4 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Thank you @Beehive @Chippy better days will come xxxx

Absolutely they will, not much longer now ,you've got this ,you can do this 🙏

I will third that with chippy and beehive. I can feel your strength, courage and determination.

You will certainly have better days ahead. 🙏🙏💛

36 minutes ago, Tracey said:

I will third that with chippy and beehive. I can feel your strength, courage and determination.

You will certainly have better days ahead. 🙏🙏💛

Thank you for being so supportive @Tracey we are all very strong and determined here, certainly not a journey for the faint of heart.

Better days will come indeed for all of us ❤️

Edited May 12May 12 by Fullhealing

@Fullhealing How's it going ,hoping it has started to show some cracks .🙏❤️

1 hour ago, Beehive said:

@Fullhealing How's it going ,hoping it has started to show some cracks .🙏❤️

Thank you @Beehive so sweet of you to check 🩷 tiny crack is showing finally, worked quite a bit today, after so many missing days I had big pile of stuff waiting so I'm very pleased to free myself from the couch and do something useful!

How are you now? some relief I hope? 🙏

52 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

🩷 tiny crack is showing finally

@Fullhealing Even the smallest crack is welcome. You are so brave and an example for me to turn to.

You show that the unbearable is bearable. I wish for you the the small crack will bring in some light and soon will expand. 🙏💕💕

1 hour ago, Fullhealing said:

Thank you @Beehive so sweet of you to check 🩷 tiny crack is showing finally, worked quite a bit today, after so many missing days I had big pile of stuff waiting so I'm very pleased to free myself from the couch and do something useful!

How are you now? some relief I hope? 🙏

popping in to wish my best wishes! good to hear that a crack managed to show! youre going in the right direction i feel!

So kind of you @Haa @Some0n3 thank you so much 💕 indeed grateful for this tiny bit of relief, the smallest is huge in this brutal process!

Hope your day went relatively easy, best wishes to you both xxxx

Edited May 12May 12 by Fullhealing

@Fullhealing So pleased for you, this is just the start lots more to come for you. Struggled today but I've got to the end 😊

7 minutes ago, Beehive said:

@Fullhealing So pleased for you, this is just the start lots more to come for you. Struggled today but I've got to the end 😊

Glad we both having a good ending day! Thank you so much @Beehive hope your night will go peacefully with a good long sleep 🩷

How are things @Fullhealing? xxxx

14 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Thank you @Beehive so sweet of you to check 🩷 tiny crack is showing finally, worked quite a bit today, after so many missing days I had big pile of stuff waiting so I'm very pleased to free myself from the couch and do something useful!

How are you now? some relief I hope? 🙏

Sounds promising @Fullhealing 💚

1 hour ago, Chippy said:

How are things @Fullhealing? xxxx

Thanks for the check dear @Chippy quite shitty to be honest, constantly spinning between symptoms that change so quickly, the toughest at least in the last few days is the pure sticky negativity with a mushy mind that can't concentrate, absorb information or express properly, as if you can't find the right word for anything, or at least that's how it feels, so f annoying and getting in my way at work when I manage to move myself there or write here...

Sorry for the vent, aimed for positive short one 😬

You've had some rough days as well, how's today treating you?

Just now, Fullhealing said:

Thanks for the check dear @Chippy quite shitty to be honest, constantly spinning between symptoms that change so quickly, the toughest at least in the last few days is the pure sticky negativity with a mushy mind that can't concentrate, absorb information or express properly, as if you can't find the right word for anything, or at least that's how it feels, so f annoying and getting in my way at work when I manage to move myself there or write here...

Sorry for the vent, aimed for positive short one 😬

You've had some rough days as well, how's today treating you?

Im so sorry to read @Fullhealing , you describe it all so well. What a journey this is, the brain is clearly working hard for you to put things in balance! Give it some time it will get there, wish we knew how long! You will be rewarded for this one day soon, Im sure of it!

Im ok, I did my back in at the weekend, it has been bad but slowly getting a bit better, much worse than when it happened to me in Dec. Im sure it is probably not WD related but who knows right! So that has been the worse thing tbh. WD wise it has just been the same up and down, never good, just sometimes a bit better. Brain is having a good burn today. Oh such fun! 😆

22 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Im so sorry to read @Fullhealing , you describe it all so well. What a journey this is, the brain is clearly working hard for you to put things in balance! Give it some time it will get there, wish we knew how long! You will be rewarded for this one day soon, Im sure of it!

Im ok, I did my back in at the weekend, it has been bad but slowly getting a bit better, much worse than when it happened to me in Dec. Im sure it is probably not WD related but who knows right! So that has been the worse thing tbh. WD wise it has just been the same up and down, never good, just sometimes a bit better. Brain is having a good burn today. Oh such fun! 😆

Oh so sorry about the back thing @Chippy here too every day with different physical issue so it's definitely a weaker body during wd, we're just not that old for this crap!

Hope it ease for you very soon! xxxx

Edited May 13May 13 by Fullhealing

56 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Oh so sorry about the back thing @Chippy here too every day with different physical issue so it's definitely a weaker body during wd, we're just not that old for this crap!

Hope it ease for you very soon! xxxx

I was thinking this. I had no back issues before! Must be careful now.

14 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

So kind of you @Haa @Some0n3 thank you so much 💕 indeed grateful for this tiny bit of relief, the smallest is huge in this brutal process!

Hope your day went relatively easy, best wishes to you both xxxx

thank you for the wishes! about the same for me with the symptoms of the brain fog and feeling detached from everything but atleast the anxiety hasnt been bad so ill take the good with the bad. also havent had proper panic attacks in quite a while compared to the end of 2024 when i had them really frequently. most of my days seem to pretty much blend together and weeks feel so incredibly short as my mind aimlessly drifts through the days but ive managed to be outside of the house during certain days when going to the gym or just hanging out with friends for a bit which i find helps in dealing with all of this. although doing these things does exhaust me quite a bit energy wise but doing them is so worth it!

@Fullhealing

I hope you’re continuing to see a little light through the cracks ☀️

💗

I have a question just whenever you feel like answering it- did akasthisia reduce as you got lower on your dose?

46 minutes ago, Finni said:

@Fullhealing

I hope you’re continuing to see a little light through the cracks ☀️

💗

I have a question just whenever you feel like answering it- did akasthisia reduce as you got lower on your dose?

Yes, I would say that the acute waves were at higher doses and after relatively large reductions, although looking back, for many years, long before this process, my body was always activated with constant restlessness and a slight burning sensation so I actually lived in kind of constant mild akathisia for many long years only without a name for it, I also experimented with quite a few other drugs to try unsuccessfully eliminate the side effects of others which I suppose had a big part, none of it btw was before the drugs..

Hope you're a bit better atm @Finni so sorry for the hell you're going through!

@Fullhealing So sad to hear how you are feeling ,I definitely think the yo-yoing doesn't help but also think it's a good sign . It's the lack of sleep that's the hardest ,when you don't sleep my goodness everything just seems so bleak.Its the lack of sleep that is controlling this ...its still not ready to give up complete control yet still some creases needing to be ironed out ,stay strong my friend ,I feel its not for much longer. You have endured much and you are weary that's ok none of us are machines there's no shame in it ,but I promise you we are all with you and will pick you up when it's needed. Just keep putting one foot forward ...❤️🙏

14 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Yes, I would say that the acute waves were at higher doses and after relatively large reductions, although looking back, for many years, long before this process, my body was always activated with constant restlessness and a slight burning sensation so I actually lived in kind of constant mild akathisia for many long years only without a name for it, I also experimented with quite a few other drugs to try unsuccessfully eliminate the side effects of others which I suppose had a big part, none of it btw was before the drugs..

Hope you're a bit better atm @Finni so sorry for the hell you're going through!

Sorry you are in such a yo yo pattern @Fullhealing and you are exhausted and low.

This is such a battle for the fierce and brave. I think we also have to be gentle on ourselves. Fierce self compassion as Kristin Neff talks about.

With you right now and hope you get a break soon. It is so relentless.

Thank you my dears @Beehive @Tracey

Straggling to find words for the abyss of the last few days, keep trying to climb my way up and only fall deeper!

My mind is so off to the point of a stroke feeling, can't communicate in any coherent way, words are swallowed with a stutter that never existed before, crooked writing, constant head pressure with screaming tinnitus, wth?

keep wondering if these are just evil chemicals? Is this even fixable? the doubts are eating me up, the constant despair, negativity and fear isn't my nature at all!

I wish we could freeze ourselves for this unhuman process waking up in a clean healthy mind body!

So sorry for the steam..

Thinking of you @Fullhealing

Let off the steam! It’s good to!

Of course things will settle for you. Just a matter of time. These are evil chemicals but they won’t win the battle and certainly not the war!⚔️ 🛡️

11 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Thinking of you @Fullhealing

Let off the steam! It’s good to!

Of course things will settle for you. Just a matter of time. These are evil chemicals but they won’t win the battle and certainly not the war!⚔️ 🛡️

Thank you for that lovely @Chippy needed every bit of that!

Hope you are better today xxx

@Fullhealing You've answered your own question ...This ISN'T my nature at all . It's chemicals 100% . I know none of this helps when you feel like you do ,but remember your mind and body have been hijacked by these chemicals, your symptons are not surprising considering the work that is being done inside your brain ,it's so complex!! I know you're weary you're tired and that's the biggie !! it's going to feel bleak hopeless but at the end of the day it's chemicals trying to find their rightful place . Stay the course my friend keep reminding yourself this is not you, being tired isn't helping . Be kind to yourself ,know that this will pass its a nasty storm but they eventually blow themselves out . You've got this your strength will overcome this never give up ..you are still there and you will be seen . With you all the way ,you are never alone ❤️🙏❤️