July 12Jul 12 Author 17 minutes ago, Tracey said:Dear @Fullhealing ,Happy to read you are having a little bit of something better. 💛💛Thank you dear @Tracey I'm so greatful for this relief, I honestly thought that I'm losing it, one of the worst month so far, can't even find words for how bad it was but here I am, better, I'll leave it to that and enjoy it as long as it lasts.How are you today? Hugs 🩷 1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawalMany attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)Supplements:Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.
July 12Jul 12 34 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:And thanks I missed you guys too, I watched from afar without being able to really fit in but maybe that's starting to change a little, hopefully it's not short-lived but we'll deal with what comes.Wise words as always @Fullhealing, whatever comes we will make it through. Appreciate you right back!! 💜💜💜 I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I am new to this journey and my thoughts are based only on my personal experience with psychiatric drugs. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. Current regimen:Cymbalta - 90 mg/daySeroquel - 12.5 mg/day*holding to stabilize as of Apr 2026 History:Seroquel - up to 50 mg as needed for sleep (generally 6.25-12.5 mg a few times a week, though sometimes more) - 2009 (ish) to presentCymbalta - 60 mg/day, periodically down to 30 mg/day - May 2014 to May 2025Clonazepam - up to 1 mg/day as needed - March to May 2025, quick taper offZoloft - 150 mg/day - May 2025 to Aug 2025 (quick cross-taper from Cymbalta)Pristiq - 50 mg/day from Aug 2025 to mid-Oct 2025 (quick cross-taper from Zoloft); 100 mg/day from Oct 2025 to Dec 2025; back down to 50 mg/day from Dec 2025 to Jan 2026Lyrica - 200 mg/day - Nov 2025 to Jan 2026 (quick taper off from mid-Jan to early Feb 2026 due to severe depressive symptoms)Cymbalta - 60 mg/day - Jan - March 2026; up to 90 mg/day from March to present
July 13Jul 13 5 hours ago, Fullhealing said:Thank you dear @Tracey I'm so greatful for this relief, I honestly thought that I'm losing it, one of the worst month so far, can't even find words for how bad it was but here I am, better, I'll leave it to that and enjoy it as long as it lasts.How are you today?Hugs 🩷Yes best just to leave it at that. No need to analyse and pull it apart. Thanks for asking. Really bad day being over activated with all that comes with it. Horrible and so hard to stay present and be with it. I could tell when I woke I was heading for this. Yesterday was a contrast. Such a roller coaster. Trying to hang in there. My body is just so agitated and buzzing, nausea, can't focus, can't relax. Please let it pass, going to be a long day. 😢Wishing another better day xxxx Aug 2006 - Sertraline 25/50/75/100mg TO June 2019 - Reduced from 100mg to 50mg over a few monthsSept 2019 - Reduced from 50mg to 25mg lasted a week, then went back up to 50mg, after a few weeks back up to 100mg.Oct 2021 - Reduced to 75mg, Dec 2021 (mid) reduced to 50mg , March 2022 - Reduced to 25mgOct 2022 - Reduce to 0mg (Immediate withdrawal crying, mood unstable, impending doom, digestive probs, tingling,numbness,burning, brain zaps, insomnia)Feb 2023 - "Panic attack" lasting 14 hours, 2 weeks later start back on 25mg sertraline, 12 hours later severe 'panic attack' with chest pain, tachycardia, restlessness, hyponatraemia, impending doom, racing thoughts, akathisia mild. Taken to emergency. March 2023 back up to 50mg (on medical advice), April 75mg, May 100mg. Back to 75mg within a few weeks due to feeling too stimulated and anxious. Nov 2023 resume taper. 70, 65, 60, 55, 50 (March 2024)April 45mg, May 41mg, June 37mg, July 34mg Aug 31mg, Sept 28mg, Oct 26mg, Nov 25mg, HOLD Jan 1st 2025 24mg, Jan 12th 23.5mg, Jan 20th 23mg, Feb 20th 22mg, March 20th 21mg, April 14th 18.9mg, May 5th 17mg, May 28th 15.3mg, July 16th 13.7mg, Aug 26th 12.3mg, Sept 16th 10.5 mg, Sept 22, 10mg, Oct 7th 8.3mg, Nov 4th 8mg, Dec 1st 7.7mg, Dec 26th 7mg 2026 Updose to 7.2mg Mar 20th, Back to 7mg Mar 21. Currently holding Other supplements: Fish oil, Mg citrate/glycinate 150-300mg per day, Ginkgo biloba daily, womens multi vit/min 3 times week, Vitamin C 1000mg night, valerian/passiflora as needed. B12 as needed. Bone support for osteopaenia (Ca/Mg, K, D)
July 13Jul 13 12 hours ago, Fullhealing said:I think there's some improvement related to some experiments I'm trying but it's too early to say, maybe just a slightly dirty window which my brain works better finding words.. In any case, I'm so grateful for a little relief.So happy to read!!!!!! You deserve this, hang on for more stablity, it is coming your way! xxxx I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
July 13Jul 13 Author 4 hours ago, Tracey said:Yes best just to leave it at that. No need to analyse and pull it apart.Thanks for asking. Really bad day being over activated with all that comes with it. Horrible and so hard to stay present and be with it. I could tell when I woke I was heading for this. Yesterday was a contrast. Such a roller coaster.Trying to hang in there. My body is just so agitated and buzzing, nausea, can't focus, can't relax. Please let it pass, going to be a long day. 😢Wishing another better day xxxxSo sorry @Tracey sounds like a horrible akathisia, when it hits breathing exercises and a long shower may give me some relief but mostly I just have to wait for the chemicals to wear off, I really hope it has subsided a bit by now and you are feeling better.Stay strong my friend, soon enough you won't be alone which I'm sure will make things easier for you.Lots of love your way 🩷 🩷 1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawalMany attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)Supplements:Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.
July 13Jul 13 12 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:So sorry @Tracey sounds like a horrible akathisia, when it hits breathing exercises and a long shower may give me some relief but mostly I just have to wait for the chemicals to wear off, I really hope it has subsided a bit by now and you are feeling better.Stay strong my friend, soon enough you won't be alone which I'm sure will make things easier for you.Lots of love your way 🩷 🩷Still going, yes akathisia. Dreadful Aug 2006 - Sertraline 25/50/75/100mg TO June 2019 - Reduced from 100mg to 50mg over a few monthsSept 2019 - Reduced from 50mg to 25mg lasted a week, then went back up to 50mg, after a few weeks back up to 100mg.Oct 2021 - Reduced to 75mg, Dec 2021 (mid) reduced to 50mg , March 2022 - Reduced to 25mgOct 2022 - Reduce to 0mg (Immediate withdrawal crying, mood unstable, impending doom, digestive probs, tingling,numbness,burning, brain zaps, insomnia)Feb 2023 - "Panic attack" lasting 14 hours, 2 weeks later start back on 25mg sertraline, 12 hours later severe 'panic attack' with chest pain, tachycardia, restlessness, hyponatraemia, impending doom, racing thoughts, akathisia mild. Taken to emergency. March 2023 back up to 50mg (on medical advice), April 75mg, May 100mg. Back to 75mg within a few weeks due to feeling too stimulated and anxious. Nov 2023 resume taper. 70, 65, 60, 55, 50 (March 2024)April 45mg, May 41mg, June 37mg, July 34mg Aug 31mg, Sept 28mg, Oct 26mg, Nov 25mg, HOLD Jan 1st 2025 24mg, Jan 12th 23.5mg, Jan 20th 23mg, Feb 20th 22mg, March 20th 21mg, April 14th 18.9mg, May 5th 17mg, May 28th 15.3mg, July 16th 13.7mg, Aug 26th 12.3mg, Sept 16th 10.5 mg, Sept 22, 10mg, Oct 7th 8.3mg, Nov 4th 8mg, Dec 1st 7.7mg, Dec 26th 7mg 2026 Updose to 7.2mg Mar 20th, Back to 7mg Mar 21. Currently holding Other supplements: Fish oil, Mg citrate/glycinate 150-300mg per day, Ginkgo biloba daily, womens multi vit/min 3 times week, Vitamin C 1000mg night, valerian/passiflora as needed. B12 as needed. Bone support for osteopaenia (Ca/Mg, K, D)
July 13Jul 13 Author 56 minutes ago, Chippy said:So happy to read!!!!!! You deserve this, hang on for more stablity, it is coming your way! xxxxThank you lovely @Chippy finally some relief after a month of HELL, quite a few changes, I reduced by a pretty big jump (10%) 3 days ago as I felt like my system is going crazy immediately after dosing and added saffron which I researched a lot, so far there is no bad reaction which was pretty immediate with magnesium and iron for low ferritin so for now it is a big blessing although it is certainly too early to judge.I did some research on lithium orotate (not carbonate or citrate which require a prescription) and it looks interesting, I ordered the lowest dose (1 mg) and will see how if at all I want to combine it.Obviously it is not for everyone just my experience that I hope will make the road to the end a little more bearable.How is your morning going? I hope the exhaustion and burning head are resting xxxx 1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawalMany attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)Supplements:Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.
July 13Jul 13 16 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:@ finally some relief after a month of HELL,Such great news!17 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:I reduced by a pretty big jump (10%) 3 days ago as I felt like my system is going crazy immediately after dosing and added saffron which I researched a lot, so far there is no bad reaction which was pretty immediate with magnesium and iron for low ferritin so for now it is a big blessing although it is certainly too early to judge.Oh ok, hope that continues to go ok. That is a big drop, I am a bit surprised, but the body leads the way!18 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:Obviously it is not for everyone just my experience that I hope will make the road to the end a little more bearable.I hope it does. xxxx18 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:How is your morning going? I hope the exhaustion and burning head are resting xxxxNot the worst, not the best, I have a hybrid, slightly exhausted slightly burny brain day so far. xxxx I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
July 13Jul 13 Author 56 minutes ago, Chippy said:So happy to read!!!!!! You deserve this, hang on for more stablity, it is coming your way! xxxx9 minutes ago, Chippy said:Such great news!Oh ok, hope that continues to go ok. That is a big drop, I am a bit surprised, but the body leads the way!I hope it does. xxxxNot the worst, not the best, I have a hybrid, slightly exhausted slightly burny brain day so far. xxxxI'm sorry my worrior friend, we know we have to go through those nasty obstacles to get to the final goal but it doesn't really make it easier.. I'm glad at least it's not that bad.Hopefully it ease very soon xxxx 1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawalMany attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)Supplements:Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.
July 13Jul 13 Author 1 hour ago, Tracey said:Still going, yes akathisia. DreadfulSo very sorry @Tracey left a comment on your thread, keep going bravley, you are strong to handle it, it will go soon enough xxxx 1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawalMany attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)Supplements:Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.
July 15Jul 15 Author Update 15.07.26It's been a while since the last update, most of which was horrific with a host of symptoms that only got worse such as constant headaches with a strong pressure, numbness in various parts, tics, muscle stiffness with sharp pains that travel throughout the body, terrible digestion with a bloated stomach, loud tinnitus, extreme fatigue including two weeks of massive swelling of the lymph nodes that CT and doctors were unable to decipher but despite prescribing antibiotics that I adamantly refused to take, it disappeared anyway without any intervention, all this alongside terrible restlessness, deep depression to the point of SI, anxiety/terror, sleep hallucinations and brain fog that was so severe that I couldn't concentrate at all, process information and barely communicate which led me stopped working completely.Since then several changes have been made mainly due to a huge chemical surge immediately after taking the daily for the last 3 weeks (paradoxical reaction?) which led me to reduce by 10% and at the same time start saffron. so far, less anxiety, nervousness and restlessness along with the burning sensation and muscle stiffness that have decreased significantly although depression, lack of motivation and brain fog are still strong, that's overall pretty encouraging but definitely could be placebo or a dirty window regardless, will continue to monitor and update.Supplement update:Added saffron 30 mg about a week ago.Magnesium - did not agree with me, knocked me out on the first day but only worsened the brain fog and muscle stiffness later on, as well as iron, for low ferritin but still in the range which jumped my anxiety and burning sensation to 2000.. I tried both for like two weeks and stopped. Edited July 15Jul 15 by Fullhealing 1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawalMany attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)Supplements:Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.
July 15Jul 15 16 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:It's been a while since the last update, most of which was horrific with a host of symptoms that only got worse such as constant headaches with a strong pressure, numbness in various parts, tics, muscle stiffness with sharp pains that travel throughout the body, terrible digestion with a bloated stomach, loud tinnitus, extreme fatigue including two weeks of massive swelling of the lymph nodes that CT and doctors were unable to decipher but despite prescribing antibiotics that I adamantly refused to take, it disappeared anyway without any intervention, all this alongside terrible restlessness, deep depression to the point of SI, anxiety/terror, sleep hallucinations and brain fog that was so severe that I couldn't concentrate at all, process information and barely communicate which led me stopped working completely.I hate that you have had to deal with this! You are so strong, such a inspiration honestly!16 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:Since then several changes have been made mainly due to a huge chemical surge immediately after taking the daily for the last 3 weeks (paradoxical reaction?)Sounds like it could be a little poop out even, see how you go. If the body says it likes the cut then this is a good sign that was the right move.One day at a time is all we can do. I have it all crossed things continue to be better for you from here dear @Fullhealing xxxxx I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
July 15Jul 15 Author 25 minutes ago, Chippy said:I hate that you have had to deal with this! You are so strong, such a inspiration honestly!Sounds like it could be a little poop out even, see how you go. If the body says it likes the cut then this is a good sign that was the right move.One day at a time is all we can do. I have it all crossed things continue to be better for you from here dear @Fullhealing xxxxxI'll keep my fingers crossed, the last month was enough for a lifetime..have a lovely day dear @Chippy hope you're doing well atm 🩵 1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawalMany attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)Supplements:Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.
July 15Jul 15 So sorry @Fullhealing i am sending you well wishes. Stay strong we are all here for you friend. October 2012 - Lex 10mgJanuary 2023 - 3 week Taper to 0mgOctober 2024 - Lex 20mg, Abilify 2mgJanuary 14 2026 - Lex 0mg, Abilify 0mg January 14 2026 - Pristiq 50mg February 14 2026 - 5 day taper February 19 2026 - Pristiq 0mgMarch 17 2026 - Lex 10mgMarch 18 2026 - Lex 0mgMarch 19 2026 - Lex 5mgMarch 20 2026 - Lex 1mgJune 2 2026 - Lex .75mgJuly 6 2026 - Lex 0.5mgAugust 4 2026 - Lex 0mg off
July 15Jul 15 you are amazingly strong and brave! 💗 For US members: Please report med to FDA Med Watch2017 (May) - Ativan .5 mg (3 x Daily) 2018 (Feb) - Mirtazapine 7.5 mg 2018 (May) - Ativan to Valium - Switch - Can’t Remember how long it took -tapered to 3 mg of Valium2024 (May) - Valium Tolerance2024 (2 Nov) - Completed taper off Valium 2024 (2 Nov) - Mirtazapine increased to 15 mg2025 (Feb) - Ativan 0.25 mg (3 x Daily) - Became Paradoxical - Started weaning got to 0.11mg2025 (Mar) - Ativan 0mg - CT In detox2025 (April) Started Depakote 1500mg - In detox2025 (April) - Depakote 500mg (2 x Daily) once home2025 (Aug) - Completed taper off Depakote2025 (Aug) - Akathisia surges throughout the day with calming in between2025 (Sept) - Gabapentin (Micro Dose) - Was calming at first and then became paradoxical so stop2025 (Oct) - Depakote - RI – (Two days of small dose) Became scared and stopped with WD & aka2025 (Oct) - Seroquel 50 mg XR – 1 Week - more and more activating and increased aka2025 (Oct) - Psychiatrist told me to stop it. But I took a few days of a smaller dose of IR then stopped - Not activating2025 (Nov) - Hydroxyzine 2.5mg - it was paradoxical so stopped2025 (1 Dec) - Mirtazapine 22.5mg - (2 Days) Was incredibly overstimulating started reducing to previous2025 (3 Dec) - Mirtazapine 18.75mg2025 (10 Dec) - Mirtazapine 16.87mg2025 (22 Dec) - Mirtazapine 15mg2026 (23Jan) - Mirtazapine 14.7mg2026 (23 Jan) - Mirtazapine 1mg Panic dose2026 (24 Jan) - Mirtazapine 15mg2026 (25 Feb) – Mirtazapine 14.7mg (-2%)2026 (18 Mar) - propranolol 2.5 mg one time2026 (21 Mar)- Mirtazapine- 15 mg accidentally in sleepy state2026 (22 Mar) - Mirtazapine 14.79 mg (more accurate scales) 2026 (29 April) Mirtazapine 14.7 mg/.1020 g (on suggestion of Horowitz) immediate intense symptoms2026 (30 April) Mirtazapine 14.79 mg (.1026 g)2026 (23 May) propranolol 2.5 mg one time2026 (01 June) Mirtazapine 14.79 mgdose was 5 hours late2026 (22 July) Mirtazapine 14.76 mgIntense electric activation, muscle tightness, autonomic surges, terror followed 2026 (23 July) Mirtazapine 14.79 mg return
July 15Jul 15 Author Thank you so much @Journey @Finni appreciate your kind words 🤍We keep on moving, no matter what we will survive this hell. Edited July 15Jul 15 by Fullhealing 1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawalMany attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)Supplements:Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.
July 15Jul 15 So sorry for what you’ve been through @Fullhealing. Really glad to hear that things have gotten a bit better. You have such a strong spirit, you inspire me every day! 💪🏼💜 I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I am new to this journey and my thoughts are based only on my personal experience with psychiatric drugs. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. Current regimen:Cymbalta - 90 mg/daySeroquel - 12.5 mg/day*holding to stabilize as of Apr 2026 History:Seroquel - up to 50 mg as needed for sleep (generally 6.25-12.5 mg a few times a week, though sometimes more) - 2009 (ish) to presentCymbalta - 60 mg/day, periodically down to 30 mg/day - May 2014 to May 2025Clonazepam - up to 1 mg/day as needed - March to May 2025, quick taper offZoloft - 150 mg/day - May 2025 to Aug 2025 (quick cross-taper from Cymbalta)Pristiq - 50 mg/day from Aug 2025 to mid-Oct 2025 (quick cross-taper from Zoloft); 100 mg/day from Oct 2025 to Dec 2025; back down to 50 mg/day from Dec 2025 to Jan 2026Lyrica - 200 mg/day - Nov 2025 to Jan 2026 (quick taper off from mid-Jan to early Feb 2026 due to severe depressive symptoms)Cymbalta - 60 mg/day - Jan - March 2026; up to 90 mg/day from March to present
July 15Jul 15 Author 18 minutes ago, SarahMc said:So sorry for what you’ve been through @Fullhealing. Really glad to hear that things have gotten a bit better. You have such a strong spirit, you inspire me every day! 💪🏼💜Thank you for your very kind words @SarahMc tho I feel the absolute opposite of strong, just doing my best to navigate this crazy process and experiment my way out as there's no certainty that I can rely on.. if my system developed acute reaction to the drug, is it right to continue tapering at a snail's pace? Not sure.. we'll see how it goes.How are you today? Hopefully doing ok! 🩷 Edited July 15Jul 15 by Fullhealing 1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawalMany attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)Supplements:Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.
July 15Jul 15 1 hour ago, Fullhealing said:I feel the absolute opposite of strong, just doing my best to navigate this crazy process and experiment my way out as there's no certainty that I can rely on.. if my system developed acute reaction to the drug, is it right to continue tapering at a snail's pace? Not sure.. we'll see how it goes.I’m so sorry you’re in that situation, it sounds so hard to navigate. Have you talked to anyone knowledgeable about it, like Dr. Horowitz?1 hour ago, Fullhealing said:How are you today? Hopefully doing ok! 🩷I’m in a bit of a mini wave the past few days unfortunately, but it’s not as bad as my last wave so I’m trying to see that as a good sign. This too shall pass. Thanks for asking 💜. I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I am new to this journey and my thoughts are based only on my personal experience with psychiatric drugs. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. Current regimen:Cymbalta - 90 mg/daySeroquel - 12.5 mg/day*holding to stabilize as of Apr 2026 History:Seroquel - up to 50 mg as needed for sleep (generally 6.25-12.5 mg a few times a week, though sometimes more) - 2009 (ish) to presentCymbalta - 60 mg/day, periodically down to 30 mg/day - May 2014 to May 2025Clonazepam - up to 1 mg/day as needed - March to May 2025, quick taper offZoloft - 150 mg/day - May 2025 to Aug 2025 (quick cross-taper from Cymbalta)Pristiq - 50 mg/day from Aug 2025 to mid-Oct 2025 (quick cross-taper from Zoloft); 100 mg/day from Oct 2025 to Dec 2025; back down to 50 mg/day from Dec 2025 to Jan 2026Lyrica - 200 mg/day - Nov 2025 to Jan 2026 (quick taper off from mid-Jan to early Feb 2026 due to severe depressive symptoms)Cymbalta - 60 mg/day - Jan - March 2026; up to 90 mg/day from March to present
July 15Jul 15 Author 19 minutes ago, SarahMc said:I’m so sorry you’re in that situation, it sounds so hard to navigate. Have you talked to anyone knowledgeable about it, like Dr. Horowitz?I’m in a bit of a mini wave the past few days unfortunately, but it’s not as bad as my last wave so I’m trying to see that as a good sign. This too shall pass. Thanks for asking 💜.So sorry @SarahMc a wave no matter how big or small is always a challenge, glad at least it's a little better than the last.I didn't talk to Horowitz, I don't see any point in putting a lot of money on information that already exists and won't necessarily testify to my experience so I'm going by my intuition in the hope that I won't get a strong kick as a result..I hope this wave passes quickly for you and that your cute George (I scored with the name I hope) is supporting you from the sidelines 💜💜 1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawalMany attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)Supplements:Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.
July 15Jul 15 50 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:I didn't talk to Horowitz, I don't see any point in putting a lot of money on information that already exists and won't necessarily testify to my experience so I'm going by my intuition in the hope that I won't get a strong kick as a result..That’s totally fair, it seems like a lot of this process is a guessing game anyways. You know yourself and your body best. I really hope this helps and that things start to get a little better for you. 54 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:I hope this wave passes quickly for you and that your cute George (I scored with the name I hope) is supporting you from the sidelines 💜💜Haha, you did get the name right! Yes, all three of my fur babies are supportive, mostly with cuddles 🥰. I feel very lucky to have them. I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I am new to this journey and my thoughts are based only on my personal experience with psychiatric drugs. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. Current regimen:Cymbalta - 90 mg/daySeroquel - 12.5 mg/day*holding to stabilize as of Apr 2026 History:Seroquel - up to 50 mg as needed for sleep (generally 6.25-12.5 mg a few times a week, though sometimes more) - 2009 (ish) to presentCymbalta - 60 mg/day, periodically down to 30 mg/day - May 2014 to May 2025Clonazepam - up to 1 mg/day as needed - March to May 2025, quick taper offZoloft - 150 mg/day - May 2025 to Aug 2025 (quick cross-taper from Cymbalta)Pristiq - 50 mg/day from Aug 2025 to mid-Oct 2025 (quick cross-taper from Zoloft); 100 mg/day from Oct 2025 to Dec 2025; back down to 50 mg/day from Dec 2025 to Jan 2026Lyrica - 200 mg/day - Nov 2025 to Jan 2026 (quick taper off from mid-Jan to early Feb 2026 due to severe depressive symptoms)Cymbalta - 60 mg/day - Jan - March 2026; up to 90 mg/day from March to present
July 15Jul 15 Author 16 minutes ago, SarahMc said:That’s totally fair, it seems like a lot of this process is a guessing game anyways. You know yourself and your body best. I really hope this helps and that things start to get a little better for you.Thanks @SarahMc yes mostly a game of trial and error, tho there is the rule, maybe I'm an exception..Not sure I know myself today, I lost (better to think it's just hidden) so much in the process, confidence, strength and my strong intuition so I'm trying slowly to earn it back, hopefully it will pay off.16 minutes ago, SarahMc said:Haha, you did get the name right! Yes, all three of my fur babies are supportive, mostly with cuddles 🥰. I feel very lucky to have them.Oh, you have 3, even better! lucky us to have those sweet furry creatures by our side, enjoy the cuddles and feel better soon 😺 Edited July 15Jul 15 by Fullhealing 1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawalMany attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)Supplements:Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.
July 15Jul 15 Our son came to visit from DC for three weeks and he brought his cat. I've never been a cat person but I have to admit I love the little bugger. I think I may miss her as much as our son when they leave next week! 😆 Started Paxil for GAD in 1999 Unsuccessful taper attempt in 2006 Paxilprogress helped with a successful taper completed in 2009 Using therapy and CBT to manage my anxiety I offer advice based on my experience. Nothing I share is intended to be medical or therapy advice.
July 15Jul 15 13 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:Thanks @SarahMc yes mostly a game of trial and error, tho there is the rule, maybe I'm an exception..Not sure I know myself today, I lost (better to think it's just hidden) so much in the process, confidence, strength and my strong intuition so I'm trying slowly to earn it back, hopefully it will pay off.My thoughts are with you 💜💜💜. Whatever happens, you will heal. 14 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:Oh, you have 3, even better! lucky us to have those sweet furry creatures by our side, enjoy the cuddles and feel better soon 😺Ya just the one cat, but two pups as well 😊. Hope your little pup is a bit better these days. I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I am new to this journey and my thoughts are based only on my personal experience with psychiatric drugs. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. Current regimen:Cymbalta - 90 mg/daySeroquel - 12.5 mg/day*holding to stabilize as of Apr 2026 History:Seroquel - up to 50 mg as needed for sleep (generally 6.25-12.5 mg a few times a week, though sometimes more) - 2009 (ish) to presentCymbalta - 60 mg/day, periodically down to 30 mg/day - May 2014 to May 2025Clonazepam - up to 1 mg/day as needed - March to May 2025, quick taper offZoloft - 150 mg/day - May 2025 to Aug 2025 (quick cross-taper from Cymbalta)Pristiq - 50 mg/day from Aug 2025 to mid-Oct 2025 (quick cross-taper from Zoloft); 100 mg/day from Oct 2025 to Dec 2025; back down to 50 mg/day from Dec 2025 to Jan 2026Lyrica - 200 mg/day - Nov 2025 to Jan 2026 (quick taper off from mid-Jan to early Feb 2026 due to severe depressive symptoms)Cymbalta - 60 mg/day - Jan - March 2026; up to 90 mg/day from March to present
July 15Jul 15 Sending you some loving thoughts, my strong friend…I hope for few errors and lots of success with your experiments!On 7/13/2026 at 10:28 AM, Fullhealing said:I did some research on lithium orotate (not carbonate or citrate which require a prescription) and it looks interesting, I ordered the lowest dose (1 mg) and will see how if at all I want to combine it.I tried lithium for a short while, but it was activating for me.Saffron is an interesting one, have you seen this ?https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/1381-im-just-wild-about-saffron/#comment-12735And this/https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/32978-phoenix68-am-i-experiencing-withdrawal-hypersensitivity-or-something-else/#comment-743232 Money seems to be an issue with this supplement, I still would be curious. Let us know how it goes!I wish you a peaceful night ✨💗 Edited July 15Jul 15 by Nemina SA Thread: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/33406-nemina-tapering-escitalopram/AR Thread: https://antidepressantrecovery.org/topic/14-nemina-tapering-escilatopram-and-zolpidem/ Drug History2013 - 2025: Zolpidem 5 mg2015 - Oct 2024: Venlafaxine, Sertralin (Zoloft), Paroxetin (Paxil),duloxtin (cymbalta), Citalopram (Celexa), Escitalopram (Lexapro) and more Current DrugsL-Thyroxin 75, Estrogen, Progesteron 200 Tapering EscitalopramUntil Sept 2024: Setralin/zoloft 75 mgOct 2024: Switch to Escitalopram / Lexapro 2mgThen I tapered over a year from 2mg to 0,32 mg (October 2025). 108 days hold without stabilizing. Resumed taper February 2026:11 Feb 2026 0.314mg 18 Feb 2026 0.307mg 21 Feb 2026 0.302mg09 Mar 2026 0.297mg18 April 2026 0,293 mg18 May 2026 0,285 mg18 June 2026 0,265 mg18 July 2026 0,250 mg18 Aug 2026 0,232 mg Tapering Zolpidem: From 5 mg to 0,7 mg in 12 months, then just crumbs for several weeks, now 0! (Jan 2025) Other Supplements Omega 3, Magnesium Glycinate, Vit D, Calcium, L-theanin.
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