06/07/2026- continue to be stable....

Yesterday was another good day.

This morning I woke up again at 530am, but with no rush, no cortisol, very mild anxiousness, no fear sensation, no crazy stuff and symptoms...I stayed in bed just chilling and in prayer.

I also noticed that my stomach has been good for the last three months and today I realized that my number 2 .. 😂 are more normal...

Morning energy continues to improve and don't feel the fear morning sensation. I am still not there but. It has improved a lot more.

Also. The fear sensation that I have had during this journey about different things are pre much gone with the exception of few issues which I think it will fade away more.

Muscle pain continues but less painful.

Tinnitus is being on and off. At this point, I'm not even thinking about it and don't bother me. Some symptoms I just ignore them.

Concentration, connection to everyone and everything a lot better.

Like I said, many things have improved a lot better and feel more stable in the last two months.

Two more weeks before I do another drop.

Overall, so far this morning things looking good

Thanking God for all my healing process and thanking all for the support, specially @LostinCanada who I met and gave me all these advices 18 months ago. I was like a Chihuahua dog, if she said "hold" I will definitely hold long.... 😂

Patience, acceptance, and float the only way out with prayers of course ......

Amazing :)

13 hours ago, Raymond said:

06/07/2026- continue to be stable....

Yesterday was another good day.

This morning I woke up again at 530am, but with no rush, no cortisol, very mild anxiousness, no fear sensation, no crazy stuff and symptoms...I stayed in bed just chilling and in prayer.

I also noticed that my stomach has been good for the last three months and today I realized that my number 2 .. 😂 are more normal...

Morning energy continues to improve and don't feel the fear morning sensation. I am still not there but. It has improved a lot more.

Also. The fear sensation that I have had during this journey about different things are pre much gone with the exception of few issues which I think it will fade away more.

Muscle pain continues but less painful.

Tinnitus is being on and off. At this point, I'm not even thinking about it and don't bother me. Some symptoms I just ignore them.

Concentration, connection to everyone and everything a lot better.

Like I said, many things have improved a lot better and feel more stable in the last two months.

Two more weeks before I do another drop.

Overall, so far this morning things looking good

Thanking God for all my healing process and thanking all for the support, specially @LostinCanada who I met and gave me all these advices 18 months ago. I was like a Chihuahua dog, if she said "hold" I will definitely hold long.... 😂

Patience, acceptance, and float the only way out with prayers of course ......

I continue feeling better than ever in the last two months. I'm considering another small reduction soon..

5 hours ago, Raymond said:

I continue feeling better than ever in the last two months. I'm considering another small reduction soon..

🕺

06/08/2026- woke up 529am again, but stay in bed and felt asleep a little more...

Yesterday was another great day. I enjoyed family time eating out. I even felt asleep for the first time in my car. I did experienced a tiny panic that jumped me, but went back to napping for a little bit. It's being long since I don't automatically nap naturally.

This morning, I woke up at 530am, but I was able to stay in bed and did a little extra sleep before getting ready to work.

My concentration continues at work.

I do feel just a tiny fear sensation in the back ground, but very very mild. It's there on and off. But I feel more energetic and a lot less scared about symptoms...

Overall, I continue being stable in the last two months. Tomorrow, I will be 19 months on this journey. I am waiting one more week before doing another reduction.... patience, patience and more patience..

I can't believe that I can read and finally understand what I'm reading.....my job requires a lot of reading and interpretations.....I was using chatgpt for few documents... 😂 I just managed to do the job..

On 6/7/2026 at 5:24 AM, Raymond said:

Thanking God for all my healing process and thanking all for the support, specially @LostinCanada who I met and gave me all these advices 18 months ago.

Thanks @Raymond

I know the journey is far from perfect but you have applied the knowledge and benefitted from doing so.

One day at a time.... keep listening to your body. ❤️🙏

06/09/2026- woke up again 530am, but no rush. Just brain crawling sensation...

Yesterday was another good day and I accomplished a lot of things at home and at work.

This morning, I woke up again at 520am, but no rush, no panic, only like a crawling sensation in my brain that was gone after I woke up. I continued in bed doing my morning routine before starting my day.

It's my 19 months journey and everything so far being very manageable in the last two months. I still get my same symptoms but very mild and manageable, while at the same time, every tiny drops have brought back positive symptoms and feel slowly more like me.

I decided today to drop another.0004g and see how it goes. So, the only way to feel better is to go down slowly. I'm testing water and see how I react.

My stomach is being good for the last two months, but in the last few weeks, it seems a lot better.

Let see how I react to this small drop as I'm slowly increasing my percentage while I find the right drop amount.

All we can do in this journey is test the waters and hope for the best in Jesus Christ who is with us always ..

13 hours ago, Raymond said:

06/09/2026- woke up again 530am, but no rush. Just brain crawling sensation...

Yesterday was another good day and I accomplished a lot of things at home and at work.

This morning, I woke up again at 520am, but no rush, no panic, only like a crawling sensation in my brain that was gone after I woke up. I continued in bed doing my morning routine before starting my day.

It's my 19 months journey and everything so far being very manageable in the last two months. I still get my same symptoms but very mild and manageable, while at the same time, every tiny drops have brought back positive symptoms and feel slowly more like me.

I decided today to drop another.0004g and see how it goes. So, the only way to feel better is to go down slowly. I'm testing water and see how I react.

My stomach is being good for the last two months, but in the last few weeks, it seems a lot better.

Let see how I react to this small drop as I'm slowly increasing my percentage while I find the right drop amount.

All we can do in this journey is test the waters and hope for the best in Jesus Christ who is with us always ..

Update...

I had a minor same headache that lasted like an hour. Then. I felt mild dizzy for like 10 minutes or less.

I continue to feel better and symptoms are not scaring me anymore so far. Its like I'm more stronger mentally or something. I can't describe it...

1 hour ago, Raymond said:

Update...

I had a minor same headache that lasted like an hour. Then. I felt mild dizzy for like 10 minutes or less.

I continue to feel better and symptoms are not scaring me anymore so far. Its like I'm more stronger mentally or something. I can't describe it...

Decaf coffee is great so far. After 19 months, it feels good...

5 hours ago, Raymond said:

Decaf coffee is great so far. After 19 months, it feels good...

06/10/2026- no cortisol, slept better, very mild symptoms so far ..

Yesterday was my first bigger drop again. I increased my tapering to .56% and so far I have been feeling well. I did felt my same headache on left side, but it was weaker and faded away within an hour. I also felt little dizzy for about 5 minutes before I started to feel better again.

I slept well this morning and woke up again without cortisol issues. I woke up due to my alarm to get ready. I continued to stay in bed relaxing. My brain feels a lot lighter like if 100 pounds of weight were just removed.

I continue feeling weaker and minor symptoms as usual, but nothing compares to the hell in the beginning of this journey, and somehow. I feel stronger mentally to continue my journey. It's like positive symptoms are taking over my mind. I just can't explain.

After my cut, I felt relaxed again. I'm thinking that after three weeks, I start to experience little anxiousness in the body which makes me think that my body is ready for another cut. Every time, I have reduced so far, my body somehow feels better. So my theory is that after 3 to 4 weeks adjustment, my body start feeling like it's time to reduce again after experiencing mild anxiousness. That's my sign!

Let's hope. I continue progressing. In the name of Jesus Christ, we will all heal..

1 minute ago, Raymond said:

Let's hope. I continue progressing. In the name of Jesus Christ, we will all heal..

Amen!

Your progress is so inspirational for members on the recovery journey, @Raymond . Thank you for keeping us updated, and blessings on your continued recovery!

12 minutes ago, mstimc60 said:

Amen!

Your progress is so inspirational for members on the recovery journey, @Raymond . Thank you for keeping us updated, and blessings on your continued recovery!

Thanks and I hope things improve so others can see it....

06/11/2026- continue sleeping well and stable...19 months journey, last three months stable...

I continue feeling well with the minor and weaker symptoms on and off lasting no more than 1 hour so far.

The longest I have been stable. After my reduction two or three days ago, I have been sleeping better. I do feel mild dizzy once in a while, but mild and manageable. Like I said, it sometimes doesn't go beyond an hour or so.

I have being drinking decaf coffee after 19 months waiting for this symptom to come back.

I did loose few enjoyments, but it's part of the healing process, but other enjoyments came back as well, like collecting currency. I have always enjoyed this hobby, but I lost it during this journey. Now. It came in back again, but at the same time I lost reading enjoyment. I guess. It depends what part of the brain is healing that affects different activities...

Overall, my last three months now were the longest I have been feeling better and stable ..

Fear is a lit weaker, but still comes in and off and not every day......this is one that I hope it gine for good.....

13 hours ago, Raymond said:

06/11/2026- continue sleeping well and stable...19 months journey, last three months stable...

I continue feeling well with the minor and weaker symptoms on and off lasting no more than 1 hour so far.

The longest I have been stable. After my reduction two or three days ago, I have been sleeping better. I do feel mild dizzy once in a while, but mild and manageable. Like I said, it sometimes doesn't go beyond an hour or so.

I have being drinking decaf coffee after 19 months waiting for this symptom to come back.

I did loose few enjoyments, but it's part of the healing process, but other enjoyments came back as well, like collecting currency. I have always enjoyed this hobby, but I lost it during this journey. Now. It came in back again, but at the same time I lost reading enjoyment. I guess. It depends what part of the brain is healing that affects different activities...

Overall, my last three months now were the longest I have been feeling better and stable ..

Fear is a lit weaker, but still comes in and off and not every day......this is one that I hope it gine for good.....

So far so good. Getting ready to sleep...

@Raymond

Just couldn’t help it. I had to stop by and say congratulation. It is wonderful to get at least part of oneself back.

I recognize the mild and short symptoms you describe. And I too can deal with them and live my everyday life.

Onward we go and pray for the best.

🙏💕

9 hours ago, Haa said:

@Raymond

Just couldn’t help it. I had to stop by and say congratulation. It is wonderful to get at least part of oneself back.

I recognize the mild and short symptoms you describe. And I too can deal with them and live my everyday life.

Onward we go and pray for the best.

🙏💕

Even myself feels like I can't even believe I'm on this good window for two months now with minor and mild waves...

06/12/2026- stability continues...

Yesterday was another good/better day with same mild issues on an off, but feeling better my last two consecutive months and one week.

This morning, I woke up at 630am because I have to get ready to work. Otherwise, I might have continued sleeping....

I just can't believe that I'm finally on a longer stable condition after three drops.....

I really hope to continue improving. I can say that I might be at 90% feeling better after all this time...

06/13/2026- stability continues after three drops, two months and one week...

2 months and 1 week continues to be stable...

22 minutes ago, Raymond said:

06/13/2026- stability continues after three drops, two months and one week...

2 months and 1 week continues to be stable...

2 months Raymond, that's amazing! so happy that you finally in a stable place, waiting for that myself.

may the rest of the journey go as well!

2 hours ago, Raymond said:

06/13/2026- stability continues after three drops, two months and one week...

2 months and 1 week continues to be stable...

Hi @Raymond. Sorry I haven't read your whole sorry yet but I saw you did a reinstatement. I also want to do a reinstatement but I'm 13 months off Lexapro and wanted any advice on how you decided to reinstate at 5mg. Any tips or hope would be helpful for me now.

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4 hours ago, ExLexaBro said:

Hi @Raymond. Sorry I haven't read your whole sorry yet but I saw you did a reinstatement. I also want to do a reinstatement but I'm 13 months off Lexapro and wanted any advice on how you decided to reinstate at 5mg. Any tips or hope would be helpful for me now.

7 hours ago, Raymond said:

06/13/2026- stability continues after three drops, two months and one week...

2 months and 1 week continues to be stable...

6 hours ago, ExLexaBro said:

Hi @Raymond. Sorry I haven't read your whole sorry yet but I saw you did a reinstatement. I also want to do a reinstatement but I'm 13 months off Lexapro and wanted any advice on how you decided to reinstate at 5mg. Any tips or hope would be helpful for me now.

Sorry to hear that you are struggling. Since you are 13 months off medication, I will NOT reinstate at this point. It could get worst if you do and there is no warranty that you will do better. Reinstate is only useful if you have been off less than three months. It is recommended to reinstate the minimal. In my case, it was 5mg, but I was cold turkey only two weeks before I started having all these crazy symptoms. So, I reinstated and hold for 7 months before I reduce three times. Then. At month 10, I had old symptoms returned but not stronger as my beginning of journey, but bad enough for me to hold for another 6bmonths. I have done three small tiny reductions and being doing well.

So, my advice to you is to continue holding. Things will get better. 13 months is a lot but this journey is unpredictable and it can take a lot longer before you see a window.

Hang in there. It will get better...

06/14/2026- energy being better than any of my last 19 months...

Yesterday was another great stable day. I did notice my energy was a lot better than any of my 19 months. It was so good that I cleaned the floor at home with detail, mowed my lawn, changed oil in my car, and did few errands. All with enjoyment!

This morning, I slept totally great and woke up 645am. I feel like I want to stay in bed, but I have to do few morning errands. I used to love to wake up early morning. I feel tired, but I have to do many things, so I will get my coffee. I have been drinking coffee in the past week after holding all this time. Great to smell the coffee.

Stability continues......

5 hours ago, Raymond said:

06/14/2026- energy being better than any of my last 19 months...

Yesterday was another great stable day. I did notice my energy was a lot better than any of my 19 months. It was so good that I cleaned the floor at home with detail, mowed my lawn, changed oil in my car, and did few errands. All with enjoyment!

This morning, I slept totally great and woke up 645am. I feel like I want to stay in bed, but I have to do few morning errands. I used to love to wake up early morning. I feel tired, but I have to do many things, so I will get my coffee. I have been drinking coffee in the past week after holding all this time. Great to smell the coffee.

Stability continues......

Little anxious this morning, but manageable....let see how much it last....

06/15/2026- cortisol spike again, Brain and stomach crawling sensation, and feeling hot woke me up...

Yesterday was a good day but I did experienced anxiousness and intrusive thoughts for Short moments during the day on and off.

This morning, I woke up at 530am with the Brain and stomach crawling/anxiety sensation. It got better when as soon as I opened my eyes. I guess, it's all part of this back and forth healing process.

However, somehow. I feel my brain a lot better. I did a cut last week, so it's make sense that yesterday and today, my brain is adjusting to new dose. Let see if the adjustment is quicker...

Other than that, I will annotate my progress as the day passes by.

In the name of Jesus Christ, we will heal from this ...

06/16/2026- progress continues..

Yesterday was ok day because I experienced few symptoms. I had mild anxiety, and hot sensation during the morning. Then, it turned into mild left side headache for like an hour and as day passed by. It turned into anger sensation.... I haven't gotten this feeling in a long time. Pretty much, my brain felt mild pressure.

This morning, I woke up again at 530am, but little better than yesterday. Same usual symptoms.

I still feel anger sensation, which I have to be very careful in what I say and how I say it, and I definitely won't concentrate in the things that might bothers me ....

So I made it 9 consecutive weeks feeling great, but yesterday and probably today will not be the same. Good thing is that it's not an all day issue. It gets usually better after 9am. One step forward two step backwards.

19 months journey........let's continue in the name of Jesus Christ....we will all heal. Patience, Hope, acceptance, and a lot of faith and prayers....