caitlinnathanie: Severe DPDR

April 26Apr 26

20 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
hi guys im back again tried to play stardew valley and again im painfully aware of existence and im so detached from self and reality even more then this morning, when does it stop getting worse and just stay the same for once :(

Slowly in time ,it's a process @caitlinnathanie great that you keep trying distraction, it won't always work but when it does, it's worth the effort and it will grow.

Hang in there, your thoughts feel threatening but nothing is actually happen, you're safe, I can assure you that the intensity will decrease, keep surviving this, it will get much better. xxx

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.

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April 26Apr 26

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35 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:
Don't put artificial pressure on yourself by imposing an arbitrary timeline on recovery. It will come in small steps over time. You will make it.

i know but i just cant handle it anymore... not trying to be negative but im exhausted mentally and i feel so unsafe 24/7

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 26Apr 26

3 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
i know but i just cant handle it anymore... not trying to be negative but im exhausted mentally and i feel so unsafe 24/7

It is best to not look at stories and try to compare yourself. You are not anyone else, your circumstances are different to everyone else. It is so important to just focus on yourself and take one day at a time. Don’t worry about what happens tomorrow, just get into the rhythm of today. Only today. It is all that matters.

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

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April 26Apr 26

3 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
i feel so unsafe 24/7

There's a difference between feeling unsafe and being unsafe. As @Fullhealing just said, nothing physically dangerous is happening to you. Your anxious mind is telling you something is wrong so your body is reacting. Using distraction to redirect your thoughts will allow your body to get out of the anxiety loop. I know how dreadful the feeling is, but giving yourself some time, using distraction, and practicing acceptance and self-forgiveness will work.

Started Paxil for GAD in 1999

Unsuccessful taper attempt in 2006

Paxilprogress helped with a successful taper completed in 2009

Using therapy and CBT to manage my anxiety

I offer advice based on my experience. Nothing I share is intended to be medical or therapy advice.

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April 26Apr 26

5 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
i know but i just cant handle it anymore... not trying to be negative but im exhausted mentally and i feel so unsafe 24/7

13 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
i know but i just cant handle it anymore... not trying to be negative but im exhausted mentally and i feel so unsafe 24/7

You can handle a lot more than you think, believe me @caitlinnathanie

And stories, for every bad there's good but your mind will obviously wander to the most horrific, irrelevant anyway, you are in your own story and you are coping great, just keep going and it will get better.

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.

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April 26Apr 26

@caitlinnathanie if you haven't already please look at the coping strategies section and watch the video on EFT (tapping). I find it helpful.

November 2024 Elvanse for ADHD. Anxiety and jaw clenching, stopped after 4 weeks. Felt fine.

January 2025 Medikinet XL

Made me depressed and suicidal so stopped after 3 weeks. Felt fine

March 2025 Concerta XL Made me depressed and suicidal so stopped after 2 weeks. Felt fine

April-May 2025 Amfexa and Methylphenidate instant release, both only worked for an hour so stopped. Felt fine.

June 2025 Atomoxetine started slow taper. Immediate hot flushing and feeling sluggish.

July-September 2025 Tapered up to 70mg Atomoxetine. Constipation, insomnia, muscle spasms, weird thoughts, mood swings, night sweats, hot flushes, brain fog, dizziness etc

October 2025 rapid taper off Atomoxetine. I also had a GA for shoulder surgery the same week I finished meds.

Ongoing symptoms ever since, but now also trouble swallowing, difficulty passing urine, muscle twitches, depersonalisation, heavy limbs, emotional blunting, apathy, feeling "wired" and robotic, PGAD.

New symptoms February 2026: Nausea and burning head

Supplements: B12, folate and Vit D as all were bordering on deficient.

Bad reactions to CBD oil, Mag glycinate, Mag L.Threonate and Fish Oil

April 26Apr 26

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hi guys small update something happened like an hour ago i feel even more out of my body and out of reality. did not even know this was possible im screaming and crying i genuinely cant take it anymore im so sorry to say this again bt i just cant this is way too much its literal torture its getting so so bad cant even speak anymore its getting so bad guys i cant

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 26Apr 26

Author

my parents are gonna force me to take meds because im so bad right now bc i litrally can not feel my body anymore, i feel like death. i can not even walk to the toilet anymore guys idk what to do anymore i tried the coping things u said and the grounding

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 26Apr 26

@caitlinnathanie you are doing your best. Sometimes the coping skills don’t help when this acute. You won’t be this bad always. It’s so good you have the support of your family around you. It’s really important your family try to understand what has happened to you. They will want to protect and support you. This is natural, they need to understand that the additional drugs are not your friend. Sounds terrible I know. They just need to be there for you and stay strong for you.

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

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April 26Apr 26

@caitlinnathanie Have a look at the letter of Angie Peacock. You can printed it and give it to your family.

For ALL : PLEASE if it's not already done: go go gooo to see the channel and specially the "your healing journey (I,II III, IV)" videos of Angie Peacock ! protein bars of hope.

Edited April 26Apr 26 by poulette38

About 1 week of st John's wort

then

20-25 october 2025 : escitalopram 10mg (liquid)

18 november- 9 december 2025 : Fluoxétine 20 mg (liquid, 10 ml) - 2 days at 30 mg then return to 20 mg because of side effects.

Stop everything on 9th december 2025 (last dose 2mg 9th december).

in parallel prazepam drops (3 to 13 drops at the evening), on november 2025.

"The devil is a liar and he's smiling." 😈

🌸"The flower that blossoms in adversity is the most beautiful and rare of all." 🌸

"Do not take life quite so seriously – you surely will never get out of it alive". Bernard Le Bovier de Fontenelle. ✨️

April 26Apr 26

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2 minutes ago, poulette38 said:
@caitlinnathanie Have a look at the letter of Angie Peacock. You can printed it and give it to your family.
For ALL : PLEASE if it's not already done: go go gooo to see the channel and specially the "your healing journey (I,II III, IV)" videos of Angie Peacock ! Bars proteins of hope.

where can i find this letter?

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 26Apr 26

5 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
where can i find this letter?

https://antidepressantrecovery.org/topic/149-family-and-friends-just-don%E2%80%99t-get-it-letter-from-angie/

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

April 26Apr 26

9 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
Où puis-je trouver cette lettre ?

Here : https://antidepressantrecovery.org/topic/149-family-and-friends-just-don%E2%80%99t-get-it-letter-from-angie/#comment-11242

About 1 week of st John's wort

then

20-25 october 2025 : escitalopram 10mg (liquid)

18 november- 9 december 2025 : Fluoxétine 20 mg (liquid, 10 ml) - 2 days at 30 mg then return to 20 mg because of side effects.

Stop everything on 9th december 2025 (last dose 2mg 9th december).

in parallel prazepam drops (3 to 13 drops at the evening), on november 2025.

"The devil is a liar and he's smiling." 😈

🌸"The flower that blossoms in adversity is the most beautiful and rare of all." 🌸

"Do not take life quite so seriously – you surely will never get out of it alive". Bernard Le Bovier de Fontenelle. ✨️

April 26Apr 26

1 hour ago, caitlinnathanie said:
my parents are gonna force me to take meds because im so bad right now bc i litrally can not feel my body anymore, i feel like death. i can not even walk to the toilet anymore guys idk what to do anymore i tried the coping things u said and the grounding

This is a big problem that many face @caitlinnathanie I guess they have any clue about this process and so despite their good intentions they speak out of ignorance.

Try sharing content with them from here, SA, YouTube, there are many like Angie Peacock, Joanna, Melissa, etc.

This is an excellent video by Melissa that can give you an idea of what happening as well as unrealistic expectations, dealing with pain ect:

Edited April 26Apr 26 by Fullhealing

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.

April 26Apr 26

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6 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:
This is a big problem that many face @caitlinnathanie I guess they have any clue about this process and so despite their good intentions they speak out of ignorance.
Try sharing content with them from here, SA, YouTube, there are many like Angie Peacock, Joanna, Melissa, etc.
This is an excellent video by Melissa that can give you an idea of what happening as well as unrealistic expectations, dealing with pain ect:

they say they only listen to the doctor who studied for it and not video's or like experienced people without a degree.

This is what they tell me,

Right now i can not feel anything anymore, im completely out of reality and body and im losing myself. I genuinely can NOT handle it anymore even if someone is here psychically with me it is unbearable im losing myself!

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 26Apr 26

Author

pls guys its getting really really bad today i tried to calm myself then whole day and all of a sudden it is sooo bad i cant even functiom im crying and screaming i feeel sooooo far away from my body and reality pls i genuinely cant do it anymore

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 26Apr 26

1 minute ago, caitlinnathanie said:
pls guys its getting really really bad today i tried to calm myself then whole day and all of a sudden it is sooo bad i cant even functiom im crying and screaming i feeel sooooo far away from my body and reality pls i genuinely cant do it anymore

Hang on @caitlinnathanie I know it's brutal, im truly sorry but you can handle it!

Try to distract yourself with the links we send you, go outdoors a bit, all helps.

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.

April 26Apr 26

Author

6 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:
Hang on @caitlinnathanie I know it's brutal, im truly sorry but you can handle it!
Try to distract yourself with the links we send you, go outdoors a bit, all helps.

i genuinely cant go outdoors i cant even leave my bed :(( im genuinely terrified for my life bc i can not go like this any longer

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 26Apr 26

You need to calm your body and mind. Take in a breath through your nose for five seconds and then breathe out through your mouth for five seconds. Repeat an affirming mantra like "I am safe" while you're doing it. If you can find some mind-calming music on YouTube or elsewhere, play it softly in the background. Let yourself slow down instead of identifying with the racing thoughts.

Started Paxil for GAD in 1999

Unsuccessful taper attempt in 2006

Paxilprogress helped with a successful taper completed in 2009

Using therapy and CBT to manage my anxiety

I offer advice based on my experience. Nothing I share is intended to be medical or therapy advice.

April 26Apr 26

5 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
i genuinely cant go outdoors i cant even leave my bed :(( im genuinely terrified for my life bc i can not go like this any longer

Sending you a big comforting hug and tell you that you can do it! @caitlinnathanie In the meantime, click on the link and put it in the background with all your racing thoughts, I did and still do in tsunamis, it goes in even if it sounds like gibberish.

Remember this is temporary and will pass.xxxx

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.

April 26Apr 26

Author

2 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:
Sending you a big comforting hug and tell you that you can do it! @caitlinnathanie In the meantime, click on the link and put it in the background with all your racing thoughts, I did and still do in tsunamis, it goes in even if it sounds like gibberish.
Remember this is temporary and will pass.xxxx

can u resend the link and the links to the tips to distract myself can u send it all in one thing so i can save it im in a attack and cant look back etc. :( ty so much guys

December bupropion 1 week

January started Fluoxetine 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks 10 mg then started to get dpdr and panic attacks, they gave me 20 mg for another week i think and then i got really bad panic attacks and dpdr and then 3 days 10 mg and then i needed to quit.

Oxazepam 3 days for adrenaline

quetiapine 1 day - made me feel bad so i only took it once.

lorazepam 1 day - got panic bc of the feeling of sedating

Stopped everything 2 months ago, now i have severe dpdr because i was so scared, had a week long panic attacks the whole day every day crying that im gonna die because of feeling of adrenaline and dpdr and I felt really bad. Went to the er a lot of times, healthy. Now I can not get out of bed because of severe dpdr, can not recognize myself at all and im every day more scared.

April 26Apr 26

13 minutes ago, caitlinnathanie said:
can u resend the link and the links to the tips to distract myself can u send it all in one thing so i can save it im in a attack and cant look back etc. :( ty so much guys

I don't know where the second link came from, just click and save it wherever you like and put it in the background, there are a few more that I think will help calm you down, I'll send them later (:

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.

April 26Apr 26

This is a documentary produced by the BBC....it features numerous doctors... specifically Mark Horowitz, who has lived through withdrawal and made it his life's work to educate people about the dangers of these drugs. Please get your family to watch this:

https://rumble.com/v2wlt7g-the-antidepressant-story-bbc-panorama-documentary.html

I am not a medical professional. My comments are based on my personal experience and information on SA.

Paroxetine-2002 onward-20mg/ Citalopram-2007-20 mg-straight switch from paroxetine-back to paroxetine after a month/ Sertraline -25 mg-Dec 2016- given for a month instead of paroxetine (doctor mistake) Oxazepam -10 mg-2016-twice weekly for a couple months for sleep/ Zopiclone -3.75-7.5mg-2020-2022-once a week for sleep/Paroxetine -20 yr+/ Dec2018-May 2022 20 mg/ May 2022 30mg/2022.07.28-2022.08.24 30mg to 0mg/ Prozac-10mg August 24-29 2022/Paroxetine -5mg-2022.11.28-2022.12.04/10mg-Dec 5&6/22/ Prozac-10mg-Dec 8&9/22/Paroxetine -5mg-2022.12.07 to 2023.07.01

TAPER-Paroxetine-2023-Jul 2-4.9mg/ Jul 21-4.8mg/Jul 28-4.73mg/Aug 4-4.65mg /Sep 21-4.58 mg/Oct 27-4.56 mg/Dec 5-4.54 mg/2024-Jan 2-4.52 mg/Jan 9-4.51 mg/Jan 17-4.49 mg/Jan 26-4.47mg/Feb 6-4.46mg/Feb 19-4.44mg /Apr 4-4.43mg/Apr 28-4.4 mg/May 5-4.39 mg/May 19-4.36 mg/Jul 2-4.34 mg/Jul 9-4.32mg/Jul 31-4.3 mg/Oct 1-4.29mg/Nov 27-4.25 mg/Dec 5-4.22mg/2025-Jan 5-4.17mg/Feb 2-4.1mg/Mar 7-4.07mg/Apr 23-4.04mg/May 23-4mg/Jun 22-3.99mg/Jun 30-3.95mg/Jul 18-3.92mg/Sep 25-3.9mg/2026-Mar 25-3.85mg

9am-paroxetine, 200mg mag bisglycinate/75 mg DGL if needed for refux/150 mg calcium citrate/algae oil for omega 3/ginger 400 mg as needed for nausea

"... your strength will be in keeping calm..."-Isaiah 30:15

April 27Apr 27

8 hours ago, caitlinnathanie said:
they say they only listen to the doctor who studied for it and not video's or like experienced people without a degree.
This is what they tell me,
Right now i can not feel anything anymore, im completely out of reality and body and im losing myself. I genuinely can NOT handle it anymore even if someone is here psychically with me it is unbearable im losing myself!

I know. It is reasonable to trust these people on principle, but the reality is, they simply don’t know enough. I say that with great confidence, as someone who felt the same as your parents before I got injured. It opens your eyes to the reality. You should maybe let them know in the uk the harms of these medications are being properly understood. Perhaps show them Mark Horowitzs videos. He is a doctor, works in the NHS in the uk, and he gets it, he’s been through this himself.

Thinking of you. Remember you are actually doing incredibly, in what is very trying times. You can and will get through this!

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

April 27Apr 27

How are you holding up? @caitlinnathanie

Here is some videos from a medical and personal perspective that might be helpful for your family and you (many more on YouTube with a quick search).

Dr Joseph:

Dr. Horowitz & Angie Peacock:

Dr. Joseph & Angie peacock:

1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*

Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawal

Many attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)

Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:

6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA

9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues

10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control

11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.

12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).

2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)

2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)

Supplements:

Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.

Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.

Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.

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