4 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

I'm just scared about this taking years and I'm scared I slowlt become bed bound its hard to focus on coping skills cause I worry so much im dying or worse than death.

You can’t know how long it will take to recover. You must try to take one day at a time. I know that is hard but it’s sooooo important to start to learn to do this! Honestly I mean it. Super important! I know you can do that! You seem strong to me and so that’s how I know you can mange that!

Just now, Chippy said:

You can’t know how long it will take to recover. You must try to take one day at a time. I know that is hard but it’s sooooo important to start to learn to do this! Honestly I mean it. Super important! I know you can do that! You seem strong to me and so that’s how I know you can mange that!

I'm trying im just scared I dont wanna get worse im scared what's gonna happen next. I'm sorry I hope not bothering 

4 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

But its really hard and I'm trying my hardest but I'm scardy cat when it comes to stuff like this im not that strong and I'm just scared of slowly dying or worse ya know? I'm trying really hard 

Stop trying to fight it.  Fighting your thoughts just gives them strength.  The thoughts are going to come whether you want them to or not, at least for a while. Instead, accept they will come and choose to ignore them.  That's where CBT and other coping tools can help.  Although the fear is real and seems overwhelming, they're just thoughts; they're literally stories you're telling yourself in your head with no basis in fact. Their power is entirely dependent on you giving them permission to occupy space in your mind.  Once you learnt to show them the way out, you'll be surprised at how strong you are. 

2 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

Stop trying to fight it.  Fighting your thoughts just gives them strength.  The thoughts are going to come whether you want them to or not, at least for a while. Instead, accept they will come and choose to ignore them.  That's where CBT and other coping tools can help.  Although the fear is real and seems overwhelming, they're just thoughts; they're literally stories you're telling yourself in your head with no basis in fact. Their power is entirely dependent on you giving them permission to occupy space in your mind.  Once you learnt to show them the way out, you'll be surprised at how strong you are. 

I know it's just im only 23 and I worry ive lost everything and I worry I wont be able to live a life like this ya know? I know this probaobly just my med (the 20) peaking my system since I took it today but god im scared I will try though very hard I promise 

11 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

I'm trying im just scared I dont wanna get worse im scared what's gonna happen next. I'm sorry I hope not bothering 

No you are no bother. It’s ok to be scared but it doesn’t help you. You see that? You need to keep your nervous system as calm as you can. It will help loads I promise! Eat good food. Keep away from alcohol and anything psychoactive. Plenty of fluid. Some fresh air. And keep the stress low. Then take one day at a time. We are not going anywhere and are here for you. 

1 minute ago, Chippy said:

No you are no bother. It’s ok to be scared but it doesn’t help you. You see that? You need to keep your nervous system as calm as you can. It will help loads I promise! Eat good food. Keep away from alcohol and anything psychoactive. Plenty of fluid. Some fresh air. And keep the stress low. Then take one day at a time. We are not going anywhere and are here for you. On the good side I don't smoke or drink or do any weed 

Well that's the issue I have a texture issue so sadly it's hard to eat right so I've been eating pizza and mcdoanlda and YES I KNOW it's not good for me but I get scared and eat it. I do eat other stuff but it's mostly meat and stuff but I am gonna try I did have chicken wings (non deepfried) and some nice fries. But I eat toast every morning and I know I'm judt scared and it fuels it's just hard not too

3 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

Well that's the issue I have a texture issue so sadly it's hard to eat right so I've been eating pizza and mcdoanlda and YES I KNOW it's not good for me but I get scared and eat it. I do eat other stuff but it's mostly meat and stuff but I am gonna try I did have chicken wings (non deepfried) and some nice fries. But I eat toast every morning and I know I'm judt scared and it fuels it's just hard not too

Yes try to get some vegetables in that mix. It will help loads! It’s true what they say. You are what you eat! See there is loads you can control! 😀

 

I know you can do this. And work on making your situation better which will help your healing. Diet. Mindset. Exercise. All the good stuff. 💪😀

Just now, Chippy said:

Yes try to get some vegetables in that mix. It will help loads! It’s true what they say. You are what you eat! See there is loads you can control! 😀

 

I know you can do this. And work on making your situation better which will help your healing. Diet. Mindset. Exercise. All the good stuff. 💪😀

Ok again and I'm sorry I know this is annoying but do you think im able to heal? I know you can't tell me how long can the fact I had great day yesturday is a great sign tho my sleep got worse last night again I know windows and waves. But I'm just scared. Could you just say ill heal...

Just now, Jacky Rose said:

Ok again and I'm sorry I know this is annoying but do you think im able to heal? I know you can't tell me how long can the fact I had great day yesturday is a great sign tho my sleep got worse last night again I know windows and waves. But I'm just scared. Could you just say ill heal...

Oh I know you’ll heal! If you can work on those things I mentioned that will help! But you’ll heal anyway! Our bodies are amazing. 

@Jacky Rose

 

A nice Wholefoods diet has got me out of the deepest darkest depression! 
loads of fruit and veggies 
keep going you got this 

 

❤️👌👊

11 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Oh I know you’ll heal! If you can work on those things I mentioned that will help! But you’ll heal anyway! Our bodies are amazing. 

Thank you I hope it only takes months I know it will I really hope it will I know that's stupid but I think since I'm younger or something I'm sorry...

11 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

Ok again and I'm sorry I know this is annoying but do you think im able to heal? I know you can't tell me how long can the fact I had great day yesturday is a great sign tho my sleep got worse last night again I know windows and waves. But I'm just scared. Could you just say ill heal...

Hey @Jacky Rose jumped in to say big yes!

You're still in the process and so your mindset is focused on fear and despair, this happens to all of us as that's how the brain works in this process, but it is far from reality, you'll survive well and succeed and as you were advised, nutrition, activity, acceptance, are all very important factors, try to start small. It will help a lot. 🙏

2 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

Thank you I hope it only takes months I know it will I really hope it will I know that's stupid but I think since I'm younger or something I'm sorry...

Yeah exactly. Being young will help loads!

3 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Hey @Jacky Rose jumped in to say big yes!

You're still in the process and so your mindset is focused on fear and despair, this happens to all of us as that's how the brain works in this process, but it is far from reality, you'll survive well and succeed and as you were advised, nutrition, activity, acceptance, are all very important factors, try to start small. It will help a lot. 🙏

Thank yoy very much its means alot I guess I keep worrying about later down the road to get worse symptoms like emotional numbness or akaiasa. I guess it's just cause im only 23 and I worried my life is ruined forever and ya know I try to think positive I worry it will take YEARS before even a fraction to feel better. I get worried the longer I go out the worst I'll feel. If you wanna yoy can check my timeline. Apologies 

21 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Oh I know you’ll heal! If you can work on those things I mentioned that will help! But you’ll heal anyway! Our bodies are amazing. 

I guess I'm just scared on becoming these people 

I can't send the images so here's a lil link I made 

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/18bHDztBsEH5oWFqz6j1g29UE6XK0fgjg

2 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

I guess I'm just scared on becoming these people 

I can't send the images so here's a lil link I made 

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/18bHDztBsEH5oWFqz6j1g29UE6XK0fgjg

You are different. Each persons situation is different. Try not to compare yourself with others. Fora start you have RI. You are young. Good diet. Good attitude. Acceptance. Get all the ingredients for healing together. And leave the worry behind. Have faith. 

Just now, Chippy said:

You are different. Each persons situation is different. Try not to compare yourself with others. Fora start you have RI. You are young. Good diet. Good attitude. Acceptance. Get all the ingredients for healing together. And leave the worry behind. Have faith. 

I did reinstate yoyr rigjt sorry I just freaked out those people went cold turkey and never went back ok thank yoy sorry I freaked out 

15 minutes ago, Jacky Rose said:

Thank yoy very much its means alot I guess I keep worrying about later down the road to get worse symptoms like emotional numbness or akaiasa. I guess it's just cause im only 23 and I worried my life is ruined forever and ya know I try to think positive I worry it will take YEARS before even a fraction to feel better. I get worried the longer I go out the worst I'll feel. If you wanna yoy can check my timeline. Apologies 

I get you but don't believe what your mind tells you, take this process slowly, don't rush and try to focus on the moment, any wandering into the past or future is irrelevant and adds unnecessary pressure, I know it's easier said than done but try again and again and trust your wonderful system that does a crazy job of returning to a healthy base, it will happen!

We are here for you all the way ❤️

Just now, Jacky Rose said:

I did reinstate yoyr rigjt sorry I just freaked out those people went cold turkey and never went back ok thank yoy sorry I freaked out 

Nothing to be sorry for. Remember. No worry. Just each day as it comes. Don’t move your dose around in panic. Just hold your dose here. 😀 

And skip Reddit with the horror stories.. not beneficial for our sensitive minds in this process.

Edited April 8Apr 8 by Fullhealing

2 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Nothing to be sorry for. Remember. No worry. Just each day as it comes. Don’t move your dose around in panic. Just hold your dose here. 😀 

I will im not changing im just scared to become them and all I know they CT and never went back but I worry the 20 won't help and im scared im sorry it's hard not to spiral im trying so hard

Just now, Jacky Rose said:

I will im not changing im just scared to become them and all I know they CT and never went back but I worry the 20 won't help and im scared im sorry it's hard not to spiral im trying so hard

Just do your best to not worry. Worry leads to panic. Panic leads to jumping your dose around. Jumping doses around causes a lot of the problems you are worried about. So you are in good shape. You found us and now you know what to do! 

1 minute ago, Chippy said:

Just do your best to not worry. Worry leads to panic. Panic leads to jumping your dose around. Jumping doses around causes a lot of the problems you are worried about. So you are in good shape. You found us and now you know what to do! 

Ok I haven't changed and I won't im just scared to become those people I mean even some are my age im scared

@Jacky Rose unfortunately every time you write out all the negative spiralling thoughts, you are reinforcing them in your mind. That is why CBT techniques suggest to write out glimmers/blessings each day...the sun is shining, I have a warm bed, I have food in the fridge, I have family that love me, I can hear birds singing....whatever grounds you and gives you calm...look for those things, reinforce those things 

Secondly, write out 'good for me'...5 things...good for me, I showered today,....good for me, I made the bed,...good for me I went for a walk.....good for me, I called a friend, etc....celebrate the small stuff.....these are all accomplishments when we are struggling.

Just take it slow, treat yourself kindly.

 

This is a free online CBT book if you want to try it.

https://cogbtherapy.com/free-online-cbt-workbook

 

Edited April 8Apr 8 by LostinCanada

20 hours ago, Chippy said:

Just do your best to not worry. Worry leads to panic. Panic leads to jumping your dose around. Jumping doses around causes a lot of the problems you are worried about. So you are in good shape. You found us and now you know what to do! 

So sadly I've come down with a cold and my sleep got bad again and I'm just scared overall on how this cold will effect my healing and how long I'll take. I know I reinstated but I worry that won't do anything I mean my body did react to getting it back in me hence the symptoms I now have but gosh im just overall scared. Also I see the website is having some troubles I hope your doing ok