@Jacky Rose you’ve had some excellent advice from @mstimc60 he is very experienced in all this and his words are excellent. 😀

Trust your body and the process. Keep your mind focussed on the day, not the past or the future, just today, there’s so much peace to be found in doing this. You will be fine. 😀

I am so sorry for your suffering @Jacky Rose but your system has undergone very sharp changes so it is not surprising that you feel this way, the beauty is that we have a wise and adaptive system and it will eventually find balance.

Your mindset is now very affected and cloudy (something we have all gone through and are still are due to the influence of these chemicals) so fear, despair and all the terrible mental salad that results from this are an integral part of the process and though there is no way to say exactly when it will balance, it will happen for sure.

In the meantime, patience and acceptance work can greatly facilitate, it is hard work but it will serve you well regardless at every stage in your life.

You are young, this is a huge advantage, your body is stronger and can absorb hard blows and know how to recover well from them.

Hang in there, we are here for you.

17 hours ago, Chippy said:

@Jacky Rose you’ve had some excellent advice from @mstimc60 he is very experienced in all this and his words are excellent. 😀

Trust your body and the process. Keep your mind focussed on the day, not the past or the future, just today, there’s so much peace to be found in doing this. You will be fine. 😀

I just hope to see improvments in the coming months ya know it's hard not to be scared of if I'll show new side effects. I have bad anxiety now and I'm scared that this will take at least 3 years ya know? And nobody is telling me other wise and I get it I know you can't say jt but I reinstated I wanna know that I won't lost my 20's I need something to look forward tok

10 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

I just hope to see improvments in the coming months ya know it's hard not to be scared of if I'll show new side effects. I have bad anxiety now and I'm scared that this will take at least 3 years ya know? And nobody is telling me other wise and I get it I know you can't say jt but I reinstated I wanna know that I won't lost my 20's I need something to look forward tok

I just everything nobody saying this takes only a year all I see is years and years of suffering and I dont know how any of you survive this. I'm not a strong women im a scared cat to the highest degree. I don't have the supper power to jsut relax I never wanted to get off this med but I accidentally did and now I don't know if I have a life to fight for

2 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

I just everything nobody saying this takes only a year all I see is years and years of suffering and I dont know how any of you survive this. I'm not a strong women im a scared cat to the highest degree. I don't have the supper power to jsut relax I never wanted to get off this med but I accidentally did and now I don't know if I have a life to fight for

Your anxiety is causing you to catastrophize things that haven't even happened yet. Everything you're afraid of is just a "what if" game playing over and over in your mind. Focusing on these "what ifs" is keeping you from practicing what you need to do to recover. Every day, every hour, every minute you spend asking yourself if you'll ever recover is time you could spend working on ways to recover. You're not too weak to get through this, but your anxious mind wants you to think you are so you stay right where you are. If you want to recover, decide that's what you're going to and start looking for ways to deal with your thoughts instead of focusing on fears you'll never get through this. Once you do that, you will be making real progress. You can do this!

6 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

Your anxiety is causing you to catastrophize things that haven't even happened yet. Everything you're afraid of is just a "what if" game playing over and over in your mind. Focusing on these "what ifs" is keeping you from practicing what you need to do to recover. Every day, every hour, every minute you spend asking yourself if you'll ever recover is time you could spend working on ways to recover. You're not too weak to get through this, but your anxious mind wants you to think you are so you stay right where you are. If you want to recover, decide that's what you're going to and start looking for ways to deal with your thoughts instead of focusing on fears you'll never get through this. Once you do that, you will be making real progress. You can do this!

I see what your saying and I understand but how do I not freak out when all I see is nobody improving. I never wanted to stop the drug so i just want to heal but how do I calm down when the side effect is anxiety and fear. Ik trying my hardest but it's hard to do that without any light in sight cause everyone says it could take years. I just wanna stablize back on this drug and never come off of it ever again. I hear yoy and I thank yoy greatly for talking with me, I hope none of what im saying comes off rude. I just wish to help communicate what im going through.

What makes you say nobody is improving? Look at the stories in the Success Stories forum. Lots of people have recovered or are well on their way. You can be one of them if you give yourself the chance. You can go back on the meds but they aren't a "cure" for anxiety. They might mask your feelings for a while but eventually you run the risk of hitting tolerance, and you'll either have to increase the dose or take another med. The only really effective way to deal with anxiety is by practicing coping methods, and you can't do that while convincing yourself you'll never feel better.

15 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

What makes you say nobody is improving? Look at the stories in the Success Stories forum. Lots of people have recovered or are well on their way. You can be one of them if you give yourself the chance. You can go back on the meds but they aren't a "cure" for anxiety. They might mask your feelings for a while but eventually you run the risk of hitting tolerance, and you'll either have to increase the dose or take another med. The only really effective way to deal with anxiety is by practicing coping methods, and you can't do that while convincing yourself you'll never feel better.

What my main goal is to, is to get slowly back up on my original dose but I need to stablize firs ton 20 that's what I was told. And yeah you are right ill try my best and yoy got me their on alotta your points

1 hour ago, Jacky Rose said:

I see what your saying and I understand but how do I not freak out when all I see is nobody improving. I never wanted to stop the drug so i just want to heal but how do I calm down when the side effect is anxiety and fear. Ik trying my hardest but it's hard to do that without any light in sight cause everyone says it could take years. I just wanna stablize back on this drug and never come off of it ever again. I hear yoy and I thank yoy greatly for talking with me, I hope none of what im saying comes off rude. I just wish to help communicate what im going through.

Hi 🙂

Don’t underestimate the power of your young, adaptable brain 💕

And Don’t compare yourself to people who are in different situations with different medication, different ages, different ways of stopping their medication…

58 minutes ago, Finni said:

Hi 🙂

Don’t underestimate the power of your young, adaptable brain 💕

And Don’t compare yourself to people who are in different situations with different medication, different ages, different ways of stopping their medication…

Thank yoy I guess I'm just worried that the reinstamtnet won't stop the withdrawl from creating new symptoms in the future like emptoonal blunting or depersonalization. Im so terrfied to see those show

42 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

Thank yoy I guess I'm just worried that the reinstamtnet won't stop the withdrawl from creating new symptoms in the future like emptoonal blunting or depersonalization. Im so terrfied to see those show

I know it’s all so terrifying and feels so unpredictable.

Many times, the people who report those symptoms experienced short-lived cyclical symptoms.

You might not even experience them at all!

Just now, Finni said:

I know it’s all so terrifying and feels so unpredictable.

Many times, the people who report those symptoms experienced short-lived cyclical symptoms.

You might not even experience them at all!

Fingers crossed. I'm very glad I reinstated the medication (ct was a slip up actuallt) I never intend to get off the med

10 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

Fingers crossed. I'm very glad I reinstated the medication (ct was a slip up actuallt) I never intend to get off the med

It was very smart to reinstate at a lower dose! Good move 💗

Reinstating is a smart move. You mentioned how people aren't getting "better". I think a lot of what you see is grief from what the withdrawal has caused people to lose. That's the main theme of my thread. Who knows how long withdrawal actually lasts but it seems the first 6 months to 12 months can be catastrophic. It looks like you are trying to prevent that so you may be able to mitigate a lot of damage. Just take it easy.

14 minutes ago, Kahran said:

Reinstating is a smart move. You mentioned how people aren't getting "better". I think a lot of what you see is grief from what the withdrawal has caused people to lose. That's the main theme of my thread. Who knows how long withdrawal actually lasts but it seems the first 6 months to 12 months can be catastrophic. It looks like you are trying to prevent that so you may be able to mitigate a lot of damage. Just take it easy.

Yeah I don't wish to taper off I just wish to stablize and stay on the med I just hope resintating tho kindled my system will prevent the withdrawls to make new symptoms. You can look at my timelike to see how the whole thing went down. It was a slip up on my part. I've been on 60mg prozac for years and accidentally ct for 2 months and now im trying get back on it and I don't wish to get off the medication. I just was looking for awnsers if the reinstmatent will most likely make sure I won't reach worser side effects of wothdrawl. Most side effects I have are the ones caused by the reinstamtne taka kindling.

32 minutes ago, Finni said:

It was very smart to reinstate at a lower dose! Good move 💗

Thank yoy very much I just hope this makes sure the scarier symptoms don't show now like I stopped the free fall of the withdrawl. I get worried it will pop up in the later months while I'm holding steady on the 20mg

6 hours ago, Jacky Rose said:

I just hope to see improvments in the coming months ya know it's hard not to be scared of if I'll show new side effects. I have bad anxiety now and I'm scared that this will take at least 3 years ya know? And nobody is telling me other wise and I get it I know you can't say jt but I reinstated I wanna know that I won't lost my 20's I need something to look forward tok

Anxiety is a common wd effect. Be patient. It can take time for things to settle down.

2 hours ago, Jacky Rose said:

I'm holding steady on the 20mg

Good. Keep it that way 😀

Hi @Jacky Rose I really hope you manage to find a balance, the system can get used to it nicely or resist it strongly.. time will tell.

I'm just wondering why you want to go back to chemicals with such a strong and unpredictable nature?

7 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Hi @Jacky Rose I really hope you manage to find a balance, the system can get used to it nicely or resist it strongly.. time will tell.

I'm just wondering why you want to go back to chemicals with such a strong and unpredictable nature?

Bc I never intended on getting off it. It was a mistake that I cold turekyd. I was great on my meds

14 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

Bc I never intended on getting off it. It was a mistake that I cold turekyd. I was great on my meds

I got you @Jacky Rose maybe you will be able to find good balance at a smaller dose than the one you were on and thus be able to prevent side effects to some extent.

Good luck on your way forward.

14 hours ago, Finni said:

I know it’s all so terrifying and feels so unpredictable.

Many times, the people who report those symptoms experienced short-lived cyclical symptoms.

You might not even experience them at all!

I'm really scared not to feel joy again. Like I can now but sometimes it feel more dull and I'm scared for the depersonalization and emptional adordia or whatever you call it the emptional blunting. I just don't wanna see the new scary stuff..I dont know what to do, it's hard to just wait for them to happen and if it does I worry ill stick their. I keep saying to myself reisntamtnet will make sure it keeps away but I worry as the momths go on that I'll soon get jt it's just inevitable

Edited April 18Apr 18 by Jacky Rose

Just now, Jacky Rose said:

I'm really scared not to feel joy again. Like I can now but sometimes it feel more dull and I'm scared for the depersonalization and emptional adordia or whatever you call it the emptional blunting. I just don't wanna see the new scary stuff..I dont know what to do, it's hard to just wait for them to happen

Did you know that some people don’t have severe withdrawal symptoms?

Many many people can make medication changes and be fine. Just don’t makr anymore. 🤗 Hold steady for a good long time.

Try to assume the best! 💕

Like I said before, you’re young and you’re holding steady on this current dose and that’s really what you need to do. No doubt about it.

Your life awaits!

Edited April 18Apr 18 by Finni

3 minutes ago, Finni said:

Did you know that some people don’t have severe withdrawal symptoms?

Many many people can make medication changes and be fine. Just don’t do anymore. Hold steady.

Try to assume the best! Like I said before you’re young and you’re holding steady on this current dose and that’s really what you need to do. No doubt about it.

I just wish I never accidentally went off the med I didn't even mean to now im scared everyday I'm gonna go away and never come back and I'm not ready to say goodbye to who I am yet. Thank you so much for talking with me, could we keep talking?

Just now, Jacky Rose said:

I just wish I never accidentally went off the med I didn't even mean to now im scared everyday I'm gonna go away and never come back and I'm not ready to say goodbye to who I am yet. Thank you so much for talking with me, could we keep talking?

I will check in on you 🩷

Sometimes when we make “mistakes” , we think we need to do more and more to “fix” it, but really we need to do LESS and try not to focus on it.

I know your brain is recalibrating from the changes and it feels different, but you will feel like yourself again. Try to do what you can to reengage with the things you enjoy. ☀️