@Chippy just need to make a decision which way to go on; with the syringe or the drops .

Just now, Chippy said:

Ok, yeah so no major reaction, thats good. I think perhaps we we're right before, just a wave. Keep observing....

It could be both . I think when Ri the wd symptoms also can get worse a bit. Don’t know I’m just guessing.

Just now, Saar8srl said:

@Chippy just need to make a decision which way to go on; with the syringe or the drops .

Just use the syringe this is fine. 0.1ml=2mg

Just now, Saar8srl said:

It could be both . I think when Ri the wd symptoms also can get worse a bit. Don’t know I’m just guessing.

Yeah they can, however they didn't straight away and I would expect this tbh. Also if your body is not liking the drug then I would think it would react very immediately to the increase.

@Chippy is it equal to the drops I use to take ? Otherwise I’m taking different doses . I have been taking 1 drop since 9 of August.

4 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

@Chippy is it equal to the drops I use to take ? Otherwise I’m taking different doses . I have been taking 1 drop since 9 of August.

What did you take yesterday?

It is the same. There will be variations between the two but as you were updosing anyways I wouldn't worry about it. If you took 0.1ml yesterday just keep doing that.

2 Drops is 2 mg

0.1ml is 2mg

5 minutes ago, Chippy said:

have been taking 1 drop since 9 of August.

What did you take yesterday?

It is the same. There will be variations between the two but as you were updosing anyways I wouldn't worry about it. If you took 0.1ml yesterday just keep doing that.

2 Drops is 2 mg

0.1ml is 2mg

When tapering off I have to be more precise, right ?

Just now, Saar8srl said:

When tapering off I have to be more precise, right ?

Yes when tapering you would need to make a more dilute solution. We can help you with this when the time comes.

Question, if I’m not getting worse and don’t see any improvement, does if mean that the cnz is to defected ? How do I know if the Ri is working or not?

@Chippy my anhedonie is getting worse. Could this be a wave or a reaction on the Ri? Maybe side effect?

I know this site is an anti meditation site. I just don’t know if I make things worse by Ri. Is it normal that the anhedonia is getting worse in the first days after the Ri?

12 hours ago, Saar8srl said:

Question, if I’m not getting worse and don’t see any improvement, does if mean that the cnz is to defected ? How do I know if the Ri is working or not?

1 hour ago, Saar8srl said:

@Chippy my anhedonie is getting worse. Could this be a wave or a reaction on the Ri? Maybe side effect?

It's hard to say, your posts are conflicting?....

Of course whilst you are waiting to see the effects of a dose increase you could and probably are cyling through waves and windows.

If you think there is no change, that is good, it maybe the dose is still too low to have an effect, I wouldn't be surprised IMO with Zoloft. If this was Lexapro I would have a different opinon.

30 minutes ago, Chippy said:

t's hard to say, your posts are conflicting?....

My anhedonia is on his worse today and I can’t barely get out of the bed. It’s like life is just passing by . I dont feel anything and don’t have thoughts . It’s been the worse day since my wd. Maybe it’s the Ri maybe wd. Who cares I don’t

6 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

It’s been the worse day since my wd. Maybe it’s the Ri maybe wd

It could be either. How many days at 2mg now? Day 4/5?

17 minutes ago, Chippy said:

It could be either. How many days at 2mg now? Day 4/5?

Day 4. I have bad si. In just not that strong as you guys are

18 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

Day 4. I have bad si. In just not that strong as you guys are

It’s not about strength. We all struggle. It’s about coping skills. You’re stronger than you think.

If you think things are worsening it could be the dose is too much. You could give one day and see or return to 1mg and see how you are then.

15 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

Day 4. I have bad si. In just not that strong as you guys are

im so sorry to hear that.. if you meant to say that youre not that strong as we are then thats not true at all. its a tough situation youre in but the fact that youre still fighting just proves how strong you are, dont underestimate yourself! remember that the SI are just thoughts and that they cant harm you as disturbing as they may be. ive struggled with them alot too but its gotten better and im sure that itll get better for you too.

30 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

Day 4. I have bad si. In just not that strong as you guys are

Oh, you definitely are. It's that tricky chemical brain messing with you again, feels 100% real but it isn't, believe me I’m right there in the trenches with you!

Hang in there, keep yourself safe, and keep sharing, let others lend you some perspective because your mind is clouding things up right now.

Sending a huge hug.

Edited September 3Sep 3 by Fullhealing

Thank you guys so much . I try to see myself as a sick person but even in my worse day I couldn’t remember feeling like this . This is so totally different than anything i have been through…

1 hour ago, Saar8srl said:

Thank you guys so much . I try to see myself as a sick person but even in my worse day I couldn’t remember feeling like this . This is so totally different than anything i have been through…

Sending some love @Saar8srl xxxxx There is nothing else on earth like WD, it seems unimaginable until you have to deal with it head on. I dont think you are sick you are injured my friend.

22 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Sending some love @Saar8srl xxxxx There is nothing else on earth like WD, it seems unimaginable until you have to deal with it head on. I dont think you are sick you are injured my friend.

You are the kindest. Do you also suffer from wd ? Anhedonia and depression?

On 8/25/2026 at 5:09 PM, Saar8srl said:

I have a question for you guys .. I start doubting myself . I use to be a very active person . A person that did more than she should … now since the wd and the changes and horrible depression and anhedonia im changes . It’s not because I’m lazy it’s because I can’t simpely do the simple things when I am in the wave. I have help from an institution that take care of people with psychiatric problems . You have to join a big group 6 weeks and do daily stuff. After that they will see if you are able to do therapie. I have joined the group 2 times and after that a wave kicks in. I could feel it was too much for me . Now I don’t know do I have to push myself even in the darkest darkest days ( I really tried, believe me) or do I have to listen to my body and just stay home. I can’t find the strength to fight this depression I really can’t and when I’m feeling like this I really don’t want to be around other people?

Am I the only one guys?? Is anyone else also feeling what I’m saying ?

Lots of love

Hi @Saar8srl

Yes, I felt that too. And I’m not even talking about the chemical anger. I realized that I could no longer expect anything good from anyone or anything, apart from the support of this forum and one close friend. I had to make the decision that seemed most appropriate to me: to completely isolate myself from all that surrounding “noise.” I spent five months on my own, trying to support myself.

I think that this isolation was beneficial for me, even though it wasn’t easy. Do whatever feels right for your own situation, but above all, listen to your intuition. It’s the only thing that knows what’s right, above everything else.

3 hours ago, Chippy said:

If you think things are worsening it could be the dose is too much. You could give one day and see or return to 1mg and see how you are then.

I can’t even imagine this is only caused by 2 mg but who am I . I think I hold it and ask mark what to do…

On 8/25/2026 at 5:09 PM, Saar8srl said:

I have a question for you guys .. I start doubting myself . I use to be a very active person . A person that did more than she should … now since the wd and the changes and horrible depression and anhedonia im changes . It’s not because I’m lazy it’s because I can’t simpely do the simple things when I am in the wave. I have help from an institution that take care of people with psychiatric problems . You have to join a big group 6 weeks and do daily stuff. After that they will see if you are able to do therapie. I have joined the group 2 times and after that a wave kicks in. I could feel it was too much for me . Now I don’t know do I have to push myself even in the darkest darkest days ( I really tried, believe me) or do I have to listen to my body and just stay home. I can’t find the strength to fight this depression I really can’t and when I’m feeling like this I really don’t want to be around other people?

Am I the only one guys?? Is anyone else also feeling what I’m saying ?

Lots of love

Hi @Saar8srl

Yes, I felt that too. And I’m not even talking about the chemical anger. I realized that I could no longer expect anything good from anyone or anything, apart from the support of this forum and one close friend. I had to make the decision that seemed most appropriate to me: to completely isolate myself from all that surrounding “noise.” I spent five months on my own, trying to support myself.

I think that this isolation was beneficial for me, even though it wasn’t easy. Do whatever feels right for your own situation, but above all, listen to your intuition. It’s the only thing that knows what’s right, above everything else.

@Chippy could you give me advice on tapering off the 2 mg?