caitlinnathanie: Severe DPDR

April 27Apr 27

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43 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:
How are you holding up? @caitlinnathanie
Here is some videos from a medical and personal perspective that might be helpful for your family and you (many more on YouTube with a quick search).
Dr Joseph:
Dr. Horowitz & Angie Peacock:
Dr. Joseph & Angie peacock:

no im not okay !!!! my cat had an accident and had to say her goodbye she was with me since i was 9 i can t handle this on top of it!!!! im also SO ut of body i genuinely can NOT handle this anymore!!

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 27Apr 27

11 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
no im not okay !!!! my cat had an accident and had to say her goodbye she was with me since i was 9 i can t handle this on top of it!!!! im also SO ut of body i genuinely can NOT handle this anymore!!

Im so so sorry about your cat @caitlinnathanie grieving this process is beyond brutal, I know, I lost 3 and with all the difficulty I survived and so you will too.

Try watching some of the videos that were sent to you, force yourself to have small distractions and stay strong, another day passes and you survived, you can handle this!

Sending a comforting hug!

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.

April 27Apr 27

@caitlinnathanie I am so very sorry about your Cat, I lost 2 in recent years as well. Very heart breaking, they become little friends, even children. Im sorry you have to add this to the things you are dealing with atm. It is not fair.

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

April 27Apr 27

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9 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:
Im so so sorry about your cat @caitlinnathanie grieving this process is beyond brutal, I know, I lost 3 and with all the difficulty I survived and so you will too.
Try watching some of the videos that were sent to you, force yourself to have small distractions and stay strong, another day passes and you survived, you can handle this!
Sending a comforting hug!

no i genuinely can not i tried to watch the videos but im so out of body with not recognizing myself and surroundings feeling like im gonna black out any moment i genuinely can not handle it anymore i cant even sleep anymore bc i feel soooo out of my body. i cant... anymore really;

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 27Apr 27

15 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
no i genuinely can not i tried to watch the videos but im so out of body with not recognizing myself and surroundings feeling like im gonna black out any moment i genuinely can not handle it anymore i cant even sleep anymore bc i feel soooo out of my body. i cant... anymore really;

Yes you can with all the brutality of it @caitlinnathanie you prove it to yourself with every passing moment!

Put one of the videos in the background, you don't have to concentrate on it, it's absorbed by the mind anyway.

Keep pushing, it won't stay at this intensity all the time.

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.

April 27Apr 27

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3 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:
Yes you can with all the brutality of it @caitlinnathanie you prove it to yourself with every passing moment!
Put one of the videos in the background, you don't have to concentrate on it, it's absorbed by the mind anyway.
Keep pushing, it won't stay at this intensity all the time.

its getting worse and worse the outer body experience im literally not in my body anymore at all, i keep telling myself im safe but its unbearable how this feels and how unsafe i feel i feel like my brain registers nothing anymore im completely out of it im serious it is SOO severe i can not even explain it even breathing is scary rn i literally can not handle this! i cant bear another moment. cant even sleep bc im so out of body

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 27Apr 27

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Just now, caitlinnathanie said:
its getting worse and worse the outer body experience im literally not in my body anymore at all, i keep telling myself im safe but its unbearable how this feels and how unsafe i feel i feel like my brain registers nothing anymore im completely out of it im serious it is SOO severe i can not even explain it even breathing is scary rn i literally can not handle this! i cant bear another moment. cant even sleep bc im so out of body

i can not even walk anymore, or move bc im so scared i cant do this anymore

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 27Apr 27

14 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
its getting worse and worse the outer body experience im literally not in my body anymore at all, i keep telling myself im safe but its unbearable how this feels and how unsafe i feel i feel like my brain registers nothing anymore im completely out of it im serious it is SOO severe i can not even explain it even breathing is scary rn i literally can not handle this! i cant bear another moment. cant even sleep bc im so out of body

You can, you just have to keep pushing, no other way, I'm so sorry, I've been there and it will fade for you as well, hang on.

Edited April 27Apr 27 by Fullhealing

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.

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April 27Apr 27

Hand in there @caitlinnathanie You can do this! Try to tell yourself that, rather than the opposite!

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

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April 27Apr 27

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but i

36 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:
You can, you just have to keep pushing, no other way, I'm so sorry, I've been there and it will fade for you as well, hang on.

but i think i got the dpdr as a side effect bc i already got it on fluoxetine and i think bc of all the fear it got worse and worse. my parents are gpnna cll the hospital and i think they are gonna force me to take meds bc im kaying crying and screaming the whole day. i cant do anyhting else im too affraid i feel like a failure

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 27Apr 27

23 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
but i
but i think i got the dpdr as a side effect bc i already got it on fluoxetine and i think bc of all the fear it got worse and worse. my parents are gpnna cll the hospital and i think they are gonna force me to take meds bc im kaying crying and screaming the whole day. i cant do anyhting else im too affraid i feel like a failure

they can't force you to take meds, just tell them you have no suicidal thoughts and don't hear voices and hopefully you will be fine.

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.
Feel free to mention me whenever help is needed.

Current Supplements: Morning: Aloe Vera Gels. Night: 6mg melatonin and 133mg magnesium glycinate. Taking Omega 3 as needed to calm dyskinesia or over stimulation..

Current Medications: Mirtazapine, Lasea (lavender oil) before bed.

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Tapering: Mirtazapine 15mg, (went compounded) 13.5mg 08/May/2025, 12.1mg 10/July/2025, 15/July/2025 15mg (half tablet), 26/July/2025 14.35mg (moved to dry cutting method) ), 03/Aug/2025 14.6mg, 24/Nov/2025 14.47mg, 29/Jan/2026 14.35mg

Note: Had a lot of issue with degradation with different cutting times and compounded pharmacy which caused withdrawals and a more sensitive nervous system.

April 27Apr 27

44 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
my parents are gpnna cll the hospital and i think they are gonna force me to take meds bc im kaying crying and screaming the whole day.

Girl I am so sorry you are suffering so much. Can’t you try to call down a little so you don’t have to go to the hospital. You are stronger than you think. You are in control of your behavior!! You can decide that even tho dpdr is really scary now, you will try to focus on something else outside your head. That’s the only way it can dissolve. If you keep feeding it with more fear and resistance it will stay and the symptom will not change..

Sorry don’t want to sound hard but you can take the control back!!

12 august 2025; 5mg fluoxetine

30 August 2025: 10mg fluoxetine

11 september 2025: 5mg fluoxetine

19 september 2025; 2.5mg fluoxetine

2 oktober 2025: 0mg

I had to cut my pills in half and quarters, so and don’t think I had accurate dosages.

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April 27Apr 27

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2 minutes ago, Sophia said:
Girl I am so sorry you are suffering so much. Can’t you try to call down a little so you don’t have to go to the hospital. You are stronger than you think. You are in control of your behavior!! You can decide that even tho dpdr is really scary now, you will try to focus on something else outside your head. That’s the only way it can dissolve. If you keep feeding it with more fear and resistance it will stay and the symptom will not change..
Sorry don’t want to sound hard but you can take the control back!!

i literally tried for weeks really :(

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 27Apr 27

10 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
i literally tried for weeks really :(

If you managed to make it through a week, you will make it through more @caitlinnathanie you are stronger than you believe, don't give up and don't let anyone force you on more meds, these f drugs are what caused this in the first place so no way.

Keep being strong against wd mind and keep yourself busy, for seconds at a time, the mind will eventually get tired!

Big bear hug.xxxx

Edited April 27Apr 27 by Fullhealing

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.

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April 27Apr 27

17 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
i literally tried for weeks really :(

I am sorry.. keep trying!

Maybe make a to do list like:

10 min walk ✅

Make lunch ✅

Clean room ✅

Etc. It gives you some sense of agency!! That you decide that doing things for your health are more important than obsessing and fearing the dpdr. It’s not something that changes immediately.. practice over and over again till your brain will feel “this is safe”..

12 august 2025; 5mg fluoxetine

30 August 2025: 10mg fluoxetine

11 september 2025: 5mg fluoxetine

19 september 2025; 2.5mg fluoxetine

2 oktober 2025: 0mg

I had to cut my pills in half and quarters, so and don’t think I had accurate dosages.

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April 27Apr 27

4 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:
these f drugs are what caused this in the first place so no way.

100%!

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

April 27Apr 27

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3 minutes ago, Sophia said:
I am sorry.. keep trying!
Maybe make a to do list like:
10 min walk ✅
Make lunch ✅
Clean room ✅
Etc. It gives you some sense of agency!! That you decide that doing things for your health are more important than obsessing and fearing the dpdr. It’s not something that changes immediately.. practice over and over again till your brain will feel “this is safe”..

i feel so bad bc u guys keep giving me tips but i cantt even stand up fromm my bed.. so i can not even clean or move im too affraid the symptoms are too strong

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 27Apr 27

1 minute ago, caitlinnathanie said:
feel so bad bc u guys keep giving me tips but i cantt even stand up fromm my bed.. so i can not even clean or move im too affraid the symptoms are too strong

But why can’t you? What happens? You are in pain? You feel weak?

You feel like you can’t sit still? Or pure fear? What’s happening exactly that makes you not be able to move ?

12 august 2025; 5mg fluoxetine

30 August 2025: 10mg fluoxetine

11 september 2025: 5mg fluoxetine

19 september 2025; 2.5mg fluoxetine

2 oktober 2025: 0mg

I had to cut my pills in half and quarters, so and don’t think I had accurate dosages.

April 27Apr 27

3 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
i feel so bad bc u guys keep giving me tips but i cantt even stand up fromm my bed.. so i can not even clean or move im too affraid the symptoms are too strong

Acceptance should come with distraction, a router in between, there is no other choice, I'm really sorry, I feel your pain, if you can't distract atm then let it be with the clear knowledge that it is temporary, it will NOT stay so strong.

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.

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April 27Apr 27

1 hour ago, caitlinnathanie said:
i feel so bad bc u guys keep giving me tips but i cantt even stand up fromm my bed.. so i can not even clean or move im too affraid the symptoms are too strong

Maybe some proprioceptive stuff can help, from a neurological perspective it's about sending a sensory signal of safety/anchor through the brainstem. Anything heavy that can be placed on your body, like a sand bag or maybe weights on top of a pillow could work. Sleeping with a weighted blanket. Another exercise is pushing against a wall with your body, hands, arms or back.

July 2014-2016: Sertraline 25mg CT

May 2023 - June 2024: Sertraline 50 mg CT

July 2024 for 3 weeks: Abilify 5mg CT

August 2024: 1x Risperidon pill

August 2024 - December 2024: Escitalopram/Cipralex/Lexapro 5mg CT

January 2025 - 0mg

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37 minutes ago, Cloudy4ever said:
Maybe some proprioceptive stuff can help, from a neurological perspective it's about sending a sensory signal of safety/anchor through the brainstem. Anything heavy that can be placed on your body, like a sand bag or maybe weights on top of a pillow could work. Sleeping with a weighted blanket. Another exercise is pushing against a wall with your body, hands, arms or back.

yes i have a weighted stuffed animal

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 27Apr 27

6 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:
feel like a failure

You are not a failure...this is a reaction to something that was supposed to help you.

Do whatever you need to do to feel safe. If you are going to harm yourself, do not hesitate to go to the hospital or call a crisis line.

I am sorry you are struggling so horribly. ❤️🙏

I am not a medical professional. My comments are based on my personal experience and information on SA.

Paroxetine-2002 onward-20mg/ Citalopram-2007-20 mg-straight switch from paroxetine-back to paroxetine after a month/ Sertraline -25 mg-Dec 2016- given for a month instead of paroxetine (doctor mistake) Oxazepam -10 mg-2016-twice weekly for a couple months for sleep/ Zopiclone -3.75-7.5mg-2020-2022-once a week for sleep/Paroxetine -20 yr+/ Dec2018-May 2022 20 mg/ May 2022 30mg/2022.07.28-2022.08.24 30mg to 0mg/ Prozac-10mg August 24-29 2022/Paroxetine -5mg-2022.11.28-2022.12.04/10mg-Dec 5&6/22/ Prozac-10mg-Dec 8&9/22/Paroxetine -5mg-2022.12.07 to 2023.07.01

TAPER-Paroxetine-2023-Jul 2-4.9mg/ Jul 21-4.8mg/Jul 28-4.73mg/Aug 4-4.65mg /Sep 21-4.58 mg/Oct 27-4.56 mg/Dec 5-4.54 mg/2024-Jan 2-4.52 mg/Jan 9-4.51 mg/Jan 17-4.49 mg/Jan 26-4.47mg/Feb 6-4.46mg/Feb 19-4.44mg /Apr 4-4.43mg/Apr 28-4.4 mg/May 5-4.39 mg/May 19-4.36 mg/Jul 2-4.34 mg/Jul 9-4.32mg/Jul 31-4.3 mg/Oct 1-4.29mg/Nov 27-4.25 mg/Dec 5-4.22mg/2025-Jan 5-4.17mg/Feb 2-4.1mg/Mar 7-4.07mg/Apr 23-4.04mg/May 23-4mg/Jun 22-3.99mg/Jun 30-3.95mg/Jul 18-3.92mg/Sep 25-3.9mg/2026-Mar 25-3.85mg

9am-paroxetine, 200mg mag bisglycinate/75 mg DGL if needed for refux/150 mg calcium citrate/algae oil for omega 3/ginger 400 mg as needed for nausea

"... your strength will be in keeping calm..."-Isaiah 30:15

April 27Apr 27

Hi @caitlinnathanie, I’ve been offsite with lots going on that it’s been a challenge to be on here. But I wanted to chime in. And it’s nice to connect with you.

I can understand feeling overwhelmed. You have to take everything moment by moment. Focus on the very next thing you need to do and take slow deep breaths that fill your entire being from top to bottom. We often hold in so much tension, we are not breathing properly and our breath is our life force. Slowly shake out any tension. Use the weighted stuffed animal mentioned to ground yourself. A warmed neck/shoulder wrap on the adrenals is a good option too. Drink some nice tea. For now that’s enough.

I also have list of polyvagal exercises that when you feel a bit more present, you can use them to build more resilience in the nervous system. But I would first focus on what you are to do next and breathing. I’m sorry for your loss and that this is such a trying time for you. I pray for hope, courage, and strength for you.

Edited April 27Apr 27 by namastejen1

2 Tim 1:7 For God did not give us a spirit of cowardice (fear); but rather of power and love and self-control (a sound mind).

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an update from me, my symptoms got drastically worse my dad is going to sleep in my room its getting really severe and bad to the point im getting confused and cant even lay down or do anything im really scared

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

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April 27Apr 27

10 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
an update from me, my symptoms got drastically worse my dad is going to sleep in my room its getting really severe and bad to the point im getting confused and cant even lay down or do anything im really scared

Great that you're not alone, maybe play one of the videos in the background so that your dad can get some idea of what you're going through, it'll help you as well, your mind will absorb even if you can't concentrate on it.

Hang in there @caitlinnathanie it's a brutal phase that you'll survive.

Edited April 27Apr 27 by Fullhealing

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.

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