9 minutes ago, Kahran said:

@Jacky Rose People (like me) usually only rant when they're in enormous waves. I definitely had times where I felt a little more normal than usual 3 or 4 months into withdrawal. I also seem to "remember" events when I was really going through withdrawal more fondly. 

 

It might be more related to anhedonia. You may not enjoy looking forward to something, and you may not enjoy it in the moment. But you may end up enjoying it in the future when you look back at memories. There are a lot of memories I have like that where I wasn't fully in the moment, and I do have some regrets on that, but they were still really good times. Even now, some windows of joy do come back to me. 

 

It's gonna be okay.

I worry im gonna take as long I did reaintate I need someone to tell im gonna be ok since I resintsted I won't be as long look at my timeline please im just really scared and need some comfort 

It's going to take as long as it takes.

 

Believe me, that's not the answer you or I want to hear. But, that's what it is. People in my thread have been talking about acceptance and I'm starting to think that's very important. We're all going through hell but at least we're together.

41 minutes ago, Kahran said:

It's going to take as long as it takes.

 

Believe me, that's not the answer you or I want to hear. But, that's what it is. People in my thread have been talking about acceptance and I'm starting to think that's very important. We're all going through hell but at least we're together.

This is great advice, @Jacky Rose from someone who is going through it just like you.  It is hard to work on acceptance but that's the way through this journey. 

9 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

This is great advice, @Jacky Rose from someone who is going through it just like you.  It is hard to work on acceptance but that's the way through this journey. 

I know I just don't wanna get worse im scared im trying my best to accept it but I'm scared to not feel joy 

Constantly seeking reassurance about the same thing is just a symptom of withdrawal and recovery.  It’s your anxious mind trying to keep you in constant fear. The problem is your anxious mind will never be satisfied no matter how many people tell you that you’ll recover.    You will recover but it will take time and it won’t be a steady uphill road.  There will be valleys and peaks.  The best way to handle it is by accepting what you’re going through and learning and practicing coping techniques.  It’s not the easy answer, but it’s honest.  You are not doomed to a lifetime of anxiety and negative thoughts.  

@Jacky Rose Don’t worry about others. Don’t even worry about tomorrow. You will be ok. You’ll stabilise and be alright. Just do nice things in the day. What do you like to do? What makes you smile? Pets? Tv? Computer stuff? Being out doors? 

20 hours ago, Chippy said:

@Jacky Rose Don’t worry about others. Don’t even worry about tomorrow. You will be ok. You’ll stabilise and be alright. Just do nice things in the day. What do you like to do? What makes you smile? Pets? Tv? Computer stuff? Being out doors? 

Thank yoy I'll try it's just hard sometimes cause I cry so much from being scared about what happens next. On the bright side here's the good stuff 

 

Side effects currently:

- stuff joints 

- rare joint pain 

- joint noisy 

- heightened anxiety (crying spells)

- tummy trouble 

- rapid movement on screens sometimes overwhelms me (also could bc the constant crying) 

- sweat after sleep

- fast heart rate

 

Side effects that almost completely gone:

- brain zaps

- small brain fog (rare)

- leg tremors (vibration humming like in my legs) 

- buggy eye episodes (where I can't focus really on anything) 

 

And broken sleep is still sticking back together no longer 3 of 2 hour intervals and more 

 

4 or 5 hours then 3 more in one night 

 

 

As Chippy said, you need to stop playing the "what if" games in your head. An important thing is to stop fighting--stop even trying to fight.  All that does is give the fearful thoughts more power.  Many years ago, a therapist named Claire Weeks developed the idea of "floating" past your obsessive thoughts.  You accept that they'll come and tell yourself to let them float into your mind and float right back out again.  Because that's all they are--thoughts. They have no more power than what you allow them to have. Try Googling her work. 

 

The physical symptoms you're having are classic anxiety--your body is responding to your mind being in constant fight or flight mode and its tensing up, looking for danger that isn't there.  As you learn coping techniques, the symptoms will fade and eventually disappear. 

3 hours ago, Jacky Rose said:

Side effects that almost completely gone:

- brain zaps

- small brain fog (rare)

- leg tremors (vibration humming like in my legs) 

- buggy eye episodes (where I can't focus really on anything) 

 

And broken sleep is still sticking back together no longer 3 of 2 hour intervals and more 

 

4 or 5 hours then 3 more in one night 

This is Fantastic! Well done Jacky Rose, what amazing progress!

On 4/15/2026 at 12:03 AM, Chippy said:

This is Fantastic! Well done Jacky Rose, what amazing progress!

So am I stablizing?

I guess I got worried the resinstamtnet failed since it caused the sleep issues but their starting to stitch back together only in a month so I that's a good sign?

Edited April 17Apr 17 by Jacky Rose

That’s great news, @Jacky Rose ! Now you know you can recover. It’ll take time and there will be ups and downs bit you’re on your way!

On 4/15/2026 at 12:03 AM, Chippy said:

This is Fantastic! Well done Jacky Rose, what amazing progress!

Oh gosh I'm scared still though what if the kindling made it longer and makes it worse. The side effects began with thebreinstamtnet and sure some have gotton better but I worry did resintamtent fail will it make it last 3 years or longer? I never wanted to get off the medication and I'm scared.

4 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

That’s great news, @Jacky Rose ! Now you know you can recover. It’ll take time and there will be ups and downs bit you’re on your way!

Do yoy think ill take 3 years? I just want someone to tell me it will only take few months to a year I worry cause I'm back on my med rather then staying off completely does that make a diffrence? I'm sorry I'm spooked I just need some comfort

Nobody with a sense of honesty will tell you how long it will take or make false promises. Don’t put yourself on an unreasonable timeline. If you broke your arm, you wouldn’t try weightlifting before it healed. Patience and acceptance are key. Worrying about the timeline will make it last longer and make the symptoms worse.

On 4/15/2026 at 12:03 AM, Chippy said:

This is Fantastic! Well done Jacky Rose, what amazing progress!

I'm freaking out really bad I worry I wont feel any diffeent after two years ill just platue and not see any changes like some I've heard, I'm so scared

On 4/14/2026 at 12:00 AM, Chippy said:

@Jacky Rose Don’t worry about others. Don’t even worry about tomorrow. You will be ok. You’ll stabilise and be alright. Just do nice things in the day. What do you like to do? What makes you smile? Pets? Tv? Computer stuff? Being out doors? 

I could really use someone to talk too im scared

Ask yourself what you’re afraid of. The unknown? The future? You don’t know what’s going to happen 5 minutes from now, so worrying about what may happen three years from now is pointless. Fixating on an arbitrary timeline just increases your anxiety.

What’s driving your anxiety isn’t your symptoms or the future. You have a big ball of anxiety with nowhere for it to go. Right now it’s playing on your fears of endless symptoms because that’s where you’re most sensitive. That’s how it’s going to keep its control of your thoughts. Obsessing on those fears just makes the ruminations stronger. Accept the thoughts will come but just let them float through your mind. Don’t give them more power than they deserve.

Can I talk anybody im scared rn and I'm worried and I'm terrfied

Google to see if there’s a mental health hotline in your area. The members here are for support but none of us are professionals. In the meantime, try breathing exercises, one breath in for 5 seconds and one breath out for 5 seconds. Find a calming mantra and keep repeating it to yourself. You’re having a flood of anxiety. You started today being glad that you might be stabilizing. Concentrate on that.

You need to calm yourself physically before you feel better emotionally. Walk around your house and something in each room as you go through it. Burn the physical energy and your CNS will start to settle down.

1 minute ago, mstimc60 said:

You need to calm yourself physically before you feel better emotionally. Walk around your house and something in each room as you go through it. Burn the physical energy and your CNS will start to settle down.

Ok ill try

8 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

Google to see if there’s a mental health hotline in your area. The members here are for support but none of us are professionals. In the meantime, try breathing exercises, one breath in for 5 seconds and one breath out for 5 seconds. Find a calming mantra and keep repeating it to yourself. You’re having a flood of anxiety. You started today being glad that you might be stabilizing. Concentrate on that.

Thank yoy and yeah yoyr right

You’ll be fine. This is all new and very scary for you. I understand. I had my first episode of high anxiety at about your age and it’s was unlike anything I’d ever experienced. But I got through it and so will you. Above all, be patient and kind with yourself. You’re safe and you have a whole community of people who’ve been through it to support you. Just take each moment as it comes and tomorrow will take care of itself.

Keep us updated on how you’re doing. It may see, hopeless now but we’ll help you get through it.

3 hours ago, Jacky Rose said:

starting to stitch back together only in a month so I that's a good sign?

Very good sign

3 hours ago, Jacky Rose said:

So am I stablizing?

Certainly sounds like it.