Just now, Marina said:

@caitlinnathanie Sadly, the process is like this - non-linear with windows and waves. We get some relief, better days and then go back into a wave. But it only shows that the healing is happening and there are moments/days when it can be better. When we feel bad and the symptoms intensify is when we're healing the most. Imagine it as a construction site - workers are working and rebuilding but it will all eventually be built and done and all made new.

It is a painful process but we will endure and be well again. ❤️

💯 This!!

Keep on surviving @caitlinnathanie

guys today is so so bad i just cant seem to make it any better today i feel suffocated, trapped and im going insane today im so sorry idk what to do anymore

@caitlinnathanie Get through today, just survive - that's all you have to do. Tomorrow is another day that hopefully is better. ❤️🙏🏻

23 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

guys today is so so bad i just cant seem to make it any better today i feel suffocated, trapped and im going insane today im so sorry idk what to do anymore

Try to move your body a little with a short walk, watch positive content like success stories, games, or anything that can get you out of this awful loop.

The intensity will change, you will survive it! Xx

10 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Try to move your body a little with a short walk, watch positive content like success stories, games, or anything that can get you out of this awful loop.

The intensity will change, you will survive it! Xx

Exercise that can help reduce cortisol and adrenaline, find a comfortable place to lie down, with or without relaxing music in the background, and breathe in for 5, hold for 3, and exhale for 6, several sets of this, then concentrate on the muscles of the body, start with your hands, contract for a few seconds and relax, do a few sets and move on to another area, give it a few minutes in total and see how it works, it's helped me tremendously today at my peak.

try it @caitlinnathanie nothing to lose

Edited May 28May 28 by Fullhealing

can i take vitamin d? and iron?

I am not outside for weeks, can i take vitamin d? or wil it mess with my brain?

I know i had low vitamin d and low iron,

Edited May 28May 28 by caitlinnathanie

1 minute ago, caitlinnathanie said:

can i take vitamin d?

I am not outside for weeks, can i take vitamin d?

today was horrific, praying for a better tomorrow <3

Edited May 28May 28 by caitlinnathanie

26 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

and iron? i know i have low iron and low vitamin d ... and i never go outside

If there is no serious deficiency, I would try first, vitamin D, out in the sun for 10-20 min every day, not during the hottest hours, exposure to the face and hands will be enough, iron through diet, beef, chicken, fish, green leaves, almonds, dried fruits, always better naturally than supplements.

9 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

If there is no serious deficiency, I would try first, vitamin D, out in the sun for 10-20 min every day, not during the hottest hours, exposure to the face and hands will be enough, iron through diet, beef, chicken, fish, green leaves, almonds, dried fruits, always better naturally than supplements.

I agree with @Fullhealing . I would be better for you mentally and physically if you get your nutrients naturally. Being in sunshine will naturally left your spirits and the sights and sounds may help distract your thoughts. Taking supplements may merely reinforce your anxious fear of venturing outside of your room/home.

9 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:

can i take vitamin d? and iron?

I am not outside for weeks, can i take vitamin d? or wil it mess with my brain?

I know i had low vitamin d and low iron,

If you want to take supplements use quality ones and start very low, one at a time and work up, looking for reactions. I personally wouldn't whilst you are so unstable. I would look to do things as naturally as possible IMO. I am not a fan of supplements myself.

9 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

If there is no serious deficiency, I would try first, vitamin D, out in the sun for 10-20 min every day, not during the hottest hours, exposure to the face and hands will be enough, iron through diet, beef, chicken, fish, green leaves, almonds, dried fruits, always better naturally than supplements.

100% this

i see ppl who are so severe who have iron infuse and get sm better, i cant sit in the sun bc i can not leave my room unfortunately.. :(

my parents really want to put me on meds again, idk how to live with myself anymore, im so detaached, im such a sttwange to mysaelf, its only getting worse, i barely makeit through the day.

22 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

my parents really want to put me on meds again, idk how to live with myself anymore, im so detaached, im such a sttwange to mysaelf, its only getting worse, i barely makeit through the day.

It may feel like it’s just getting worse, but you’ve seen little windows and they will come again. As for meds, I’ve been through trying to fix my own withdrawal with different meds and it has not made anything better for me — in fact it has just set me back more and made my recovery longer and more difficult.

You’re stronger than you think Caitlin, you can do this.

24 minutes ago, SarahMc said:

You’re stronger than you think Caitlin, you can do this.

Oh 100% @caitlinnathanie you made it through the day. That’s all you need to do for the minute. Be proud of yourself. This is a difficult journey but you have got it. Xxx

i genuinely cant make it, i can notrecognize anything my vision is all bad i cant do this anymore like this im comletely out of my body, out of reality , cant recognize not even 0.01% im losing it i cant

my ferritin was 27 2 months ago i think u need to be above 50

Do you eat meat?

1 hour ago, Sophia said:

Do you eat meat?

i only eat chicken and fish

4 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:

i cant sit in the sun bc i can not leave my room unfortunately.. :(

I don't ask this be contrary, but what's stopping you from going outside? If its anxiety/fear of falling or being weak, then ask someone to help you and sit with you for a few minutes. The problem is that if you allow your fearful thoughts to prevent you from doing things to make you feel better, eventually you will be physically unable to do them. I had a cousin who was convinced she was falling down when she walked even though she wasn't. That kept her trapped in her room until she really was too weak to get up. Locking yourself away in your room gives your ruminations full control of your mind. I know its frightening and you may not be able to do it every day, but challenge yourself a little. You may be surprised how strong you really are.

1 hour ago, caitlinnathanie said:

my ferritin was 27 2 months ago i think u need to be above 50

This is at the lower limit but not a deficiency. It is better to repeat blood work including all minerals, vitamins and hormones and consult a doctor first, you have a hypersensitive systems that don't need anymore triggers especially if it's not necessary.

Edited May 29May 29 by Fullhealing

11 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

I don't ask this be contrary, but what's stopping you from going outside? If its anxiety/fear of falling or being weak, then ask someone to help you and sit with you for a few minutes. The problem is that if you allow your fearful thoughts to prevent you from doing things to make you feel better, eventually you will be physically unable to do them. I had a cousin who was convinced she was falling down when she walked even though she wasn't. That kept her trapped in her room until she really was too weak to get up. Locking yourself away in your room gives your ruminations full control of your mind. I know its frightening and you may not be able to do it every day, but challenge yourself a little. You may be surprised how strong you really are.

its too much, looking around, being in my body, its too much i cant do it i cant feel my body or feel like i am actuallyhere my brain can not comprehend anything at the moment its soo much and its 31 degrees ioutside also im on my period those are very heavy for me and i feel so faint i cant do it :( i was doing rlly well doing more stuff but nnow its too much the feelin itself is too strong i can not handle any more

12 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

This is at the lower limit but not a deficiency. It is better to repeat blood work including all minerals, vitamins and hormones and consult a doctor.

yes im gonna do new bloodwork next week when im done with my period bc i have such heavy periods

1 minute ago, caitlinnathanie said:

gits too much, looking around, being in my body, its too much i cant do it i cant feel my body or feel like i am actuallyhere my brain can not comprehend anything at the moment its soo much and its 31 degrees ioutside also im on my period those are very heavy for me and i feel so faint i cant do it :( i was doing rlly well doing more stuff but nnow its too much the feelin itself is too strong i can not handle any more

All these thoughts are your fearful mind trying to control you. Its telling you that you can't do anything but think about your symptoms and its tryin to convince you that you'll be like this forever. None of that is true. Thoughts have the power we give them--nothing more. I know how hard it is to break that thought cycle but you don't have to do it all at once. Just sit at the window and look outside and name what you see. Take things slowly, but even a few minutes spent thinking about something other than your symptoms will help.

Edited May 29May 29 by mstimc60

22 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

I don't ask this be contrary, but what's stopping you from going outside? If its anxiety/fear of falling or being weak, then ask someone to help you and sit with you for a few minutes. The problem is that if you allow your fearful thoughts to prevent you from doing things to make you feel better, eventually you will be physically unable to do them. I had a cousin who was convinced she was falling down when she walked even though she wasn't. That kept her trapped in her room until she really was too weak to get up. Locking yourself away in your room gives your ruminations full control of your mind. I know its frightening and you may not be able to do it every day, but challenge yourself a little. You may be surprised how strong you really are.

I agree, our safe cocoon can become a prison if it is not challenged, long enough and a pattern can be formed that will be difficult to get rid of later, however, I totally understand how hard it is, I also avoid a lot but working on breaking it in very small steps, we don't want to overwhelm the system even more but we do want to challenge it a little mostly to prove to ourselves that we can, obviously I don't mean to stress you, and of course you'll choose how to act, but maybe peeking out for 2 seconds at the beginning could work?