Just now, Chippy said:

So pleased. Made my day. 😀

Bless you chippy 💜

@Fullhealing May it continue. Your spirit is carering you forward. 🙏💕

8 minutes ago, Haa said:

@Fullhealing May it continue. Your spirit is carering you forward. 🙏💕

The frequency and intensity change at the speed of light but for this sec I'm pretty reasonable.

Thank you @Haa hope you're well. xxx

So glad to see you're heading toward another window, @Fullhealing ! A wave can seem endless when we're in one but they always pass eventually. Wishing you continued healing!

2 hours ago, mstimc60 said:

So glad to see you're heading toward another window, @Fullhealing ! A wave can seem endless when we're in one but they always pass eventually. Wishing you continued healing!

Thanks @mstimc60 as for now the chemicals are a little tired, it's about time!

Update 9:00pm

Continuing to improve a bit, though still exhausted, zero motivation with all sorts of strange intrusive thoughts that pop up unrelated to anything I've come out of the awful phase.

Still amazed at how neuroemotions feel real and will attach to anything possible like past events etc. and give it validity! well, not, just crazy chemicals that have lost their way, that's the whole story and luckily temporary.

Today I slept a lot again, the body just collapsed which I see as a necessary way for healing, woke up relatively reasonably, yesterday's tight muscles are also improving although, digestion is bad plus.

That's it, we continue to march bravely forward and no giving up.

👊

@Fullhealing You might be down but you are definitely not out....you are bound to feel the way you do ,but your body is starting to let go ..just another door to go through and you will be back in the light . Keep going you've got this 👍

3 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Update 9:00pm

Continuing to improve a bit, though still exhausted, zero motivation with all sorts of strange intrusive thoughts that pop up unrelated to anything I've come out of the awful phase.

Still amazed at how neuroemotions feel real and will attach to anything possible like past events etc. and give it validity! well, not, just crazy chemicals that have lost their way, that's the whole story and luckily temporary.

Today I slept a lot again, the body just collapsed which I see as a necessary way for healing, woke up relatively reasonably, yesterday's tight muscles are also improving although, digestion is bad plus.

That's it, we continue to march bravely forward and no giving up.

I am happy to hear about your improvement, @Fullhealing . You made it, you are so brave! yes, Neuro emotions are crazy. Everything seems so true and real while it is not. there’s probably a great life lesson in it. we did not sign up for this class voluntarily, but I am sure there is a lot of wisdom to be gained in all this.

Well, now relax, my dear fullhealing, you have deserved a lot of decent rest.

25 minutes ago, Nemina said:

I am happy to hear about your improvement, @Fullhealing . You made it, you are so brave! yes, Neuro emotions are crazy. Everything seems so true and real while it is not. there’s probably a great life lesson in it. we did not sign up for this class voluntarily, but I am sure there is a lot of wisdom to be gained in all this.

Well, now relax, my dear fullhealing, you have deserved a lot of decent rest.

Thank you @Nemina so powerful and strong that even with clear knowledge of term and meaning I have to fight hard not to believe that something fundamentally insane... those evil chemicals, horrifying.

Anyways, hope you are doing well atm, take care dear. xxxx

Edited April 26Apr 26 by Fullhealing

15 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Update 9:00pm

Continuing to improve a bit, though still exhausted, zero motivation with all sorts of strange intrusive thoughts that pop up unrelated to anything I've come out of the awful phase.

Still amazed at how neuroemotions feel real and will attach to anything possible like past events etc. and give it validity! well, not, just crazy chemicals that have lost their way, that's the whole story and luckily temporary.

Today I slept a lot again, the body just collapsed which I see as a necessary way for healing, woke up relatively reasonably, yesterday's tight muscles are also improving although, digestion is bad plus.

That's it, we continue to march bravely forward and no giving up.

I am happy to read are having some improvement. And that your body is letting go enough to allow that healing sleep and rest.

I hear you re neuro emotions, just crazy .

Yes no giving up, you are courageous and brave.

Thanks for helping me while you were dealing with your own struggles.

6 minutes ago, Tracey said:

I am happy to read are having some improvement. And that your body is letting go enough to allow that healing sleep and rest.

I hear you re neuro emotions, just crazy .

Yes no giving up, you are courageous and brave.

Thanks for helping me while you were dealing with your own struggles.

It was a brutal one but it's starting to get tired.. thank God..

We're in this together and supporting each other, that's how we'll get through it.

Keep moving forward @Tracey you are strong, brave and capable, always remember that especially in hard moments! thank you for your kind supportive words. xxxx

Update 10:00pm

I'm out of the tough part, no burning sensation, restlessness, heart palpitations and desire to jump out of my skin but still extremely tired, unmotivated, kind of anhedonia.

Wasn't able to do much today, went to work but with fatigue and mind that wandered to anywhere other than work so retired early, came home did the necessaries and fell asleep for two hours, in the evening went to the vet to vaccinate my dog which required so much of energy, I really had to force myself, all the trivial things are so difficult to do.

Currently, the same.

Physically, digestion is better, tinnitus has decreased significantly today which hasn't happened in months and muscle pain is almost non-existent, so here are the positives and gratitude for them.

That's it for today, we'll keep moving forward with our heads held high.

Edited April 27Apr 27 by Fullhealing

Slow by steady--that's the path to recovery!

Update 22:00pm

Back to brutality..

Night full of vivid nightmares, woke up with my entire upper body tense and painful, strong headache with pressure started not long after, later joined in joint pain throughout the body with extreme sensitivity to noise and light, mind was also very dark and chaotic.

In the middle of the day I forced myself to go to the therapist, this is the third time we have met and although she is kind, she is a "classic" without a single clue what wd is, we talked about the process and she couldn't stop digging for a hidden reason, it exhausted me even more considering I explained in advance that I was in this process, when offered to study the subject in depth she pretty much waved it off which will probably lead to our end.

very frustrating that there is not a single professional here who has any idea what this process is which makes this brutal journey even more difficult, I may try online coaches as Angie Peacock but we will see what my pocket can afford..

As of now, body and mind are very restless, muscles and head are still sore with tinnitus that has returned in full force.

Let's hope for an easier day tomorrow.

We continue to march forward..

Edited April 28Apr 28 by Fullhealing

3 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Update 22:00pm

Back to brutality..

Night full of vivid nightmares, woke up with my entire upper body tense and painful, strong headache with pressure started not long after, later joined in joint pain throughout the body with extreme sensitivity to noise and light, mind was also very dark and chaotic.

In the middle of the day I forced myself to go to the therapist just to move a little, this is the third time we have met and although she is kind, she is a "classic" without a single clue what wd is, we talked about the process and she couldn't stop digging for a hidden reason, it exhausted me even more considering I explained in advance that I was in this process, when offered to study the subject in depth she pretty much waved it off which will probably lead to our end.

very frustrating that there is not a single professional here who has any idea what this process is which makes this brutal journey even more difficult, I may try online coaches as Angie Peacock but we will see what my pocket can afford..

As of now, body and mind are very restless, muscles and head are still sore with tinnitus that has returned in full force.

Let's hope for an easier day tomorrow.

We continue to march forward..

I’m in one of Angie Peacock’s taper support circles and it just costs $25 each time. She has one tomorrow that is good for international people! I think it would be five or six in the evening your time

I’ve been two or three weeks now and the first time I went I kept my camera off for most of the time.

Edited April 28Apr 28 by Finni

3 minutes ago, Finni said:

I’m in one of Angie Peacock’s taper support circles and it just costs $25 each time. She has one tomorrow that is good for international people! I think it would be five or six in the evening your time

Thank you finni, I'll check it out 🙏

She takes the first five or six questions from the group at the very beginning of the one and a half hour session and she addresses those questions throughout the time allotted

Last week I was able to ask a question at the beginning and it was interesting that a lot of people had the same question! Each week seems to be a theme — people are struggling with the same thing!

I hope you can find some support with Angie Peacock per @Finni 's post. I know finding a therapist who understood the reality of WD was key to my recovery.

21 minutes ago, Finni said:

She takes the first five or six questions from the group at the very beginning of the one and a half hour session and she addresses those questions throughout the time allotted

Last week I was able to ask a question at the beginning and it was interesting that a lot of people had the same question! Each week seems to be a theme — people are struggling with the same thing!

I just booked for tomorrow! Thank you so much 💕

1 minute ago, mstimc60 said:

I hope you can find some support with Angie Peacock per @Finni 's post. I know finding a therapist who understood the reality of WD was key to my recovery.

Thank you @mstimc60 no were to be found here so hopefully this will give me the extra support I need.

16 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

I just booked for tomorrow! Thank you so much 💕

Wonderful!

8 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Update 22:00pm

Back to brutality..

Night full of vivid nightmares, woke up with my entire upper body tense and painful, strong headache with pressure started not long after, later joined in joint pain throughout the body with extreme sensitivity to noise and light, mind was also very dark and chaotic.

In the middle of the day I forced myself to go to the therapist, this is the third time we have met and although she is kind, she is a "classic" without a single clue what wd is, we talked about the process and she couldn't stop digging for a hidden reason, it exhausted me even more considering I explained in advance that I was in this process, when offered to study the subject in depth she pretty much waved it off which will probably lead to our end.

very frustrating that there is not a single professional here who has any idea what this process is which makes this brutal journey even more difficult, I may try online coaches as Angie Peacock but we will see what my pocket can afford..

As of now, body and mind are very restless, muscles and head are still sore with tinnitus that has returned in full force.

Let's hope for an easier day tomorrow.

We continue to march forward..

I’m sorry Fullhealing. The ups and downs. So frustrating I know. Your strength is amazing.

I don’t think conventional therapy is of much use when in wd. Everyone is different, but as you found out, they tend to ignore what you are going through and just look for things you can’t access right now, like a lot of your actual emotions. Too much chemical soup atm, they just don’t get it. This just leads to frustration.

I’m hoping today is a much better day for you. Xxx

2 hours ago, Chippy said:

I’m sorry Fullhealing. The ups and downs. So frustrating I know. Your strength is amazing.

I don’t think conventional therapy is of much use when in wd. Everyone is different, but as you found out, they tend to ignore what you are going through and just look for things you can’t access right now, like a lot of your actual emotions. Too much chemical soup atm, they just don’t get it. This just leads to frustration.

I’m hoping today is a much better day for you. Xxx

Yes, digging for non-existent remains only deepens wd abyss..

Thanks @Chippy lovely easy day to you!

I personally don't believe in conventional therapy.

I was always autistic and pretty intelligent, therapy never helped for me as just talking out or whatever just didn't work, and I been through a lot of psychologists and what not as a kid and teen and adult.

The best therapy was my own mental works, those ones actually did a difference, most psychologists do non practical bs that doesn't achieve anything, it may work for many people but not for me.