5 minutes ago, SarahMc said:

Anytime 💜

The antibiotics seem to be dealing with the BV symptoms, but I still have a couple more days of taking them. No movement otherwise with this stubborn wave yet, but the antibiotics at least don't seem to be making my WD symptoms worse so I'll take it 😂.

Oh, so sorry for the tough days, this ongoing issue certainly isn't helping!

I hope the treatment works properly and you'll be right back to a calmer baseline very soon 🤞🩷

15 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

I think my biggest issue was the anticipatory anxiety of not knowing what life would be like after almost nine years taking Paxil. Even at the very small doses, there was a certain comfort knowing I was still taking it, even if it wasn't of any real benefit. I tried to adopt the mindset that "Its okay to feel okay" and let my feeling and emotions come back naturally. It was a struggle but I made it, just like you will!

I'm trying to adjust my mindset but it's extremely tough when it's chemically driven, it's like my brain has been hijacked, control is almost non-existent!

Well done for being able to stop, truly amazing @mstimc60 Paxil is such a bad beast, even my psych admitted he doesn't prescribe it anymore due to the enormous difficulty in stopping!

Anyway, thank you very much, I'm more determined than ever this time, I just need to prepare myself well for what's to come.

9 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

I'm trying to adjust my mindset but it's extremely tough when it's chemically driven, it's like my brain has been hijacked, control is almost non-existent!

Well done for being able to stop, truly amazing @mstimc60 Paxil is such a bad beast, even my psych admitted he doesn't prescribe it anymore due to the enormous difficulty in stopping!

Anyway, thank you very much, I'm more determined than ever this time, I just need to prepare myself well for what's to come.

Its good you recognize the difference between your chemically driven thoughts and the "real you". The thoughts won't last forever and they're not who you are.

My doctor just told me to wean for two weeks and then stop. Thank God I found PaxilProgress before I did that!

53 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

Its good you recognize the difference between your chemically driven thoughts and the "real you". The thoughts won't last forever and they're not who you are.

My doctor just told me to wean for two weeks and then stop. Thank God I found PaxilProgress before I did that!

The great irony is that "my" psych (who I only used at the beginning of the process) tho knew how extremely hard is to stop knew nothing about proper tapering, when I asked for a prescription to import liquid Paxil from abroad he was completely surprised!

I stopped understanding how their brains work, honestly..

5 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

The great irony is that "my" psych (who I only used at the beginning of the process) tho knew how extremely hard is to stop knew nothing about proper tapering, when I asked for a prescription to import liquid Paxil from abroad he was completely surprised!

I stopped understanding how their brains work, honestly..

My take is that typical US doctors have about 20 minutes to spend with patients, and most psychs decide what's going on with you within three minutes. They're all seeing patients back to back all day. What little free time they have is taken up by drug salespeople telling them this or that pill will solve their patients' problems in a week (and get them out the door within that 20 minutes). Unless they're willing to do research on their own time, very few know about WD, except from patients they write off as hypersensitive. I was blessed to find a therapist who accepted the reality of WD and gave me the tools to get through it.

21 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

My take is that typical US doctors have about 20 minutes to spend with patients, and most psychs decide what's going on with you within three minutes. They're all seeing patients back to back all day. What little free time they have is taken up by drug salespeople telling them this or that pill will solve their patients' problems in a week (and get them out the door within that 20 minutes). Unless they're willing to do research on their own time, very few know about WD, except from patients they write off as hypersensitive. I was blessed to find a therapist who accepted the reality of WD and gave me the tools to get through it.

Well, this is the face of the health system in general, rotten to the core, mine was private which is expected to be handled differently but it is not!

You are indeed lucky to have found someone who understands the matter, I have turned every possible stone here and found nothing, zero awareness.

Hey @Fullhealing sorry for being here so rarely . But Thinking of you often! I am happy that the reinstatement as helped a bit. Boy, do we all need patience… you are very strong. You will get to the end of the tunnel. Thinking of you!

33 minutes ago, Nemina said:

Hey @Fullhealing sorry for being here so rarely . But Thinking of you often! I am happy that the reinstatement as helped a bit. Boy, do we all need patience… you are very strong. You will get to the end of the tunnel. Thinking of you!

I am so grateful for the relief that seems to continue to improve, it has been extremely scary especially the sleep hallucinations along with the SI, I don't really remember anything that intense but maybe my memory is just off, either way, placebo or not I am enjoying the relative peace.

Thank you for your kind comment @Nemina was wondering how you were too, really hope that rare here is a good sign!!

Edited August 17Aug 17 by Fullhealing

@Fullhealing I saw elsewhere that you’re having an uptick in symptoms again, I’m sorry to hear that. Sending some virtual hugs and love 💜.

On 8/17/2026 at 2:06 PM, Fullhealing said:

I am so grateful for the relief that seems to continue to improve, it has been extremely scary especially the sleep hallucinations along with the SI, I don't really remember anything that intense but maybe my memory is just off, either way, placebo or not I am enjoying the relative peace.

Thank you for your kind comment @Nemina was wondering how you were too, really hope that rare here is a good sign!!

Hoping for continued healing for you, my friend!

@Fullhealing ...I hope you are better and doing great on your journey. Paxil is not a joke, but we can still get off of it. Prayers and support to you my friend....

Thank you friends @SarahMc @mstimc60 @Raymond 🤍

Yes, unfortunately back to suffocating deep dives, I had relative peace for two days after increasing the dose, then a painful crush, in general, the quality of sleep has improved in that there are almost no horrific SI hallucinations and nightmares, I do have still very vivid dreams but the content is quite fascinating which makes me want to pass the time by just sleeping, not the best but in relation to others who suffer so much from lack of sleep I have nothing to complain, grateful for every small improvement.

Took me long enough to realize that under 5mg it's brutal let alone my dose so I need to be very, very careful both with reduction and with new experiences, I'm done playing with fire, I'm resting, probably going to be a long one but I'm ok with that, no rush.

Edited August 20Aug 20 by Fullhealing

55 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

5mg it's brutal

Indeed, I believe between 5mg to 2mg is hard...you are almost out. Just hold long enough before reducing again. My first hold was 7 months, second hold about 6 months, and now, I might hold for a little bit or at least until I come back from my small vacations with my daughter end of September. I don't want to mess up our father and daughter time..

Also, I'm back to wake up at 5am. The good thing is that in the last few months, I'm able to sleep through most of the time before waking up again ...as long as I sleep 5 to 6 hours, I'm good

Edited August 20Aug 20 by Raymond
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Sending some love dear @Fullhealing xxxx

1 hour ago, Chippy said:

Sending some love dear @Fullhealing xxxx

Back to you dear @Chippy 🤍

Hope your head is better today, have a lovely weekend!

Edited August 21Aug 21 by Fullhealing

17 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

have a great weekend!

xxx You too!

I am thinking of you, my strong friend. Sending a hug and a prayer.

8 hours ago, Nemina said:

I am thinking of you, my strong friend. Sending a hug and a prayer.

Thank you my friend, hug&love back, slowly we'll make it through!

Edited August 22Aug 22 by Fullhealing

Update 22.08.26 11:00am

Since increasing the dose by about half of the last cut sleep continues to be free of horrific hallucinations and nightmares, although still saturated with slightly bizarre dreams they are quite interesting, some are even enjoyable so it's okay, sleeping hours are all mixed up but I manage to sleep between 7-9 hours in total which is excellent.

Still in full survival mode, I haven't returned to work yet but I managed to find a replacement for the next two to three months when I help out occasionally via remote control, it takes a huge burden off of me for now, I hope that during this time I will be able to reorganize but I try not to dig too deep into this or anything else and give the system as much peace as possible to heal.

Today I woke up relatively fine, without skyrocketing cortisol and abysmal fear, thoughts do continue to race but so far they are relatively controllable.

Allergies/histamine also subsided significantly, it seems that the sharp cut gave a crazy kick that reached an unbearable level.

In terms of other symptoms such as poor digestion, loud tinnitus, jittery nerves, same old same.

Yesterday I started a super low dose multivitamin (designed for children, didn't find very low values otherwise) and although I mentioned that I would put it aside for now I really have no choice, ferritin continued to drop and reached 10 as well as b12 and vitamin d in the very low values, my body is as dry as the desert, my hair is falling out in huge pieces and I am extra exhausted from doing practically nothing so these must be contributing, so only one day but so far no bad reaction unlike previous attempts which were terrible pretty much immediately, again, super low dose, I don't know how much it will fill the deficiency but it's better than nothing.

That's it for now, we'll see how things move as I try to adjust myself accordingly.

@Fullhealing that sounds like a pretty positive update to me. I am pleased, I hope from here things start to improve for you. Nice long hold. Good idea I think. I would be careful about supplements, without banging that drum too hard, add a bunch of foods that contain the missing elements to your diet much better for the brain. xxxx

28 minutes ago, Chippy said:

@Fullhealing that sounds like a pretty positive update to me. I am pleased, I hope from here things start to improve for you. Nice long hold. Good idea I think. I would be careful about supplements, without banging that drum too hard, add a bunch of foods that contain the missing elements to your diet much better for the brain. xxxx

Thanks @Chippy yes believe me I am aware of the risks but it is almost impossible through diet as I'm practically vegan except for a drop of milk in my coffee and rarely cheese..

We said we should treat ourselves like babies so we will see how it works with half the dose for kids lol fingers 🤞

19 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Thanks @Chippy yes believe me I am aware of the risks but it is almost impossible through diet as I'm practically vegan except for a drop of milk in my coffee and rarely cheese..

Me too, more veggie than vegan but little amounts of cheese and milk and I now have 1 egg a week in a meal, I have quite a bit of oat milk, thats fortified with B12 (not sure if thats a good thing!) but my B12 was fine when I last checked it. We have to do what we think is best for sure!

21 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

We said we should treat ourselves like babies so we will see how it works with half the dose for kids lol fingers 🤞

🤣 that is taking it litterally, fingers crossed for sure!

Update 24.98.26 11:40am

It only took two days for the system to flare up even more from the kid's multivitamin at almost zero dosage.. no clue how I will fill the deficiency effectively as it is simply impossible only through nutrition, big problem.

My sleep in the last two days has become horrific again with very vivid nightmares that leave a terrible taste throughout the day, yesterday and after a few good days of relief, again a sleep hallucination when trying to rest, seems that the system can't shake the extreme fight or flight mode, I stopped taking short evening walks since it is impossible to escape people on the way which irritates, everything in general turns me on, I can't stand even weak noises, the tinnitus is very loud including eye tics, crazy digestion and the racing thoughts, oh my, catastrophe BUT I have to remind myself that it all makes sense in light of the recent dramatic changes, I just need to wait, wait, and more wait and muster a ton of patience which is not really going well so far so good luck with that.

Im sorry to read @Fullhealing, our nervous systems are so sensitive unfortunately these supplements can do this. You have such stregth and yes, patience in WD is a requirement you have this my friend! xxxx

Relate to everything you write @Fullhealing . It really is something one has to experience to understand.

The extreme flight/fight mode is so intense and all consuming.

I find the same re getting enough from food alone. I would need to eat organic and more variety to get enough. I was vegan but brought fish in. I would prefer vegan but can't quite do it at the moment.

Avoiding people is a hard one and you would miss your evening walk.

I hope you settle again soon which you will. This is such an up and down process and it sure tests our patience .

Sending hugs xxx