im genuinely not okay, i cant even feel my bodywhen i move. im so scared guys, feel like im blacking out or dissociating so much

it feels like im barely holding on, like im gonna explode or just die

4 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

it feels like im barely holding on, like im gonna explode or just die

You won’t. You are safe. It just feels so bad. Remind yourself you’re safe.

21 hours ago, Chippy said:

You won’t. You are safe. It just feels so bad. Remind yourself you’re safe.

ive been to my doctor yesterday until like 2 am bc i almost couldnt breathe my mom took me and i was so dizzy but he said im healthy so yea guys this is fun its actually still these problems. I have a question, its still getting worse and bad even when i don't panic, or like even when i do things. but my enzyms were tested and they were good so is it actually normal to feel like this after almost 3 months? bc my body breaks it off 'normally' :(

15 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:

ive been to my doctor yesterday until like 2 am bc i almost couldnt breathe my mom took me and i was so dizzy but he said im healthy so yea guys this is fun its actually still these problems. I have a question, its still getting worse and bad even when i don't panic, or like even when i do things. but my enzyms were tested and they were good so is it actually normal to feel like this after almost 3 months? bc my body breaks it off 'normally' :(

It is really good you are fit and healthy. This is almost always the case, it is good to get checked, but these symptoms are all neurological so as tough as they feel, they have been caused by the drug harm.

It is so good you don't add any second fear, this is key, accept the symptoms in the moment, don't start to make it worse by panicking, the fact you are starting to be able to do this is great work! Thing will likely be a bit rough for a bit, maybe very at times, but don't worry, just keep using those coping skills, remind yourself you are safe, and take it one step at a time, eventually it will ease as you heal.

my symptoms are super severe, not knowing anything or recognizing anymore nt even my room, my cats, my life, my body, i feel like only,severe breathless, feeling super trapped, so out of body that if i movve my body or speak ^t doesnt feel like mine, my brain not. registering anythinng, not feeling my body, not feeling the connection with my surroundings, feeling like i need to run from my body, mental torture.. ppl keep saying to call my crisis tram but they don't do anything.. im so lost bc it doesnt go down :( going to center parcs, but i barely can walk bc im so dizzy and breathless and feel like when i move and speak its not me...

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4 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:

my symptoms are super severe, not knowing anything or recognizing anymore nt even my room, my cats, my life, my body, i feel like only,severe breathless, feeling super trapped, so out of body that if i movve my body or speak ^t doesnt feel like mine, my brain not. registering anythinng, not feeling my body, not feeling the connection with my surroundings, feeling like i need to run from my body, mental torture.. ppl keep saying to call my crisis tram but they don't do anything.. im so lost bc it doesnt go down :( going to center parcs, but i barely can walk bc im so dizzy and breathless and feel like when i move and speak its not me...

Awful Caitlin I’m sorry to hear. I’m hoping for a window for you soon. Hopefully there will be one there for you at centerparcs.

1 minute ago, Chippy said:

Awful Caitlin I’m sorry to hear. I’m hoping for a window for you soon. Hopefully there will be one there for you at centerparcs.

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its so severe:(( every second is unearable.. can;t even talk properly with my girlfriend

7 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

its so severe:(( every second is unearable.. can;t even talk properly with my girlfriend

I’m very glad she is there for you

im genuinely so done and exhausted. it keeps getting worse, when will i EVER get rest idk how long i can take this

27 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

im genuinely so done and exhausted. it keeps getting worse, when will i EVER get rest idk how long i can take this

Sorry to hear that! you've already had good moments that will grow over time, it won't be as desired with many bumps so hang in there, you're strong and can handle it, you've already proven that.

@caitlinnathanie, looking back on my own WD journey, I can see how I dreaded every day and thought I was in nonstop agony. But in reality I functioned pretty well. It was my anxious brain trying to make me think my life was out of control and I was doomed to a life of misery. You'll get through this; each day in unique and just because you've had some bad days doesn't mean today has to be bad, too. You'll get there!

4 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:

im genuinely so done and exhausted. it keeps getting worse, when will i EVER get rest idk how long i can take this

have you ever tried meditiating and being mindful ? also acceptance is key, the more you fight it, the worse the symptoms will get, you need to work with them, not fight them, the symptoms are needed responses from the body.

26 minutes ago, Lighty said:

have you ever tried meditiating and being mindful ? also acceptance is key, the more you fight it, the worse the symptoms will get, you need to work with them, not fight them, the symptoms are needed responses from the body.

yes im really trying to but i genuinely can not function any longer.. i did that the past week yesterday i even cycled outside for 15 minutes and i enjoyed it (in a kart so not on a bicycle) but i genuinely feel so out of my body and out of it and too scared of being a human even too scared of my own body and that i can see.. im literally roo scared that i can not recognize myself. I did really well but today has been so bad, worse then i have ever felt and i can not handle this feeling or this day. i finally did not fight it at all.. :(

6 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

yes im really trying to but i genuinely can not function any longer.. i did that the past week yesterday i even cycled outside for 15 minutes and i enjoyed it (in a kart so not on a bicycle) but i genuinely feel so out of my body and out of it and too scared of being a human even too scared of my own body and that i can see.. im literally roo scared that i can not recognize myself. I did really well but today has been so bad, worse then i have ever felt and i can not handle this feeling or this day. i finally did not fight it at all.. :(

It's okay to not function sometimes, it's okay if things get worse and you need to surrender to the symptoms, just don't lose hope in your soul ! you got this ❤️

I am alone again now im home and i feel super depressed and very severely exhausted im not sure how long i can keep doing this while being sooo alone in my house with my parents i feel no supprt and i feel so much pressure to be better every week because i overheard me mom asking my gf if i was doing better already during these days becase it didn't look like i improved.

i also saw someone on facebook saying they got depersonalisation for 5 years because of prozac (fluoxetine) and its making me spiral. i don't look things up, this was also just a random group not a dpdr group and i just saw this comment :(

9 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

i also saw someone on facebook saying they got depersonalisation for 5 years because of prozac (fluoxetine) and its making me spiral. i don't look things up, this was also just a random group not a dpdr group and i just saw this comment :(

I mean it's just 1 case and not you.

again you cannot attach yourself to your health state cause if your health is fucked up then you are gonna be miserable, you have to be unattached from everything and be okay with any state you are at, even with neuro emotions and other emotional stuff, you don't attach to those states.

1 hour ago, Lighty said:

I mean it's just 1 case and not you.

again you cannot attach yourself to your health state cause if your health is fucked up then you are gonna be miserable, you have to be unattached from everything and be okay with any state you are at, even with neuro emotions and other emotional stuff, you don't attach to those states.

idk how though i can't handle it

2 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

idk how though i can't handle it

and that's fine, sometimes we can find ourselves unable to handle things, and it's okay, we just have to accept we are in a moment we can't handle well, and not attach to it, let go off the control, to let it pass faster instead of slower.

try to do gentle things as possible that could help you calm you down and pass the time quick, depending on your function level, taking a walk, watching a comedy that you find the funniest, or anything else that could help you out.

♥️

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does it really ever get better? i am so scared this is gonna last because i asked chatgpt and he said some people have this chronic after medication, it still gets worse everyday im so sad

9 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

does it really ever get better? i am so scared this is gonna last because i asked chatgpt and he said some people have this chronic after medication, it still gets worse everyday im so sad

Yes, with time, everything that has been offered to you here and most importantly, strong believe that it is temporary as it is.

You will be fine, you are strong and capable enough, hang in there and remember the good moments that gives strength to continue.

13 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:

does it really ever get better? i am so scared this is gonna last because i asked chatgpt and he said some people have this chronic after medication, it still gets worse everyday im so sad

Chat GPT will tell you Japan attacked Fort Sumter in 1861. The people here have been through it and we’ve assured you that you can recover. Who do you want to believe? Us or your anxious mind?

Thinking of you @caitlinnathanie youre very brave, the others are right, you will get better, it just can take some time. You are young and strong, you'll recover.

14 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:

does it really ever get better? i am so scared this is gonna last because i asked chatgpt and he said some people have this chronic after medication, it still gets worse everyday im so sad

From my multiple years in support groups for harms done by these medications, once taking none of them, the vast majority of people seem to recover in time.