It's good to hear from you.

I choose to be positive cause this is the way we can move forward and heal, it's easy to get down the despair rabbithole, i believe life is more than just the material aspect of it, if you believe you will heal and get better, you will continue do so more than if you give up, ths moment you give up, that's when your body is able to do less as well since your spirit is no longer fueling it, you can fuel your body with your spirit in some ways.

I deal with dyskinesia/movement stuff and still find a reason to move forward.

I hope the reinstatement helped you enough to the point it's more tolerable now, I know you will do what you have to do and I believe in you like I believe in anyone else here ❣️

Much Love ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Edited September 26Sep 26 by Lighty

22 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

hadn't factored in DRUG TOLERENCE.

I have seen people have to reinstate higher than we often think. Especially with the drugs that seem to hit harder. I don't think you are in tolerance....since the 2 mg has been positive, I would slowly updose to get to a better place. Once you are stable you can decide whether to sit with the drug or slowly decrease.

No need to make any big decisions at this point.

I'm taking it one day at a time. 🍂❤️🙏🍁

6 minutes ago, LostinCanada said:

I have seen people have to reinstate higher than we often think. Especially with the drugs that seem to hit harder. I don't think you are in tolerance....since the 2 mg has been positive, I would slowly updose to get to a better place. Once you are stable you can decide whether to sit with the drug or slowly decrease.

No need to make any big decisions at this point.

I'm taking it one day at a time. 🍂❤️🙏🍁

You may want to consider this, up to you B.

@NT1100B BBBBBBBBB! 😊 I’m so freeking happy to hear from you mate! 🫂

I hate how you are suffering still it’s amazing that the reinstatement has helped though! What did you do mid August? Just go for 2mg? Did you start lower and work up?

Ri isnt unfortunately a complete cure for the carnage that these drugs cause but a crutch. It can take sometime for things to settle after reinstating. We get windows and waves during that period. You have not been back on very long. Don’t feel the walls moving in mate. I don’t think this is tolerance. The drug isn’t making you sleep, it is answering the call from the brain for a drug it has become dependent on. Tolerance is the effect of the drug wearing off.

You could increase your dose carefully and see if you react well to it. Just a little although at 2mg I think this may well be enough for you imho.

Hang tight mate. I really think this is just a wave. It feels like you are going backwards. I don’t believe that. I think it’s just the body thrashing around for stability. ONE DAY AT A TIME! We are here for you. Always have been. Always will be. Xxxxx

11 hours ago, NT1100B said:

Hi Luke, I see you are very slowly improving....keep it going.

Yes, particularly in the last 6 months. I'm moving the right way, but it takes a long, long time.

I hope you stabilise or improve further.

On 9/27/2026 at 5:26 AM, NT1100B said:

Hi all, never been far away. NO good news I am afraid. What a ******. Yes where do I start......WELL I am still alive, contemplated ending it tonight....but haven't the guts yet. Maybe it's not my time quite yet, feels like it though. SO I got to the point after 19 months off Mirt....I had two choices, END my life or reinstate??? I chose to reinstate, quite strange how I chose to continue living in a living hell, a life not worthy of living, even that one takes some working out. So yes, instant sleep again, 6- 8 hours immediate, BUT that's tailing off a bit. So I am on about 2mg of Mirt, did I do right? did I do wrong? who the F... knows with this ****. I am still alive....just, life is no more than survival still. HOW this **** is still given out is beyond me, humans being decimated and deceived into the worst mental torture, what only the sufferer understands, is incomprehensible. Motorbike GONE, car GONE...very little left keeping me alive, Mind and body as good as useless, what the **** have we ALL done to deserve this ****??????? People don't believe us.....even family eventually turn their backs, be a different matter if THEY were in it eh? So yes have I made a huge mistake? who knows 19 months and ready to end my life....maybe I should have....at lease I would have been at peace. But no our minds have been destroyed. I asked AI if taking Mirtazapine destroys the brain cells forever???? look it up yourselves, I was not encouraged by the answer. So I see you are ALL plodding on.....GOD be with you all, I recognise in a few, drug tolerance is a major factor. I think to a certain extent that it's happening with me now, still helping a bit with sleep and stomach, although that's wearing off a bit, BUT I became drug tolerant of Tramadol....so recognise the score of it, You CANNOT be in withdrawal when you are still taking it, unless you have dropped too fast. I saw an article about Metformin yesterday, from what I gather, it was introduced in 1957......yes? it's only just now it's been recognized as to HOW it actually works!!!!!! SO WHAT about ALL these ADs then?????????? Talk about being a guinea pig!!!!!! F**** sake. So yes what now? Well to be honest I haven't the answer, I just wish I had the guts to end it, because I sure as hell don't want 10 more years of this ****. Sorry if this sounds bad.....but I will ONLY tell the TRUTH as it IS. Whichever way I look at it, WE KNOW their is NO easy solution and it's going to take YEARS. There is a MINORITY hit HARD.....I am afraid I am one of those. STAY focussed, and DO what YOU have got to do.

Sorry about NO good news. B.

I'm So sorry Mr B , you've gone through this . My heart goes out to you. this is so unfair to you and all of us you just have to keep blobbing on .

6 hours ago, cheeky said:

I'm So sorry Mr B , you've gone through this . My heart goes out to you. this is so unfair to you and all of us you just have to keep blobbing on .

Thanks @cheeky your connection means a lot. I have never MISSED a day of being on here. Hovering in the background. SO yes I am back on as you know. I was at such a LOW LOW place after been OFF for 19 months. THAT was AFTER an 18 month taper off 7.5 mg!!!!!!!. So yes I am getting on in age now.....and so it was it end it!!!! OR go back on a small amount. 19 months of 4 hours and LESS sleep had brought me to this. SO....well as you have seen, my sleep is better than it was, and stomach issues better, but remember that's the drugs doing....not healing. I am just going to continue for now, I have raised it a bit....maybe 4.5 mg now and feel a bit better. But here's one for you, last week I took half a pill of Magnesium Glycinate, and for Christ's sake, sent me on a massive downer all week. So my brain is STILL mega sensitized. I know for a fact Mirtazapine is on a par with Paxil, both are unbelievably EVIL drugs, among the many others. But definitely top of the pile. So yes my philosophy was to get in a better place.......but now even me is thinking WHAT IF.....another month? another 6 month? a year or more?

But hey it's done now, I am beyond middle age now and the way that it's hammered me, and lost me over £50000 in earnings, not a penny coming in since early March, I suppose I was at the end of my tether, and this along with the mind destroying drug was what brought me to where I am. So yes I have shunning DOCTORS, Dentists and Optician's, DOCTORS especially, WHAT the hell would THEY do??? even though I am SURE they REGOGNIZE it as I am signed off incapable of work until Jan 2027, SO they KNOW the score, but obviously don't know what to do. So Cheeky, it's plod on again for now.....if the drug does get me in a better place, then so be it. I am open to stay on it for life. Very strange but good thing, it's no longer making me hungry, brain changed obviously.

SO you are still doing well Cheeky, you are slowly but SURELY getting lower and lower of the drugs, AND living a near normal life. VERY WELL done. Finding that balance cannot be easy, and I sure take my hat off to you for that. You know the horrors of going too fast, so if you just continue as you are, plodding along very slowly, I am SURE you will get to where you want to be. It will be Spring in Australia, so I hope the weather is already getting better for you. We had a scorcher this summer 48c I got on my thermometer in the sun.

Keep plodding Cheeky B.

5 hours ago, NT1100B said:

have raised it a bit....maybe 4.5 mg now and feel a bit better.

Good for you @NT1100B

No shame in that. Fighting and kicking looks different for each of us. Trust me, I have considered sitting at this dose forever but I was already in poop out so on I go.

5 hours ago, NT1100B said:

ost me over £50000 in earnings,

My hubby had to quit work to babysit me...4 years of no wages...just disability which is a joke and now Old Age Pension....all under poverty....but I keep counting the blessings....and I think of you in that beautiful part of England...no one can take that from you. ❤️🙏

6 hours ago, NT1100B said:

maybe 4.5 mg now and feel a bit better.

Very happy to read this B. Hopefully things can finally settle for you now.

On 9/26/2026 at 9:46 PM, Lighty said:

I hope the reinstatement helped you enough to the point it's more tolerable now, I know you will do what you have to do and I believe in you like I believe in anyone else here ❣️

Thanks @Lighty good on you bud. Take it easy yourself and stay strong.

21 minutes ago, LostinCanada said:

No shame in that. Fighting and kicking looks different for each of us. Trust me, I have considered sitting at this dose forever but I was already in poop out so on I go.

Thanks @LostinCanada Very sorry to hear yours is poop out.....horrendous. Tramadol did exactly that to me, worked for a year 300mg a DAY, then BAM, lost a week off work, was it Covid, hadn't a clue what was wrong. VERY ill. Then looking at side affects on the laptop.....no, nothing. Then feathering down, come across WITHDRAWALS.....EXACTLY fitted the bill.....but HOW? I am on 300mg a day, I could have gone higher, 400mg is MAX, but when I learned it was drug tolerance....poop out, the only answer was taper OFF. Now this was all done while back at work.

Now getting off Tramadol was meant to be bad, but I got off it while still at work over a few months. A walk in the PARK compared to Mirtazapine. Which through the lasting withdrawal symptom of Tramadol.....INSOMNIA, I think I went 3-4 week in full time employment, early summer contract grass cutting, with ZERO sleep. UNREAL. SO of course mirtazapine was introduced, sorry I tried another one very briefly which was useless. SO yes Mirt put me out like a light. BUT WHY didn't they SAY.....take it for 3 weeks, then very gradually taper off? it's dangerous. CLUELESS.....that would have sorted me.....but here we are.

Yes sorry LIC with me thinking I am in poop out now, I haven't explained properly....it's NOT working exactly like before.....because of my brain being still very sensitized, well that's my theory, now lets hope it stays this way because my insatiable hunger is GONE. Now that's a massive plus if it keeps going like this, because out of the 50 plus symptoms THAT was the worst.....8 stone.....monstrous. As bad and not back yet is motivation.....that is a killer....just can't be bothered with ANYTHING. Now I did get one bit of good news today....hopefully after a call I got from DWP.....my sick pay will be reinstated, backdated to early March. SO that's something, but I won't believe until my eyes SEE it in my account.

SO yes LIC, thanks for not classing me a failure, even though I very much feel that at many times. I might have been a month off picking up WHO knows. ALL I know is I had done everything by the book and still felt like death warmed up after, 18 month taper and 19 months OFF the drug. So yes WE are ALL different and some are genetically prone too SEVERE symptoms and withdrawal, unfortunately I am one of THAT GROUP. Think of it similar to alcohol, affects everyone a different way. So you are still doing good LIC, slowly but surely you are getting there, but OBVIOUSLY harder for you, with being drug tolerant. Sending strength to you LIC.....Keep plodding. B.

1 hour ago, Chippy said:

Very happy to read this B. Hopefully things can finally settle for you now.

How goes it @Chippy I hope you are STILL improving. You and Luke are still doing a fine job on here.

I shall just keep plodding bud. Take care, B.👍

9 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

Thanks @LostinCanada Very sorry to hear yours is poop out.....horrendous. Tramadol did exactly that to me, worked for a year 300mg a DAY, then BAM, lost a week off work, was it Covid, hadn't a clue what was wrong. VERY ill. Then looking at side affects on the laptop.....no, nothing. Then feathering down, come across WITHDRAWALS.....EXACTLY fitted the bill.....but HOW? I am on 300mg a day, I could have gone higher, 400mg is MAX, but when I learned it was drug tolerance....poop out, the only answer was taper OFF. Now this was all done while back at work.

Now getting off Tramadol was meant to be bad, but I got off it while still at work over a few months. A walk in the PARK compared to Mirtazapine. Which through the lasting withdrawal symptom of Tramadol.....INSOMNIA, I think I went 3-4 week in full time employment, early summer contract grass cutting, with ZERO sleep. UNREAL. SO of course mirtazapine was introduced, sorry I tried another one very briefly which was useless. SO yes Mirt put me out like a light. BUT WHY didn't they SAY.....take it for 3 weeks, then very gradually taper off? it's dangerous. CLUELESS.....that would have sorted me.....but here we are.

Yes sorry LIC with me thinking I am in poop out now, I haven't explained properly....it's NOT working exactly like before.....because of my brain being still very sensitized, well that's my theory, now lets hope it stays this way because my insatiable hunger is GONE. Now that's a massive plus if it keeps going like this, because out of the 50 plus symptoms THAT was the worst.....8 stone.....monstrous. As bad and not back yet is motivation.....that is a killer....just can't be bothered with ANYTHING. Now I did get one bit of good news today....hopefully after a call I got from DWP.....my sick pay will be reinstated, backdated to early March. SO that's something, but I won't believe until my eyes SEE it in my account.

SO yes LIC, thanks for not classing me a failure, even though I very much feel that at many times. I might have been a month off picking up WHO knows. ALL I know is I had done everything by the book and still felt like death warmed up after, 18 month taper and 19 months OFF the drug. So yes WE are ALL different and some are genetically prone too SEVERE symptoms and withdrawal, unfortunately I am one of THAT GROUP. Think of it similar to alcohol, affects everyone a different way. So you are still doing good LIC, slowly but surely you are getting there, but OBVIOUSLY harder for you, with being drug tolerant. Sending strength to you LIC.....Keep plodding. B.

You're never a failure mate, these drugs are extremely dangerous and unpredictable, the kind of torture you tolerated for quite a while is impressive to me, I would have probably done the same thing in your situation.

Hello B., @NT1100B I am so happy to see your posts. You survived, wow, in spite of your terrible suffering you kept going, what a strong warrior. I hope and pray that the reinstatement will help you.

8 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

SO yes LIC, thanks for not classing me a failure, even though I very much feel that at many times.

I am sure no one here will class you a failure, you are so patient and strong, have always been an inspiration for many and still are.

Take care and let us know how you feel!

12 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

t's NOT working exactly like before.....because of my brain being still very sensitized, well that's my theory, now lets hope it stays this way because my insatiable hunger is GONE.

As long as it is helping, I am happy. I have read about Mark Horowitz saying he had to increase before he could keep tapering. I believe many of us have a sweet spot with these drugs...for me it was 15 mg...I always felt better there but if course that wasn't a standard dose so I always trusted the doctor and increased

I hope you find your sweet spot and it holds for you.

16 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

Now I did get one bit of good news today....hopefully after a call I got from DWP.....my sick pay will be reinstated, backdated to early March.

Awesome...let's hope you are it for real.

17 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

SO yes LIC, thanks for not classing me a failure, even though I very much feel that at many times

Sometimes seeing others on the forum progress or taper fast than I can, etc...it can make us unfairly compare ourselves or feel we are in competition. We just can't go down that path.

You nailed it about genetics. I analyzed my DNA...just did the freebie health one, plugging in my Ancestry DNA file. Not all my enzymes are functioning as normal metabolizers. For example, if I were to take statins, I would more than likely end up with muscle injury or kidney failure. My dr wanted me on those but I told him, the paroxetine is causing the higher cholesterol. I am happy I said no and now on the lower paroxetine, my cholesterol is levelling out. Same, I can't take BP meds due to enzyme inactivity. There is so much going on in our complex bodies so never feel bad.

💯❤️🙏 Plodding together, soon we will be skipping 🤣

46 minutes ago, MischaDE said:

You're never a failure mate, these drugs are extremely dangerous and unpredictable, the kind of torture you tolerated for quite a while is impressive to me, I would have probably done the same thing in your situation.

Exactly this @NT1100B, we're all just doing our best in an awful situation.

@NT1100B B you are 100% NOT a faliure! You are an absolute Warrior and we all very much love and respect you for your humour, warm heartedness and strength through what has been an awful experience over the last few years for you. Many of us would not have coped as well as you have. RI has helped this is great, there are not many tools in the WD tool box, RI is a legitimate one and when it works it works well for some.

Keep us upto date with how you are getting on bud! 👊

23 hours ago, NT1100B said:

Thanks @cheeky your connection means a lot. I have never MISSED a day of being on here. Hovering in the background. SO yes I am back on as you know. I was at such a LOW LOW place after been OFF for 19 months. THAT was AFTER an 18 month taper off 7.5 mg!!!!!!!. So yes I am getting on in age now.....and so it was it end it!!!! OR go back on a small amount. 19 months of 4 hours and LESS sleep had brought me to this. SO....well as you have seen, my sleep is better than it was, and stomach issues better, but remember that's the drugs doing....not healing. I am just going to continue for now, I have raised it a bit....maybe 4.5 mg now and feel a bit better. But here's one for you, last week I took half a pill of Magnesium Glycinate, and for Christ's sake, sent me on a massive downer all week. So my brain is STILL mega sensitized. I know for a fact Mirtazapine is on a par with Paxil, both are unbelievably EVIL drugs, among the many others. But definitely top of the pile. So yes my philosophy was to get in a better place.......but now even me is thinking WHAT IF.....another month? another 6 month? a year or more?

But hey it's done now, I am beyond middle age now and the way that it's hammered me, and lost me over £50000 in earnings, not a penny coming in since early March, I suppose I was at the end of my tether, and this along with the mind destroying drug was what brought me to where I am. So yes I have shunning DOCTORS, Dentists and Optician's, DOCTORS especially, WHAT the hell would THEY do??? even though I am SURE they REGOGNIZE it as I am signed off incapable of work until Jan 2027, SO they KNOW the score, but obviously don't know what to do. So Cheeky, it's plod on again for now.....if the drug does get me in a better place, then so be it. I am open to stay on it for life. Very strange but good thing, it's no longer making me hungry, brain changed obviously.

SO you are still doing well Cheeky, you are slowly but SURELY getting lower and lower of the drugs, AND living a near normal life. VERY WELL done. Finding that balance cannot be easy, and I sure take my hat off to you for that. You know the horrors of going too fast, so if you just continue as you are, plodding along very slowly, I am SURE you will get to where you want to be. It will be Spring in Australia, so I hope the weather is already getting better for you. We had a scorcher this summer 48c I got on my thermometer in the sun.

Keep plodding Cheeky B.

Im happy your getting more sleep and I hope this increase will be better for you . You've been through alot and we are all here rooting for you .

6 hours ago, cheeky said:

You've been through alot and we are all here rooting for you .

Hi @cheeky Thanks....we are all connected on here through this unbelievably difficult time in our lives. Stay strong Cheeky.......B.

7 hours ago, Chippy said:

Keep us upto date with how you are getting on bud! 👊

Thanks @Chippy will do Bud.

Worse day today.....not like WD nightmare but just off, similar but a LOT less severe. Now I don't know whether anyone else has

noticed this, or experienced this, but I am sure I have been in a pattern of one reasonable day....the next bad? Repeating like this

almost constant. Now I know it's called waves and windows, but I seem to have been on a 1/10 since November last year, the odd

reasonable day now and again. Last day that I felt almost normal, was when I sold my motorbike on the 18th Feb this year 8/10, never another day as good as that health wise. So yes even the reasonable days are miles off normal, never higher than a 1.

So yes I can see why I RI, but.....yes a gamble.....if it does poop out on me, WELL obviously a slow taper off. I could do with my MOOD

and MOTIVATION lifting really, but HOW? The dose of Mirt I am on does nothing for mood....just sedates you and blocks the histamine

and probably things we don't know about. NEVER had any problems like this with 21 years of Prozac. Anyway yes I am obviously on

a self trial and error period, we ALL know the score, but hell it is irritating when it's the WORST kind of torture know to mankind, and

years and years before you escape.

But anyway I will see how things go, zero chance of ever getting a job again, almost ready for the scrap heap. But onwards I plod

you never know, a miracle might just happen. We don't know what's around the corner, so it's just hope for the best.

Take care all, B.

23 hours ago, MischaDE said:

I would have probably done the same thing in your situation.

Thank @MischaDE Much appreciated Bud, I sincerely hope you are getting better....keep plodding.👍

Take care, B.

23 hours ago, Nemina said:

I am sure no one here will class you a failure, you are so patient and strong, have always been an inspiration for many and still are.

Take care and let us know how you feel!

Thanks @Nemina Hope you are as well as can be. Yes I am in a last resort RI trial and error, a bit more sleep and stomach

better, BUT a million miles of normal yet. Will that EVER happen? Watch this space.

Take great care, B.

13 hours ago, NT1100B said:

Thanks @Chippy will do Bud.

Worse day today.....not like WD nightmare but just off, similar but a LOT less severe. Now I don't know whether anyone else has

noticed this, or experienced this, but I am sure I have been in a pattern of one reasonable day....the next bad? Repeating like this

almost constant. Now I know it's called waves and windows, but I seem to have been on a 1/10 since November last year, the odd

reasonable day now and again. Last day that I felt almost normal, was when I sold my motorbike on the 18th Feb this year 8/10, never another day as good as that health wise. So yes even the reasonable days are miles off normal, never higher than a 1.

Sorry to hear B. It's good its not as severe as before, 100% a move in the right direction.

The every other day symptom pattern is very common mate. I have had it, and Ive seen it mentioned many times. Windows and waves inside of windows and waves sometimes it feels like.

Ive stopped logging my symptoms myself and now we only use the 1-10/10 symptom system, 10 being severe 1 being mild, so I have to reclaibrate my brain! So you are still pretty rough then mate. 1/10 not good. I was hoping you would be at least in the middle somewhere. Fingers crossed it will get better in time. The every other day fluctuations is interesting and gotta be a sign of the body trying to right things to a more normal state.

13 hours ago, NT1100B said:

So yes I can see why I RI, but.....yes a gamble.....if it does poop out on me, WELL obviously a slow taper off. I could do with my MOOD

and MOTIVATION lifting really, but HOW? The dose of Mirt I am on does nothing for mood....just sedates you and blocks the histamine

and probably things we don't know about. NEVER had any problems like this with 21 years of Prozac. Anyway yes I am obviously on

a self trial and error period, we ALL know the score, but hell it is irritating when it's the WORST kind of torture know to mankind, and

years and years before you escape.

RI is often a shot in the dark tbf, you put it off and really didn't want to I know, and I can understand why, as you said, left no choice.

Try to not worry about it pooping out on you. One day at a time and all that. I think tolerance and poop out get a bit confused in the community. Tolerance is the drug not having an effect and more as your body gets used to it, happens with all drugs inc Caffine. That isn't something we need to worry about as it's WD that is causing you issues rather than the drug loosing its effectiveness. Poop out is where the body gets fed up with the drug and starts to have a paradoxical effect, kind of rejects the drug. Happens, much less frequently than is worried about. Mark H gets asked about tolerance a lot and he never references poop out when he is asked he only talks about drug tolerance. It gets confusing as we call it tolerance/poop out but to my mind they are different but perhaps related things.

So if you see what I am saying, you got symptoms from stopping the drug, WD symptoms and putting the drug back has helped that. It's not really about Mirt being sedative although it might be for you atm who knows, but if that tolerance that builds over time stops that from happening in my eyes that is less of an issue as your bad sleep comes from the drug not being in your system (a drug the brain has build dependance on) and causing WD symptoms when it's removed, one of which is poor sleep.

13 hours ago, NT1100B said:

But anyway I will see how things go, zero chance of ever getting a job again, almost ready for the scrap heap. But onwards I plod

you never know, a miracle might just happen. We don't know what's around the corner, so it's just hope for the best.

Best foot forward hey mate, and as I said, one day at a time. It is great news about your payments being restarted and back dated and it won't be all that long till retirement? I forget now how far away you are? You've got your bungalow and you live in a beautiful area for sure. I really hope things settle and you can start to enjoy all of that. You could have a great retirement, you certainly deserve it.

2 hours ago, Chippy said:

You could have a great retirement, you certainly deserve it.

Thanks @Chippy WELL that's not looking anywhere like it could have been. £50000 in earnings gone for a start.

So if I was miraculously brought back to normal.....yes I could get by. But THAT'S the big one, No one is an expert, it's all guesswork.

Even doctors have NOT got the answer.....they would be a lot MORE wealthy than they already are if they had that magic

formula. SO yes let's look at it realistically....at best the RI works, and does eventually make living easier, and gets motivation

back.

I was in an ok state, apart from chronic insomnia, when I first took Mirt back in April 22, BUT I was in a way naive ,thinking of it as just a sleeping pill.

Banging my head against the wall now for not researching it. So as you know, full time work then, got a new hip put in,

and back to work, spring 2023 and just thought, right, I don't need Mirt anymore.....CT. Lasted a week, onto the laptop

to see what's going on.....my heart sank. FFS what have I let myself in for?

So yes, 18 month taper of 7.5mg.....Stopped....19months of recovery, Very bad at first after 2 week of it clearing out, 10

months of waves and windows....windows meaning 12 hours if I was lucky, but not many. Then after November that year

and into 2026 is was constant wave, death warmed up until RI mid Aug this year. So yes we all know the timelines of

WD, and I know if it does poop out on me, well, I am NOT sure if I can go through THAT again.....over 3 years of living hell,

and STILL be no nearer.

So yes a LOT at the moment resting on RI. Was a last resort. So yes I will see how it goes, I have plenty pills to keep me going

for a few years, at low dose. Just guesswork trial and error, but living like a hermit for the last 11 months, not a bit better

on that score yet. The way the summer turned out, I regretted selling my motorbike a bit....but zero £ coming in...so felt it

had to be done at the time. Anyway onwards we plod.....stay safe. B.

37 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

Anyway onwards we plod.....stay safe. B.

Hey B I know mate you have been through so much, wish I could do more for you, and it breaks my heart truly it does. I have everything crossed RI will given you the crutch you need to start getting stable. Till then as you and we now say, plod on......