26 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

I can’t even imagine this is only caused by 2 mg but who am I . I think I hold it and ask mark what to do…

See how you go tomorrow perhaps.

Did I loose the time that I was recovering from wd because of my Ri?

2 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

@Chippy could you give me advice on tapering off the 2 mg?

If you wanted to drop the dose I’d go to 1mg to start with and then go from there.

Perhaps as you said waiting to speak to Mark might be a good idea before you make too many more changes.

Just now, Saar8srl said:

Did I loose the time that I was recovering from wd because of my Ri?

I think you’re overthinking this now. Be calm and try not to think along those lines. You cant rewind time and rerun this without ri. You’ll never know how it would have gone. It’s not how this works. Be at peace with the choices you have made and move forwards xxx

On 8/3/2026 at 11:07 AM, Saar8srl said:

Can’t believe this is happening to me . Did anyone cured from this kind of depression from WD? I start to think this is my own depression…maybe

Personally back in 2017 to mid 2018, I felt the best ever being off meds and having a good, clean diet. A bad breakup sent me downward and put me in the psych merry go round again.

But that period of my life is my shining beacon that its possible to get back there.

It’s hard for me to measure the 1 mg from the syringe. Is there another way to taper down

Hi @Saar8srl. I noticed that you are from the Netherlands, I’m half Dutch myself but unfortunately I cannot speak any Dutch. Where abouts in Holland are you from? My family are from Rotterdam

1 minute ago, Johan1233 said:

Hi @Saar8srl. I noticed that you are from the Netherlands, I’m half Dutch myself but unfortunately I cannot speak any Dutch. Where abouts in Holland are you from? My family are from Rotterdam

Hi there,

Nice to meet you. I’m from Amsterdam. Hope you are doing ok. Lots of love

56 minutes ago, Chippy said:

I think you’re overthinking this now. Be calm and try not to think along those lines. You cant rewind time and rerun this without ri. You’ll never know how it would have gone. It’s not how this works. Be at peace with the choices you have made and move forwards xxx

I’m trying to be really . Thank you for your kind words. I want to do this the right way. I am going to take 1 mg tomorrow. I just found out I have pssd. And this I didn’t have with the 1 mg. So I tried and it didn’t work . Now I want of and i will start with losing the 1 mg tomorrow. I just don’t know how to measure the other 1 mg. The liquid is so tick that I can hardly get it right. That’s why I use the drops.

28 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

It’s hard for me to measure the 1 mg from the syringe. Is there another way to taper down

Yes of course. We can help with that. One step at a time.

1 hour ago, poulette38 said:

I think that this isolation was beneficial for me, even though it wasn’t easy. Do whatever feels right for your own situation, but above all, listen to your intuition. It’s the only thing that knows what’s right, above everything else.

Thank you for your massage . My daughter is not living with me at the moment . My depression and anhedonia make it hard for me to function even on my own. It’s really painful because I used to take care by myself since her birth. But what can I do . Nobody wants this situation …I wish you al best in your recovery my dear. My heart is with you

1 minute ago, Chippy said:

Yes of course. We can help with that. One step at a time.

So tomorrow I stop the 1mg and then wait a time of the next day start to taper the rest of the other 1 mg?

2 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

I’m trying to be really . Thank you for your kind words. I want to do this the right way. I am going to take 1 mg tomorrow.

You are doing great.

3 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

I just found out I have pssd.

You don’t, that is a name given to folk with issues off the drug. You’ve got a little sexual dysfunction maybe which is normal in wd/taking these.

48 minutes ago, Kahran said:

Personally back in 2017 to mid 2018, I felt the best ever being off meds and having a good, clean diet. A bad breakup sent me downward and put me in the psych merry go round again.

Dear @Kahran I think you are still very young and I think that means that you will be able to heal soon and you have great life ahead of you. I wish you al the best and lots of love and recovery my dear ❤️

1 minute ago, Saar8srl said:

So tomorrow I stop the 1mg and then wait a time of the next day start to taper the rest of the other 1 mg?

You’ve only taken 2mg for a few days. Drop back to 1mg for a few days and then we can talk about the remaining dose and how to get off it. Xxx

5 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Oh, you definitely are. It's that tricky chemical brain messing with you again, feels 100% real but it isn't, believe me I’m right there in the trenches with you!

Hang in there, keep yourself safe, and keep sharing, let others lend you some perspective because your mind is clouding things up right now.

Sending a huge hug.

Thank you so much again for your words. I used to be so uplifting. The kind of person everyone came to when they were feeling down or in trouble. They called me a superwomen. Taking care for my daughter, working and working out and never complaining about the things which went wrong. I also never had support from anyone. Not family , friends . Just did it on my own. What to say . We don’t choose the life that we get. Until now I could mange a smile even when thinks went of hand. Now that that’s also has been taking away from me I feel so damn miserable . I don’t know how to mange to accept that the only thing that kept me going has been taking away for me . My positive mentality and my smile and the dreams I used to have …

5 hours ago, Some0n3 said:

im so sorry to hear that.. if you meant to say that youre not that strong as we are then thats not true at all. its a tough situation youre in but the fact that youre still fighting just proves how strong you are, dont underestimate yourself! remember that the SI are just thoughts and that they cant harm you as disturbing as they may be. ive struggled with them alot too but its gotten better and im sure that itll get better for you too.

Thank you so much for your massage my dear. I have to be honest cause I don’t feel this is a please to wear masks. I went online searching for ways to end it. I don’t know how you guys handling this wd but it’s taking me down bad very bad. Emotionally I’m just ruined and nothing matters anymore and that is even the worst part of al of this … this is how I feel and I can’t cheer people up and be there for others not even for my own daughter

25 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

Thank you so much for your massage my dear. I have to be honest cause I don’t feel this is a please to wear masks. I went online searching for ways to end it. I don’t know how you guys handling this wd but it’s taking me down bad very bad. Emotionally I’m just ruined and nothing matters anymore and that is even the worst part of al of this … this is how I feel and I can’t cheer people up and be there for others not even for my own daughter

Please be safe @Saar8srl no permanent solutions this is a temporary situation. Hang in there. Life will be better. Your daughter needs you. X

@Saar8srl it will get better!!! I promise. I also have (had) pssd symptoms. You can look in my thread, and I am improving. It’s VERY slow, and I still have a long road to got, but do get pieces of myself back, veeeery slowly. I didn’t see much improvements in the first 10 months. Only the last month I noticed my baseline getting better.

In the Netherlands, Jim van Os is a very good humane psychiatrist and professor. He is aware of PAWS and PSSD, you can ask him for advice for free.

https://www.psychosenet.nl/stel-vraag/?

You might also inform if https://www.ggzcentraal.nl/over-ons/expertisecentrum-bijwerkingen/ can help you with your taper plan. Or https://www.afbouwapotheker.nl/

There is also a Dutch FB group;

https://www.facebook.com/share/g/1JwzipBVTN/?mibextid=wwXIfr

Hang in there, just survive, until a better day comes ❤️❤️‍🩹

34 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

Thank you so much for your massage my dear. I have to be honest cause I don’t feel this is a please to wear masks. I went online searching for ways to end it. I don’t know how you guys handling this wd but it’s taking me down bad very bad. Emotionally I’m just ruined and nothing matters anymore and that is even the worst part of al of this … this is how I feel and I can’t cheer people up and be there for others not even for my own daughter

Thank you for being honest but please dont make any permanent choices for a temporary problem. It might feel like nothing matters now but i promise you that how youre feeling isnt you, its the suffering clouding your judgement. I used to have SI everyday to the point where i was struggling to find reasons to live at times but it does get better so please hang on! If you feel like you might be in danger of doing something to yourself then please contact some help.

Edited September 3Sep 3 by Some0n3

48 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

Thank you so much for your massage my dear. I have to be honest cause I don’t feel this is a please to wear masks. I went online searching for ways to end it. I don’t know how you guys handling this wd but it’s taking me down bad very bad. Emotionally I’m just ruined and nothing matters anymore and that is even the worst part of al of this … this is how I feel and I can’t cheer people up and be there for others not even for my own daughter

Im so sorry @Saar8srl I know how overwhelming, exhausting, and unbearable it can feel, just a minutes ago I was sitting in the exact same place.

Please remember that this is purely a chemical imbalance at play and it is temporary, your system has been through a profound shock and is working hard to recalibrate which will eventually happen.

At the same time, your safety and well-being are paramount, If you ever feel that you are at risk or totally unable to cope please reach out to professional support or a local helpline in your area immediately, while we are always here to support you we are not professionals.

Please take good care and stay safe, you are not alone in this.

Big worm hug to you.

19 minutes ago, Sophia said:

@Saar8srl it will get better!!! I promise. I also have (had) pssd symptoms. You can look in my thread, and I am improving. It’s VERY slow, and I still have a long road to got, but do get pieces of myself back, veeeery slowly. I didn’t see much improvements in the first 10 months. Only the last month I noticed my baseline getting better.

In the Netherlands, Jim van Os is a very good humane psychiatrist and professor. He is aware of PAWS and PSSD, you can ask him for advice for free.

https://www.psychosenet.nl/stel-vraag/?

You might also inform if https://www.ggzcentraal.nl/over-ons/expertisecentrum-bijwerkingen/ can help you with your taper plan. Or https://www.afbouwapotheker.nl/

There is also a Dutch FB group;

https://www.facebook.com/share/g/1JwzipBVTN/?mibextid=wwXIfr

Hang in there, just survive, until a better day comes ❤️❤️‍🩹

Thank you so much dear Sophia . ❤️

I’m not trying to freak people out here but this is the place where I freely can talk about my feelings and what is going on in my mind . I can’t imagine this is my life now and can’t imagine thinking about si. Nerver thought my life will come to this point to even think about this things.

5 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

I’m not trying to freak people out here but this is the place where I freely can talk about my feelings and what is going on in my mind . I can’t imagine this is my life now and can’t imagine thinking about si. Nerver thought my life will come to this point to even think about this things.

Youre not freaking anyone out so dont worry! Im glad that youre being honest with us! I dont think that anyone of us expected for our lives to get changed so drastically like this but for what its worth, this experience builds character and that means that you might be able to handle life's difficulties easier in the future!

Edited September 3Sep 3 by Some0n3

9 minutes ago, Saar8srl said:

I’m not trying to freak people out here but this is the place where I freely can talk about my feelings and what is going on in my mind . I can’t imagine this is my life now and can’t imagine thinking about si. Nerver thought my life will come to this point to even think about this things.

Please don't worry about freaking us out, this forum is here for you to share your feelings. But how you feel now is not forever. This is absolutely not your life. Do what you need to do to keep yourself safe until you heal, because you will heal and you will be happy that you stayed in the fight.