1 hour ago, EDP6893 said:

Had 3 good days in a row (it still hurts a lot but no needing to go to the toilet every hour or more). I wonder if I'll reach a new mile stone with the amount of good days or if it will suddenly go back again.

Great. It seems that you are getting longer windows. You are doing fine. It is also possible that it can go back. Remember! Healing is nonlinear. One step forward, two step back , longer windows and shorter waves

1 hour ago, EDP6893 said:

Had 3 good days in a row (it still hurts a lot but no needing to go to the toilet every hour or more). I wonder if I'll reach a new mile stone with the amount of good days or if it will suddenly go back again.

Excellent @EDP6893 although so sorry you still have pain but as you are present things are slowly balancing out.

Enjoy the good moments without too many expectations since this process is unpredictable..

Very bad news. Diagnosed with diabetes. Still no solutions found for my binge eating disorder. Everything will keep getting worse if I cannot find alternatives to the take aways and fast food. I have autism and I barely like anything. No help available.

29 minutes ago, EDP6893 said:

Very bad news. Diagnosed with diabetes. Still no solutions found for my binge eating disorder. Everything will keep getting worse if I cannot find alternatives to the take aways and fast food. I have autism and I barely like anything. No help available.

Sorry to hear that @EDP6893 but you will have to make a dietary change with this diagnosis.

What do you mean by no alternative?

Edited May 6May 6 by Fullhealing

18 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Sorry to hear that @EDP6893 but you will have to make a dietary change when you are diabetic.

What do you mean by no alternative?

No foods I can cope with other than the take aways.

I cannot make dietary changes if I hate the food.

6 minutes ago, EDP6893 said:

No foods I can cope with other than the take aways.

I cannot make dietary changes if I hate the food.

I find it hard to believe that you hate all foods except junk food. In any case, you will have to change your diet. You can certainly learn to get used to other foods that are just as healthy and delicious.

@EDP6893 @Fullhealing is right. It’s important you change your diet now. Try to think of food as fuel. Rather than something to like or dislike. If you say you can’t. You won’t. But if you say you can, you’ll be amazed what you can achieve. We are right there with you. You’ve got this!

1 hour ago, Fullhealing said:

I find it hard to believe that you hate all foods except junk food. In any case, you will have to change your diet. You can certainly learn to get used to other foods that are just as healthy and delicious.

Not all foods I like are junk food but there's very little options. None of them as healthy as fruit and vegetables. I have tried countless times to like things like them. Still hate them. I will never "get used" to the because it's part of my autism and sensory processing that makes me dislike them and autism is permanent.

56 minutes ago, Chippy said:

@EDP6893 @Fullhealing is right. It’s important you change your diet now. Try to think of food as fuel. Rather than something to like or dislike. If you say you can’t. You won’t. But if you say you can, you’ll be amazed what you can achieve. We are right there with you. You’ve got this!

I have been trying for over 10 years but like you two nobody believes me. I've been told by countless people to "just do it" over and over again. Restrict my diet. Don't eat so much. Etc, etc...Not one person caring how I feel and how I need food to cope mentally because I have nothing else. Not one person caring that I have tried many times to stop the take aways and it never works. Even the adult eating disorder team refused to help me because they said my binge eating was "a coping mechanism" and somehow that means I don't deserve help. I cannot help what I like and dislike. Consequences will not change that. I'd rather die than give up all the food I love. If there are no valid alternatives that are healthier and also taste good then I'd rather die.

I've been building up a list over the last few months out of desperation to try and fix this, yet again.

/////Good meals

Weetos

Krave

Grinster's cheese and onion pasty

Spaghetti and bolognaise

Small pizzas

Roast dinner

Chicken korma curry

Meatballs and pasta sauce

Spaghetti and meatballs

Water melon (in places like turkey where it tastes different)

Popeyes Chicken nuggets

Popeyes Chips

Dominos pizza

Dominos garlic pizza bread

Dominos Cadbury cream egg cookies

Ben and jerries

Cheese burgers

Beer battered fish and chips

Tesco finest beer battered chips

//good drinks

cold water on a hot day

sprite zero

coke zero

decaf coffee

//good snacks

Lemonade lolly

Space raiders

Tunnocks teacakes

Cookies

Mr kipling cakes

Muller light choc pots caramel and chocolate

/////Gross Food

Fruits

Vegetables

Salmon

Squid

Steak

Jelly

Purée

Quiesce

Super market chips

Pizza express pizzas

Tesco pizzas

Dairy dunkers

Alcohol

Mushrooms

Salad

Soup

Tesco Finest dry aged Aberdeen angus beef burgers

Edited May 6May 6 by EDP6893

I need food to cope mentally. I can't cope without food.

45 minutes ago, EDP6893 said:

I have been trying for over 10 years but like you two nobody believes me.

Oh I believe you!

45 minutes ago, EDP6893 said:

I've been building up a list over the last few months out of desperation to try and fix this, yet again.

I think this list here proves how much work you’ve already put into improving things for yourself. It’s commendable. I would keep this up! Find things that are better for you that you can tolerate and use them to avoid/distract you from the things that are bad for you.

The better you eat, the easier it will become to eat well. Sugar for example is an addiction and it takes a little time, a smidge of will power and a plan to start to remove some of it from your diet. But you can do these things. You’ve proven it by writing this list! Good effort. Just keep pushing forwards. You owe yourself it! You’ll be proud when you look back!

14 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Oh I believe you!

I think this list here proves how much work you’ve already put into improving things for yourself. It’s commendable. I would keep this up! Find things that are better for you that you can tolerate and use them to avoid/distract you from the things that are bad for you.

The better you eat, the easier it will become to eat well. Sugar for example is an addiction and it takes a little time, a smidge of will power and a plan to start to remove some of it from your diet. But you can do these things. You’ve proven it by writing this list! Good effort. Just keep pushing forwards. You owe yourself it! You’ll be proud when you look back!

I also had 6 days in a row that was a window. Today is a wave again.

6 minutes ago, EDP6893 said:

I also had 6 days in a row that was a window. Today is a wave again.

This is such good news. 6 days is wonderful to hear about.

Have you thought about using an app to help track your calories? I found it useful when I wanted to loose some weight, maybe turns it into a bit of a game too. Just a thought.

1 hour ago, EDP6893 said:

I need food to cope mentally. I can't cope without food.

I probably not telling you anything new here, but an eating disorder, like other addictions, although it's the hardest as it can't be completely avoided, is all based on a powerful, wrong thought that food can solve you from unwanted feelings and the false sense of control that it provides. a very strong illusion of which you can see, works the other way around, not only do you still feel everything there's the addition of guilt that come with it which keeps you in a constant loop. I come from this background and there is always the possibility of recovery, but it requires a lot of internal self-work that I fully believe you are capable of doing, food, as primary as it may feel, is actually secondary, and yet the change has to come from both aspects together.

It seems like you are doing your best to deal with it, which is very appreciated, but I know it is very difficult alone. I had support for years until I completely recovered. I wonder if you have someone in the background who support you with this?

@EDP6893 I do believe you’re suffering, and I don’t think people understand how consuming binge eating can become. Food absolutely can become a coping mechanism and it’s brutal when your brain convinces you it’s the only thing keeping you going.

But I also don’t think the answer is that you’re beyond help or doomed forever. Eating disorders tell us things are impossible when they’re actually just extremely hard. I’ve struggled with compulsive overeating myself all my life, so I understand the pull toward certain foods and the comfort that delivery and “junk food” can bring. Even though my eating disorder is under control now, that doesn’t mean the drive for food or the desire completely disappeared. I’ve just learned healthier ways to manage it over time.

You don’t have to suddenly love salads or completely give up every food you enjoy. But diabetes is serious, and it sounds like you need more support than people simply saying “just try harder.” A doctor who understands binge eating and autism might be able to help, including discussing GLP-1 medications or other treatment options.

I think people here are trying to encourage you, not judge you. I also don’t want you to feel pressured or confronted, so I probably won’t bring it up again after this. I just wanted to say I don’t think you’re hopeless, even if it feels that way right now.

Edited May 6May 6 by RachelSusan
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@EDP6893 I’ve been thinking more about what I said regarding GLP-1 medications, and I do think this probably isn’t something to rush into while you’re still in withdrawal. These medications can affect people very differently, and while they can help some people with binge eating and diabetes, they can also be hard on an already sensitive nervous system. They also slow stomach emptying, which can potentially affect how other medications are absorbed. It’s definitely something that would need careful monitoring and discussion with a doctor familiar with both withdrawal and eating disorders. Maybe it’s something to keep in mind for further down the line once you’re through withdrawal and more stable.

17 hours ago, Chippy said:

This is such good news. 6 days is wonderful to hear about.

Have you thought about using an app to help track your calories? I found it useful when I wanted to loose some weight, maybe turns it into a bit of a game too. Just a thought.

I used to but it became so stressful obsessing over my calories and weight, and it made my eating worse overall.

1 minute ago, EDP6893 said:

I used to but it became so stressful obsessing over my calories and weight, and it made my eating worse overall.

Ok, well at least you gave it a go. Don't give up will you. You can do it. Failure is all part of succeeding, it is not really failing, it is more learning, and part of the process.

17 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

I probably not telling you anything new here, but an eating disorder, like other addictions, although it's the hardest as it can't be completely avoided, is all based on a powerful, wrong thought that food can solve you from unwanted feelings and the false sense of control that it provides. a very strong illusion of which you can see, works the other way around, not only do you still feel everything there's the addition of guilt that come with it which keeps you in a constant loop. I come from this background and there is always the possibility of recovery, but it requires a lot of internal self-work that I fully believe you are capable of doing, food, as primary as it may feel, is actually secondary, and yet the change has to come from both aspects together.

It seems like you are doing your best to deal with it, which is very appreciated, but I know it is very difficult alone. I had support for years until I completely recovered. I wonder if you have someone in the background who support you with this?

I don't know. I do like the taste of dominos but sometimes I order them and I don't feel good I feel like I'm on auto pilot.

I have a private therapist I pay for. 50 mins a week. That's it unfortunately. It's also really expensive for me as I get about £1200 a month from disability benefits (UC & PIP) and the therapist takes up almost £400 a month. My mum takes some too to pay for my carers. Then there's all my bills and needing to pay for food shopping. Combine this with how bad my binge eating is and take away addiction and I run out of money every month.

Edited May 7May 7 by EDP6893

16 hours ago, RachelSusan said:

@EDP6893 I do believe you’re suffering, and I don’t think people understand how consuming binge eating can become. Food absolutely can become a coping mechanism and it’s brutal when your brain convinces you it’s the only thing keeping you going.

But I also don’t think the answer is that you’re beyond help or doomed forever. Eating disorders tell us things are impossible when they’re actually just extremely hard. I’ve struggled with compulsive overeating myself all my life, so I understand the pull toward certain foods and the comfort that delivery and “junk food” can bring. Even though my eating disorder is under control now, that doesn’t mean the drive for food or the desire completely disappeared. I’ve just learned healthier ways to manage it over time.

You don’t have to suddenly love salads or completely give up every food you enjoy. But diabetes is serious, and it sounds like you need more support than people simply saying “just try harder.” A doctor who understands binge eating and autism might be able to help, including discussing GLP-1 medications or other treatment options.

I think people here are trying to encourage you, not judge you. I also don’t want you to feel pressured or confronted, so I probably won’t bring it up again after this. I just wanted to say I don’t think you’re hopeless, even if it feels that way right now.

I might have something called ARFID but I'm not sure. I just have very restrictive tastes because of my autism.

I don't want to risk gpl1 medications as they cause nausea and I already have severe nausea from my functional reflux. But you're right I do need a lot more support. I don't want to give up foods I love such as pizzas and cheese burgers. Barely anything makes me feel happy, including most foods, so I feel trapped.

I used to have a stronger coping mechanism with video games, but because of greed my favourite hobby I grew up with has been almost completely ruined. The genres I enjoyed don't get made anymore (maybe once a decade if you're lucky), games take about 4-10 years when they used to come out almost every year (all for things like realistic graphics and open worlds which don't interest me), and they cost so much to make that even a single failure will close a studio.

Edited May 7May 7 by EDP6893

34 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Ok, well at least you gave it a go. Don't give up will you. You can do it. Failure is all part of succeeding, it is not really failing, it is more learning, and part of the process.

I found weighing myself on the scales always made me binge afterwards.

I hope I can find more foods I like. I don't want to believe that it's hopeless and there's nothing left.

1 minute ago, EDP6893 said:

I found weighing myself on the scales always made me binge afterwards.

I hope I can find more foods I like. I don't want to believe that it's hopeless and there's nothing left.

I don’t think it is hopeless. Just keep at it making improvements until you have it more where you need it to be. You’ve got this.

48 minutes ago, Chippy said:

I don’t think it is hopeless. Just keep at it making improvements until you have it more where you need it to be. You’ve got this.

I hope you're right....

@EDP6893

3 hours ago, EDP6893 said:

The genres I enjoyed don't get made anymore (maybe once a decade if you're lucky), games take about 4-10 years when they used to come out almost every year (all for things like realistic graphics and open worlds which don't interest me), and they cost so much to make that even a single failure will close a studio.

I actually think you make a good point here. It does seem like a lot of things now are made to be bigger, more expensive, and more visually impressive, while some of the simpler things people genuinely enjoyed seem to get pushed aside.

One thing I will say is that I think you’re very observant and thoughtful about the things you enjoy. A lot of people just go along with whatever is popular, but you seem very aware of what actually brings you comfort and enjoyment.

I also hope you don’t completely give up on finding games, hobbies, online communities, or other interests you can connect with. Sometimes the things we end up enjoying most are the ones we weren’t even expecting to come across.

44 minutes ago, EDP6893 said:

I don't know. I do like the taste of dominos but sometimes I order them and I don't feel good I feel like I'm on auto pilot.

I have a private therapist I pay for. 50 mins a week. That's it unfortunately. It's also really expensive for me as I get about £1200 a month from disability benefits (UC & PIP) and the therapist takes up almost £400 a month. My mum takes some too to pay for my carers. Then there's all my bills and needing to pay for food shopping. Combine this with how bad my binge eating is and take away addiction and I run out of money every month.

It's very hard work learning to break this vicious cycle let alone while the system is still struggling a lot to balance, well done for trying.

Adding a link to an online coaching therapy that might interest you, it was a huge help in my active days.

all the coaches there are recoverd addicts which provides different understanding that is hard to find elsewhere.

weekly talk for $300 per month, good price.

https://bingecode.com/work-with-a-coach/

Keep fighting the good fight, you have tremendous strengths and abilities that may not be felt atm but always there.

Edited May 7May 7 by Fullhealing