17 minutes ago, Niels91 said:

Your last paragraph made me feel very emotional and I welcome it.

Ah bless you mate. Glad it helped some.

 

17 minutes ago, Niels91 said:

f there's one thing I've learned in the past couple of years, it's that feelings are there to be felt, not to be suppressed. I learned there's quite a bit of truth in the expression what we resist, persists.

1000%

On 16/01/2026 at 17:39, Niels91 said:

Salut tout le monde,

De retour avec une mise à jour.

Il s'est passé plusieurs choses, certaines positives et d'autres moins positives.

Fin décembre, j'ai été licenciée par mon responsable. Même si cela complique les choses, c'est aussi une bonne chose, car je n'aimais pas vraiment ce travail. Il était stressant et très exigeant, surtout avec le sevrage en plus. Au total, j'y ai travaillé 13 mois et j'ai un préavis de 2 mois, ce qui me laisse le temps de trouver un nouvel emploi. Je compte bien profiter de cette occasion pour trouver un poste plus adapté, idéalement un emploi à temps partiel (4 ou 5 jours par semaine). J'ai vraiment besoin de temps et d'espace pour me ressourcer.

Je suis ravie de vous annoncer que j'ai bénéficié d'une fenêtre de 10 jours, du 2 au 11 janvier, ce qui est mon record à ce jour !  😊

Malheureusement, je suis de nouveau en pleine crise depuis le 12 janvier et je ressens les symptômes habituels : anhédonie, baisse d’humeur, troubles digestifs, fatigue et aboulie.

Je dois dire que c'est très étrange comme ces vagues continuent de donner l'impression que tous les progrès accomplis jusqu'à présent ont disparu, comme s'ils avaient été effacés. C'est tellement frustrant. Et quand je suis de retour près d'une fenêtre, la confiance et l'espoir reviennent, la conviction que tout ira bien. Cette dualité est bien réelle, et je crois que d'autres l'ont aussi remarqué.

J'ai hâte d'avoir plus de fenêtres et de meilleure qualité !

Niels

Hello @Niels91!

 

How are you these days ? 🙂

 

How did you feel during a "window"? Can you say normal at 100%? Sorry for the question but I don't know what "window" can be concretly 😐

On 11/02/2026 at 16:17, Niels91 said:

Salut@HopePerseveres2.0Merci pour votre accueil chaleureux ! 😁

 

C'est vraiment dommage que nous, et tous les autres ici présents, devions traverser une telle épreuve. Cela dit, j'ai bon espoir que nous finirons tous par nous en remettre.

 

Je souhaite également vous informer de ma situation. Ces trois dernières semaines, j'ai connu des phases d'activité intense et de rémission, selon le schéma habituel. Les phases d'activité intense durent environ sept jours, et les rémissions environ cinq jours.

 

Hier, j'ai traversé une nouvelle crise, et elle est plutôt difficile. Je me sens fatiguée, perdue, détachée et irritable. J'éprouve aussi de l'aversion et de l'aboulie, surtout au travail. L'anhédonie persiste. Pendant ces crises, je perds presque tout appétit, ainsi que la plupart de mes intérêts pour mes loisirs. Je rentre du travail, je mange quelque chose (même si je n'ai pas faim ou à peine) et je passe mon temps sur le canapé à regarder Netflix, à faire quelques tâches ménagères, puis je vais me coucher à 22h. Ces derniers temps, j'ai aussi de nouveau des problèmes de concentration et j'ai du mal à organiser et à exprimer mes pensées. Traiter l'information est difficile et je me sens facilement submergée. J'ai aussi plus de mal à me concentrer.

 

Mon sommeil est plutôt bon ; je m'endors sans problème et je me réveille rarement au milieu de la nuit. Le hic, c'est que souvent, je ne me sens pas particulièrement reposée au réveil, sauf si j'ai dormi environ huit heures, et même là, je ne suis pas toujours vraiment reposée. Par ailleurs, la forte anxiété que j'ai ressentie en octobre et novembre a disparu, ce qui est une autre bonne chose.

 

Quand je suis près d'une fenêtre, je me sens plus légère et plus apaisée. J'ai plus d'énergie, plus de motivation, l'appétit revient, j'ai envie de voir du monde et de faire des tâches ménagères. J'ai envie de passer du temps dehors et de savourer les petits plaisirs. J'écoute de la musique et parfois, je la ressens vraiment à nouveau, c'est tellement agréable 😊

 

En résumé, il y a des progrès, mais ils sont très lents.

 

Aujourd'hui même, je me suis surpris à penser que je préférerais me glisser sous les draps et dormir jusqu'à la fin de l'année prochaine pour me réveiller enfin guéri de cette blessure. Mon ancien moi me manque, celui qui avait hâte de passer du temps avec ses amis, de rire et de plaisanter à en pleurer. Mon ancien moi, qui ressentait cette profonde connexion avec la nature, et en particulier avec l'océan (j'adorais le monde sous-marin et y passer du temps). Mon ancien moi, qui avait envie de trouver l'amour. Mon ancien moi, qui attendait avec impatience de jouer à ses jeux vidéo préférés le week-end. Mon ancien moi, qui rêvait de sortir danser en festival et d'en profiter pleinement.

 

Je sais que tout cela paraît très négatif, et je m'en excuse, mais après presque deux ans de traitement antidépresseur et huit mois de sevrage, je ne peux m'empêcher de ressentir un profond chagrin, car j'ai vraiment l'impression d'avoir perdu une part immense de moi-même. Je ne sais pas si cette part de moi existe encore, mais je l'espère sincèrement.

 

J'ai hâte de me retrouver une fois que tout cela sera derrière moi. C'est quelque chose que je veux fêter.

I deeply understand what you say and feel. I am an honest person (in the sense "with a lot of integrity", I don't know if the traduction "honest" is right) so you can imagine how enormous this ordeal can seem. You are certainly a very intelligent person and also with a lot of integrity. You will improve and these qualities will only be strengthened. I pray for you. 
Courage 🙏

 

Maybe think of what we were can help, in the worst days... I don't know 😥

18 hours ago, poulette38 said:

Hello @Niels91!

 

How are you these days ? 🙂

 

How did you feel during a "window"? Can you say normal at 100%? Sorry for the question but I don't know what "window" can be concretly 😐

Salut Poulette!

 

I got back into a window on Tuesday this week and I'm feeling pretty good. I can't say that I feel 100% normal. More like 50-70%.

 

As I understand, a "window" is a period of time (in my case several days) where my symptoms are dialed down. Everything is much more manageable and I feel better overall.

 

18 hours ago, poulette38 said:

I deeply understand what you say and feel. I am an honest person (in the sense "with a lot of integrity", I don't know if the traduction "honest" is right) so you can imagine how enormous this ordeal can seem. You are certainly a very intelligent person and also with a lot of integrity. You will improve and these qualities will only be strengthened. I pray for you. 
Courage 🙏

 

Maybe think of what we were can help, in the worst days... I don't know 😥

I understand what you mean. I also share a strong sense of justice and trying to be good person toward myself and toward others but it isn't always easy. Thank you so much for sharing this, I appreciate your kindness! ❤️ We will all get better, I'm certain of it.

 

I have also decided to spend less time on this forum. I was checking it daily and reading a lot of posts but that often made me feel kind of hopeless and bad. To be clear, I empathize with everyone here and I want every single one of these people to recover, just like I want that for myself, but I also realize I have to spend more time in the present moment/real world and less time in the past/future. Worrying/ruminating/analyzing everything isn't helping us, we need to take action, step by step.

 

For me, this means figuring out a daily routine with some healthy habits so I can add some structure to my life. Seeing what works and doesn't work. It's a process and I'm doing this slowly. I'm also looking for a new job that fits better with my current situation. It's not easy, but I'll figure it out. I'm also seeing a therapist for support 🙂

 

Let's keep going 😊❤️

14 hours ago, Niels91 said:

have also decided to spend less time on this forum. I was checking it daily and reading a lot of posts but that often made me feel kind of hopeless and bad. To be clear, I empathize with everyone here and I want every single one of these people to recover, just like I want that for myself, but I also realize I have to spend more time in the present moment/real world and less time in the past/future. Worrying/ruminating/analyzing everything isn't helping us, we need to take action, step by step.

 

For me, this means figuring out a daily routine with some healthy habits so I can add some structure to my life. Seeing what works and doesn't work. It's a process and I'm doing this slowly. I'm also looking for a new job that fits better with my current situation

@Niels91, I think this is a good plan, especially when we've gone cold turkey. The brain is getting out shock trying to figure it all out. Structure and your normal life will help you to stay present and feel safe, moving forward. Best wishes on finding that new job that feels more of a fit during this part of your journey. Onward and upward.😊

6 hours ago, HopePerseveres2.0 said:

@Niels91, I think this is a good plan, especially when we've gone cold turkey. The brain is getting out shock trying to figure it all out. Structure and your normal life will help you to stay present and feel safe, moving forward. Best wishes on finding that new job that feels more of a fit during this part of your journey. Onward and upward.😊

Thank you HP! I myself did a linear taper spanned over several months and, unfortunately, it wasn't slow enough.

 

That being said, I'm definitely not an extreme case of withdrawal. I have quite a lot of mental symptoms but the physical ones are very limited. Also, I have pretty good windows at 8 months, so that's another positive.

 

Onward and upward, indeed 😊❤️

Edited February 20Feb 20 by Niels91
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Hey @Niels91

Thx for your answer. What is "wave"? The opposite of "window"? (Aggravation of the symptoms?)

 

I agree with you, we all can do that.

 

What think your therapist about the WD? 

Mine wants to prescrive me "zoloft" 🤦‍♀️

We definitely don't talk the same language... So I'm curious to see what they can bring us concretely for some people in WD... 

Who will want to kill them all ("with kindness" for sure) with me after our success ? 🥲

Seriously, sometimes I ask myself what is worse : suffer their violence or suffer the violence of their legalized poison... Anyway, absolutely EVERYTHING and EVERYONE is violence for all of us during this period...

It would be a miracle if we all don't go crazy at the end of this horror story... 

17 hours ago, poulette38 said:

Hey @Niels91

Thx for your answer. What is "wave"? The opposite of "window"? (Aggravation of the symptoms?)

 

I agree with you, we all can do that.

 

What think your therapist about the WD? 

Mine wants to prescrive me "zoloft" 🤦‍♀️

We definitely don't talk the same language... So I'm curious to see what they can bring us concretely for some people in WD... 

 

Indeed, a "wave" means worse symptoms.

 

Is your therapist a psychiatrist? He/she can suggest taking zoloft but you are free to say no, of course. In your case, I wouldn't recommend it. Your story indicates that you had an adverse reaction to the medications.

 

My therapist (not a psychiatrist) does not have any experience with people who have WD from antidepressants. She did ask about my symptoms and I explained everything to her.

 

She noticed that I am hyperfocusing on the WD symptoms and all the negative things which is making me feel worse.

 

She suggested to "experiment": To look for things that are enjoyable/delightful, to spend time in nature, to spend time with people that I love. Living more according to my values.

 

So now I focus more on implementing structure, good habits and enjoyable things but in small steps so I don't overwhelm myself and it helps 😊

 

Keep going, you've got this!

Hi @Niels91

 

Yes, almost, he is a "half-psychiatrist," because he is an "online" psychiatrist.

 

Obviously I will not take it... Before that, he prescribed me a sleeping pill because of the insomnia due to withdrawal. Not taken either obviously. Just the days following the prescription, the brain kind of went into 'alert' or I don’t know, and then I only had hypersomnia. In itself is not bad, the body really needs rest after all this and I am usually a heavy sleeper.
I will soon have a real in-person psychiatrist, we’ll see what it gives and if it’s more relevant or not. If that’s not the case, I’ll drop it quickly too. 

I also had a psychologist at the beginning. Like you, she didn't know anything about withdrawal. With the difference that she made me feel like an 'anomaly' by saying 'I have never seen a case like you'. I am already very susceptible by base so with the brain "unbolted" because of the medication in addition, no, thank you, it will be without me. Apart from completely impertinent psychological tricks regarding my situation (I only had a problem at work and that’s what led me to consult her), it didn’t bring me anything or even, kept me sad. She was obviously very little involved (she photocopied the same 'exercise' for me twice). I even had the impression sometimes that she was making fun of me, honestly. She knew that my case was far from requiring medication treatment and she told me nothing. Once the damage has been done, it comes out to me 'but your case is very light, a few sessions with me would have sufficed'. While not giving me an appointment back. Another marvel: I ask her "if a non-depressed person takes an AD, what happens?" His response (shocking): 'Nothing.' Oh, really?!!! I would have liked to make him eat some, to see his "dance" afterwards!! ...

So, I am angry about absolutely everyone (doctor, psychiatrist, psychologist...). All this beautiful, extremely dangerous and incompetent people, are totally useless in WD. And totally useless in general.

No one knows better than ourselves what we need. Having someone else speak for us can be hurtful. For some people maybe can be helpful. But remember we all don't have brain no more, like before the medication. That’s the worst. 

 

My conclusion : we are horribly alone. Like never before, really.

 

But I am happy to see that you have found a good psychologist, that you can trust.

 

Were you able to work immediately in May 2025? 

 

Your surroundings understand 'a little' what you are experiencing? Not my case.

 

Being obsessed with symptoms IS a withdrawal symptom. Here a very interessant article about it  : https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/10914-what-is-happening-in-your-brain/#comment-199680

Edited February 23Feb 23 by poulette38

On 2/23/2026 at 5:51 PM, poulette38 said:

 Were you able to work immediately in May 2025? 

 

Your surroundings understand 'a little' what you are experiencing? Not my case.

Hi @poulette38,

 

I worked full-time throughout 2025 and it was hard at times because of the brainfog, fatigue, anxiety, getting easily overwhelmed, anhedonia, etc. but I managed.

 

My friends and family have a hard time understanding my experience but that's to be expected. both my doctors say it's impossible to still have withdrawal symptoms after quitting escitalopram 9 months ago. The only person who acknowledged my experience (somewhat), was my psychiatrist.

 

You have to go through it in order to fully understand what it's like. And I haven't met anyone else in real-life who shares a similar story which doesn't really help 😅

Hello everyone,

 

Just wanted to give you all an update.

 

It seems that there was a shift about 2 weeks ago. On February 17th, I came out of a wave and had a good window for 4 days and I then went back into another wave but this time, it's different.

 

I experience anxiety and unease throughout the day and my thoughts are a little chaotic and persistent. My brain is hypervigilant, often checking how I'm feeling, spewing negative and sometimes catastrophic thoughts. I also have trouble falling asleep at times and I sleep for about 4-6 hours compared to the usual 7-8 with more morning cortisol/anxiety than usual. Anhedonia, aversion and avolition is still present as well.

 

I'm trying to make sense of this and I believe this is not just withdrawal but a combination of things. In in the past 1.5 weeks, I've been doing more things "outside my comfort zone" like applying for jobs, going out on my own/with friends, visiting the supermarket when it's busier, etc.

 

The thoughts that I've been having in the past few months were centered around limiting myself or around being very careful and doing less and less, to the point where I started to isolate myself without me realizing it. And so now that I'm pushing the edges of my comfort zone outwards, I believe my mind is protesting.

 

The reason I'm pushing outwards is because I am done waiting to get better and I want to live my life. I want to go out there, meet new people and find a girlfriend. I'm convinced that will only happen when I do things, not by sitting idle like I did in the past months.

 

I hope this intense period of anxiety will ease up as time goes on and that the other symptoms will dissipate as well. Time will tell 😊

Hi everyone, 

 

I am in very rough situation right now.

 

Since last week, my anxiety has been going through the roof and I initially thought it was because I was being more outgoing and such but I don't know... This feels different.

 

I notice that many of my thoughts trigger the anxious response and it is relentless. My mind is racing and is so hypervigilant. This whole situation makes me feel very fearful because it's been a long time since it was this intense. Lots of aversion and fear towards doing things and at this point, I wonder if this is still withdrawal or relapse.

 

Currently debating to go back on an AD but on a low dose to see if it helps because I haven't experienced it this severely. Maybe get some tests done to rule out anything physical.

 

Please share your thoughts.

Hello @Niels91 🙂

Do you have any physical symptoms related to your anxiety (tachycardia, tremors...)?

Are you facing a stressful situation these days?

I think that you were incredibly brave until now to didn't take anything and it would be a shame to start taking your pills again. 

It can be a wave too. 

You’re almost at the end of your withdrawal, it seems that it’s the moment during which there is an intensification of symptoms before they disappear.

You can distract yourself, go to the cinema for example.

Keep us informed ☺️ 

Hi @Niels91

I agree with @poulette38. It might be an intense wave before it all ends. Don't make a rash decision to go back on meds. You have endured so much without them up to this point. Understand that going back on will just prolong this whole situation and maybe you are so close to being it over! Please, have some more patience. 🙏🏻

15 minutes ago, poulette38 said:

Hello @Niels91 🙂

Do you have any physical symptoms related to your anxiety (tachycardia, tremors...)?

Are you facing a stressful situation these days?

I think that you were incredibly brave until now to didn't take anything and it would be a shame to start taking your pills again. 

It can be a wave too. 

You’re almost at the end of your withdrawal, it seems that it’s the moment during which there is an intensification of symptoms before they disappear.

You can distract yourself, go to the cinema for example.

Keep us informed ☺️ 

 

Hi @poulette38,

 

It's limited, I would say. My heart rate doesn't go up very much but my heartbeat is quite heavy and more noticeable. I also notice more fatigue because of all the adrenalin that is being released.

 

I really don't know what is going on right now. I feel like it could be multiple things. It's really hard to deal with this because I really don't feel like myself anymore. All this anxiety and aversion is crazy...

 

I had a fight with my mom last week because she's one of my caregivers and is having a hard time with everything that's happening to me 😢

 

I have so many doubts and questions. I just want to know what's going on with me and how I can solve this 😞

5 minutes ago, Marina said:

Hi @Niels91

I agree with @poulette38. It might be an intense wave before it all ends. Don't make a rash decision to go back on meds. You have endured so much without them up to this point. Understand that going back on will just prolong this whole situation and maybe you are so close to being it over! Please, have some more patience. 🙏🏻

 

Hi @Marina,

 

I know I shouldn't make rash decisions, I really do, but I feel so unsure about all this 😢 My parents tell me one thing. My doctors tell me another thing. And here on the forum, it's once again something else. In the past few weeks, I feel like I've hit a plateau.

 

I'm sorry, I just feel very afraid and kind of hopeless at the moment. I wish I could have some certainty on what's happening to me...

Dear @Niels91

We all feel that way, unfortunately. I am unsure with all of this as well. How to proceed, what to expect... All is unknown. But I have been burned by these drugs previously. I went off, felt desperate and went on it again and here I am now. In my second withdrawal which is way worse than my first one.

Conclusion: never again. Our best option is to stay away from these drugs forever.

What comforts me is re-reading success stories. And you know what they all have in common - it gets better with time and healing comes. We only have to be patient. Which, of course, is the hardest thing in the world.

 

Give it more time. At least, wait for 1 year off the drugs (I see it is in May for you). See how you feel then. Many people experience that "turning-a-corner" moment around 13 months. So, imagine you re-instate now and healing was just around the corner! That would suck.

 

I know you can endure. Just listen to your instinct. You will get better. It's a fact. This is just a wave. And waves pass.

3 hours ago, Niels91 said:

Please share your thoughts.

 

My thoughts are:

 

• In the last almost 3 years, you have gone on and off more than one antidepressant
• You had mostly successfully tapered off the last one, finishing less than a year ago
• You've been doing better and able to do more
• A (hopefully fairly temporary) wave of anxiety doesn't really change that, is is at least fairly likely to be a bump in the road towards getting 100% better
• Adding in additional drugs, again, to counteract effects of having reacted negatively to going on and off several other drugs is risky, to say the least

It doesn't seem worthwhile to me, for possible symptomatic relief for anxiety for several days in a row considering how many years of problems these drugs can cause.

1 hour ago, Marina said:

Dear @Niels91

We all feel that way, unfortunately. I am unsure with all of this as well. How to proceed, what to expect... All is unknown. But I have been burned by these drugs previously. I went off, felt desperate and went on it again and here I am now. In my second withdrawal which is way worse than my first one.

Conclusion: never again. Our best option is to stay away from these drugs forever.

What comforts me is re-reading success stories. And you know what they all have in common - it gets better with time and healing comes. We only have to be patient. Which, of course, is the hardest thing in the world.

 

Give it more time. At least, wait for 1 year off the drugs (I see it is in May for you). See how you feel then. Many people experience that "turning-a-corner" moment around 13 months. So, imagine you re-instate now and healing was just around the corner! That would suck.

 

I know you can endure. Just listen to your instinct. You will get better. It's a fact. This is just a wave. And waves pass.

 

I'm really sorry to hear you went into a second withdrawal and I really hope you get better soon ❤️

 

I haven't had any tests done to check for anything physical and that way I can at least eliminate some possibilities. It's a lot to bear but I don't have to tell you that. Please know that it is never my intention to just complain or whine.

 

I'll wait for now to see how it evolves.

@Niels91 You don't have to apologize for anything. We all feel like this most of the time. 

 

If it will ease your mind, definitely do some check ups and tests! When my withdrawal started I spent two months at different doctors thinking I had different diseases. But all tests turned out fine, and most doctors just said it's just my anxiety and wanted to get me back on the meds and add some benzos with that too! So, careful - do the tests but don't let them convince you that you need more psych meds. 🙏🏻

 

Patience is the best way in this process.

 

Thank you for your well-wishes. ❤️ I hope we all get some relief soon. 🙏🏻

2 hours ago, Luke said:

 

My thoughts are:

 

• In the last almost 3 years, you have gone on and off more than one antidepressant
• You had mostly successfully tapered off the last one, finishing less than a year ago
• You've been doing better and able to do more
• A (hopefully fairly temporary) wave of anxiety doesn't really change that, is is at least fairly likely to be a bump in the road towards getting 100% better
• Adding in additional drugs, again, to counteract effects of having reacted negatively to going on and off several other drugs is risky, to say the least

It doesn't seem worthwhile to me, for possible symptomatic relief for anxiety for several days in a row considering how many years of problems these drugs can cause.

 

Thank you for sharing your thoughts, @Luke.

 

I agree with most of the things you say. I just really hope that all of this is indeed withdrawal and will come to pass. The added uncertainty and the fact that progress is so slow makes everything that much more difficult. It's crazy how negative and anxious my brain can be during these waves.

 

I will wait for now and see how things develop in the next few days.

18 hours ago, Niels91 said:

Hi everyone, 

 

I am in very rough situation right now.

 

Since last week, my anxiety has been going through the roof and I initially thought it was because I was being more outgoing and such but I don't know... This feels different.

 

I notice that many of my thoughts trigger the anxious response and it is relentless. My mind is racing and is so hypervigilant. This whole situation makes me feel very fearful because it's been a long time since it was this intense. Lots of aversion and fear towards doing things and at this point, I wonder if this is still withdrawal or relapse.

 

Currently debating to go back on an AD but on a low dose to see if it helps because I haven't experienced it this severely. Maybe get some tests done to rule out anything physical.

 

Please share your thoughts.

Hey @Niels91

 

So sorry to hear how bad you are feeling atm! We all understand. It is a hell of a ride this!

 

I can assure you what you are experiencing is WD! 100%!

 

Looking at your footer you came off escitalopram very quickly and used a pill cutter too which is very inaccurate. This will have been an awful shock for your nervous system.

 

You can't treat WD symptoms with another AD. Don't be fooled into believing the medical model. It will be your biggest regret. Once your CNS is irritated further drugs will likely make it so much worse.

 

As Luke has said you have been doing better and able to do more. This is a really good sign.

 

Healing happens in waves and windows and in a wave, wave brain kicks in and makes us doubt ourselves and will we ever recover!  Don't listen to it, it is telling lies!

 

Hang in there mate a window is coming your way! 🙂 

 

Have a read of this. Acceptance is the most important tool we can have in our tool box. It's not an easy practice but it's vital. There are some great videos in the comments of the thread.

 

Acceptance is key

 

Chippy

12 hours ago, Chippy said:

Hey @Niels91

 

So sorry to hear how bad you are feeling atm! We all understand. It is a hell of a ride this!

 

I can assure you what you are experiencing is WD! 100%!

 

Looking at your footer you came off escitalopram very quickly and used a pill cutter too which is very inaccurate. This will have been an awful shock for your nervous system.

 

You can't treat WD symptoms with another AD. Don't be fooled into believing the medical model. It will be your biggest regret. Once your CNS is irritated further drugs will likely make it so much worse.

 

As Luke has said you have been doing better and able to do more. This is a really good sign.

 

Healing happens in waves and windows and in a wave, wave brain kicks in and makes us doubt ourselves and will we ever recover!  Don't listen to it, it is telling lies!

 

Hang in there mate a window is coming your way! 🙂 

 

Have a read of this. Acceptance is the most important tool we can have in our tool box. It's not an easy practice but it's vital. There are some great videos in the comments of the thread.

 

Acceptance is key

 

Chippy

 

Hi @Chippy,

 

Thank you, once again. Much appreciated.

 

I'm still not certain if this is WD or not but I'm gonna go ahead and say that it is the most likely option of the ones I have in mind.

Furthermore, I'm happy to share that my anxiety is almost completely gone now. I feel a lot more calm and collected. Seems I have entered a new window 🙂

 

When this anxiety and aversion rises during my waves, I don't respond, I'm only able to react and go into resistance because it so overwhelming and I start having these obsessive/looping thoughts. Sounds like neuro-emotions to me.

When all of this happens, it's worse than what I've been through back when my anxiety disorder was at its peak.
Even the aversion and avolition are so much stronger, so much more intense than I've ever experienced...

What a hell of a ride this is, indeed...

Edited March 5Mar 5 by Niels91

@Niels91

 

So glad to hear you are in a window.

keep strong! 

 

❤️🙏👊