1 minute ago, NT1100B said:

I will need a LOT bigger carrot leading me on.🤔

Just tell me what size and I will get it for you. 🥕🥕🥕💯💯💯😊😊😊

53 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

REALLY, 10 years of poor sleep,

It started in 2016  when my dumb doctor gave me the wrong prescription...he was such a pill pusher...it must have been automatic....he was increasing my paroxetine from 20 to 30...pink pill to blue. So when I got the prescription filled...blue pill, same shape... never read the bottle....blind trust.

So he CT off paroxetine and put me on sertraline....I had no idea only that my world was going sideways and I couldn't sleep. So after a month, I told him, this dose isn't good...I need to go back to 20 mg. But my sleep didn't recover.... couldn't fall asleep till maybe 4-5am and then get interrupted sleep for 5-6 hours. This continued till my CT in August 2022. At least now I can fall asleep even though I wake every 90 minutes or so. 

Long story... sorry...but it wasn't till I did my drug history for SA and searched my drug records, that I discovered that I was given sertraline...

Moral of the story:

no matter what... always check the prescription, the bottle, the manufacturer...every time.... human error happens. 

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16 hours ago, NT1100B said:

Hey @cheeky thanks, very much appreciated.

I hope you are doing OK Cheeky, I am wishing you all the best, please keep taking it slow.

These PWDs are the pits.

Take care,        B.🙏🤞💙

 

I will B , I don't want to be on these drugs but I don't want to hsrm

myself anymore . I'm happy to be the 🐢

@Pokey449 im Happy you it helped . 

Hey B, I was away for a bit and see that things have flared up again. I am so sorry. I wish you could get some good quality sleep like others on your thread have stated. I will continue to pray for you and the others on this site. I liked Jamie's Mother Mary wrapping you in her protective embrace. Use that as an imagery when things seem to be getting really difficult. Feel into it and what is does for you. I hope it continues to warm your heart ♥️ and the rest of you. See if a warmed (not super hot) rice or flax filled sock on the adrenals helps to calm you. Or cold water splashed on the face 7-10 times. These are good for a nervous system adjustment.

Blessings, prayers, and hugs for you, my friend, B!

8 hours ago, NT1100B said:

So folks, last 2 very long morning have been the worst of the LOT, end of month 14 off. NO signs

of any healing yet, NONE. Every symptom is WORSE, sleep is WORSE, zero quality and 14 month of 

3-4 hours is a pain. But I have just to accept, and hope my patience holds, getting to the end of my

tether now though, certain people are just HIT too HARD.....

Take care,        B.

You have extraordinary strength @NT1100B you really do! you continue to be challenged and still pull through, I admire you for that.

Relief will come, just a little longer, it is waiting around the corner and could surprise at any moment, please stay strong 🙏

5 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

it is waiting around the corner and could surprise at any moment, please stay strong 🙏

Thanks @Fullhealing How are you doing? I sincerely hope you aren't suffering like me at the moment.

These drugs all want banning, they are pure poison, and torturing FAR too many innocent people who

have put far too much trust in ignorant Doctors🤬 A crime against humanity. Please take it slow and easy.

Take great care,       B.🙏🙏🙏 

Hi B, I haven’t been on for a few days.

just wanted to say that Angie did a video and in it was a UK based coach!

 

here’s her details 

https://thepsychmedsanctuary.com/

 

she says she offers discounts for people who are out of work. I wondered if I one off session with her may help. I found my coaching sessions (I’ve only had 5 total over the past year) really helpful and supportive and they just gave me a bit of hope and some ideas of things that might help.

 

im so sorry your sleep is still so bad.

i keep hoping that getting the daylight at the break or dawn and again at sunset may help you as it seems to so many others 🙏 so keep trying. Your brain will eventually figure out it’s not meant to be awake in the middle of the night.

 

lots of love

rosie xx 

6 hours ago, namastejen1 said:

Blessings, prayers, and hugs for you, my friend, B!

Thanks @namastejen1 Much appreciated, I hope you are doing OK, please stay strong.🤞

Take great care,        B.🙏🤞

3 minutes ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

Your brain will eventually figure out it’s not meant to be awake in the middle of the night.

 

lots of love

rosie xx 

Hey @Its-me-Rosie good to see you, I hope you are doing OK. Yes I think TIME is the one Rosie.

about another 20 years probably. We just have to soldier on and HOPE someday this will be behind

us. My brain has been super sensitized by the drug, and it's going to take a LONG time.

Wishing you ALL the best Rosie, please stay strong and stay safe.

Take care,       B.🙏🤞🌷

13 hours ago, LostinCanada said:

no matter what... always check the prescription, the bottle, the manufacturer...every time.... human error happens. 

Thanks @LostinCanada yes I remember now, I have read through your whole thread on SA, and you have

jogged my memory. Yes I am afraid with me LIC, once I have had 4 hours any attempt at sleep after that throws

me into a HORRIBLE state of mind, the second I begin to doze it happens. Nasty. So a long 20-21 hour day.🤬

Take great care LIC, and please stay safe.       B.🙏💙

Morning all, bit later this morning, Had my walk at 3am which was the usual low energy lethargic half dead

zombi walk. Dry morning though. So then it was back to bed, but no extra sleep. I had woke 1am after 4 hours

broken sleep and after going back to bed after my walk, any attempt of sleep was met with the horrific wave

mind, indescribable horrible feeling, concentrate on youtube again and it disappears. WEIRD.

 

So it was basically watching various stuff on youtube until I decided to get up. Now I was on a 0 when I first

awoke, and have generally felt bad, now I was going to say 1 now....but NO.....still on a rubbish 0. Still heard

NOTHING about my car, but I haven't the mind or energy to give a s**t really, so who knows what's happening

with that, but by Saturday he will have had it a month.

 

So what today is going to throw up, I honestly don't know, the daylight hours are increasing so spring is on the

way, clocks forward in just over 3 weeks, then daylight until 8.30pm. But being in this wave from HELL at the 

moment, seasons and time mean NOTHING. The only good thing is warmer weather will mean lower gas + electric

bill👍So as miserable as I am, it's keep plodding for now.

Take care all,       B. 

Keep plodding B , your getting very good at that . Sending huggs 

Thanks @cheeky your a star, was just looking at the temperature in Aus☀️, have you ever been

to Wallongong? just seen it on the map and looks close, but probably 100 miles away. Anyway I hope

you are doing good Cheeky, and have had a decent day. wishing you all the best, have a nice evening.🤞

Take great care,       B.🙏🤞💙

Morning mate

 

Glad you had a bit more chill time this morning. Maybe it was want you needed.

 

It is so weird the connection to more sleep. I think that is what causes my BB. More sleep more BB. Like the extra sleep is needed not to feel shattered but somehow makes things worse at the same time. Its a puzzle.

 

I do hope they get on with your car soon. Trouble is they probably need a kick up the arse, but as you say, you don't feel like caring atm. Totally understandable.

 

Hope you lift a bit shortly. Hell your due a windows soon enough. Don't know what it is with Mirtazapine but it causes some SERIOUSLY nasty WD. SO many on here in the same boat at the moment.

 

Time is flying. I hate the clocks changing, throws everything out. It's fine once it's done but it irritates me having to deal with it. But Im happy for some more light. Glorious day over here in the East mate, don't know what it's like there, guessing pretty good too, though I know you are not such a fan atm.

 

I hear you on the bills, they get steep don't they. Ours is like £160+ a month this time of the year, soon drops down though as most of that is heating. Then it's just the basics again.

 

Hang in there mate, you are going great. Just surviving I know, but that is all that is asked of you at the moment, it's all you need to do. Living is for later and it's coming bud. AND YOU WILL LIVE BIG B AS YOU WILL KNOW HOW PRECIOUS LIFE IS AND IT WILL FEEL AMAZING AS A RESULT!

 

Chippy

It’s very hard B

and very long!

and people don’t understand it who haven’t gone through it.

 

i believe there are things we can do to help our brains and I’m interested in them. I think cutting carbs has helped me, and I think getting vitamin D from the sun has helped me.

the sleep for you is brutal but it WILL level off.

 

im in a dirty window currently, hoping my waves are over. I try to have the hope every time! 
 

coaching defo helps me with that. I may book another session soon.

 

all the best B

Praying for healing

Rosie 

12 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Glad you had a bit more chill time this morning. Maybe it was want you needed.

 

Thanks @Chippy well not sure if it's done much good mate, NEW f******g BRAIN is what I need pronto.

But yes plod on is about all we can do, well apart from diet and various other bits and bobs, but nothing

speeds up the healing process, we just have to have patience. But the sheer severity of this last super long

vicious wave has certainly drained that. Keep plodding.

Take care,        B.🤞 

11 minutes ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

i believe there are things we can do to help our brains and I’m interested in them. I think cutting carbs has helped me, and I think getting vitamin D from the sun has helped me.

the sleep for you is brutal but it WILL level off.

Thanks @Its-me-Rosie you are very clued up and have used your knowledge to the very best of your ability,

I do feel a bit of a turnip in comparison, I just was outside in the sun for 5 minutes from reading your post. But

yes I am afraid I am pretty thick and on the stubborn side. Now I have tried my best with diet, but older age gives

us long long habits, and it's a bit like you can't teach an OLD dog new tricks. But hey....do you know what I am feeling 

a bit perkier right now. Must be something in the air this morning. Stay well Rosie.

Take great care,       B.🤞🌷

10 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

Thanks @Chippy well not sure if it's done much good mate, NEW f******g BRAIN is what I need pronto.

But yes plod on is about all we can do, well apart from diet and various other bits and bobs, but nothing

speeds up the healing process, we just have to have patience. But the sheer severity of this last super long

vicious wave has certainly drained that. Keep plodding.

Take care,        B.🤞 

Thats it mate Time and Plod mode engaged. Your rewards are coming.

17 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

But hey....do you know what I am feeling 

a bit perkier right now.

Maybe there is something to this Vit D mate! 🙂 

6 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Maybe there is something to this Vit D mate! 🙂

🤣@Chippy 5 minutes ain't long enough mate.🤣

1 minute ago, NT1100B said:

🤣@Chippy 5 minutes ain't long enough mate.🤣

If it works it works! 🤣

No @Chippy just think I might be coming around a bit🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞

🤞B🤞

2 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

No @Chippy just think I might be coming around a bit🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞

🤞B🤞

I do hope so bud! 🙂 🤞

3 hours ago, NT1100B said:

Thanks @Fullhealing How are you doing? I sincerely hope you aren't suffering like me at the moment.

These drugs all want banning, they are pure poison, and torturing FAR too many innocent people who

have put far too much trust in ignorant Doctors🤬 A crime against humanity. Please take it slow and easy.

Take great care,       B.🙏🙏🙏 

Hey @NT1100B there are longgg hours, could be days for that matter where I'm sure I've died and grilling in HELL and there are moments where I'm relatively okish, million miles away from ideal but with my head above water, which gives me a good bost to push harder, so any relief, even the tiniest bit, is an encouraging sign. our drugs are brutal and it could take long time before any significant relief to being seen, it's beyond anything we have expected before but we're on the right track. are there moments when you feel a little better?

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