3 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Update 24.98.26 11:40am

It only took two days for the system to flare up even more from the kid's multivitamin at almost zero dosage.. no clue how I will fill the deficiency effectively as it is simply impossible only through nutrition, big problem.

My sleep in the last two days has become horrific again with very vivid nightmares that leave a terrible taste throughout the day, yesterday and after a few good days of relief, again a sleep hallucination when trying to rest, seems that the system can't shake the extreme fight or flight mode, I stopped taking short evening walks since it is impossible to escape people on the way which irritates, everything in general turns me on, I can't stand even weak noises, the tinnitus is very loud including eye tics, crazy digestion and the racing thoughts, oh my, catastrophe BUT I have to remind myself that it all makes sense in light of the recent dramatic changes, I just need to wait, wait, and more wait and muster a ton of patience which is not really going well so far so good luck with that.

@Fullhealing . Keep reminding yourself that the body is healing. I'm here to support you.

Hanging in there!

4 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

It only took two days for the system to flare up even more from the kid's multivitamin at almost zero dosage.. no clue how I will fill the deficiency effectively as it is simply impossible only through nutrition, big problem.

My sleep in the last two days has become horrific again with very vivid nightmares that leave a terrible taste throughout the day, yesterday and after a few good days of relief, again a sleep hallucination when trying to rest, seems that the system can't shake the extreme fight or flight mode, I stopped taking short evening walks since it is impossible to escape people on the way which irritates, everything in general turns me on, I can't stand even weak noises, the tinnitus is very loud including eye tics, crazy digestion and the racing thoughts, oh my, catastrophe BUT I have to remind myself that it all makes sense in light of the recent dramatic changes, I just need to wait, wait, and more wait and muster a ton of patience which is not really going well so far so good luck with that.

I'm so sorry @Fullhealing, a really hope you get some lasting relief soon. I'm with you on the irritability, I still have to walk our dogs every day but sometimes I get so annoyed that I'll even just see someone in the distance walking towards us and I'll get a surge of anger 😅. It's still unbelievable to me the way these drugs mess with us.

I'm with you on this long, long, long hold.

Sending you a blessing, my dear. ❤️‍🩹

If I catch myself with any symptoms doubt..

SEROTONIN RECEPTORS ARE NOT JUST IN THE BRAIN.

Serotonin (5-HT) receptors are distributed throughout the body and are found on a huge variety of cells, tissues and organs.

Nervous system

• Neurons

• Glial cells

• Astrocytes

• Microglia

• Sensory neurons

• Motor neurons

• Enteric neurons

💪 Muscle cells

• Skeletal muscle-related cells

• Smooth muscle cells — including blood vessels, gut, airways, bladder and reproductive organs

• Cardiac muscle cells

🩸 Blood & cardiovascular system

• Platelets

• Endothelial cells

• Vascular smooth muscle cells

• Cardiac cells

🦠 Digestive system

• Enterochromaffin cells

• Enterocytes

• Enteric neurons

• Smooth muscle cells

• Other epithelial cells

🫁 Lungs

• Airway smooth muscle cells

• Pulmonary vascular cells

• Endothelial cells

• Nerve cells

🧫 Liver

• Hepatocytes

• Hepatic stellate cells

• Cholangiocytes

• Kupffer cells / macrophages

• Vascular cells

🩸 Pancreas

• β-cells

• α-cells

• Other pancreatic cells

• Nerve and vascular cells

🫘 Kidneys

• Renal epithelial cells

• Vascular cells

• Other renal cell populations

🦴 Bone

• Osteoblasts

• Osteoclasts

• Bone-marrow cells

🔥 Adipose tissue

• Adipocytes

• Immune cells

• Stromal/vascular cells

🛡️ Immune system

• T cells

• B cells

• Monocytes/macrophages

• Dendritic cells

• Neutrophils

• Eosinophils

• Mast cells

• Microglia

🩸 Spleen

• Macrophages

• T cells

• B cells

• Dendritic cells

• Monocytes & other immune cells

• Platelets

• Endothelial cells

• Vascular smooth muscle cells

🧬 Lymphatic & immune organs

• Lymph nodes

• Bone marrow

• Thymus

• Immune and stromal cells

🧴 Skin

• Keratinocytes

• Fibroblasts

• Immune cells

• Sensory nerve cells

• Vascular cells

🧬 Reproductive system

• Ovarian cells

• Uterine cells

• Placental cells

• Testicular cells

• Prostate cells

• Smooth muscle and vascular cells

🦋 Endocrine &

other tissues

• Thyroid cells

• Adrenal cells

• Salivary gland cells

• Bladder cells

• Gallbladder cells

• Various epithelial, vascular, immune and connective-tissue cells

…and many other tissues.

Pretty much our entire body 😢

And they thought it was a good idea to create a medication that can mess with just about every cell in your body.

🙄😕

8 minutes ago, Wombat said:

And they thought it was a good idea to create a medication that can mess with just about every cell in your body.

🙄😕

Lovely isn't it.. more issues more 💰 for the big pocket.. great idea, not for us.

Edited August 25Aug 25 by Fullhealing

3 hours ago, Tracey said:

Pretty much our entire body 😢

Yup! Evil what they do to us. I am still shocked how much my body is effected by all this in so many ways.

How are You doing today, my dear? I hope things are settling a bit.

5 hours ago, Nemina said:

How are You doing today, my dear? I hope things are settling a bit.

Sweet of you to check in dear @Nemina thank you, I'm flaring up in the last two days but this too shall pass, we know.

How things are going for you? you are struggling as well lately, so sorry, hope today is a bit better?

Morning @Fullhealing sorry things are amping a bit for you, I have the same atm, hope today is easier for you today my friend. xxxxx

18 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Morning @Fullhealing sorry things are amping a bit for you, I have the same atm, hope today is easier for you today my friend. xxxxx

Thank you @Chippy so sorry it's tough for you too, the flare is still in full swing.. I'm exhausted to the max but we know it will go as it comes, we just have to keep crawling..

Hope your day brightens up my friend xxxxx

30 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

we know it will go as it comes, we just have to keep crawling..

Thats the one my friend, glad Im crawling next to you xxx

Update 28.08.26 1am

So today, while I'm in a flare-up with extreme restlessness I find myself humming with pleasure, bursting out laughing to some funny shorts only to cry my heart out and fall into atomic depression, irrational fears and unexplained rage a second later.. full on cuckoo's nests.

In the last two days my digestion is a bit better but accompanied by severe stomach pains that I know well from a full dose. Throughout the process they were rarely present and since the increase they seem to have returned with a vengeance.

The nights are haunted again, I wake up with less cortisol but more depression that quickly turns into a strong inner restlessness and almost zero ability to do the basics.

2 weeks almost since the increase and except for the burning sensation that has calmed down a bit, the rest is pretty much the same with a stronger than ever tinnitus. looking back, I might have managed to carry on and not be tempted to go up but what's done is done.

Now it's a long waiting time as I do my best to be patient and remind myself constantly that this is all chemical madness that will eventually pass.

Edited August 27Aug 27 by Fullhealing

5 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Now it's a long waiting time as I do my best to be patient and remind myself constantly that this is all chemical madness that will eventually pass.

And that's the key my friend. Give your system a chance to regain its balance and calm itself down. We all know by now healing comes in its own way and in its own good time. Be kind to yourself and distract when you can!

19 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Update 28.08.26 1am

So today, while I'm in a flare-up with extreme restlessness I find myself humming with pleasure, bursting out laughing to some funny shorts only to cry my heart out and fall into atomic depression, irrational fears and unexplained rage a second later.. full on cuckoo's nests.

In the last two days my digestion is a bit better but accompanied by severe stomach pains that I know well from a full dose. Throughout the process they were rarely present and since the increase they seem to have returned with a vengeance.

The nights are haunted again, I wake up with less cortisol but more depression that quickly turns into a strong inner restlessness and almost zero ability to do the basics.

2 weeks almost since the increase and except for the burning sensation that has calmed down a bit, the rest is pretty much the same with a stronger than ever tinnitus. looking back, I might have managed to carry on and not be tempted to go up but what's done is done.

Now it's a long waiting time as I do my best to be patient and remind myself constantly that this is all chemical madness that will eventually pass.

Walking alongside you dear @Fullhealing .

Time and patience are our allies, just so hard when you can barely function. I share your night time depression, haunting and cortisol. What a contradictory combination. Activated / agitated , yet depressed as well. No wonder it feels like we are going mad.

Love to Jackie and your other fur kids xx

1 hour ago, Fullhealing said:

full on cuckoo's nests.

You made me chuckle (the situation isn’t at all funny, but your description is ☺️)

I can relate… unfortunately

Lots of love and patience ❤️

1 hour ago, Tracey said:

Walking alongside you dear @Fullhealing .

Time and patience are our allies, just so hard when you can barely function. I share your night time depression, haunting and cortisol. What a contradictory combination. Activated / agitated , yet depressed as well. No wonder it feels like we are going mad.

Love to Jackie and your other fur kids xx

I'm sorry we were forced to walk this path but if anything, I'm grateful to have you by my side.

I hope you're feeling a little better today dear @Tracey

Love back from me and all my ferries xxx

51 minutes ago, Finni said:

You made me chuckle (the situation isn’t at all funny, but your description is ☺️)

I can relate… unfortunately

Lots of love and patience ❤️

Glad you smiled lol we much keep the black humor in check..

Hope you're doing a bit better today Finni, big hug xxx

Edited Friday at 12:22 AM5 days by Fullhealing

3 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

I'm sorry we were forced to walk this path but if anything, I'm grateful to have you by my side.

I hope you're feeling a little better today dear @Tracey

Love back from me and all my ferries xxx

Ditto to grateful for meeting you and the other wonderful people on here. xxx

9 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

constantly that this is all chemical madness that will eventually pass.

This is it my friend 100%, nothing lasts forever. Good to see the symptoms waxing and waning, brain is fighting for stablity.....

👊

13 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Update 28.08.26 1am

So today, while I'm in a flare-up with extreme restlessness I find myself humming with pleasure, bursting out laughing to some funny shorts only to cry my heart out and fall into atomic depression, irrational fears and unexplained rage a second later.. full on cuckoo's nests.

In the last two days my digestion is a bit better but accompanied by severe stomach pains that I know well from a full dose. Throughout the process they were rarely present and since the increase they seem to have returned with a vengeance.

The nights are haunted again, I wake up with less cortisol but more depression that quickly turns into a strong inner restlessness and almost zero ability to do the basics.

2 weeks almost since the increase and except for the burning sensation that has calmed down a bit, the rest is pretty much the same with a stronger than ever tinnitus. looking back, I might have managed to carry on and not be tempted to go up but what's done is done.

Now it's a long waiting time as I do my best to be patient and remind myself constantly that this is all chemical madness that will eventually pass.

Hang in there. We will get out of this. I'm also doing another long hold....

4 hours ago, Raymond said:

Hang in there. We will get out of this. I'm also doing another long hold....

Good thing, Raymond. We wouldn't want to fan the flames—they burned down almost my entire forest...

Now for the long wait... Reserving a front-row seat for you (;

I hope you have a great weekend!

Update 01.09.26 12:30pm

Things continue to be turbulent following the excessive reduction and dosage increase, yesterday was a particularly grueling day, marked by a power outage that lasted from early morning until the early evening which delayed my daily dose by six hours triggering a massive headache and piercing deafening tinnitus all against the backdrop of a scorching 32 degree and humidity that felt like 200%, cruel combo..

Nights remain sweaty and haunted with abrupt awakenings straight into a terrifying and utterly exhausting twilight zone of chemical-like dread yet looking on the bright side I'm sleeping enough, perhaps even too much, something others surely yearn for so I must be grateful for that!

Recent symptoms, fluctuating in intensity, include:

* Intense burning sensations starting in the head and spreading to the arms, chest, and pelvic region.

* Rapid heart palpitations accompanied by air hunger.

* Gastrointestinal distress: severe heartburn, bloating, poor digestion, and stomach pain.

* Dizziness accompanied by the sensation of an electrical current whirring inside the head.

* Neurological tics and lateral eye squinting which initially appeared occasionally upon starting the medications years ago but have now become an almost daily occurrence.

* Catastrophic intrusive thoughts: terror,

anxiety, and paranoia.

* Intolerance to noise and light.

* Massive hair loss, desert-dry skin.

* Extreme fatigue.

* Profound apathy and a complete lack of motivation or desire, essentially depression.

Undoubtedly some of this is exacerbated by low ferritin, vitamin D, and B12 levels, compounded by perimenopause which began over the last eight months (or perhaps earlier, though I only recently had clear indications) which need a checking however, given my current state I simply lack the energy to go get it done, the discomfort, to put it very mildly, that doctors tend to cause doesn't help motivate me either but this must be addressed and I will somehow have to force myself..

So, we shall see what's next, for now I'm still housebound having officially been out of work for about 3.5 weeks, had to stop my short evening walks due to my intolerances for people, tho it is important to gently push, one must equally know when to ease off the gas pedal during certain times, something I trying to accept with grace as challenging as that may be.

So the big war for absolute freedom of these dreadful toxins continues with most likely many exhausting battles but at our own individual paces we will all get there.

Edited yesterday at 09:53 AM1 day by Fullhealing

What a terrible symptom list…I am so sorry 😦.

2 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

So the big war for absolute freedom of these dreadful toxins continues with most likely many exhausting battles but at our own individual paces we will all get there.

Love this. Yes, absolute freedom. That’s what we are heading towards. And we will all get their, together we will.

Thinking of you and sending peace and strength your way. ❤️