24 minutes ago, gardengirl2 said:

In the end, you are not left without options. Remember that. You are not doomed to live like this forever. And with so many of us praying for you, I'm expecting a miracle at some point. I'm asking our Blessed Mother to wrap her protective and comforting mantle around you. We're all with you in spirit.

 

Love, peace and blessings,

Jamie 🙏❣️

Thanks @gardengirl2 you warm the very centre of my heart with those beautiful kind words, you have a heart of gold.

I sincerely hope you are doing ok and not in any trauma of any kind. I a wishing you well for your own journey, and will be

with you all the way. Please stay strong and stay safe Jamie, you are a kindred spirit.

Take great care,      B.🙏🤞

2 minutes ago, Chippy said:

We all care about you very much mate. 
 

This will all pass. 

 

Chippy

Thanks @Chippy very much appreciated mate, yes as you know when the wave mind is in charge, only

negative views are seen, It's like the devils blinkers, seeing only trouble and strife, darkness and death. I 

just have to keep taking it second, minute, hour and day and literally hope for the best.

Take care,        B.

1 minute ago, NT1100B said:

just have to keep taking it second, minute, hour and day and literally hope for the best.

That’s the way B! You have this. 😄

14 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Don’t listen to the wave brain. It’s talking nonsense. 

That wave brain has never been truthful to me.

Miracles have happened….I’ve seen it in my own life….I’ve seen it with others… it’s gotta be your turn soon and then I am getting back in line. 
Love you B. 

1 minute ago, LostinCanada said:

Miracles have happened….I’ve seen it in my own life….I’ve seen it with others… it’s gotta be your turn soon and then I am getting back in line. 
Love you B. 

Thanks @LostinCanada DITTO.

Take great care and stay safe.     B.🙏🤞💙

25 minutes ago, LostinCanada said:

That wave brain has never been truthful to me.

Miracles have happened….I’ve seen it in my own life….I’ve seen it with others… it’s gotta be your turn

Hey @NT1100B, I heard you've been in a dark time, so I signed on tonight to add to the many prayers your way. I agree with LIC. Miracles do happen, and I pray to God for your miracle and relief.🙏🙏🙏🙏

Please do what you need to do to stay safe. If it involves the crisis center, so be it. Just be careful of their drug "solutions". The one benefit is with the seriousness of your situation they may give you some extended disability relieving you of your financial worry for a bit.

I am including the link from Melissa's attempt at reinstatement and polydrugging from the psych ward and the addition of a benzo which none of it went well. What helped her was later having a doctor who believed her, and helped her get disability so she could focus on her windowless withdrawal. So much of her suffering reminds me of yours. She healed fully. You can too. 

 

https://youtu.be/_qTKs_IlsZQ?si=F2kIawubJgtAwzTQ

1 hour ago, NT1100B said:

THIS is my WAVE mind speaking.

Exactly what it is . Share your thoughts is a good way to release it but there just real thoughts . 

@NT1100B I'm slowly catching up on forum posts.

 

I just wanted to drop in and agree with @LostinCanada, everything you're going through is horrific, but not atypical.

 

The positive way to look at that is that others have suffered similar and recovered in time. This is why I agree with @LostinCanada, that it is likely that you too will recover in time.

 

I don't need to tell you how hard it is, but all you can and must do is "plod" as you say, until that time. It happens in the background, while we stay alive and look after ourselves the best we can until then.

 

I hope it's sooner rather than later, but I believe it's coming down the line regardless of when it is.

Hey Mr BWhen it's extremely tuff . Please watch this 

https://youtube.com/shorts/fntzhd9yfI8?si=fLyzZOWOuUfakn0K

sebding you healing 💕

22 hours ago, HopePerseveres2.0 said:

So much of her suffering reminds me of yours. She healed fully. You can too. 

Thanks @HopePerseveres2.0 Watched every bit Thank you. The thing is each individual person has a

totally different life on a different path with a different genetic make up. Yes I understand the similarities

in the evil drug PWD but even then each drug has different variables. In short Hope, we all have to find 

the way that fits our bill. But hey yes, a very interesting and traumatic story, it certainly has made me take

note. Whichever way we look at it, getting OFF is NOT EASY. For now...it's second, minute, hour and day.

🤞that I can keep taking it.      I hope you are doing OK hope🤞 God Bless you.

Take great care,      B.  

3 hours ago, cheeky said:

sending you healing 💕

Hey @cheeky thanks, very much appreciated.

I hope you are doing OK Cheeky, I am wishing you all the best, please keep taking it slow.

These PWDs are the pits.

Take care,        B.🙏🤞💙

 

Morning all, back off my 3.40am walk, damp and windy but 11c warm. So awoke on a 0 after 3 hours

broken sleep. Just seems to get worse. I will soon be entering the 15th month and am worse than when

I started, both health and now financially. The poor sleep is getting annoying again, as it's affecting other

aspects of ones health....not good.

 

But what the f***k can we do? It's either a permanent solution or keep surviving in constant horrific terror,

20-21 hour days of pure mental torment, no end whatsoever in sight. Wave mind still in charge as you can 

see, but has been since 27th November 25. So yes for me 2026 is a nightmare, now into the 3rd month and

things getting worse rather than better. So yes how much longer is my patience going to last?????? Don't know.

Take care all,       B. 

3 hours ago, cheeky said:

Hey Mr BWhen it's extremely tuff . Please watch this 

https://youtube.com/shorts/fntzhd9yfI8?si=fLyzZOWOuUfakn0K

sebding you healing 💕

If I could like twice!

Morning B

 

You're right. What can we do about it.
 

Well keep plodding that’s all we can do. It all seems endless I know. But it’s not. Temporary it is. I’ve seen the whole video @cheeky linked to the short of. It’s proof of what I’m saying. 
 

Healing is happening. It’s so damm slow I know, but you’ll hit a point and it will all just change. It will take you by surprise. It will start with a better day. You’ll think that’s a fluke. Then you’ll get another straight after. Then another and before you know it you look back at the diary and it seems to have stuck. It’s weird. It shocks you like that can’t be happening. But it is!

 

Hang in there! Change is coming for you!

 

Chippy

@NT1100B I just wish you could get some sleep…even though mine is broken, I can stretch it out. I know for me, I still have to sleep propped up with pillows….it keeps me from panicking laying flat out. I also have a soft red nightlight to help with the cortisol rush. I get shakes/tremors that wake me. I find getting up and just going to the kitchen for a sip of water, settles it so I can go back to bed. It’s crazy because I used to sleep like a log before drugs. I know some benefit from pink and/or brown noise. I don’t know if you have tried any of these things.

My thoughts are with you. ❤️🙏💯

12 minutes ago, LostinCanada said:

I used to sleep like a log before drugs.

Same LIC. Miss those days 😔

Dear @NT1100B, I hear you very well. The same terror with me, all the day I am in inner akatisia, living Hell. I started my month 13 of agony. I have not worked since 2 years now, one year in Anhedonia caused by ADs and ON psychiatric traitements (what stupid I was to accept drug after drug after drug..., rTMS, kétamine) and one year in PWD. I agree with you that everyone is different and has its one genetic, so we don't know what it will be with us. Thank you @Chippy for your encouragement. Our inhumane struggle continues, B. ...

Svetla

Thanks to @cheeky for that video. I needed it too. B. I think if all of us were in the same room together we’d all give you a big hug. I’m living alone like you and I know there’s times I just need a big fat hug to get through the day especially from those I love. 🙏🙏

26 minutes ago, skamen said:

Thank you @Chippy for your encouragement. Our inhumane struggle continues, B. ...

You are welcome Svetla. Your struggles will be rewarded! Xxx

11 hours ago, LostinCanada said:

My thoughts are with you. ❤️🙏💯

Thanks @LostinCanada appreciated, yes sleep is a major bugbear, the less the sleep the worse the day,

well and night, often awake from midnight around to 8pm next night. 14 months of that already. So my last

2 mornings  1am- to 2pm have been horrendous, pure torture right through, yesterday lifted very very slightly

afternoon, todays afternoon slightly better on a 1. But after 14 months this is dire, all I can do is keep plodding. Getting weary

now though. I hope you are doing better LIC, what a journey we are on.

Take great care, your support means a lot.        B.🙏🤞💙 

3 hours ago, Pokey449 said:

I’m living alone like you and I know there’s times I just need a big fat hug to get through the day especially from those I love. 🙏🙏

Thanks @Pokey449 appreciated mate, I hope you are doing better Bud. Don't know what's happened

to my game, it just keeps getting worse. Keep taking it slow and easy Bud, One day we will get there.

Take care,       B.🙏🤞

3 hours ago, skamen said:

Our inhumane struggle continues, B. ...

Svetla

Thanks @skamen as bad as that sounds, with this horror it's almost an understatement. Because Svetla

boy oh boy inhumane it most certainly is and MORE. A TORTURE like no other on earth, when it won't even

allow us to sleep, we are stumbling aimlessly around like zombies in the very depths of a living hell. I have

had ALL sorts of bad s**t in my life, but NOTHING to come anywhere near THIS TORTURE.

Take care,           B.🙏🙏🙏🤞

5 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

hope you are doing better LIC, what a journey we are on.

I am doing better than before...but for me, it's been since 2016 with the sleep... about every 6 months I get a teaser....4-5 hours and I think maybe this will be lasting...but no....I can only imagine your low energy, lack of motivation....I get more sleep than you and mine is non existent.

I tell my self...no obligations, no commitments, just heal. 

Just now, NT1100B said:

have

had ALL sorts of bad s**t in my life, but NOTHING to come anywhere near THIS TORTURE.

Me too... I don't want to trigger anyone with the details, but this trauma at the hands of doctors and big Pharma has rocked my world. I just can't seem to shake it cause I am living it.

But others just like us have made it through, and we will too...we have to B ...we are tied up with each other. ❤️🙏

So folks, last 2 very long morning have been the worst of the LOT, end of month 14 off. NO signs

of any healing yet, NONE. Every symptom is WORSE, sleep is WORSE, zero quality and 14 month of 

3-4 hours is a pain. But I have just to accept, and hope my patience holds, getting to the end of my

tether now though, certain people are just HIT too HARD.....

Take care,        B.

6 minutes ago, LostinCanada said:

.but for me, it's been since 2016 with the sleep..

Strewth @LostinCanada REALLY, 10 years of poor sleep, my heart goes out to you.💙

8 minutes ago, LostinCanada said:

But others just like us have made it through, and we will too...we have to B ...we are tied up with each other. ❤️🙏

Well LIC I think they might have more patience than me, but hey I get what you are saying, but if this wave I am in

gets even WORSE, let's just say I will need a LOT bigger carrot leading me on.🤔

Take great care LIC, you are a Gem,       B.🙏🙏🤞💙