How are you doing? @caitlinnathanie thinking of you.

Edited April 26Apr 26 by Fullhealing

14 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:

real

really? they said it would take like 2-4 weeks to get it out of my system so i thought it would all be gone, and it increasing bc of my fear ofcourse. im trying to do that now. hopefully i get my life back.

Wd can hit or get worse anywhere from 1-6 months out - it depends how long the treatment lasted. Fluoxetine is however known for this. @Sophia had a similar experience after a 7 week treatment. These symptoms are not you.

3 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

How are you doing? @caitlinnathanie thinking of you.

Really really bad. The feeling of being dead is getting so bad. And also the feeling of being trapped in my body, feeling like only eyes, feeling like i can not receognize myself AT ALL and because of that like existential fear is SOO high like genuinely really really high. im losing it every second. Im feeling really really trapped, i can not feel my body anymore it feels like im outside it and i am so so scared genuinely. It doesn't stop at all. It gets worse and worse everyday. I can't do this very long and chatgpt said my system cant come down on its own and that i need medical help. I'm serious that i can not survive this when it stays like this or gets worse im literally past my breaking point. I can't do this :( I tried to be more positive today but it is getting SOOOOO bad i can't please.

14 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

Really really bad. The feeling of being dead is getting so bad. And also the feeling of being trapped in my body, feeling like only eyes, feeling like i can not receognize myself AT ALL and because of that like existential fear is SOO high like genuinely really really high. im losing it every second. Im feeling really really trapped, i can not feel my body anymore it feels like im outside it and i am so so scared genuinely. It doesn't stop at all. It gets worse and worse everyday. I can't do this very long and chatgpt said my system cant come down on its own and that i need medical help. I'm serious that i can not survive this when it stays like this or gets worse im literally past my breaking point. I can't do this :( I tried to be more positive today but it is getting SOOOOO bad i can't please.

All these symptoms are so commun. Keep calm, don't focus on them and on you and try to do pleasant things as much as you can. There is nothing more to do, infortunately. Just to cross this.

And stop asking this stupid thing called chat gpt, it is not even a human. (Ask if AD are poison to chat gpt, you will be surprise by the response -"yes, but no..." - ok, just close the window, and shut up forever. - 😂

Oh, fluoxetine can cause renal damage, I learned this yesterday. (But not only this of course).

You can take a medical advice if you want but in reality all the ressources are on this site and on SA. If you have chance you can find a psychologist/psychiatrist/doctor who knows what wd is but it's rare. For me it was worst after having consulted them.

Edited April 26Apr 26 by poulette38

34 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

Really really bad. The feeling of being dead is getting so bad. And also the feeling of being trapped in my body, feeling like only eyes, feeling like i can not receognize myself AT ALL and because of that like existential fear is SOO high like genuinely really really high. im losing it every second. Im feeling really really trapped, i can not feel my body anymore it feels like im outside it and i am so so scared genuinely. It doesn't stop at all. It gets worse and worse everyday. I can't do this very long and chatgpt said my system cant come down on its own and that i need medical help. I'm serious that i can not survive this when it stays like this or gets worse im literally past my breaking point. I can't do this :( I tried to be more positive today but it is getting SOOOOO bad i can't please.

I'm so sorry!! @caitlinnathanie I know how brutal this is but you will survive, just don't give in and don't let the chemical mind drive you crazy, light distractions for a few seconds at a time will help a lot.

I wish I could take this away from you but this is a phase you have to go through which will pass, you are capable and strong against it remember that!

Hang in there, we are all here for you. xxxx

I'm continuing here from our pm so that others may also be able to help @caitlinnathanie It can have very strong peaks but the intensity decreases, you're currently in extremely strong one but it won't stay that way.

Keep surviving. That's it. That's enough. It will eventually pass. Many of us have gone through this terror and very well survived, and so will you!. xxxx

3 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

I'm continuing here from our pm so that others may also be able to help @caitlinnathanie It can have very strong peaks but the intensity decreases, you're currently in extremely strong one but it won't stay that way.

Keep surviving. That's it. That's enough. It will eventually pass. Many of us have gone through this terror and very well survived, and so will you!. xxxx

And medical help is useless @caitlinnathanie you already know, they will only push more drugs which I highly doubt you want knowing that all this hell started from one.

Please hang in there, keep sharing, letting off steam, everything helps, just don't feel alone, we all understand here.

Edited April 26Apr 26 by Fullhealing

15 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

And medical help is useless @caitlinnathanie you already know, they will only push more drugs which I highly doubt that's what you want, knowing that all this hell is from one.

Please hang in there, keep sharing, letting off steam, everything helps, just don't feel alone, we all understand here.

I am so lost i just want my life back, go back to the gym and enjoy some chocolate and a movie in bed. i feel like im completely out of my body its a horror feeling, my brain doesnt register anything im so terrified its getting worse eeryday so much worse, why doesnt it get a litttlee less :((:((((( cant even watch a show or tiktok anything is unbearable

5 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

I am so lost i just want my life back, go back to the gym and enjoy some chocolate and a movie in bed. i feel like im completely out of my body its a horror feeling, my brain doesnt register anything im so terrified its getting worse eeryday so much worse, why doesnt it get a litttlee less :((:((((( cant even watch a show or tiktok anything is unbearable

It's a peak and as endless as it feels it will pass, you'll be back to everything you were used to when the system balances out.

Just hang in there!

can you go outside for a bit? Do you have a yard?

i have a yard but i genuinely can not leave my room ive been feeling so bad i cant :( will it settle down if i do small things in my room too? can someone help me andgive me like a stratgy and what to expect??

43 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

It's a peak and as endless as it feels it will pass, you'll be back to everything you were used to when the system balances out.

Just hang in there!

can you go outside for a bit? Do you have a yard?

today has been really hard i feel totally out of it rn im not sure how long i can hold on like this..... im completely out of body and out of reality my brain registers nothing and im no where anymore i cant pls

Just now, caitlinnathanie said:

today has been really hard i feel totally out of it rn im not sure how long i can hold on like this..... im completely out of body and out of reality my brain registers nothing and im no where anymore i cant pls

i feel like i don't even have a body anymore pls guys idk what to do anykore i cant keep living like this..

the first 1,5 month i still did things and all of a sudden while baking cookies i got this and now 2 weeks and

now its unbearable like even another hour please im genuinely toooo scared of my self bc i ant recognize 1% and i am literally scared of existence and how i can look and i feel so freaking trapped pike i need to jump out and run somewhere (inside my body) pls i genuinely dont know how ,uch more i can take i cant even look around anymoer without a panic attack pls i wanna live again and have my life back and enjoy even if its like 10% less and i can chill a little while wwatching a movie.

8 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

i feel like i don't even have a body anymore pls guys idk what to do anykore i cant keep living like this..

the first 1,5 month i still did things and all of a sudden while baking cookies i got this and now 2 weeks and

now its unbearable like even another hour please im genuinely toooo scared of my self bc i ant recognize 1% and i am literally scared of existence and how i can look and i feel so freaking trapped pike i need to jump out and run somewhere (inside my body) pls i genuinely dont know how ,uch more i can take i cant even look around anymoer without a panic attack pls i wanna live again and have my life back and enjoy even if its like 10% less and i can chill a little while wwatching a movie.

genuinely starting to lose my mind can not do anything except laying and crying in bed and then even then i feel like i can not handle it anymore idk what to do anymore

Hi @caitlinnathanie ,

Do you have racing / ruminating thoughts ? Or do you feel blanked out with no thoughts and body numbness?

I had the latter in my crash and it has significantly improved in the last few months! ❤️‍🩹

23 minutes ago, Sophia said:

Hi @caitlinnathanie ,

Do you have racing / ruminating thoughts ? Or do you feel blanked out with no thoughts and body numbness?

I had the latter in my crash and it has significantly improved in the last few months! ❤️‍🩹

how did u improve?

i just feel like im no one, all eyes in a dark void not in the world and if im gonna black out any moment. no racing thoughts only like completely out of body and reality.

Just time unfortunately…. Take some rest and walks… you have to ride it out ❤️‍🩹

2 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:

i have a yard but i genuinely can not leave my room ive been feeling so bad i cant :( will it settle down if i do small things in my room too? can someone help me andgive me like a stratgy and what to expect??

Hi @caitlinnathanie Yes, you can do things in your room to help calm your thoughts. First, it may help to realize you're in a mind/body anxiety loop. Your anxious mind is telling you there is something very wrong when there is no real danger, and its activating your flight or fight hormones in your body. By staying in your room and not doing anything physical, your body has no way of burning off that energy, so it just builds up and feeds the anxiety response in your mind.

Being alone with your thoughts is the worst thing you can do right now. So what I recommend is you find a spot in your room where you're relatively comfortable. The look around your room. Name five things in your room and describe them to yourself in as much detail as you can. If your mind goes back to anxious thoughts, don't judge, just come back to describing things. If you can, sit near a window and describe what you see. The object isn't to stop the intrusive thoughts, its just to slow your physical and mental response to them so you can get a sense of restfulness. It will be a struggle at first but just keep coming back to describing things. It may seem hopeless now but you can get through this.

@caitlinnathanie I am so sorry about your day. As others have said, you are in the acute stage right now, this can be so hard, we know. It feels like you can't cope, but you can, many have been here before you. You will start to feel better, but for the minute, it really is time, distract as best you can, moving around your room can help for sure if you can't get out side. I know this is so brutal atm. But trust us all when we say you will make it through, just have to hold on, take a minute at a time. Chippy

6 minutes ago, Sophia said:

Just time unfortunately…. Take some rest and walks… you have to ride it out ❤️‍🩹

i cant even go on a walk im crying when i go to the bathroom

1 minute ago, Chippy said:

@caitlinnathanie I am so sorry about your day. As others have said, you are in the acute stage right now, this can be so hard, we know. It feels like you can't cope, but you can, many have been here before you. You will start to feel better, but for the minute, it really is time, distract as best you can, moving around your room can help for sure if you can't get out side. I know this is so brutal atm. But trust us all when we say you will make it through, just have to hold on, take a minute at a time. Chippy

im just rlly concerned that i got all these symptoms at the same time at 100. like every symptom im even wondering how im alive typing this. i try to do things like card game w my mom, writing stuff down and playing a game on computer but it jst feels like any moment i cant handle it anymore. im just really concerned that i wont recover bc the symptoms get worse and i genuinely almost cant go for walks. i am in my room trying to do things but i genuinely can not sit in my living room or be in the garden.

will the symptoms still decrease when i do the small stuff in my bedroom? i know i shouldnt focus om them but its impossible i literally feel dead.

i miss my old life im a really kind and funny outgoing person. i was outside 24.7

4 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

will the symptoms still decrease when i do the small stuff in my bedroom?

Yes, but you need to try the methods I sent you a few minutes ago.

2 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

im just rlly concerned that i got all these symptoms at the same time at 100.

This is what it can feel like, when WD hits. Like nothing you can imagine, it is why people sometimes don't belive it, they have to experience it to understand.

3 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

will the symptoms still decrease when i do the small stuff in my bedroom? i know i shouldnt focus om them but its impossible i literally feel dead.

It may help, distraction is good. Sometimes you have to recognise the symptoms and give them a little attention, but mainly it is best to try to not give them a voice, just learn to float over them. If it is too intense, it is just about surviving each minute, till it lessens. You will start to find little coping skills that work for you. You are so brave, Im so impressed by your courage, this is not easy.

5 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

i miss my old life im a really kind and funny outgoing person. i was outside 24.7

I know, I am sure you were! You can have this back, and better! Just need to heal first. Glad your Mum is around for you. Cards is a good distraction.

43 minutes ago, Chippy said:

This is what it can feel like, when WD hits. Like nothing you can imagine, it is why people sometimes don't belive it, they have to experience it to understand.

It may help, distraction is good. Sometimes you have to recognise the symptoms and give them a little attention, but mainly it is best to try to not give them a voice, just learn to float over them. If it is too intense, it is just about surviving each minute, till it lessens. You will start to find little coping skills that work for you. You are so brave, Im so impressed by your courage, this is not easy.

I know, I am sure you were! You can have this back, and better! Just need to heal first. Glad your Mum is around for you. Cards is a good distraction.

i also see posts like this: Hello everyone, I’ve been dealing with DPDR for the past 2 years. I’m surviving minute by minute. Every second, it feels like something is about to happen to me. The feelings are so strange that I can’t even explain them. I have symptoms 24/7. Does anyone else experience this too?

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that people have this for years?!

27 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

i also see posts like this: Hello everyone, I’ve been dealing with DPDR for the past 2 years. I’m surviving minute by minute. Every second, it feels like something is about to happen to me. The feelings are so strange that I can’t even explain them. I have symptoms 24/7. Does anyone else experience this too?

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that people have this for years?!

hi guys im back again tried to play stardew valley and again im painfully aware of existence and im so detached from self and reality even more then this morning, when does it stop getting worse and just stay the same for once :(

1 minute ago, caitlinnathanie said:

hi guys im back again tried to play stardew valley and again im painfully aware of existence and im so detached from self and reality even more then this morning, when does it stop getting worse and just stay the same for once :(

Don't put artificial pressure on yourself by imposing an arbitrary timeline on recovery. It will come in small steps over time. You will make it.