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caitlinnathanie: Severe DPDR

caitlinnathanie
caitlinnathanie
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35 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

i see no way out...

i know that it might feel like that right now but you have to remember that you arent thinking clearly when you feel this way. i used to have those exact same thoughts but i promise you that it gets better. you can try to remind yourself about things that youre grateful for, no matter how big or how small. the bad feelings you are experiencing are created by the withdrawal and they are not you.

Prior History:

(note that these are only the first prescription dates since i dont remember how long i was on them. there are also some prescriptions of the same stuff that were prescribed again at a later date so i dont remember if ive tried them again or not.)

Concerta: 18mg - 12.3.2014 ⏐ 36mg - 28.4.2014

Equasym Retard: 30mg - 20.11.2014

Medikinet: 5mg - 8.9.2015

Elvanse: 30mg - 30.10.2015

Risperdal: 0,5mg - 8.12.2015 ⏐ 1mg - 2.3.2017

Sertraline: 50mg - 14.10.2016 ⏐ 100mg - 17.1.2018

Intuniv: 1mg - 7.4.2017 ⏐ 2mg - 21.4.2017 ⏐ 4mg - 9.5.2017 ⏐ 3mg - 8.8.2017

Primperan: 10mg - 27.2.2019

Strattera: 25mg - 18.4.2019 ⏐ 10mg - 10.5.2019

Quetiapine: 25mg - 23.2.2021

Mirtazapine: 15mg - 29.2.2024

Escitalopram History:

9.9.2021 Escitalopram 10mg

9.9.2022 Escitalopram 15mg

2.5.2024 Escitalopram 20mg

1.7.2024 Escitalopram CT

11.11.2024 Escitalopram RI 10mg

14.11.2024 Escitalopram CT

15.12.2024 Escitalopram 2.5mg

29.12.2024 Escitalopram 5mg

12.1.2025 Escitalopram 10mg

12.1.2026 Escitalopram 7.5mg

26.1.2026 Escitalopram 5mg

 

Current Dose: Escitalopram 5mg

(some of these dates may not be entirely correct but theyre close enough based on what i can remember)

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    4 minutes ago, Some0n3 said:

    i know that it might feel like that right now but you have to remember that you arent thinking clearly when you feel this way. i used to have those exact same thoughts but i promise you that it gets better. you can try to remind yourself about things that youre grateful for, no matter how big or how small. the bad feelings you are experiencing are created by the withdrawal and they are not you.

    I couldn't agree more with @Some0n3 wd mind is extremely deceptive and it's hard to see beyond that, as long as there is a chemical effect it feels very real but it's not, there is a way out and you're keep getting closer, try to accept that it's a process, brutal at times but temporary.

    hang in there, you can do it.

    1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

    Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

    Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

    Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

    6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

    9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

    10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 

    11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

    12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

    2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

    2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)

    Supplements:

    Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

    Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

    Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.

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    Came here becuase I too am suffering from dpdr- it’s my main withdrawal symptom and it is debilitating me :( just want you to know your not alone

    Paxil (Only drug ever):

    2006: 20mg | 2008: 10mg

    May 2014–Nov 2014: Tapered 10mg to 5mg (alternating days)/ Jan 2015–May 2015: Updosed 10mg -> 20mg (adverse reaction the day after 20mg, was told to “wait and see”)

    Sept 2015–Aug 2017: Tapered 20mg to 10mg

    Aug 2017–Mar 2018: 9mg -> 8mg -> 7.8mg -> 7.75mg /Sept 2018–Jan 2019: 7.36mg -> 7.2mg -> 7mg (Jan '19: Crash) /Jan 2019: 0.25mg Ativan (once); 2.5mL Child Benadryl (once) / Feb 2019–Jan 2023: Reinstated 7.28mg; Mar '19: 7.36mg (Long Hold) /Jan 2023–June 2023: 7.12mg -> 6.88mg -> 6.60mg -> 6.50mg / June 2023–Apr 2025: Tapered 6.5mg to 5.5mg / Apr 2025–Dec 2025: 5.4mg -> 5.2mg

    No other meds/drugs/supps/alcohol. Ativan/Benadryl used once only (2019).

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    Hey, hope you’re doing ok!

    Started 5mg lexapro 10/10/25 for anxiety. Initially helped but had adverse neurological affects in my bladder. Had to stop after two weeks and tapered over a month. From December to currently I’ve been withdrawing since with waves and windows. About 60% better, thank God. Currently using Xanax prn. I will not touch another ssri and will be seeking God and healthy lifestyles.


    “No weapon formed against me shall prosper” Isaiah 54:17

    “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.“ Ephesians 6:12

    ”Bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ.” 2 Cor 10:5

    ”Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.” Neh 8:10

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    Hi @caitlinnathanie,

    How are you doing now?

    12 august 2025; 5mg fluoxetine 

    30 August 2025: 10mg fluoxetine 

    11 september 2025: 5mg fluoxetine 

    19 september 2025; 2.5mg fluoxetine 

    2 oktober 2025: 0mg

     

    I had to cut my pills in half and quarters, so and don’t think I had accurate dosages.

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    Hey @caitlinnathanie Just stopping by to see how you are? Xxx

    I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. 

     

    If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

    Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

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    Hey @caitlinnathanie how are you doing now?

    Samuel

    Feb 2025 escitalopram

    Dec 2025 stopped

    Symptoms started in December

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