Hi pls dont come at me for do not use benzo etc bc at this point nobody helps me.

I have severe dpdr, i can not feel my body, my surroundings anymore, i can not recognize myself at all i am scared of my self, my body and existence im so so scared that i am legit thinking that i can not handle another day anymore. crisis team does nothing,. my dr said i need to take alprazolam or oxazepam 0.5 mg so i can function more but im just too scared bc i dont want to be more out of body or more scared but i legit can not take this feeling of not being here anymore i cant do another day i keep crying and screaming the whole day for it to stop bc i legit feel like i am not here anymore and i dont even know how im typing this im in personal HELL. i feel like my brain can not comprehend anthing anymore and i hear nobody talking about this it feels like im crazy!!

I know oxazepam helped me before but when it was wearing off i think i got panic attacks back but that was weeks ago when i was only having panic atacks i havent taken it when i was so out of body. i took lorazapam once and it made me go crazy bc i felt so sedated pls i need immediate help. !!

Please does anyone know if this helped u in such a peak? does it make u feel sedated? i cant feel sedated. how does it feel exctly while having the worst out of body experience i feel like i cant even feel my soul or my surroundings anymore like im gonna dissapear or passout im even too scared to speak. pls nobody helps me bc the crisis team just said i need to distract myself but i already did that and now its so bad pls someone?! i do not wanna die i just want my life back but i cant take another hour of this.

It feels like i am only eyes, can not recognize myself, too scared to stand up and even too scared to look around even just doing something freaks me out. i am so scared of myself bc i can not recognize myself and my thoughts. feels like i am dissapearing 24.7 and feels like this time and world zone is not even here i feel like im nothing in just a dark void please help. i am 25 and i only took fluoxetine for like 4 weeks and i got panic attacks from it. quit, i got oxazepam it worked a little but then lorazepam for sleep it made me go insane bc of the sedation and then i got quetiapine for the dpdr and i got it one day but it made me feel so bad too.

I am scared of death since i was a little girl but i cant take it anymore. every second of the day i torture i see everything differently and i can not escape it for a bit not even watching a show or anything please help me. someone.

DISCLAIMER: please don't make me more scared in the comments about saying how long you have had it for. I just really need HELP.

Welcome to the forum!

 

This is a volunteer-run, community forum aimed at helping those who are tapering and/or experiencing difficulties with psychiatric medications and withdrawl syndrome. We are not medical professionals and cannot offer medical advice. We simply offer support and opinions which you could use as talking points with a medical provider knowledgeable in withdrawing off psychiatric medications.

 

Please familiarise yourself with the forum rules and the disclaimer located here: Guidelines

 

Please make sure your signature is kept up to date with your drug history. This will allow members to see some basic information about your drug history and situation so that they may help you best. Information on how to do this is located in the FAQs section above, but here is a direct link: Update Signature

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I'm so sorry to read about the tough time you've had recently you will find plenty of support here for sure.

 

23 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

am 25 and i only took fluoxetine for like 4 weeks and i got panic attacks from it. quit,

It sounds like you had an adverse reaction to Fluoxetine. This is common, you are not alone. There are many of us who do not do well taking these drugs, and have had reactions from the first pill.

The most important thing to realise now, is that your nervous system is very upset, and destablised. The symptoms you are getting can often, and likey be misdiagnosed, as a worsening of your 'mental health' condition, so doctors wll try to address these symptoms with Benzos and other drugs. Unfortunately once sensitised, the nervous system reacts badly to other Psycoactive substances, it just makes it worse.

It appears you have tried a number of different drugs recently. Im not sure what you are taking now. I would personally advice to not take another pill, and wait to recover, which you will. This can take some time, and happens in a non-linear up and down fashion we call Windows and Waves.

The Windows and Waves Pattern of Stabilization

I'm glad you found us, you are among friends here. I am very sorry you have been harmed by these drugs. Everyone here understands this only too well.

In the mean time this is what I would do if I were you:

 

-Stay Hydrated 

 

-Eat a good clean whole food diet, avoiding processed foods and sugars.

 

-Stay away from caffeine, alcohol and antihistamines and any other psychoactive substances.

 

Supplements are to be avoided initially, as they often irritate our nervous systems. Try to get your nutrition through food.

 

Down the line, you may wish to introduce Fish Oil and Magnesium. Those who can tolerate them have found them calming to the nervous system. Be careful try one at a time and start low and see how you get on should you choose to try them.

 

A daily walk is very important as much as you can manage, if you can manage it. Gets you your fresh air and Vitamin D does wonders for your mind!

 

You are very welcome here and I hope you find the site supportive.

Chippy

Girl,

I am Dutch as well! I also took fluoxetine a few weeks only! You can DM me if you want to.

Het komt goed ❤️

Hey, I'm sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time.

More on a mindset note, People do go through things like you do and go through them and then continue on with their life, you will turn out fine at the end.

It's good to remember sometimes symptoms are just symptoms (to make the problem seem smaller instead of bigger), and they won't kill you, it's like the ups and downs of life,.

It's best for you to accept your symptoms and not attach to them, just always remember, "I'm just sick, I'm doing the best I can, this is temporary", try to stay in a monk mindset, don't try to desire a million things and don't believe the symptoms and emotions that try to make you believe 'it's over', even tho it's very hard.

I recommend you try and meditate at some point (I need to make a topic on breath and meditation), as well as look at the topics I'm gonna link below.

@caitlinnathanie I'm a psychiatrist and I'm in protracted withdrawal, so I would like to think I have experience on both sides of prescription psychotropics. At best, taking benzodiazepines now will only temporarily help the anxiety you are feeling about your DPDR. It will not help your DPDR at all. This is because:

1. NO medication has any evidence for benefitting dissociative symptoms (I tell my patients with trauma this frequently).

2. Your DPDR is caused by a brain injury that you have unfortunately sustained from the Fluoxetine or Bupropion. No medications can heal nervous system damage.

At worst, benzodiazepines will cause further damage to your brain now. As Chippy often says, it is like using gasoline to put out a fire.

The good news is that brain injuries can heal. They heal themselves with time. You will not feel like this forever. It is still early days and this may be over quite quickly for you. I would not risk taking benzodiazepines as it can make things worse and potentially prolong your healing time.

but i genuinely can. not handle another day like this.

58 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Welcome to the forum!

 

This is a volunteer-run, community forum aimed at helping those who are tapering and/or experiencing difficulties with psychiatric medications and withdrawl syndrome. We are not medical professionals and cannot offer medical advice. We simply offer support and opinions which you could use as talking points with a medical provider knowledgeable in withdrawing off psychiatric medications.

 

Please familiarise yourself with the forum rules and the disclaimer located here: Guidelines

 

Please make sure your signature is kept up to date with your drug history. This will allow members to see some basic information about your drug history and situation so that they may help you best. Information on how to do this is located in the FAQs section above, but here is a direct link: Update Signature

Once this is done, future posts made by you will have this signature turned on by default. For this reason please keep it clear but condensed as possible.

Please use the format outline here Preferred signature/drug history format

I'm so sorry to read about the tough time you've had recently you will find plenty of support here for sure.

 

It sounds like you had an adverse reaction to Fluoxetine. This is common, you are not alone. There are many of us who do not do well taking these drugs, and have had reactions from the first pill.

The most important thing to realise now, is that your nervous system is very upset, and destablised. The symptoms you are getting can often, and likey be misdiagnosed, as a worsening of your 'mental health' condition, so doctors wll try to address these symptoms with Benzos and other drugs. Unfortunately once sensitised, the nervous system reacts badly to other Psycoactive substances, it just makes it worse.

It appears you have tried a number of different drugs recently. Im not sure what you are taking now. I would personally advice to not take another pill, and wait to recover, which you will. This can take some time, and happens in a non-linear up and down fashion we call Windows and Waves.

The Windows and Waves Pattern of Stabilization

I'm glad you found us, you are among friends here. I am very sorry you have been harmed by these drugs. Everyone here understands this only too well.

In the mean time this is what I would do if I were you:

 

-Stay Hydrated 

 

-Eat a good clean whole food diet, avoiding processed foods and sugars.

 

-Stay away from caffeine, alcohol and antihistamines and any other psychoactive substances.

 

Supplements are to be avoided initially, as they often irritate our nervous systems. Try to get your nutrition through food.

 

Down the line, you may wish to introduce Fish Oil and Magnesium. Those who can tolerate them have found them calming to the nervous system. Be careful try one at a time and start low and see how you get on should you choose to try them.

 

A daily walk is very important as much as you can manage, if you can manage it. Gets you your fresh air and Vitamin D does wonders for your mind!

 

You are very welcome here and I hope you find the site supportive.

Chippy

59 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Welcome to the forum!

 

This is a volunteer-run, community forum aimed at helping those who are tapering and/or experiencing difficulties with psychiatric medications and withdrawl syndrome. We are not medical professionals and cannot offer medical advice. We simply offer support and opinions which you could use as talking points with a medical provider knowledgeable in withdrawing off psychiatric medications.

 

Please familiarise yourself with the forum rules and the disclaimer located here: Guidelines

 

Please make sure your signature is kept up to date with your drug history. This will allow members to see some basic information about your drug history and situation so that they may help you best. Information on how to do this is located in the FAQs section above, but here is a direct link: Update Signature

Once this is done, future posts made by you will have this signature turned on by default. For this reason please keep it clear but condensed as possible.

Please use the format outline here Preferred signature/drug history format

I'm so sorry to read about the tough time you've had recently you will find plenty of support here for sure.

 

It sounds like you had an adverse reaction to Fluoxetine. This is common, you are not alone. There are many of us who do not do well taking these drugs, and have had reactions from the first pill.

The most important thing to realise now, is that your nervous system is very upset, and destablised. The symptoms you are getting can often, and likey be misdiagnosed, as a worsening of your 'mental health' condition, so doctors wll try to address these symptoms with Benzos and other drugs. Unfortunately once sensitised, the nervous system reacts badly to other Psycoactive substances, it just makes it worse.

It appears you have tried a number of different drugs recently. Im not sure what you are taking now. I would personally advice to not take another pill, and wait to recover, which you will. This can take some time, and happens in a non-linear up and down fashion we call Windows and Waves.

The Windows and Waves Pattern of Stabilization

I'm glad you found us, you are among friends here. I am very sorry you have been harmed by these drugs. Everyone here understands this only too well.

In the mean time this is what I would do if I were you:

 

-Stay Hydrated 

 

-Eat a good clean whole food diet, avoiding processed foods and sugars.

 

-Stay away from caffeine, alcohol and antihistamines and any other psychoactive substances.

 

Supplements are to be avoided initially, as they often irritate our nervous systems. Try to get your nutrition through food.

 

Down the line, you may wish to introduce Fish Oil and Magnesium. Those who can tolerate them have found them calming to the nervous system. Be careful try one at a time and start low and see how you get on should you choose to try them.

 

A daily walk is very important as much as you can manage, if you can manage it. Gets you your fresh air and Vitamin D does wonders for your mind!

 

You are very welcome here and I hope you find the site supportive.

Chippy

I havent got any meds for like 2 months, i still did all of those things but now all of a sudden it got really bad and i need something for relief. i am the whole day terrified and crying and screaming because im so affraid of the world and myself. I can not do this any longer, not even another day. I can not sit and watch something to distract myself, nothing works im actually in complete terror and i really need something. It's not good how i feel now and like i said i can not handle another evening or day like this i feel completely out of the world and body and i can not handle it anymore i cant even go to the toilet anymore bc i can not move at all anymore.

1 hour ago, caitlinnathanie said:

Hi pls dont come at me for do not use benzo etc bc at this point nobody helps me.

I have severe dpdr, i can not feel my body, my surroundings anymore, i can not recognize myself at all i am scared of my self, my body and existence im so so scared that i am legit thinking that i can not handle another day anymore. crisis team does nothing,. my dr said i need to take alprazolam or oxazepam 0.5 mg so i can function more but im just too scared bc i dont want to be more out of body or more scared but i legit can not take this feeling of not being here anymore i cant do another day i keep crying and screaming the whole day for it to stop bc i legit feel like i am not here anymore and i dont even know how im typing this im in personal HELL. i feel like my brain can not comprehend anthing anymore and i hear nobody talking about this it feels like im crazy!!

I know oxazepam helped me before but when it was wearing off i think i got panic attacks back but that was weeks ago when i was only having panic atacks i havent taken it when i was so out of body. i took lorazapam once and it made me go crazy bc i felt so sedated pls i need immediate help. !!

Please does anyone know if this helped u in such a peak? does it make u feel sedated? i cant feel sedated. how does it feel exctly while having the worst out of body experience i feel like i cant even feel my soul or my surroundings anymore like im gonna dissapear or passout im even too scared to speak. pls nobody helps me bc the crisis team just said i need to distract myself but i already did that and now its so bad pls someone?! i do not wanna die i just want my life back but i cant take another hour of this.

It feels like i am only eyes, can not recognize myself, too scared to stand up and even too scared to look around even just doing something freaks me out. i am so scared of myself bc i can not recognize myself and my thoughts. feels like i am dissapearing 24.7 and feels like this time and world zone is not even here i feel like im nothing in just a dark void please help. i am 25 and i only took fluoxetine for like 4 weeks and i got panic attacks from it. quit, i got oxazepam it worked a little but then lorazepam for sleep it made me go insane bc of the sedation and then i got quetiapine for the dpdr and i got it one day but it made me feel so bad too.

I am scared of death since i was a little girl but i cant take it anymore. every second of the day i torture i see everything differently and i can not escape it for a bit not even watching a show or anything please help me. someone.

DISCLAIMER: please don't make me more scared in the comments about saying how long you have had it for. I just really need HELP.

Warm welcome @caitlinnathanie I'm truly sorry for the suffering you are in, my heart goes out to you!

First, this is not the end, you are in wd process and your body is reacting severely with the symptoms you are experiencing, as hard as it may be for you to believe now, there is an end to it.

In the meantime, there are things that can help such as breathing exercises, long walk to release trapped energy, long showers, distractions as you have already been told, few seconds each time is excellent and first and foremost, accepting the situation, I know it is extremely difficult to contain but the more you accept that your system is in a balancing act that involves a difficult but temporary period, the easier it will be to bear.

Don't give up, you will make it, just hold on and please avoid any additional drugs that could trigger an even more severe reaction.

We are here for you to help in any way we can.

Edited April 24Apr 24 by Fullhealing

3 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

I havent got any meds for like 2 months, i still did all of those things but now all of a sudden it got really bad and i need something for relief. i am the whole day terrified and crying and screaming because im so affraid of the world and myself. I can not do this any longer, not even another day. I can not sit and watch something to distract myself, nothing works im actually in complete terror and i really need something. It's not good how i feel now and like i said i can not handle another evening or day like this i feel completely out of the world and body and i can not handle it anymore i cant even go to the toilet anymore bc i can not move at all anymore.

So sorry to read. It’s not uncommon for things to worsen some months after stopping especially with Fluoxetine. I know it seems impossible to hold on without help, but please believe me when I say you can. It’s not an easy path healing from this but you can! As @Sminismoni said more drugs really is like putting a fire out with Gasoline!

My heart goes out to you. I know you’re suffering immensely right now.

36 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

I havent got any meds for like 2 months, i still did all of those things but now all of a sudden it got really bad and i need something for relief. i am the whole day terrified and crying and screaming because im so affraid of the world and myself. I can not do this any longer, not even another day. I can not sit and watch something to distract myself, nothing works im actually in complete terror and i really need something. It's not good how i feel now and like i said i can not handle another evening or day like this i feel completely out of the world and body and i can not handle it anymore i cant even go to the toilet anymore bc i can not move at all anymore.

It sounds like akathisia @caitlinnathanie which is indeed the highest level of suffering, I have been there too and it is horrible, I'm so sorry but please know that it is an acute reaction of the system that has been poisoned and therefore it will take time to regulate, try what has been recommended to you the best as you can, even for a few sec, it can greatly relieve.

Hang in there 🙏

Edited April 24Apr 24 by Fullhealing

43 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Warm welcome @caitlinnathanie I'm truly sorry for the suffering you are in, my heart goes out to you!

First, this is not the end, you are in wd process and your body is reacting severely with the symptoms you are experiencing, as hard as it may be for you to believe now, there is an end to it.

In the meantime, there are things that can help such as breathing exercises, long walk to release trapped energy, long showers, distractions as you have already been told, few seconds each time is excellent and first and foremost, accepting the situation, I know it is extremely difficult to contain but the more you accept that your system is in a balancing act that involves a difficult but temporary period, the easier it will be to bear.

Don't give up, you will make it, just hold on and please avoid any additional drugs that could trigger an even more severe reaction.

We are here for you to help in any way we can.

i tried but im legit losing it every second of the day with immense fear, cant sleep anymore and im too scared. I already did everything, grounding, accepting every single thing and it still gets worse and im actually too afrqaid of myself right now and i can not handle another day. Really... i cant do it anymore. :(

Just now, caitlinnathanie said:

i tried but im legit losing it every second of the day with immense fear, cant sleep anymore and im too scared. I already did everything, grounding, accepting every single thing and it still gets worse and im actually too afrqaid of myself right now and i can not handle another day. Really... i cant do it anymore. :(

At this point I would say just surrender to it, and let the symptoms do as they want, don't get attached to them, just let them happen.

25 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

i tried but im legit losing it every second of the day with immense fear, cant sleep anymore and im too scared. I already did everything, grounding, accepting every single thing and it still gets worse and im actually too afrqaid of myself right now and i can not handle another day. Really... i cant do it anymore. :(

You can @caitlinnathanie it's an acute reaction of the body without real denger but is it all started as a reaction to the medication? nothing there before?

ive had dpdr since i was 12 but nothing like this just sometimes mildly feeling in the mirror like u can not recognize urself or when i stepped into the subway it felt unreal but nothing like this like u can not recognize urself or anything!! or out of body or completely out of reality.

4 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

You can @caitlinnathanie it's an acute reaction of the body without real denger but is it all started as a reaction to the medication? nothing there before?

ive had dpdr since i was 12 but nothing like this just sometimes mildly feeling in the mirror like u can not recognize urself or when i stepped into the subway it felt unreal but nothing like this like u can not recognize urself or anything!! or out of body or completely out of reality

1 hour ago, Chippy said:

So sorry to read. It’s not uncommon for things to worsen some months after stopping especially with Fluoxetine. I know it seems impossible to hold on without help, but please believe me when I say you can. It’s not an easy path healing from this but you can! As @Sminismoni said more drugs really is like putting a fire out with Gasoline!

My heart goes out to you. I know you’re suffering immensely right now.

is there nothing i can do for relief even if it. is 5% :( i cant do this like this anymore

10 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

ive had dpdr since i was 12 but nothing like this just sometimes mildly feeling in the mirror like u can not recognize urself or when i stepped into the subway it felt unreal but nothing like this like u can not recognize urself or anything!! or out of body or completely out of reality

Okay so this is an acute reaction that amplifies a million times what you suffered before, it's very common and you are not in danger.

Look, it's brutal, I know but it's a phase and it will pass, first know that you can bear it, many of us have been through this terror, it's horrible but you will survive.

Just keep letting off steam here and updating and we will help you as much as we can, please hang on.

8 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:

ive had dpdr since i was 12 but nothing like this just sometimes mildly feeling in the mirror like u can not recognize urself or when i stepped into the subway it felt unreal but nothing like this like u can not recognize urself or anything!! or out of body or completely out of reality.

In wd we experience symptoms through the framework of our own minds this makes the symptoms seem more real, but they are just the injury, they are not you.

8 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:

is there nothing i can do for relief even if it. is 5% :( i cant do this like this anymore

I know. Time is literally everything right now. There are coping skills for symptoms like the guys are offering, but in terms of drugs, there just isn’t anything. The brains chemistry is very delicate and shouldn’t be messed with, that’s more true now it’s injured. It’s awful I know. But many many have been through this and you can get through it too!

Hey @caitlinnathanie thinking of you, how your night went?

Welcome to the forum.

Looking at your signature, the use of drugs has been short term. Just to confirm- it is accurate that you have taken no more drugs for 2 months?

The best thing you can do is to be drug-free and hope to improve in time. I know you're scared by people saying that it might be a long time, but that is a small minority of people.

I have seen others improve a LOT over a few months from an adverse reaction to short term use if they stay drug free.

3 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Hey @caitlinnathanie thinking of you, how your night went?

Not good and today even worse and more fear!! i cant do this anymore i feel trapped in my bofy i can not recognize myself for even 1% like nothing i feel like just eyes and i am literally crying and screaming the whole time. I can not go on like this

7 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

Not good and today even worse and more fear!! i cant do this anymore i feel trapped in my bofy i can not recognize myself for even 1% like nothing i feel like just eyes and i am literally crying and screaming the whole time. I can not go on like this

You made it through the night and you will continue to survive it even though it is very, very hard, I am so sorry but this is a brutal phase that you just have to go through.

You can do it!

What can you do now, a little walk outside can really help.

p

22 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

Not good and today even worse and more fear!! i cant do this anymore i feel trapped in my bofy i can not recognize myself for even 1% like nothing i feel like just eyes and i am literally crying and screaming the whole time. I can not go on like this

Very sorry to hear @caitlinnathanie , @Fullhealing is right, you can do this, I know it is hard, and not like something you will have had to deal with before, but you really can. Sometimes, it is just about taking is day by day, even hour by hour or minute by minute, but you will start to feel better in time. Getting out and having a gentle stroll is a great thing to do. We are all behind you and you are not alone.