, try your best to stay in the present, the past and the future are irrelevant, when I dive there it doesn't take me to good places. All I can say is that you're stronger than you think, with a big heart, look at the life-saving home you've built for all of us in the midst of the hell you're going through, who would be able to lift something like that, certainly not me. Wishing you relief soon, you deserve it so much. 1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawalMany attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)Supplements:Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.
March 23Mar 23 I agree with every word fullhealing said . Please don't compare yourself to others ,we all suffer and cope in different ways ,we are all built differently, stay focused on the here and now not one of us knows what lies ahead we only have this moment. You will heal thats what our bodies are designed to do . It's been a long haul and battle fatigue will settle in but ultimately you will heal you will get your life back and you will be a much better person for it, keep trudging through the mud clear waters are ahead 😊 2016 - 2019 Sertraline 25mg highest dose 100mg 2019 C Ted 25mg Bad withdrawals 01/2020 reinstated 25mg 06/2020 - 12/2021 tapered from 100mg to 6mg jumped off .bad withdrawals like before . 06/2022 reinstated 25mg 10/2023 started taper of 25mg not sure of starting drops 04/2025 5mg 06/2025 4.1mg 08/2025 3.5mg 10/2025 3.1 mg 12/2025 2.5mg 01/2026 to present 2.27mg
March 24Mar 24 @Luke I wanted to stop by and offer my support. These drugs are pure hell. For some of us it has been absolute torture. I hope that better days to come to you. I am not a health professional in any way, and I do not give medical advice. These are only my opinions. Any decisions about your medical care should be discussed with a qualified medical professional.Quote of the century: "it's much easier to stop humpty from falling then it is to put him back together again." * as relayed to us by Chippy paraphrasing a comment by Altostrata, the founder of Surviving Antidepressants If you would like to reach me, please post on my thread and tag @rachelsusan, or post on your thread and tag in the same way, so I will see it. 😀😀😀Gabapentin reduction. 2026 Transitioned to partial liquid, 100mg in liquid and a 100mg capsule for a total of a 200mg dose. Dose three times a day. April 18 2026 first cut to 195mg (2.5%). May 18, 2026 to 187.5 (3.85%), June 28, 2026 to 185 (1.33%), July 28 to 180 mg (2.7%), Sept. 2, 2026 to 175mg (2.78%), HISTORY FOR ZOLOFT TAPERFeb. 2016 to June 2016 - Was on 150mg Zoloft. Quit Zoloft (Sertraline) June 2016, reinstated 50mg of Zoloft July 2016. From July 2016 to October 2016 went from 50 mg down 2.3 mg. I up-dosed in November 2016 to 12.5 mg. Held there until January 2017 when I started a much slower taper.STARTING SENSIBLE ZOLOFT TAPERING USING GUIDELINES FROM ANOTHER SITE - WHICH WAS VERY HELPFULDec. 10, 2016 – Switched to liquid Zoloft (sertraline) at 12.5 mg. Held until Jan. 2017, then resumed a slow taper. I tapered continuously from that point onward; however, my detailed taper records begin with Jan. 4, 2020. - Jan. 4, 2020 1.875 mg (6.3%). Jan. 25, 2020 1.75 mg. Feb. 29, 2020 1.625mg (7.10%). Apr. 4, 2020 1.5 mg. May 9, 2020 1.375 mg. June 6, 2020 1.25 mg. (9.10%). July 4, 2020 1.125 mg. (10%). August 15, 2020 1.0 mg. Oct 24, 2020 .875 mg. Nov. 28, 2020 .75mg. Jan 16, 2021 .685mg (8.7%). Feb 13, 2021 .62mg. March 12, 2021 .56mg. May 1, 2021 .375mg. May 29, 2021 .25mg. June 26, 2021 .125mg. July 25, 2021 .065mg. August 22, 2021 .048mg. October 2, 2021 .043mg. October 10, 2021 .038mg. October 23, 2021 .035mg. October 30, 2021 .032mg. Nov. 13, 2021 .030 mg. Dec 4, 2021 .0285 mg. Dec 11, 2021 .0265 mg. Dec 18, 2021 .0246 mg. Dec 25, 2021 .023mg. Jan 1, 2022. 0 mg. OFF COMPLETELYMy thread at SA - https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/12649-☼-rachelsusan-zoloft-on-off-and-reinstated/page/28/
March 24Mar 24 Thinking of you, @Luke and asking the Almighty to give you strength, perseverance and comfort. You have done a mighty deed for many people in getting this site up and running. You will be rewarded. Give yourself a big, warm hug from all of us who are grateful for you. xoxo Jamie Sept 1993 Began paroxetine 20 mg for anxiety and depression- worked like a charm. 1st taper - Aug 1995 tapered over 3 weeks before getting pregnant- great at first, crashed at one month. White knuckled it through 2 miscarriages. Spring 1996 (?) Reinstated paroxetine 20 mg. 2nd taper- Spring 2008 tapered off paroxetine over 4 months. Summer 2008 crashed horribly, nearly incapacitated by WD; Summer 2008-Summer 2009 tried 4 different ADs, none as effective as paroxetine. Summer 2009 Reinstated 20 mg paroxetine, not as effective as previously. 3rd taper- Jun 19, 2019 began 10 mg paroxetine, 10 mg fluoxetine for one week. Jun 26 20 mg fluoxetine, 5 mg paroxetine for one week. Jul 3- 20 mg fluoxetine + lorazepam (0.5 mg) as needed up to 2x/day. Aug 12- 30 mg fluox; Sept 3- .5 mg clonazepam daily; end lorazepam; Sept 5- 40 mg fluox; End of 2019- returned to paroxetine 20 mg/day most of the year, 30mg/day in the winter. BEGIN 4th TAPER ATTEMPT: Jul 13 2025- 30 -> 25 mg; 10 Sept -> 22.5mg; 3 Oct -> 20 mg; 10 Oct -> hold 2 weeks; 2 Nov -> 19.5 mg; 9 Nov -> 19 mg; 16 Nov -> hold 1 week; 22 Nov -> 18.6 mg; 30 Nov -> 18.2 mg; 7 Dec -> hold 1 week; 14 Dec -> 17.8 mg; 21 Dec -> 17.5 mg; 28 Dec -> 17.1 mg; 4 Jan 2026 -> 16.7 mg -> hold 2 weeks ; 28 Jan -> 16.4 mg; 1 Feb -> 16.0 mg; 8 Feb -> 15.7 mg; 15 Feb -> hold 2 weeks; 1 Mar -> 15.5 mg; 8 Mar -> 15.2 mg; 15 Mar -> hold; 5 Apr -> 14.9. Supplements: Vit D, Magesium L-threonate, Vit C, Zinc, Melatonin, Multivitamin
March 24Mar 24 @Luke Ive got no words of comfort really. You’ve been in this long enough to know how long the road you’re walking could be. However, I’ve followed your thread for 2 years now and you’re improving, not as fast as you or any of us would like but you’re slowly moving in the right direction. You’ll get there eventually Luke, I genuinely believe that, you’ve shown incredible strength of character to get this far so just keep pushing forwards in the same manner. Better days are coming! We’re all thinking of you. Edited March 24Mar 24 by NBJ71 March 2024 Mirtazapine 15mg x 4 doses. Adverse reaction. 3 day break. March 2024 Sertraline 50mg x 7 doses. Adverse reaction. August and September 2024. Diazepam 5mg x 3 daily for 6 weeks. These doses varied from 15 to 5mg daily until the last week where I was tapered from 10mg to 0 in 6 days. Zopiclone daily. I would say I was on 7.5mg for 3 weeks and 3.75mg for 4 weeks.
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