10 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

You can find whatever you want on the Internet. I can send you proof there are Lizard People living in an underground empire beneath downtown Los Angeles. You've got a whole community of people here to support you no matter what happens. When you celebrate the good days, it makes it less likely the bad days will affect you as badly as they might. You're going to get through this!

Your absoluleltly right and thank you I guess I'm worried of progression of worsening rather than healing. But I know yoyr right and thank you

One day at a time--that's all you need to focus on. You're doing great!

6 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

One day at a time--that's all you need to focus on. You're doing great!

Thank you I really hope I'm doing great lol. I am starting to handle this all slightly better, I jsut felt so certain I'd be the worst scenerio. Thank you it means alot yoy talk to me

21 hours ago, Chippy said:

Sounds like you’re fit and healthy, just need some more sunshine.

Good reason to reduce your meds at some point. 😀

Good news it's month 2 back on the med 20mg and well it's quite predictable now it peaks around 3 to 5 after I take the med which causes some brain fog and anxiety but it calms around 7. Mornings are fine and my suicide ideation is finally gone now and it hasn't been back in like id say a week I'm just finally relaxing and laughing. I'm not perfect but also the tiny stings in my body that were their also have calmed down too. Also sleep is still stiching more so that's good. I'm able to more in control again and it feels great I'm not perfect as I said but I'm beginning to heal. Tho I still have Tummy troubles but that's not new with my body lmao.

1 minute ago, Jacky Rose said:

Good news it's month 2 back on the med 20mg and well it's quite predictable now it peaks around 3 to 5 after I take the med which causes some brain fog and anxiety but it calms around 7. Mornings are fine and my suicide ideation is finally gone now and it hasn't been back in like id say a week I'm just finally relaxing and laughing. I'm not perfect but also the tiny stings in my body that were their also have calmed down too. Also sleep is still stiching more so that's good. I'm able to more in control again and it feels great I'm not perfect as I said but I'm beginning to heal. Tho I still have Tummy troubles but that's not new with my body lmao.

So happy to hear! 😀

Ok so update time (please read)

Mentally I've been feeling GREAT and the like stings in my body have dramtically calmed down along with the humming in my legs and like alot less brain fog and my sleep has basically fully healed back and no more doom thoughts of dying and I don't cry nearly as much or even at all. And I'm laughing and having a blast. But today my left eye blood vessel popped and scared the shit outta me and made me realize these past few months I've have left body issues like left shoulder neck pain and left leg joint being stiff or clunky more like it and like this muscle on the top of my foot sometimes feels tight and my left arm joint feels off and I've been getting the under nerve compression at night that makes my ring finger and pinky go numb for abit and my left eye feels less strong than the right and I'm scared this will progress into me becoming brain dead or like unable to do anything or total numbness or something I'm very scared. I worry it may be Peripheral Neuropathy and if so I worry it will progress to me not being able to think. I'm so terrfied rn bc all this

Hi @Jacky Rose Your fear goes to what I may have mentioned before. Its all driven by your anxiety looking for a place to land. You're doing what my therapist called "scanning" ; because there is a constant level of background anxiety, as soon as you resolve one thing, your mind starts looking for something else to worry about. Last week, you thought you'd never get better mentally. Now you're afraid you have serious physical problems that will get worse. Your anxious mind is just looking for something new to keep you locked in fear. Anxiety can cause all sorts of physical problems, especially numbness and tingling. When you're anxious, your body tenses up and that can cause muscle pain and stiffness. Unless you have other symptoms of illness, and unless they are persistent, its highly unlikely you have anything serious. If you focus on calming and acceptance techniques, I think you'll find your fears and your symptoms will fade.

10 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

Hi @Jacky Rose Your fear goes to what I may have mentioned before. Its all driven by your anxiety looking for a place to land. You're doing what my therapist called "scanning" ; because there is a constant level of background anxiety, as soon as you resolve one thing, your mind starts looking for something else to worry about. Last week, you thought you'd never get better mentally. Now you're afraid you have serious physical problems that will get worse. Your anxious mind is just looking for something new to keep you locked in fear. Anxiety can cause all sorts of physical problems, especially numbness and tingling. When you're anxious, your body tenses up and that can cause muscle pain and stiffness. Unless you have other symptoms of illness, and unless they are persistent, its highly unlikely you have anything serious. If you focus on calming and acceptance techniques, I think you'll find your fears and your symptoms will fade.

I just get so scared im getting worse ive never had a broken blood vessel in the eye and im scared my entire left side will becoming unable and this will become permeant and I've been doing great with my anxiety lately this just scared me im worried

On 4/23/2026 at 12:31 PM, Chippy said:

So happy to hear! 😀

I dont mean to be a bother but could yoy check my recent message I put. Apologies

@Jacky Rose it sounds like to me you are doing really well. It’s not unusual to I have a blood vessel in your eye pop. Lots of normal things can cause it that are not serious. Just one of those things.

I think you may just have a tiny bit of health anxiety. Wd can cause the odd ache and pain buts it’s not proven. We all get the odd weird feeling or twinge or something. It’s kinda normal. If you focus on it, it gives it more volume and makes it worse or causes other issues to suddenly pop up.

If you have any real concerns you can of course go to the doctor. I think you did that recently and all was ok?

Remember how you dealt with your anxiety about wd before? It worked right? You should do that same thing again. It’s amazing what distraction can do. 😀

34 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

I just get so scared im getting worse ive never had a broken blood vessel in the eye and im scared my entire left side will becoming unable and this will become permeant and I've been doing great with my anxiety lately this just scared me im worried

If you don't start practicing coping

8 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

Gosh what if it is Peripheral Neuropathy I'm so terrfied of this thing evolving I've been getting these like burning sensations on my elbow the left one mostly and it comes for like a split like I'd say 1 minute and then disappears but it's not constant and I felt a cold sensation on my left knee and god I don't know what's happening I worry about if my eye a sign for worse to come

If it comes and goes its very unlikely its serious. As Chippy just said, you need to use distraction to calm yourself. Until you start practicing calming and other coping skills, your anxious mind will just keep looking for something else to worry about. Health anxiety was a huge issue for me. On blood tests, my platelet count tends to be high. I was convinced I had a rare condition called essential thrombocythemia, which sounds very scary. I ran to my doctor and he just shrugged and said some peoples' platelet count runs high. That was 20 years ago and here I am. Your objective should be calming the anxiety, and everything else will fade away.

Edited April 27Apr 27 by mstimc60

13 minutes ago, Chippy said:

@Jacky Rose it sounds like to me you are doing really well. It’s not unusual to I have a blood vessel in your eye pop. Lots of normal things can cause it that are not serious. Just one of those things.

I think you may just have a tiny bit of health anxiety. Wd can cause the odd ache and pain buts it’s not proven. We all get the odd weird feeling or twinge or something. It’s kinda normal. If you focus on it, it gives it more volume and makes it worse or causes other issues to suddenly pop up.

If you have any real concerns you can of course go to the doctor. I think you did that recently and all was ok?

Remember how you dealt with your anxiety about wd before? It worked right? You should do that same thing again. It’s amazing what distraction can do. 😀

Well they said everything looks fine blood work wise tho they want me to take vitamin d suppliment cause it's really low. Which I'm just a pil scared

Just now, Jacky Rose said:

Well they said everything looks fine blood work wise tho they want me to take vitamin d suppliment cause it's really low. Which I'm just a pil scared

Good. So nothing to worry about. 😀

If you can, try to get your vit d from sunshine and foods. We sometimes react to supplements. If you want to try them you should start low and check you are ok with them. I just avoid and do it all naturally.

23 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Good. So nothing to worry about. 😀

If you can, try to get your vit d from sunshine and foods. We sometimes react to supplements. If you want to try them you should start low and check you are ok with them. I just avoid and do it all naturally.

Well shoot now im so conflicted cause I wanna address the low vitamin d but also I don't wanna mix in a new vitamin med and they want me to take 50,000 units and im so scared. On one hand they are pretty low at like 20 but I don't wanna mess things up im mentally feeling great lately its just more the physical stuff that's acting up and I'm just scared.

13 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

Well shoot now im so conflicted cause I wanna address the low vitamin d but also I don't wanna mix in a new vitamin med and they want me to take 50,000 units and im so scared. On one hand they are pretty low at like 20 but I don't wanna mess things up im mentally feeling great lately its just more the physical stuff that's acting up and I'm just scared.

Don’t be scared! Just either try a lower amount and see how you go and build up to it. Or start getting more sunshine and look up foods that have vitamin D in them and eat more of them. Either way. Don’t get in your head about it. It’s all good. Most people are low on vit d. It’s very common.

6 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Don’t be scared! Just either try a lower amount and see how you go and build up to it. Or start getting more sunshine and look up foods that have vitamin D in them and eat more of them. Either way. Don’t get in your head about it. It’s all good. Most people are low on vit d. It’s very common.

Yeah but on the bright side besides the physical issues mentally I've felt great im barely ever get doom thinking and my deppression has gotton much better and im smiling and laugjing all the time and the brain fog dosent really peak as much after the med taken. and my sleep has fully healed. Just the vein pop scared me and made me spiral causw I do have left side issues lately and I saw the left eye and worried I was gonna slowly lose function in my left and become blind in my left eye

Just now, Jacky Rose said:

Yeah but on the bright side besides the physical issues mentally I've felt great im barely ever get doom thinking and my deppression has gotton much better and im smiling and laugjing all the time and the brain fog dosent really peak as much after the med taken. and my sleep has fully healed. Just the vein pop scared me and made me spiral causw I do have left side issues lately and I saw the left eye and worried I was gonna slowly lose function in my left and become blind in my left eye

You are doing so well I’m really pleased for you. 😀

4 minutes ago, Chippy said:

You are doing so well I’m really pleased for you. 😀

I guess I get worried im in a honey moon phase and the minute I took my mind off it something bad did happen and I'm just scared to distract myself more to later see worse symptoms show up. I know I'm probably bothering but I worry im not actually healing this is just a fluke

1 minute ago, Jacky Rose said:

I guess I get worried im in a honey moon phase and the minute I took my mind off it something bad did happen and I'm just scared to distract myself more to later see worse symptoms show up. I know I'm probably bothering but I worry im not actually healing this is just a fluke

Just gotta get back to that distraction and live some life. Don’t go back down that worry rabbit hole. It’s better up top!

1 minute ago, Jacky Rose said:

I guess I get worried im in a honey moon phase and the minute I took my mind off it something bad did happen and I'm just scared to distract myself more to later see worse symptoms show up. I know I'm probably bothering but I worry im not actually healing this is just a fluke

I was the same way--unless I worried about something enough, something bad would happen. But that's magical thinking. Things happen as they are meant to, and all the worry in the world won't change that. But you're stronger than you think, and dealing with the reality of something is always easier than dealing with wat your fearful mind creates.

Just now, Chippy said:

Just gotta get back to that distraction and live some life. Don’t go back down that worry rabbit hole. It’s better up top!

Mentally and sleep I feel great and yeah your right I guess I got worried the physical stuff is getting worse and I jsut worry. Thank yoy for being so understanding

Just now, Jacky Rose said:

Mentally and sleep I feel great and yeah your right I guess I got worried the physical stuff is getting worse and I jsut worry. Thank yoy for being so understanding

Pleasure Jackie.

16 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Pleasure Jackie.

I dont know what to do cause I think my estrogen levels might be low they hadn't checked those yet (I'm a trans women) I take 8mg Estradiol and tho that is alot to suppress it and I've taken it for years I worry since this all happened it destablized it and if it's low I'd need hormone blockers again and that could kindle me more I feel really stuck and scared they are gonna do another blood test to find out about the hormones cause I asked but im just very scared im headed toward needing a blocker that could kindle me dramatically im so scared

2 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

I dont know what to do cause I think my estrogen levels might be low they hadn't checked those yet (I'm a trans women) I take 8mg Estradiol and tho that is alot to suppress it and I've taken it for years I worry since this all happened it destablized it and if it's low I'd need hormone blockers again and that could kindle me more I feel really stuck and scared they are gonna do another blood test to find out about the hormones cause I asked but im just very scared im headed toward needing a blocker that could kindle me dramatically im so scared

See. Now you’ve put the eye issue to bed, you’ve jumped to the next problem. Same thing applies here. Don’t worry about anything. Just focus on today. Go and hang with friends or play a computer game or do what ever makes you happy. 😃

7 minutes ago, Chippy said:

See. Now you’ve put the eye issue to bed, you’ve jumped to the next problem. Same thing applies here. Don’t worry about anything. Just focus on today. Go and hang with friends or play a computer game or do what ever makes you happy. 😃

Your so right. I guess I just get scard in reality my sleep has improved ans brain fog almost all gone its just physical stuff that's worrying me rn ya know. Like shoulder neck pain and sometimes lil burn feelings but they aren't constant and plus im more active again. But thank yoy that means alot to me I mean it