33 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

yes im gonna do new bloodwork next week when im done with my period bc i have such heavy periods

Good it will give you correct indication, may I ask if you suffer from pms or the worst version pmdd? It could explain the brutally you are experiencing

19 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

I agree, our safe cocoon can become a prison if it is not challenged, long enough and a pattern can be formed that will be difficult to get rid of later, however, I totally understand how hard it is, I also avoid a lot but working on breaking it in very small steps, we don't want to overwhelm the system even more but we do want to challenge it a little mostly to prove to ourselves that we can, obviously I don't mean to stress you, and of course you'll choose how to act, but maybe peeking out for 2 seconds at the beginning could work?

yes yesterday i changed my bed w my mom even though i had panic for 2 hrs before and i walk more and move more but im also on my period rn and i feel so fainty

16 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Good it will give you correct indication, may I ask if you suffer from pms or the worst version pmdd? It could explain the brutally you are experiencing

yea i have pms and i also have adhd and i think my emotions are always 1000 x stronger

33 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

yea i have pms and i also have adhd and i think my emotions are always 1000 x stronger

Oh, those hormones... makes sense, I'm so sorry, such a bad mix.

Btw, you mentioned that you suffer from very heavy periods, so from what I saw, your ferritin level should be addressed differently, but I'm obviously not a doctor. You should mention this to your doctor after the blood tests.

36 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

yes yesterday i changed my bed w my mom even though i had panic for 2 hrs before and i walk more and move more but im also on my period rn and i feel so fainty

That's great, well done, very tiny steps forward! See, you are much stronger than you think!

@caitlinnathanie Your menstruation explains why you're in such a bad wave. It is the hardest part of the month for me, everything is 100 times worse. So, I hope when your period is over your mood and perception of reality will calm down. 🙏🏻❤️

3 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Oh, those hormones... makes sense, I'm so sorry, such a bad mix.

Btw, you mentioned that you suffer from very heavy periods, so from what I saw, your ferritin level should be addressed differently, but I'm obviously not a doctor. You should mention this to your doctor after the blood tests.

what do you mean? :)

35 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

what do you mean? :)

As i gathered, since you're having a monthly cycle with heavy bleeding, the fluctuations can be substantial despite ferritin supplementation.

Adding link that might interest you

How much do ferritin levels decrease during menstruation?

Ferritin levels typically decrease by approximately 10-27 ng/mL during menstruation, with the exact amount varying based on individual menstrual blood loss v...

im so mentally drained im so uncomfortable 24.7 in mybody and world im so sad.. i really try to not fear bu its getting so bad.

13 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

im so mentally drained im so uncomfortable 24.7 in mybody and world im so sad.. i really try to not fear bu its getting so bad.

You really need to start trying at least small coping practices. Staying in your room and thinking about your symptoms 24/7 is not helping you.

55 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

You really need to start trying at least small coping practices. Staying in your room and thinking about your symptoms 24/7 is not helping you.

i try but im genuinely so scared of living and being in my body not knowing who i am and whose body this is... im going crazy, ive been out the house before and it only made everything worse, i went to center parcs, cycled in a cart everything..

9 hours ago, mstimc60 said:

You really need to start trying at least small coping practices. Staying in your room and thinking about your symptoms 24/7 is not helping you.

I agree @caitlinnathanie , @mstimc60 isn't talking about anything too much, just a regular little excursion to sit in the day light once a day could help you loads I think. Not only will it help get the Vit D you need and some fresh air, it puts a little event into a routine. Routine I found very important, just creating little events throughout the day which you always do helps pass the time. If these events are healthy practices, like eating good foods or sitting out doors for a bit, or taking a little gentle walk then it is a win win. Sometimes it might not feel good in the moment. I really relate with that, but it is still important to push yourself to keep these things up. Remember nothing too crazy and exhausting, just little first steps that is all. xxx

i sat in the garden for 2 mins and on the couch for 15 mins, but guys my symptoms are just severe deperesonalization nothing really else. just really the feeling like im a human scares me and the fact i look around, and don't know who i am idk how ot overcome this its getting worse every single day and i cant make it like this. does anyone has other tips? because i try do things, i try to let it be but now its so bad i cant even look around and not freak out im sorry x please? anyone.. like moving, looking around, living is like really too much..

@caitlinnathanie Everything seems too stimulating for you right now. Do you feel calmer in a dark room? Maybe lying in the bathtub?

21 minutes ago, Marina said:

@caitlinnathanie Everything seems too stimulating for you right now. Do you feel calmer in a dark room? Maybe lying in the bathtub?

we don't have a bathrub. im so angry today i just want to get out and scream. i see my body moving but i don;t recognize it, my brain can not comprehend life or anything. its making me soooo fucked... my parents wanna buy me a home trainer to put in my room.. not sure how i feel about it

@caitlinnathanie I saw somewhere a suggestion of screaming into a pillow, punching a pillow... Sounds silly, but if it works...

This wave will subside eventually. I hope soon.

is is my brain that needs to find balance or is it my nervous system? im not sure what to do, if i need to try and do normal things or if this is gonna make me worse im just not sure anymore and iim so lost.

46 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

is is my brain that needs to find balance or is it my nervous system? im not sure what to do, if i need to try and do normal things or if this is gonna make me worse im just not sure anymore and iim so lost.

Your nervous system and brain are linked. Your flight or fight instinct is constantly on high alert, and that causes physical, emotional, and mental issues. Normally, your higher mental functions keep your fear instinct under control. For example, if you're driving and someone cuts you off, you react to avoid an accident, but pretty soon you calm down and keep driving. You won't stop driving forever because you're afraid of another accident. Your higher brain will tell you its a one-time thing and you'll go on driving. But when you're in heightened anxiety, your body and mind constantly looking for danger, even when there is none. So you tell yourself you'll panic if you go outside or that you can't do something routine because it'll be overstimulating.

Only you can decide what you can handle and what's too much. But as we've said, locking yourself in your room leaves you alone with your flight or flight thoughts, and you may find you are able to less and less. This may not be the right time till you feel a little less frightened, but when you're ready, we're here to help you try to challenge your fears.

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18 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:

i sat in the garden for 2 mins

This i great Caitlin, try and do this once a day, even it it doesn't feel good atm.

17 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:

my parents wanna buy me a home trainer to put in my room.. not sure how i feel about it

This might be great, even if not right now, asides from the exercise I think burning off some of the adrenaline can be helpful for some.

13 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:

is is my brain that needs to find balance or is it my nervous system? im not sure what to do, if i need to try and do normal things or if this is gonna make me worse im just not sure anymore and iim so lost.

You can't worry about which bit of you needs the work and which bit doesn't, your whole system needs some healing, from gut to brain. Right now you just need to get through the day, don't worry if you are doing enough to heal, your brain will heal inspite of you. If you can manage some normal things, this is good. It will distract you from how you feel, and this helps pass the time and reduces suffering.

Wishing you a better day today xxx

did anyone try acupuncture? for nervous system?

I do it every 1,5-2 weeks… I don’t know if it truly helps but it doesn’t make me worse and it forces me to meditate a bit and focus on my body …

I refused to take Chinese Kruiden because I want my body to heal naturally without crazy supplements

Do you live in Noord Holland? I go to this one:

http://rangkuti-purmerend.nl/

i feel like im not gonna make it, the days are getting more unbearable and i don't think i can handle another day i am so scared.

Edit: i feel like i can not recognize myself, or anything, not even my body i am scared of existing, being human and i have somethin internally with it that screams which is unbreable andidk what it is, sometimes only the dpdr i can manage it but when that internally screaming happens nothing i do helps please does anyone know what this is and what do do against it? i need help...

@caitlinnathanie Hey, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. But I have to emphasize at the same time, while you’re going through, you’re also getting through it. Every day your mind freaks that today is it, that this is impossible… the next day does come. However insufferable it might be, you are getting through this. Whatever fear you have repeating in your mind never does come to pass. Thats the anxiety and this temporary condition, not you, that is yelling very loudly and convincingly of these things. It’s hell, yes, myself and many others have gone through strong variations of it.

Take it day by day, don’t look too far ahead nor behind. Treat yourself like a person who is recovering, give yourself grace and TLC. Lots of it.. Keep expectations low. Stay low stimulation and distract yourself. If these feelings fluctuate, it’s your body working at recovery. Getting back on track. The worst of this hell is like a very painful scab. It hurts more when the nervous system is regulating itself again, just like an itchy wound.

I know you’re going to be ok! We are made to heal ❤️

1 hour ago, LunaLove96 said:

@caitlinnathanie Hey, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. But I have to emphasize at the same time, while you’re going through, you’re also getting through it. Every day your mind freaks that today is it, that this is impossible… the next day does come. However insufferable it might be, you are getting through this. Whatever fear you have repeating in your mind never does come to pass. Thats the anxiety and this temporary condition, not you, that is yelling very loudly and convincingly of these things. It’s hell, yes, myself and many others have gone through strong variations of it.

Take it day by day, don’t look too far ahead nor behind. Treat yourself like a person who is recovering, give yourself grace and TLC. Lots of it.. Keep expectations low. Stay low stimulation and distract yourself. If these feelings fluctuate, it’s your body working at recovery. Getting back on track. The worst of this hell is like a very painful scab. It hurts more when the nervous system is regulating itself again, just like an itchy wound.

I know you’re going to be ok! We are made to heal ❤️

it doesnt fluctuate it just gets stronger and worse everyday :(

i just dont know if this is withdrawwal, i just have severe depersonalization and i had fluox for 3 weeks and quit and afgter 3 months it only got worse and worse because im crying and screaming. i dont think im gonna make it without any help.. can this also be just inmense fear right now and that the withdrawal is already gone?