Update 06.08.26

Body aches - almost gone for a while.

Head/sinus pressure - still though less frequent.

Nerves jumping - getting worse.

Digestion - still very bad for the most part.

Stomach aches and bloating - still experiencing sharp pains but decreasing significantly (unlike on full dose which was almost a daily thing) Bloating though, persistent.

Burning sensation - still severe flare-ups, maybe a little less, hard to say.

Tinnitus - constant and mostly very loud.

Food sensitivities - pretty much the same.

Allergies - worsening

Sensitivity to light and noises.

Extreme dryness in nasal cavities.

Mentally - the worst.. zero motivation, extreme fatigue along with inner restlessness, doom, terror, catastrophe, irrational fears, strange phobias, intrusive thoughts, paranoia, all still very present from morning throughout the day but with a noticeable improvement in the evening.

Sleep - usually between 7 and 9 hours although due to lack of routine and wild hormones sleep has been reversed so my sleep cycle is off, sleep quality is pretty good, still have vivid dreams and hallucinations but much less.

Supplements:

Saffron as I updated caused a blistering rash so I stopped after almost two weeks.

CBD vape liquid, tried for a few days, hard to say if it had an effect one way or the other but anyway, decided to put my adventures aside for now and let the body heal cleanly, no more dosage games until significant improvement in all respects.

Edited August 6Aug 6 by Fullhealing

32 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Update 06.08.26

Body aches - almost gone for a while.

Head/sinus pressure - still though less frequent.

Nerves jumping - getting worse.

Digestion - still very bad for the most part.

Stomach aches and bloating - still experiencing sharp pains but decreasing significantly (unlike on full dose which was almost a daily thing) Bloating though, persistent.

Burning sensation - still severe flare-ups, maybe a little less, hard to say.

Tinnitus - constant and mostly very loud.

Mentally - the worst.. zero motivation, extreme fatigue along with inner restlessness, doom, terror, catastrophe, irrational fears, strange phobias, intrusive thoughts, paranoia, all still very present from morning throughout the day but with a noticeable improvement in the evening.

Sleep - usually between 7 and 9 hours although due to lack of routine and wild hormones sleep has been reversed so my sleep cycle is off, sleep quality is pretty good, still have vivid dreams and hallucinations but much less.

Supplements:

Saffron as I updated caused a blistering rash so I stopped after almost two weeks.

CBD vape liquid, tried for a few days, hard to say if it had an effect one way or the other but anyway, decided to put my adventures aside for now and let the body heal cleanly, no more dosage games until significant improvement in all respects.

@Fullhealing sorry to hear this, but at the same time, it seems that few symptoms are improving. This journey is a back and forth healing. You are doing great and as you hold, your body will feel better and better.

Hang in there. You are doing an amazing job.

1 hour ago, Fullhealing said:

Update 06.08.26

Body aches - almost gone for a while.

Head/sinus pressure - still though less frequent.

Nerves jumping - getting worse.

Digestion - still very bad for the most part.

Stomach aches and bloating - still experiencing sharp pains but decreasing significantly (unlike on full dose which was almost a daily thing) Bloating though, persistent.

Burning sensation - still severe flare-ups, maybe a little less, hard to say.

Tinnitus - constant and mostly very loud.

Food sensitivities - pretty much the same.

Allergies - worsening

Sensitivity to light and noises.

Extreme dryness in nasal cavities.

Mentally - the worst.. zero motivation, extreme fatigue along with inner restlessness, doom, terror, catastrophe, irrational fears, strange phobias, intrusive thoughts, paranoia, all still very present from morning throughout the day but with a noticeable improvement in the evening.

Sleep - usually between 7 and 9 hours although due to lack of routine and wild hormones sleep has been reversed so my sleep cycle is off, sleep quality is pretty good, still have vivid dreams and hallucinations but much less.

Supplements:

Saffron as I updated caused a blistering rash so I stopped after almost two weeks.

CBD vape liquid, tried for a few days, hard to say if it had an effect one way or the other but anyway, decided to put my adventures aside for now and let the body heal cleanly, no more dosage games until significant improvement in all respects.

Thanks for the update @Fullhealing. Sorry that things are still so hard for you, but glad you’ve seen improvement in some symptoms and that the evenings are a little better. I agree that a long hold is probably best until you see significant improvement (which will come!). I’ll be right there with you on this long and winding journey to stabilization 💜.

1 hour ago, Fullhealing said:

but with a noticeable improvement in the evening.

This is good. When I first started the journey, it was an all day issue, but after awhile, it turned better in the evenings. Then, it got better in the afternoons. Now, it gets better in the late mornings and it's being like like this for a while now.

You are strong..keep moving forward..you are at a very low dose.

2 hours ago, Raymond said:

@Fullhealing sorry to hear this, but at the same time, it seems that few symptoms are improving. This journey is a back and forth healing. You are doing great and as you hold, your body will feel better and better.

Hang in there. You are doing an amazing job.

Thanks @Raymond considering it's only been a month since my big cut including various experiences, I'm grateful that there are any improvements at all, it could definitely have been a lot worse.

There's still a very long minefield to walk, but every mine I'm crossing teaches me something I wouldn't have learned otherwise so I try to appreciate it even though it's very, very tough.

Glad you're doing well overall, may it lasts.

Edited August 6Aug 6 by Fullhealing

1 hour ago, SarahMc said:

Thanks for the update @Fullhealing. Sorry that things are still so hard for you, but glad you’ve seen improvement in some symptoms and that the evenings are a little better. I agree that a long hold is probably best until you see significant improvement (which will come!). I’ll be right there with you on this long and winding journey to stabilization 💜.

Thank you @SarahMc I'm glad at least I'm in good company on this arduous journey, it's tough now but slowly things will start to clear up.

I hope today is going easy on you 🤍

30 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

it's only been a month since my big cut including various experiences

This is what I admire from you. Even the struggles with your journey and country issues, you continue tapering. It shows how strong you are. Amazing job.

You are almost out from the worst. I think after 2mg, it might be better ride down once you stabilize....

I gave only cut no more than 1.4% because I am scared. 😳 I wish I can taper more and get rid of this medication sooner...

Thinking of you ❤️

Joining in @Fullhealing, hope you’ve seen a bit of relief 💜

Thanks so much for stopping by @Finni @SarahMc so very kind of you!

The last 2 weeks have been without a doubt the hottest I've had since the beginning of the process, the last cut (way too big) came as a late explosion and crushed me thoroughly so had to increase the dose a little in hope to get back to sane baseline, until then I must keep myself under the radar as everything is just too stimulating.

Wishing you both strong warriors better days very soon 🩷

Hang in there my friend. You can make it!

3 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Thanks so much for stopping by @Finni @SarahMc so very kind of you!

The last 2 weeks have been without a doubt the hottest I've had since the beginning of the process, the last cut (way too big) came as a late explosion and crushed me thoroughly so had to increase the dose a little in hope to get back to sane baseline, until then I must keep myself under the radar as everything is just too stimulating.

Wishing you both strong warriors better days very soon 🩷

It sounds like you made a wise choice ❣️

7 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Thanks so much for stopping by @Finni @SarahMc so very kind of you!

The last 2 weeks have been without a doubt the hottest I've had since the beginning of the process, the last cut (way too big) came as a late explosion and crushed me thoroughly so had to increase the dose a little in hope to get back to sane baseline, until then I must keep myself under the radar as everything is just too stimulating.

Wishing you both strong warriors better days very soon 🩷

I am sorry to read this my friend! You were the last I thing I thought of last night, I realised we had not heard from you in a few days. I am very sorry to hear this, I hope this updose has helped. Do you think it has? xxxxx

9 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Thanks so much for stopping by @Finni @SarahMc so very kind of you!

The last 2 weeks have been without a doubt the hottest I've had since the beginning of the process, the last cut (way too big) came as a late explosion and crushed me thoroughly so had to increase the dose a little in hope to get back to sane baseline, until then I must keep myself under the radar as everything is just too stimulating.

Wishing you both strong warriors better days very soon 🩷

Remember, don't do more than 10% cut. These drugs are powerful and it can take more than two years before you can see better improvements. This is the reason I'm going slow. I think that after two or three years, I might get to feel more normal before doing bigger cuts. In the meantime, I'm only cutting no more than 1.5 so far...

Hanging in there....

3 hours ago, Chippy said:

I am sorry to read this my friend! You were the last I thing I thought of last night, I realised we had not heard from you in a few days. I am very sorry to hear this, I hope this updose has helped. Do you think it has? xxxxx

Thanks a lot @Chippy it's only been 3 days but there's been an immediate improvement in terms of sleep, the constant hallucinations and nightmares that almost reached madness have decreased by 70%, burning sensation by 30% as well as the allergies/histamine but the whole chemical salad like paranoia, phobias, depression, SI that have taken on a frightening volume in the last two weeks is still sitting strong.

I definitely bite off more than I could chew, I also didn't calculate correctly and reduced by 21.2% which is pretty crazy let alone under 5 mg but I really thought it was a paradoxical reaction and I would feel relief.. it might be kindling..!? don't know really, my brain is such a mess.

Anyway my strategy is to stay at the same dose however long it takes until I reach a massive long-term improvement. No more games!

How things going for you? hope you're doing well 🤍

@Fullhealing sounds like it has worked well for you increasing your dose. I think it was wise. Gotta treat that nervous system like a baby now. X

I’m ok my friend. Soldiering on as ever.

1 hour ago, Raymond said:

Remember, don't do more than 10% cut. These drugs are powerful and it can take more than two years before you can see better improvements. This is the reason I'm going slow. I think that after two or three years, I might get to feel more normal before doing bigger cuts. In the meantime, I'm only cutting no more than 1.5 so far...

Hanging in there....

Thanks Raymond,

Definitely wild and dangerous in hindsight, won't make that mistake again!

19 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Thanks Raymond,

Definitely wild and dangerous in hindsight, won't make that mistake again!

You already in a low dose. Patience is the key for now. The good thing about lowe doses is that once your body catches up, you will feel better. The key is to function as the body heals.

Hold longer and it will payoff. I think the body can take a full three years to feel more normal...the nervous system is so complex...

58 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Thanks a lot @Chippy it's only been 3 days but there's been an immediate improvement in terms of sleep, the constant hallucinations and nightmares that almost reached madness have decreased by 70%, burning sensation by 30% as well as the allergies/histamine but the whole chemical salad like paranoia, phobias, depression, SI that have taken on a frightening volume in the last two weeks is still sitting strong.

I’m glad the updose helped a bit @Fullhealing, but sorry you’re still enduring all that psychological torment. I know you’re strong and you won’t let WD brain fool you. There is peace and joy on the other side of all this!

59 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

I definitely bite off more than I could chew, I also didn't calculate correctly and reduced by 21.2% which is pretty crazy let alone under 5 mg but I really thought it was a paradoxical reaction and I would feel relief.. it might be kindling..!? don't know really, my brain is such a mess.

Anyway my strategy is to stay at the same dose however long it takes until I reach a massive long-term improvement. No more games!

I think a long, long hold is absolutely the way to go now. Come join my indefinite holding team!! Haha. Glad to have more company on this journey of incredible patience waiting to stabilize. We’ll get there together 💜.

Edited August 17Aug 17 by SarahMc

1 hour ago, Raymond said:

You already in a low dose. Patience is the key for now. The good thing about lowe doses is that once your body catches up, you will feel better. The key is to function as the body heals.

Hold longer and it will payoff. I think the body can take a full three years to feel more normal...the nervous system is so complex...

Oh what a struggle, patience is not my strong suit must admit but there are lessons that are only learned the hard way.

Appreciate the support Raymond and glad you're still on a relatively steady path, you are coping so very well!!

Edited August 17Aug 17 by Fullhealing

1 hour ago, SarahMc said:

I’m glad the updose helped a bit @Fullhealing, but sorry you’re still enduring all that psychological torment. I know you’re strong and you won’t let WD brain fool you. There is peace and joy on the other side of all this!

I think a long, long hold is absolutely the way to go now. Come join my indefinite holding team!! Haha. Glad to have more company on this journey of incredible patience waiting to stabilize. We’ll get there together 💜.

Rejoined the waiting club lol enough with the foolish temptations, too dangerous price to pay.

how are you and how is the treatment going after the diagnosis? Is there any sign of improvement? really hope so 🤞

Thanks a lot @SarahMc for all your kind support 🤍

@Fullhealing , I had to reinstate twice before I was able to handle a slow and steady taper. Like you, patience isn't my strong suit, but this will pay off a hundredfold when its all over.

54 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Thanks a lot @SarahMc for all your kind support 🤍

Anytime 💜

54 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

how are you and how is the treatment going after the diagnosis? Is there any sign of improvement? really hope so 🤞

The antibiotics seem to be dealing with the BV symptoms, but I still have a couple more days of taking them. No movement otherwise with this stubborn wave yet, but the antibiotics at least don't seem to be making my WD symptoms worse so I'll take it 😂.

54 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

@Fullhealing , I had to reinstate twice before I was able to handle a slow and steady taper. Like you, patience isn't my strong suit, but this will pay off a hundredfold when its all over.

Thanks @mstimc60 How did it go for you from 5 mg down? Anything that made it easier for you or did you just let things be? Those low doses are such a tough nut to crack!

1 minute ago, Fullhealing said:

Thanks @mstimc60 How did it go for you from 5 mg down? Anything that made it easier for you or did you just let things be? Those low doses are such a tough nut to crack!

I think my biggest issue was the anticipatory anxiety of not knowing what life would be like after almost nine years taking Paxil. Even at the very small doses, there was a certain comfort knowing I was still taking it, even if it wasn't of any real benefit. I tried to adopt the mindset that "Its okay to feel okay" and let my feeling and emotions come back naturally. It was a struggle but I made it, just like you will!