Just now, SpiroC said:

@mstimc60 , was this guy Polly drugged and kindled like me ?

I can't remember but I'm sure he was. Sadly, some doctors pile on one drug after another to counteract the effects of another drug. But it really doesn't make any difference. Again, as @Chippy and I have said, do not compare your journey to anyone else's. Your suffering is unique but no worse than anyone else's. Your recovery will be unique but no more difficult or easier than anyone else's.

3 minutes ago, SpiroC said:

I cant tell you guys, every day is a struggle. Get out of bed is hard. Showering is hard. Going to work is SO hard.

I know. You’re doing so well. Just the fact you are doing those things, you should be very proud of yourself.

1 minute ago, Chippy said:

I know. You’re doing so well. Just the fact you are doing those things, you should be very proud of yourself.

I'll second that. You are stronger than you think!

@Chippy @mstimc60 - also wanted to ask , why are mornings and afternoons so hard and then evenings it’s like 10% better ?

Just now, SpiroC said:

@Chippy @mstimc60 - also wanted to ask , why are mornings and afternoons so hard and then evenings it’s like 10% better ?

That's very common and perfectly natural. Its about our body clocks and hormone levels. Our bodies give us a burst of cortisol in the morning to wake us up. When our nervous systems are already hyper-alerted, that extra cortisol feeds our anxiety. Acceptance can help with that because you know its coming and it will fade. Don't fight it--that just gives the feelings more power.

@Chippy @mstimc60 do you think that I’m making myself worse by constantly thinking and reading and researching about it?

1 minute ago, SpiroC said:

@Chippy @mstimc60 do you think that I’m making myself worse by constantly thinking and reading and researching about it?

Absolutely not! You heal regardless of what you do. It’s very natural to look into wd and learn more, especially early on. I did the same thing. If it brings you comfort than that’s fine, it did me for a while until I tired of it. If you think it stresses you out, then it it’s time to distract yourself with other things.

Just now, SpiroC said:

@Chippy @mstimc60 do you think that I’m making myself worse by constantly thinking and reading and researching about it?

Very admirable that you ask that question!
When I was in WD, I had terrible health anxiety. I was constantly researching supposed symptoms. When you research a symptom, the worst possible thing will come up first. Then I'd run to my doctor who'd tell me it was, at most, something minor (or usually nothing at all). When I got home and looked up the more mundane explanation, I'd see just how common it was. I finally learned to stop the obsessive research. Our anxious minds find what they want to find, and its usually the worst possible thing. As @Chippy said, it depends how you approach it and if it helps. Your WD and recovery are uniquely yours. Just know thousands have been on the same journey and have recovered, as you will.

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3 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

As @Chippy said, it depends how you approach it and if it helps. Your WD and recovery are uniquely yours. Just know thousands have been on the same journey and have recovered, as you will.

@SpiroC Exactly. I think a lot depends on the individual. If you find the videos and research triggering, and you think you are over focused on your symptoms this may be an unhealthy thing. If you are just engaged in the community and gaining support comfort and advocacy through your time then I think it can be really helpful. Some find the forum very supportive whilst others only come on every month to give an update. We are all different.

Hey guys , @Chippy @Luke - what about brain fog and depersonalization.. Does that heal ? Can I heal on meds?

1 minute ago, SpiroC said:

Hey guys , @Chippy @Luke - what about brain fog and depersonalization.. Does that heal ? Can I heal on meds?

Hey @SpiroC Yes time heals the wide and full range of wd, even whilst still on the drugs healing is happening.

As @Chippy said, yes to both. Stabilising on drugs can look different for everybody, but symptoms like those easing can and does happen whilst taking a stable dose of psychiatric drugs for those who do manage to stabilise.

Hey @SpiroC im stopping by to thank you for your support, kind words and encouragement. I am so very sorry this has happened to us and so many other people. I envy you for being able to function. Im happy to see you able to work. Keep it up. You can message me if you’re open to it. Thanks again

Hey Team,

I wanted to ask about some strange mental symptoms I’m having.

It’s very hard to explain it but since I dissociated / split in January - I’ve had this constant feeling of being like I’m not inside my mind. Like I know im here living and breathing and trying to survive but on the other hand I feel like almost like I’m living from my head and not my body ?

Does this make sense to anyone ? I know the overwhelming answer will be DPDR but is that really what it is ?

On another note in the month of April I dropped my clonazepam by 1mg taking 0.5 twice a day to 0.375 one dose at night.

9 minutes ago, SpiroC said:

Hey Team,

I wanted to ask about some strange mental symptoms I’m having.

It’s very hard to explain it but since I dissociated / split in January - I’ve had this constant feeling of being like I’m not inside my mind. Like I know im here living and breathing and trying to survive but on the other hand I feel like almost like I’m living from my head and not my body ?

Does this make sense to anyone ? I know the overwhelming answer will be DPDR but is that really what it is ?

Hi @SpiroC Yes we have had members who have these symptoms.

9 minutes ago, SpiroC said:

On another note in the month of April I dropped my clonazepam by 1mg taking 0.5 twice a day to 0.375 one dose at night.

Can I ask why you reduced your dose? I thought your plan was to hold and wait for some stablity, then decide what to do with your doses?

This was a big drop in dose, some can manage large cuts of a benzos, some can not, your nervous system is anything other than stable from what I understand, so it was a bit of a risk.

Also Clonazepam should really be dosed twice a day as you were doing, especially when tapering and at lower doses.

Hi @Chippy - to be honest I was afraid of being on such a high dose for to long. I haven’t touched anything else since April.

@Chippy , why do you recommend twice a day is Klonopin has a 50hr half life ?

41 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Hi @SpiroC Yes we have had members who have these symptoms.

Do these symptoms ever go away ? Like I’m scared my brain has permanently broken. Would you put this under the category of dpdr ?

1 minute ago, SpiroC said:

Do these symptoms ever go away ? Like I’m scared my brain has permanently broken. Would you put this under the category of dpdr ?

All symptoms heal as you heal.

2 minutes ago, Chippy said:

All symptoms heal as you heal.

Have you seen that universally ?

4 minutes ago, SpiroC said:

@Chippy , why do you recommend twice a day is Klonopin has a 50hr half life ?

Mean Half life is 30 hours, The Manufactuer and the Maudsley Guidelines recommended 2 times a day not me!

It seems lowering the doses shortens the half life so splitting your dose when tapering is important

7 minutes ago, SpiroC said:

Hi @Chippy - to be honest I was afraid of being on such a high dose for to long. I haven’t touched anything else since April.

Sure, just reducing your dose out of the blue whilst not stable was a big move. Could cause you more issues, you should not make rash choices with your doses and make careful considered moves.

2 minutes ago, SpiroC said:

Have you seen that universally ?

Yes

3 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Sure, just reducing your dose out of the blue whilst not stable was a big move. Could cause you more issues, you should not make rash choices with your doses and make careful considered moves.

Ok that’s my bad, so what should I do now? I’ve been at this dose for over a month now