@Jacky Rose, there's a theory of psychology/philosophy that says the Universe will send you what you're interested in, even if what you're interested in isn't what you want. As @LostinCanada said, if you keep catastrophizing everything and ruminate on negative thoughts, that's what you'll keep getting.  You're doing what my therapist calls "scanning". You have a big ball of anxiety and you want someplace to put it, so you search for a reason to feel anxious.  Your mind plays "what if" games like "what if my cold triggers more anxiety"?  Acceptance is about realizing that its not the situation you're in at the moment or what your physical state is. Its realizing you have anxious thoughts that are looking for a subject to focus on, and that they'll find what they're looking for if you let them.  You need to refocus all that energy on more positive things like developing coping skills and calming techniques so every event in your life doesn't trigger spiraling thoughts.  

28 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

So sadly I've come down with a cold and my sleep got bad again and I'm just scared overall on how this cold will effect my healing and how long I'll take. I know I reinstated but I worry that won't do anything I mean my body did react to getting it back in me hence the symptoms I now have but gosh im just overall scared. Also I see the website is having some troubles I hope your doing ok

It's a cruel loop, it's our mind in the process, try not to breathe life into thoughts, it feels real especially when there are additional triggers but it's not, a thought has no power without belief in it, at the same time distraction would also be good, try to concentrate on external things, no matter what, anything that takes you out of yourself for a moment is blessed.

Be sure it won't stay that way, you will eventually find balance.

59 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

So sadly I've come down with a cold and my sleep got bad again and I'm just scared overall on how this cold will effect my healing and how long I'll take. I know I reinstated but I worry that won't do anything I mean my body did react to getting it back in me hence the symptoms I now have but gosh im just overall scared. Also I see the website is having some troubles I hope your doing ok

Im sorry. Getting a cold can make it all feel a bit worse I know. Hope this settles soon so you can continue on your recovery. 
 

Thanks we are ok. I think the website seems ok now. Our server guys were having some issues but they are sorting it. Nothing for us to stress about. Thanks for worrying about us though. 

1 hour ago, Chippy said:

Im sorry. Getting a cold can make it all feel a bit worse I know. Hope this settles soon so you can continue on your recovery. 
 

Thanks we are ok. I think the website seems ok now. Our server guys were having some issues but they are sorting it. Nothing for us to stress about. Thanks for worrying about us though. 

But yeah I'm just realizing since I reinstated that should help with recovery I mean I'm not wanting to get off the med and I realize most stories I'm reading are people suffering from cold turkey and staying odd while I went back on after 2 months. I guess it's just hard to think clearly when your so scared ya know. Me realizing this helps calm me down

1 minute ago, Jacky Rose said:

Me realizing this helps calm me down

Good. You should be calm. ☺️ 

On 4/9/2026 at 2:08 PM, Chippy said:

Good. You should be calm. ☺️ 

Having tummy troubles and brain fog a lil high but that's probs cause the cold and gosh have horrible tummy troubles rn (tummy cramps all night) and my hearts stuck on fast position tho I may not be noticing when It relax and I'm scared thst I won't live to see through this and I'm scarwd. My body is weak I'm so scared. I know I reinstated only after 2 months 10mg 23 days then 20mg now for good not changing anything so I'll most likely heal faster since I still have the med in me now instead of going without it but I'm scared of what's happening and I really need someone to jut say I'll be ok, cause I het worried im not gonna live through this..

5 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

Having tummy troubles and brain fog a lil high but that's probs cause the cold and gosh have horrible tummy troubles rn (tummy cramps all night) and my hearts stuck on fast position tho I may not be noticing when It relax and I'm scared thst I won't live to see through this and I'm scarwd. My body is weak I'm so scared. I know I reinstated only after 2 months 10mg 23 days then 20mg now for good not changing anything so I'll most likely heal faster since I still have the med in me now instead of going without it but I'm scared of what's happening and I really need someone to jut say I'll be ok, cause I het worried im not gonna live through this..

Anxiety can tourn a cold and a stomach ache into an incurable illness.  That's what it does--it takes minor things and creates a whole new catastrophic reality around them.  You'll be fine. You ARE fine.  

On 4/9/2026 at 2:08 PM, Chippy said:

Good. You should be calm. ☺️ 

I'm so scared in dying I'm falling apart and I can't do anything about it...I dont wanna go away, I had so much to live for ya know? I didn't even wanna get off this med I just made a mistake and cold turkeyd for 2 months I forgot stupidly and now I worry the reinstatment won't do anything to heal me... 

1 minute ago, mstimc60 said:

Anxiety can tourn a cold and a stomach ache into an incurable illness.  That's what it does--it takes minor things and creates a whole new catastrophic reality around them.  You'll be fine. You ARE fine.  

Thank you I do hope I'll be ok im scared I just in trying so hard to think positive that people heal from this and I keep saying to myself I reinstated so at least I'm not trying to get off the medication and 20mg is almost just as much as 60mg it takes up 80% receptors of seritonin still. I try really to comfort myself and realize I'm not wanting to get off the med so my journey is at least slightly difrent ya know? Is that werid its the only that gives me hope

4 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

Thank you I do hope I'll be ok im scared I just in trying so hard to think positive that people heal from this and I keep saying to myself I reinstated so at least I'm not trying to get off the medication and 20mg is almost just as much as 60mg it takes up 80% receptors of seritonin still. I try really to comfort myself and realize I'm not wanting to get off the med so my journey is at least slightly difrent ya know? Is that werid its the only that gives me hope

Look at it this way. You have a bunch of people who've been where you are telling you that you'll get through this.  On the other side, you have your irrational anxious mind telling you that you're stuck.  Which one would you believe if it wasn't you going through it? 

20 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

Having tummy troubles and brain fog a lil high but that's probs cause the cold and gosh have horrible tummy troubles rn (tummy cramps all night) and my hearts stuck on fast position tho I may not be noticing when It relax and I'm scared thst I won't live to see through this and I'm scarwd. My body is weak I'm so scared. I know I reinstated only after 2 months 10mg 23 days then 20mg now for good not changing anything so I'll most likely heal faster since I still have the med in me now instead of going without it but I'm scared of what's happening and I really need someone to jut say I'll be ok, cause I het worried im not gonna live through this..

Sounds like a touch of the wd there for sure. Could be some of the bug you got too. Try so hard to worry. It’s all going to be ok. And you certainly aren’t going to die. We all get it and have had some awful wd on here and we are still here and getting better. You will too. 😀

4 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

Look at it this way. You have a bunch of people who've been where you are telling you that you'll get through this.  On the other side, you have your irrational anxious mind telling you that you're stuck.  Which one would you believe if it wasn't you going through it? 

You have a point its just I saw this one post of someone who went off ct prozac and then took 3 years to feel even slightly better but again I need to KEEP reminding myself I'm not the same since I am not off the medication anymore and never wish to get off the medication. Does that make sense? Yoy can look at my timeline if I sound confusing. Bassically I accidentally ct for 2 months and then trying to get back on it. 

Just now, Chippy said:

Sounds like a touch of the wd there for sure. Could be some of the bug you got too. Try so hard to worry. It’s all going to be ok. And you certainly aren’t going to die. We all get it and have had some awful wd on here and we are still here and getting better. You will too. 😀

I guess I'm just very scared do you thjnk I'm reinstatment will help me in the long run. I mean look at timeline I don't wish to ever get off the medication and I know you said 20mg is more than enough aka being 80% covered. I guess I just don't wanna go through a journey of trying to become drug free cause thats not what I want nor intended for me.

3 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

I guess I'm just very scared do you thjnk I'm reinstatment will help me in the long run. I mean look at timeline I don't wish to ever get off the medication and I know you said 20mg is more than enough aka being 80% covered. I guess I just don't wanna go through a journey of trying to become drug free cause thats not what I want nor intended for me.

You are very covered. Plenty of drug. You don’t even get to 100% cause the brain can’t handle that much you see. So every bit more drug you add after 20mg doesn’t really do anything to the receptors that’s good but might make you worse. 
 

You can worry about the future in the future. We don’t make anyone come off their drug if they don’t want to. We are only here to help. 

2 minutes ago, Chippy said:

You are very covered. Plenty of drug. You don’t even get to 100% cause the brain can’t handle that much you see. So every bit more drug you add after 20mg doesn’t really do anything to the receptors that’s good but might make you worse. 
 

You can worry about the future in the future. We don’t make anyone come off their drug if they don’t want to. We are only here to help. 

I'm just hopefully hope I made the right choice ya know like how to get out of these withdrawls ya know...

26 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

I'm just hopefully hope I made the right choice ya know like how to get out of these withdrawls ya know...

You did good

10 minutes ago, Chippy said:

You did good

Thanks I just wanna make sure I don't head for the years and years long wait I just wanna get back on this med will I already am. It means alot yoyr here for me 

2 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

Thanks I just wanna make sure I don't head for the years and years long wait I just wanna get back on this med will I already am. It means alot yoyr here for me 

Not going anywhere 

21 hours ago, Chippy said:

Not going anywhere 

Good news despite the chest cold I got the most sleep I've had in awhile (when I started 20mg I started getting 2 hour intervals sleeps but now tonight I got 6 hours and extra 3 hours. Plus my brain fog feels less last night and this morning. Also I do notice it peaks after a few hours after med I think I am dealing with the med peaking in my blood rather than withdrawl to be fair most of these side effects began when I reinstated the med so most likely I am just very destablized and am stablizeing 

@Jacky Rose welcome to the forum. so sorry to hear about what youre going through and you have my full support. remember that you will get through this and you definitely wont die. this forum is filled with some amazing and knowledgeable people so youre in good hands here.

1 hour ago, Jacky Rose said:

Good news despite the chest cold I got the most sleep I've had in awhile (when I started 20mg I started getting 2 hour intervals sleeps but now tonight I got 6 hours and extra 3 hours. Plus my brain fog feels less last night and this morning. Also I do notice it peaks after a few hours after med I think I am dealing with the med peaking in my blood rather than withdrawl to be fair most of these side effects began when I reinstated the med so most likely I am just very destablized and am stablizeing 

Sounds good @Jacky Rose more to come. 😀

50 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Sounds good @Jacky Rose more to come. 😀

Actually jo I'm scared I dont wanna get worse and become bed bound and worse and worse side effects and I don't wanna die im scared. 

16 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

Actually jo I'm scared I dont wanna get worse and become bed bound and worse and worse side effects and I don't wanna die im scared. 

Nobody's ever died from anxiety.  You're not bed bound and you won't be unless you let your thoughts put you there.  The fear that anxiety creates can create some powerful physical symptoms but their transitory.  Anxiety wants you to play "what if" games with yourself and keep you locked in fear.  That's why you need to learn coping skills to deal with the thoughts so you can float past them instead of letting them control your thinking and your body.

On 4/12/2026 at 12:15 PM, Chippy said:

Sounds good @Jacky Rose more to come. 😀

I'm sorry I'm back I just keep thinking about that one person that did something so similar to me I know reinstated and I keep repeating thar changes the outcome but I don't tjink it will I NEES AOWMONE TO TELL OT CHANGES THE OUTCOME IM SO SCARED I DONT WANNA BE JOYLESS FOR YEARS AND NEVER FEEL JOY IM ONLY 23 YEARS OLD. I ALSO WENT COLD TURKEY FROM PROZAC AFTER BEING ON IT FOR YEARS and I went back on it 20mg after 2 months but what if that dosent stop this what if I don't heal. I need your comfort and help please 

@Jacky Rose People (like me) usually only rant when they're in enormous waves. I definitely had times where I felt a little more normal than usual 3 or 4 months into withdrawal. I also seem to "remember" events when I was really going through withdrawal more fondly. 

 

It might be more related to anhedonia. You may not enjoy looking forward to something, and you may not enjoy it in the moment. But you may end up enjoying it in the future when you look back at memories. There are a lot of memories I have like that where I wasn't fully in the moment, and I do have some regrets on that, but they were still really good times. Even now, some windows of joy do come back to me. 

 

It's gonna be okay.